I wear tight stuff, cause I hav to. If I wear boxers, they are too soft. Whatever that does, makes me feel absolutely nothing.,and it is super small along with it. It will put me in full panic attacks in a few hours. Every pair of pants feels different. I have certain ones I won’t even put on. I can’t sleep naked anymore. There’s nothing there to feel. It’s red ,like nerve damage red. Texture doesn’t even look the same. Early on, if I could get things to relax and hang like normal, it kinda seemed ok. But that doesn’t seem to happen anymore. Crapping is regular mostly. It hurts before I have to go. But I don’t have too much problem going. But after I’m done, it still feels like something is in there . Still stings in my left rectum when I kegel off and on. More so when I’m sitting. I have a lot of urinary weirdness. Bladder seems tight. Pee seems more yellow to me than ever before at times. Usually can’t evenfeeel I’m going . Nor can I finish with a kegel as I always have. I have to dry it off with my shirt, if I’m sitting down and pee, it runs everywhere when I stand up. Had mri’s. Multiple blood works/ urine scans several times.
I have cialis which I almost never take anymore. It’s too weird. It does work ,but not a lot, when it does, it’s within the first hour. And I’ll swell up like I should be. Even to full erection without wanting it. But then, it’s the other way again. And completely dead and gone rest of the day. loose clothes .etc doesn’t help bloodflow. It just makes whats so small already rub more and irritate. In fact, if I’m artificially inflated with cialis, my glans is so unnaturally red colored. Has done this for couple years now since this happened.
Oh, and the best part. About a year ago when the peeing crap got worse, I think that was about the time my left foot starting being numb.along with my shin,. That’s pretty consistent. Either a burn, or numb. Gets cold as crap too. Especially if it’s 20 degrees outside. Right foot. Nothing. But my left will feel cold as ice. Driving in a car I get it a lot . Sometimes my left hand gets in on the action too. I’m not sure that’s not just anxiety from this though.