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The world is full of anger- the love is of it's hate. Learning to balance this emotional rollercoaster: a smorgasbord of feelings; dipped and flipped: a cocktail for disaster, there is but ONE hope: ONE heart: ONE love: MOS Here is a fav thread of mine that keeps me pumped up
My [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] will arrive here in a couple days and thus begins my journey to outgrow that monster as with my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] model

219 (11/1/10)

1 tsp L-Citrulline

15 min [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] (hardcore stretches untimed)
random edging throughout the day
kegals all day

What I Ate: 1 cheese quesadilla, 3 slices pizza, 2 tuna sandwiches on wheat bread, couple pieces candy, soda, V8, water

220 (11/2/10)

1 tsp L-Citrulline
excessively over did the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] I was having such a rough afternoon. I had much fluid build up after the session and still have some 5+ hours later. Had great flaccid hang all night at work and even wore sweat pants the first time on the job and was feeling sexy and hot. approx 30 min+ [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words]

Kegals all day

What I Ate: 1 tuna sandwich, 1 hamburger, water, 1 quesadilla I made w/cheese and 1 slice bologna

221 (11/3/10)

wow had a serious day of kegals and when I got home it was the episode of my huge cock versus planet earth! fuck

Added an extra 20 mins give or take some with [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words]- ooooooo000o- my life is never going to be the same- GEEZZZZZ thanks a million GUY'O-s

What I Ate: 3 slices pizza, like 10 pieces of fuckin candy, chicken, beans, potato, water, V8
 
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I just spent a good 30+ min with my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] kegalling and stretching like a mothafucka. I had horrible blue balls so I had to masturbate and then pump. I was so stressed tonight I had to endure the pain to get that fat dick like I did yesterday. I feel bad for you vets that you didn't have the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] in your early days like we do now. I have probably quadrupled my girth rate and length and when I got outta the bath just right now I have never seen my thick ass cock head as I did tonight. It is easily massive and I can't wait to slap a bitch with it. I walked out of my bathroom where the haters reside and I started humming "it's 6, right now la la la" then when I looked at the time it WAS 6. 6:23 to be exact so I just bursted out in song. It's 6:23 right now now yeah 6:23 yeah right now" o0o0o those haters loved hating that humph!
Peace
 
Ay man... Take-it-EASY, Ok
:)
222 (11/4/10)

Pretty great workout yesterday. I started in the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] flaccid and was so arroused yesterday when I took it off I was almost totally erect

Later I did some 10 min hanging with 10lbs
break
15 min hanging BTC/SD at 7.5 lbs and a couple minutes only 5 lbs
10 min manual stretches- mandingo, hook stretches, [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]power assist[/words], DLD Blasters
kegals like a jedi

have been ejaculating everyday anytime I try and jelk or edge etc I cum, it's impossible.

Would have pumped again and had great results but the damn thing is too small and will do more damage than positive so I skipped it. I hope she arrives today

What I Ate: 4 slices pizza, 3 bread sticks, water, 1 pop tart, 2 bowls cereal (cookie crisp)

223 (11/5/10)

1 tsp L-Citrulline
20+min [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words]
10min hanging 5lbs S/D
10min manual stretching
jedi kegalling
masturbated 4 times today

Note: I go out every single day and walk no less than 30min and just have kept not remembering to add it.

What I Ate: 2 eggs, potato, 2 wheat toasts, 1 tamale, 1 cheesy homemade quesadilla, 1 bowl of cheerio, water

224 (11-6-10)

Yehahah

1 tsp L-Citrulline

Hmmm the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] ckk it's like this.... I fit the problem is my body is shaped like Mike Wazowski and even when I get under water and legs spread I can't get tit to suction as tight as with the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words]. So what I had to do was use it at a light pump for a min. It was comfy and pailess and I think my brain had an orgasm. The I switched to the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] for a good min and that just sucks. So I went back in Mista Golaith with testi's inserted, butttt ah uh they would not let me get all the way pumped with my awkward position in the extra large tub I was available to pump in tonight:P aprox. 20 min total pump
jedi kegals
a min and 2 of piss stretches

What I Ate: 2 eggs, potato, 2 tortillas, 5 slice s toasted wheatn breads, V8 water, 2 candy piece
Time change tonight
 
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X-40 Hydro [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] Water Pump Dothe Arrival

I've gotta say first..... I thought it would be bigger... sike. When I couldn't tell where my stomach ended and the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] begun I knew we were onto something. They should prepare an upgraded size just in case though. Possibly one where we could get our feet inside through a hole on the right and left and then closes from behind.

