Hey guys, I'm Matt from Sydney Australia. I've been reading up in some spare time. I recently came out of a depression and started to turn my life around on many levels, I cut sugar, heavy carbs, milk, and ive been working on cutting out processed foods. I also stopped my SSRI that I was on for a year, and also quit smoking for life. I went from no physical exercise to a 5 mile jog a day. All of this has been happening over the past month. I was depressed and unwell before, and then I woke up one morning with erectile dysfuction, and the inability to get more than about 60% hard, usually I was falling in at 40%.
I have no idea what actually caused my ED, it could have been my first sexual encounter with a girl (at 31, sigh) resulting in her saying I had a small penis. I'm 6'6 and my penis is 5.5/6 when factoring in the fadpad. If I press a measuring tape or something into my pelvic bone I can just reach 7inch. So that's one possiblity as to what caused it, the other possiblity is that the smoking combined with the SSRI, combined with being overweight, just caused me to physically not be able to supply an erection. Or the other possiblity is adult entertainment addiction. I've been abstaining for 20 days now, my goal is 120.
Very recently, my flaccid penis went from being dead, tiny, cold to touch and white (scary as fuck) to always seeming warm and fuller. And my erections started getting 95%. (Not enough for the veins to bulge like with a tight
cockring, but enough to not be able to bend my penis while it's erect). Which has given me confidence, I'm not impotent, and that's a sigh of relief. I just have to keep losing
weight and never go back to smoking/SSRI's again in my life.
That said, I feel that being 6'6 foot with a 5.5inch visible cock while standing, 6'0 while laying, and 7inch when pressed again bone, with 5 girth - will just result in many girls thinking I have a tiny dick. I know it's above average, but girls just look and preportion to body size and don't really think beyond that. Perhaps I've let this one experience dictate what I think further experiences will be like, when in reality I should be comfortable with my cock. I see people talking on forums about having 3 or 4inchers. And here I am with a near 7 (if we forget that I have a fatpad). This remains true though, get a lean tiny guy with a 4incher and me with a 7incher, and we'll look about the same size if taken in seperate stand alone photos or even in real life to a girl with no spacial judging ability.
The reason I am even considering extending, is because I've done so many lifestyle changes that required so much pain to change recently, that I realized have an unusual amount of commitment towards my change around and things in general now (this was never true earlier in life). And while extending my penis won't be the key to happiness, it will provide me with the ability to be dominant in my own life and attitude. And that's really what I need right now as that extra push, as that extra support system. When I fall, at least i'll have a big dick to fall back on. And even on a tall guy like me, 8 inches is big nomatter how you slice it up.
Anyway, I would be incredibly happy with a 8incher. Obviously to make that happen, I'm going to have to lose my fatpad, I was not overweight as a child, but I have been overweight for about 4-5 years now. I think that means I may lose my fat pad with work, although it's pretty huge (about 2 inches?). I'm 119kg, I was 128kg three weeks ago, my ideal is 80-90, but to lose the actual fatpad, i'd have to become incredibly lean I imagine. And then I have just over an inch to gain on top of that.
I'd love a monster cock, but that feels unrealsitic. going from 5.5 visible, to 8visible, would be a huge victory. And the awesome thing is that it's only really 1 inch of penis growth. While I do these lengthening exercises, I'll be socializing with girls and dating, since I was never "with" girls in my life. I was homeschooled and alone for most of my years until now. I'm actually really good looking, I was always very down on myself however. Brain chemistry for you.
This life conversion is much bigger than just a couple of health changes and (maybe, if i'm very lucky) a bigger dick. It's about changing the entire way I exist in the world. Anyway, nice to meet you all. Thanks for hearing me out. That pretty much brings us up to date.