Jedi75
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I don’t know really where to start other than that I know I have serious issues and always have. Being 5”6’ I’ve always suffered small man syndrome and been the brunt of many height jokes. I’ve developed coping mechanisms became and over achiever, trained really hard to develop a physic and took up martial arts and fought professionally but this was a cover for my many insecurities. I definitely have a love hate relationship with my penis.
At 37 years old and I married the first girl who took an interest in me and I have kids you’d think these insecurities would go, they don’t, they haunt you like the black dog in the shadows…. My self-esteem is crap and I hide it with a false confidence that sometimes manifests itself as anxiety. I found jelking many years ago and did little but stopped.
In May I made a decision I started with BPenis EnlargementL of 14cm (5.5”) and MG of 11cm (4.3”). I already had a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] that I bought as a sex toy and used it a few times. I’m a highly charged sexually but my wife’s lack of interest in sex makes me blame my poor excuse for a penis. I have to change this and my determination is of the charts. When I made my decision to change myself I bought a [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]Sizegenetics[/words] and couldn’t wait for it to arrive. I told my wife what I was doing and wanted her support. She thinks I’m crazy and told me that she has no complaints with my size. She doesn’t know any different and has no other comparisons but her lack of interest tells me otherwise.
I started my program mid May as follows:
Warm up and stretching and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] in the shower before work 10mins.
Work (job won’t allow for wearing a [words=http://www.phallosan.com/shop/catalog/default.php?z=eNortjIxtVKyL0pNszWxMFcrSSxKTy2JL0hMT7U1UisoykyxtbBQSy4tLsnPjS8uKcrMS7dVsgZcMMpbEbo%2C]ADS[/words])
Afternoon warm up stretches and [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]Sizegenetics[/words] for as long as possible but not when training in gym. Short breaks for recovery etc to restore blood during breaks with jelks.
Before bed shower again warm up stretches, jelking and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] for girth another 10mins.
First measurements in mid June were no change in length and MG measured 1cm gain up to 4.7”. I was happy with the girth gains and very disappointed in the lack of length gains. I have increased the bars in mid June and have the 2” on and have the tension around the first rung. I try to average 3-4hours everyday.
My goal would be 7” x 5.5”. It makes me depressed to see other Brothers on here starting where I want to finish…. <![Frown :( :(](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png)
At 37 years old and I married the first girl who took an interest in me and I have kids you’d think these insecurities would go, they don’t, they haunt you like the black dog in the shadows…. My self-esteem is crap and I hide it with a false confidence that sometimes manifests itself as anxiety. I found jelking many years ago and did little but stopped.
In May I made a decision I started with BPenis EnlargementL of 14cm (5.5”) and MG of 11cm (4.3”). I already had a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] that I bought as a sex toy and used it a few times. I’m a highly charged sexually but my wife’s lack of interest in sex makes me blame my poor excuse for a penis. I have to change this and my determination is of the charts. When I made my decision to change myself I bought a [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]Sizegenetics[/words] and couldn’t wait for it to arrive. I told my wife what I was doing and wanted her support. She thinks I’m crazy and told me that she has no complaints with my size. She doesn’t know any different and has no other comparisons but her lack of interest tells me otherwise.
I started my program mid May as follows:
Warm up and stretching and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] in the shower before work 10mins.
Work (job won’t allow for wearing a [words=http://www.phallosan.com/shop/catalog/default.php?z=eNortjIxtVKyL0pNszWxMFcrSSxKTy2JL0hMT7U1UisoykyxtbBQSy4tLsnPjS8uKcrMS7dVsgZcMMpbEbo%2C]ADS[/words])
Afternoon warm up stretches and [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]Sizegenetics[/words] for as long as possible but not when training in gym. Short breaks for recovery etc to restore blood during breaks with jelks.
Before bed shower again warm up stretches, jelking and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] for girth another 10mins.
First measurements in mid June were no change in length and MG measured 1cm gain up to 4.7”. I was happy with the girth gains and very disappointed in the lack of length gains. I have increased the bars in mid June and have the 2” on and have the tension around the first rung. I try to average 3-4hours everyday.
My goal would be 7” x 5.5”. It makes me depressed to see other Brothers on here starting where I want to finish…. <
![Frown :( :(](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png)