The pump was not my best; definitely in the top 2 though. I attribute that to masturbating 2 times this morning and the past week exactly. So the pump time is shorter this time than I have had planned. My balls are large. I tried pumping them with the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] but it felt so tight I dont think it will be practical for me but as time progresses I will see. After I was done I saw that I am back in the game and I am so glad I can work my whole routine again and save my money for other things now. I spent unknown time in there it felt like 30 mins could have been less. I also got the measuring gauge and the strap so that is also cool. In the end it was a good pump I'm excited to be on the road to Massive !
 
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Tonight I got to feel how BIB talked about in his story, SWM "The Original Imposter", shared with MOS a couple years ago. The other night I wore sweat pants, and tonight I had on a huge boombox silver bealt buckle and I've lost all the weight to hold a smile:) and every single solitary damn feline in there was turning bright red in the cheeks:blush:

One chicka even got down on her knees in front of me, told me "this is where I was shopping, before, I asked you were the restroom was"- which wasn't because when she asked me for the directions she was on the complete opposite of the store where we met- right in front of the bathroomz... [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Hydromax[/words]... odd. Well another good evening. I had tons of fun- the fat black chicks are my fav lol they so down with the herbal revolution. My flaccid hang is the king ! When I told the lady I would try and help her find anything she needed I think she had a pussy fart because she walked away and looked shy but then hung around the shop for another say Idk fukn2 hrs geez until we were closed practically. And not to mention 3 or 4 other ladiezzzzz
 
k well listen this may sound weird to anyone sheesh here we go. I got some photo's done here tonight and I found a new use for the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words], and so I grab the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] and then my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] and then each one is placed on the chest and that produces breast enlargement which I ruled out; instead of trying to get rid of them I am going to just make them the way they have been trying to be my whole life. My stomach goes down and my chest comes up :blush:
The pic was a couple hours after the pump will start pumping this regularly as my routine.

I had a lazy ass stretch placed comfortably the new shots with ruler's and comparison COMING SOON

It's a work in progress
:s
:)
 
doublelongdaddy;404758 said:
Who is that in this picture
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With a little makeup and a titjob....
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Ouch man. I have never had feelings like this. What's wrong with me I'm crazy for someone that is impossible to have. I WISH it was not True. YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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Spent 1.30 hr in the bathtub switching back and forth with my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words]. I was pumping my chest and they were really red and puffy I think it may work. I placed the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] over the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] on my dick and that helped me concentrate on getting some intense kegals done. At the end my pump lasted all day with fuller flaccid hang. I'm really happy the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] is here finally.

What I Ate: 5 boiled chicken thighs, water

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DAMN that Vortex IS HEAVY

Now I know why people fall off of roof tops

I wish there was another way to do this but there is not:)

You can almost see some beauty for some reason I felt I always look sad in these old pics, I wanted to show how far I can stretch from behind in the 3rd picture down was from when I first hit 8" BPFLS. All these were before I have lost weight, they date back to 2008 and then earlier this year. I will get a new pic up with my pumping results. I'm thinking it would just be best if I got REAL breast pumps in the near future (not for milking)

I am holding onto everything Holy not to post these picks and for GodFucking sake I cant stand worse not do than doing so.

I will be editing as I feel- I have many more pixx these are a really really rough draft. I realised none of my pics emphasize my stomach so I'll be changing it up
 
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w t f

same usual business
2 separate pumping sessions
My own MOM just tried running over me with her car. Hope she liked the pics

lol

I hate you guy's seriously:)

What I Ate: sushi, shrimp, potato, egg, bananas, chips, strawberry cough kush, yo mama
 
229
1 tsp L-Citrulline
Again just kept up with the pumping. I will get more descriptive in the days to come. A lot has been going on for me in this week.

