Wow, I spent ages trying to find this thread again... didn't realise it was now stickied!
Okay. So i've been gone for 2 weeks. I needed time to focus on me.
After reading the thoughts of others on cheating etc, I let people who don't know me get the better of my mind. It made me question a few things, some regarding P.E. and some regarding myself. I think on this site, the majority of us have had women issues. Why else would we be driven here? I had a girl say 'it's not exactly big, but it's not small'. That's all it took and here I am coming up to my 3rd year on this website. I'm sure others found this website after far worse experiences.
I just think that when asking for help on women issues, a lot of us seem to have built a front against women. I think a lot of people on this website are hurt and are using their penis to almost... cover up their hurt or to take their frustration out on. I.E. they get cheated on, they think 'if I get a big dick then I can get loads of chicks and that'll be that'. Obviously that's not how it is for all of us, but I know for some of us on here that is the case. So I stepped back and looked at myself and asked myself why I have spent 3 years on this site. My penis is plenty for any woman, so why am I still here? I had to persuade the girl I want to let me P.E. again as she told me I was big enough as it was.
She kissed another guy. Not because my dick wasn't big enough as it was plenty. She kissed him because I couldn't be there when she needed someone. It's not my fault I wasn't there as it was impossible for me to be there. It's not her fault as there's times when you just need someone to make you feel like someones there for you. I kissed a girl since and that was all it was. I didn't kiss her because she had bigger boobs than my girl. I kissed her because I needed someone there. It's not her fault she wasn't there, I just felt like I needed someone there. I think people on this website are taking people to be more shallow than they actually are. This mindset started to rub off on me too, and it was doing more harm than good. Of course there are some shallow people out there, but I think I'm wise enough and a good enough judge of character to be able to spot the majority of them, rather than treating them all as shallow. You can agree with me entirely or laugh at every word I say, this is just my opinion.
I'm not doing P.E. for any reason involving women. I'm not really hurt either. My girl kissed a guy, she didn't have sex with him 'as my penis was smaller than his'. Nor am I hurt because the girl that said I 'wasn't exactly big' said that to me, that was years ago! Since then I've had 'Babe, your dick is massive', 'Wow, you're big', 'Fuck, you're so big', 'Oh my god you're so deep'. Women are satisfied with my penis. Yet i'm not satisfied for some reason. I'm not hurt, i'm not covering up any pain or using all my frustration to fuel my fire for Penis Enlargement.
I can't actually tell you why I'm here. I have absolutely no idea why I am on this website. It could possibly be all the adult entertainment that I've watched over the years and the illusions of these hot chicks going crazy for these big dicks, but that's all an illusion, and I know that.
It can't be to make myself more attractive, as my penis is something a girl would see last, so that can't be it. If I wanted to make myself more attractive I'd be hitting the gym (which I do plan on getting serious about).
So i've decided to get my 8.5x6 and then finish up here. It'll be hard work to get there and it won't be easy, but for some reason I set that goal, and I don't like seeing goals that aren't reached. It might not make sense for me to continue something I can't see much point in, but I can't come up with a good enough argument to stop without reaching my goal.
I've done zero P.E. since I took that break. However, I wrapped today and plan to try out the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]
Bathmate[/words] tomorrow morning. My injury regarding that small vein is still lingering around but I think it's passing now. It's no longer feeling like a wire and it's gotten thinner than it was. I'll go easy on the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]
Bathmate[/words] tomorrow and see how it looks afterwards. If it's not worsened after the session I'll bring it back into my daily routine along with stretching and wrapping (basically [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]
SRT[/words]).
I still plan on buying the [words=http://TLCTugger.com/MOS]VLC[/words] [words=http://TLCTugger.com/MOS]Tugger[/words] in January to help me finish my goal, but I doubt I'll but the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]
Bathmate[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words]. Depending on my housing at college, I'll buy a LenthMaster. So that's my plan for the rest of my P.E. career and I plan to be completely finished by this time next year. Maybe even by summer next year, depending on my room at college. If i get an individual room, expect P.E. records to be broken.