I understand completely of wanting to put off your goals until you reach another goal. But that's an act of procrastination. You will find some pretty unattractive/fat/dorky/etc guys with girls all the time if you look. Don't let anything get in your way, especially if its fear based. I know this is easier said than done and I'm far from perfect with it, but learn to tear down your road blocks and keep on cruizin'. CBT helped with my social anxiety, it might work for you too.
06/15/15: Mon
2 x 45 min
Hanging SO @ 8.75 lbs
1 x 10 min Clamped Edging with 2-3 min wet jelq
Comments: Finally set up my SO pulley setup under my desk. It was a bitch screwing in that eye hook but I finally got it. Was planning on 3 sets today but allot of things came up. I did a few half minute sets side and top and bottom fulcrums using my thumb along the shaft. I got some pretty good fatigue in today. I added in some wet jelqs to the clamp. The intensity felt the same as with dry jelqing but wet! I liked it and got pretty good expansion before continuing to edge for the remainder of the set. I recently relasped on cigarrettes last week, I quit again tonight. Made a vow with myself never to touch the filthy things.