What I Ate: cereal, some candy, chips, shrimp and sushi, banana juice, soda, water

230
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It is crazy, I just got off on my roof and had the most fun. I'm going to call that a roof jerk. Just before that I got out of the bathroom with both pumps X untimed, now I can order the weed and the L-Arginine. I wanted to post a video to show a demonstration for doing a hook stretch set, I can take 15 sec movies with that digital camera, but my mom misplaced my camera until further notice. My heating pad and one of my toyas is still up on my roof:blush:

What I Ate: In Progress

231 (11/12/10)

Got my own videos on youtube about time. I would go on that show Tosh.0 http://www.youtube.com/user/boomstomper?feature=mhum
 
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This one was from about a little over 6 months ago now, I've lost something like 15lbs from then. This would be how I am starting out. Since I've been pumping all I see different is some bruising I feel the difference though. This pic was taken on a really bad day I was having actually. If I could get that 6 pack and that 8+ inches still I will be in some expensive pixx. :P
 
Turnover;404385 said:
X-40 Hydro [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] Water Pump Dothe Arrival

I've gotta say first..... I thought it would be bigger... sike. When I couldn't tell where my stomach ended and the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] begun I knew we were onto something. They should prepare an upgraded size just in case though. Possibly one where we could get our feet inside through a hole on the right and left and then closes from behind.
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lol, so fucking true
 
ahahahah I am a freak of nature:)

First thing I am going to fix is my waist.

Other modification's will include my penis, breasts, hair removal, tanning, preparation for I dont know what- I guess the final greatest party of all time or something. There is only so much you can do with words. I have begun this exercising specifically targeted at my waist because I want to keep the fat in all the other places of my body. I'm drinking an herbal dieting tea

I never stop pumping. The only thing I can think is I gotta prove that where I am is where the moneyz at bc it is. This journal is helpful but I cant even care about it for the first time all year. Right now I'm going to keep doing what I always have been and if it's as good as it looks then I havent stopped heading in the right direction all along.
 
 
What a week, I am crazy right? You would be so proud of me though because I kick ass. One morning I even woke up at 5am and jogged an hour IN THE RAIN! Ooo buddy that's one bad mother.... Last night I woke up at 2am and pumped an hour+. I purchased some pills today which are specifically designed strictly to reduce belly fat **HURRAY** so I hope it was money well spent having a flat tummy would change my life no matter who gets me or not. My diet has been terrific; all organic and whole wheat blends.

I've been keeping busy and covering tons of ground. I'm not sure what is going on, how this all came about, how I can make it stop. I do know that [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] is here and it is the coolest to be part of this affiliation so accepting and supportive. When you start to believe in yourself is when the world really begins rotating around you.

My exercising has taken its first stand still since the first run of my routine in March. It makes me too sad. Pumping is still rolling. [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] can sure pack on some pressure. I switch between the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words] and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]X-40[/words], generally 1 hour, depending on the amount of suction and pain I'm getting. When I order the Titans is when I'll try and really hammer out some girth work and take the pics, it's just stretching that I cant think about ATM. Pumping my chest might not be the best idea obtaining ultimate results. Light stretch marks are appearing nearby I've never had so obviously I dont want that. I will settle on an alternative natural method until I decide on the implants size, that will be a great deal of fun. ;).
 
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Everything is going well, just got out of my first work day dressed down fem and I think I passed. Even the women treat me like a chick lol craziness. The only thing is I hate getting hit on by all the average joes<:(. I got erect at one point and the pants I'm wearing are skin tight/stretchy and the panties I'm wearing, well they dont "hide" anything. The boner was not easy to keep out of site and I would not mind walking around with it showing but I couldn't help pulling my shirt down to not accidentally give any old ladies a heart attack ?:(

I can tell all the pumping is really effecting my shaft- the outer skin, size, shape. The only stretching I can think about is Hardcore [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] stretching. Pump 1 hour approx a day everyday and take the 1 tsp L-Arg. The diet pills are working it is most likely a combination of all the other work I'm putting into it. A l most t h ere just need some fenugreek:cool: o yeah and I never mentioned the lip injections haha well see where this is going, if I am going to do movies then I will.

I understand this very moment that you will not have me. Even though I wanted there to be, you will truly never know how bad, that. Wtf did I have everything I could have ever wanted, I could never stop smiling, and now I can never stop crying! This fucking life you can't win.
 
