Okay. I'm so excited for Monday. It's going to be a big day.
Firstly, i'm not sick anymore. I've had colds and chest infections in the past 3 or 4 weeks, and today is the first day that i've had both nostrils clear and a clear chest. I've had zero energy to make it to the gym since I got sick but now i'm ready to get back in there for good. Secondly, my [words=http://fleshlight.sjv.io/c/348327/302851/4702]FleshLights[/words] are arriving on Monday.
I've always found sticking to the gym quite difficult, unlike P.E. but now i'm settled in at college (it took a while as America is very different to the UK), i'm ready to focus on a set gym schedule. The plan I posted a few posts up will come into play from Monday. I did do it before I got sick but only for like 2 days, but I know it's a fantastic, manageable routine just from those two days.
I really feel that if I'm not brought down by sickness again, I can go to the gym 5 times a week, every week until I go back home at the end of May. Sure, just shy of 3 months isn't going to do a huge amount, but it'll set me up perfectly for when I go home over summer. Waking up at 6am every day and focussing on the my nutrition will get me into the swing of things which is something I didn't quite sort out in previous gym spells.
I think in a sense America has changed the way I view myself. Back home, the majority of 19 year olds are fairly slim and don't pack too much muscle. Here, muscle is much more of a focus. I've noticed that girls seek muscle here. Back home, girls my age wouldn't really go looking for muscle-bound guys. Back home I did fine by dressing well, grooming well and using my talk. Here, that's not always the case. I see so many hot girls on campus walking around with jacked up guys who look like they got dressed in the dark, and when I speak to the guys at parties, they've got very little to say that's interesting. But they get the hottest girls? I'm kinda lucky in the fact that my accent does get me attention and that it separates me from the rest, but I feel to really come across as attractive to the majority of girls here, I need to pack on some muscle. So that's my aim.
On a completely different note, I keep having this reoccurring thought of trying my hand at adult entertainment in a few years time. I think i'll go to the AVN awards next year and see what I make of it all. I just think i'm... i dunno. I'm very open in terms of sex and I'm very interested in sex. I went in a sex store last weekend to buy some anal toys for this girl I'm seeing (she prefers to be fucked in the ass, which is perfect for me) and I was in full flowing conversation with the store owners about the [words=http://fleshlight.sjv.io/c/348327/302851/4702]FleshLights[/words] and vibrators etc etc, and I just felt very comfortable. Whenever I do something new, or dirty in bed, I love it. Whether it's giving a facial, whether it's anal sex, if its new, or filthy, it's fun. I just think maybe adult entertainment might let me cure my curiosity. Just thought i'd express that here. Oh and i'm gonna be using this site a lot more to make sure I keep on track. This journal really helps. When I started this journal, with the Total Package Routine, I kept on top of myself and gained 0.3 inches in length in a month, over 2 years after I started P.E.
Firstly, i'm not sick anymore. I've had colds and chest infections in the past 3 or 4 weeks, and today is the first day that i've had both nostrils clear and a clear chest. I've had zero energy to make it to the gym since I got sick but now i'm ready to get back in there for good. Secondly, my [words=http://fleshlight.sjv.io/c/348327/302851/4702]FleshLights[/words] are arriving on Monday.
I've always found sticking to the gym quite difficult, unlike P.E. but now i'm settled in at college (it took a while as America is very different to the UK), i'm ready to focus on a set gym schedule. The plan I posted a few posts up will come into play from Monday. I did do it before I got sick but only for like 2 days, but I know it's a fantastic, manageable routine just from those two days.
I really feel that if I'm not brought down by sickness again, I can go to the gym 5 times a week, every week until I go back home at the end of May. Sure, just shy of 3 months isn't going to do a huge amount, but it'll set me up perfectly for when I go home over summer. Waking up at 6am every day and focussing on the my nutrition will get me into the swing of things which is something I didn't quite sort out in previous gym spells.
I think in a sense America has changed the way I view myself. Back home, the majority of 19 year olds are fairly slim and don't pack too much muscle. Here, muscle is much more of a focus. I've noticed that girls seek muscle here. Back home, girls my age wouldn't really go looking for muscle-bound guys. Back home I did fine by dressing well, grooming well and using my talk. Here, that's not always the case. I see so many hot girls on campus walking around with jacked up guys who look like they got dressed in the dark, and when I speak to the guys at parties, they've got very little to say that's interesting. But they get the hottest girls? I'm kinda lucky in the fact that my accent does get me attention and that it separates me from the rest, but I feel to really come across as attractive to the majority of girls here, I need to pack on some muscle. So that's my aim.
On a completely different note, I keep having this reoccurring thought of trying my hand at adult entertainment in a few years time. I think i'll go to the AVN awards next year and see what I make of it all. I just think i'm... i dunno. I'm very open in terms of sex and I'm very interested in sex. I went in a sex store last weekend to buy some anal toys for this girl I'm seeing (she prefers to be fucked in the ass, which is perfect for me) and I was in full flowing conversation with the store owners about the [words=http://fleshlight.sjv.io/c/348327/302851/4702]FleshLights[/words] and vibrators etc etc, and I just felt very comfortable. Whenever I do something new, or dirty in bed, I love it. Whether it's giving a facial, whether it's anal sex, if its new, or filthy, it's fun. I just think maybe adult entertainment might let me cure my curiosity. Just thought i'd express that here. Oh and i'm gonna be using this site a lot more to make sure I keep on track. This journal really helps. When I started this journal, with the Total Package Routine, I kept on top of myself and gained 0.3 inches in length in a month, over 2 years after I started P.E.