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They're trying to force me Out. When your really angry at somebody I guarantee it is your average stupid person. :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Here's what happen this morning: I had thrown out all my girl outfits as of September in fear of not having a home. I tried, but to no avail, I am what I always would seek. It was 2 separate worlds, and I said back then I chose [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words], well now it is just one. So all the blur of my past trys to haunt me, I was looking for some regular, plain, full covered panties. Since they've been mostly thrown out- I found an old ruffled skirt that passed the knee. I had to add that to something that matched a plain polka dot black sweater. My mom wanted to take us to Denny's this morning and I wasn't going to wear that but I had to see her in my outfit "what the fuck I am still just me" Ok that is the worst problem.

She flipped out man. Freaked. I am still really upset. This happens about twice a week, and the usual day is just a fresh dose of getting screamed at if I'm anywhere in near distance.

Ok that brings me to here, an old friend gave me the advice if your mom is not cool with it DONT DO IT. Have a place to Live

True- how about the place I am going to next I WANT to just be as normal as I feel. It is the worst confusion because I am accepted by literally everyone I have always been gifted with being passable- sorry mom.

How do I separate something that finally became ONE............
 
You just made all my problems seem extremely trivial. Obviously you have probably tried talking to her. I pray for you friend. I wish there was magic advice I could give you, but I think this is something you have to ultimately figure out on your own.

Be with the people who support you as much as possible. We are all here for you.
 
4 sum reason. Idk what it is still

when you are heart broken further than words could tell. some reason it says it will be ok. thats all i know that its telling me. its ok. its ok

but i want to go now. but i have to wait bc it told me its ok.

i swear though if u make me a fool. it will not be on my conscious. i have enough forgiveness for anyone. and i also cant begin loving u any less
 
n just in case i dont know whats happening: my update

i lost all teh weight. i recieved a box worth of breast supplement supplies. i have money. i look so good women are so jealous i am being thrown on to the street, regardless of what anyone could say at this point. just bc im so gorgeous and i have to work harder to fulfill my quest, as much as this hurts right now, it told me it is going to feel that good/contrast forever
 
Ok im on my way back to Venice so i Have no clue how i will check my email asap but a day wont go by i dont think of you. Pray for me
 
You guys are never going to believe what I am going to tell you.

Besides the fact my mom loves Bush jr

*chills*

and besides the fact I just put it together Bush sat in a classroom reading to children on September 11, 2001, to fund a war, etc.

Last night I found my friends who practically all seam to be dying, not to mention I left my medication at my moms. I got paid, yessss, my mom said to come back home and I said NO. I am understanding better. And at the same time cant understand. Well I just got my meds and last night I watched Fahrenheit 911. The only problem I dont have unlimited online access 24/7. There is a Library about 2 blocks away.

One of my friends is around here. Hes completely nuts (no exaggeration) he knows Madonna And I Believe him because he proved that shit to me man. I started a new notebook and there is nothing worse than starting from the middle of the notebook and losing your notes every time!

I thought God was taking me away from you but I dont think God gives much of a shit about anything. There is nothing more stressful than getting kicked out by people that hate you and come back to not be able to pick up all your groceries bc they stole it from you.

Ok so the people I live with check it out: Both their names are Ian. My friend (Ian) his wife/or girlfirend's name is Bina and they both has 4 missing teeth in front like he does. His dog is the name of my anti depressant called Sam-e. There are 5 dogs. 2 cats. Its on Venice boardwalk and its the nicest place I ever lived. Zak Galafankis lives 2 doors down. WTF
 
lol my moms roomate from africa just asked me the difference between a rooster and a cock and what it sounded like: and he really was really serious
 
Turnover;411643 said:
Well, this was worth$20 o k
shouldn't have eaten those weed brownies
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Hate the weed brownies, I eat one and I fall asleep.:(
 
i guess thats it today.
i dont tell you how glamorous this is not. it is not. i get it i get it. When Bush was reading the book to children it was God telling the world I am going to teach you a lesson. Can you believe I never knew it? it was a lot in a couple days. yeah and then the weed brownies they are just weed so......all i think about is finding a better room to rent and buying the webcam and my laptop.
 
I want GOD to call, but I have no more phone so GOD please send me a message<--HERE:
at 578 Venice blvd. Los Angeles 12pm Sun
 
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