The estrogen has already taken noticeably strong effect on my penis. Masturbation is pretty much semi soft so I can see it is like anti-penis enlargement substance. I think its going to be a fun challenge. I was reading this guys thread here (koooky), he gave me an awesome idea. I already mentioned how I have missed documenting my exercises and I have not stopped jounaling since I begin Penis Enlargement nor do I plan to quit any time soon. My new idea is to keep logging with this kind of [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] workout as the foundation. Well I haven't got all the equipment yet, I'm going to pick up some golf gloves it sounds constructive, my idea is to record a short video of my workout every couple weeks/months that way I can document my progress effectively. What gave me this idea is I thought how it would have been so cool to open this progress thread and see some video footage of his routine. Since it was not there my plan is to make my own. I will also try wearing my [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] after the workouts as had done to maintain my post workout stretch. It will take me a couple weeks to get this going. Probably less time to begin the actual records of exercise but more time to make the video, but now come to think of it I pretty much have had access to photos/video cameras whenever I needed it, sometimes it is just so much more work and less convenient to get those images taken from an outside source. Besides any girth exercises or photos/videos are out of the question off of my own equipment. This is a project that will help keep me focused on what I want and motivated in actively accomplishing my penis enlargement goals. I would estimate my start date for the recorded workout will begin Saturday 4/9/11
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4/11/11
Day 1- [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] routine
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
R-Mandingo 1 min
R 15 Rotary Cranks
L-Mandingo 1 min
L 15 Rotary Cranks
Straight Down 30sec
R-Mandingo 1 min
Straight Down 30 sec
Kegel several minutes
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40, Rx40
P.A. A-stretch 1 min
2 Handed A stretch 1 min
P.A. Base Twist stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
R 15 Rotary Cranks
Body Rock stretch approx 2 min
Bow and Arrow stretch max intensity approx 1 min each direction
Mandingo approx 1 min
Bundled A-stretch approx 5 reps
Kegels
Very sore after session but nothing unusual. I was thinking I lost some BPFSL measurment but it looked to all be there, the hormones feel to have impacted my erections I haven't remeasured what is important to me is keeping up with maintenance. Only masturbating once a day sometimes twice. A good session for a stretch routine after some time off although I have never stopped stretching on a daily basis. It was not so easy in my restroom I'm going to do fine I will probably just keep the routine shorter than I prefer and may also skip a day in here now and then when I would be more serious on a 7 day work out otherwise. When I can I will. In the morning I do my girth routine as I have always currently it is about 20 min in the shower with the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] and I hardcore stretch as well as Kegel.
I also ate a whole bunch of fucking ice cream a couple days ago....for a couple days, luckily I have been walking often daily so it should not really effect me in the worst possible way.
Day 1- [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] routine
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
R-Mandingo 1 min
R 15 Rotary Cranks
L-Mandingo 1 min
L 15 Rotary Cranks
Straight Down 30sec
R-Mandingo 1 min
Straight Down 30 sec
Kegel several minutes
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40, Rx40
P.A. A-stretch 1 min
2 Handed A stretch 1 min
P.A. Base Twist stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
R 15 Rotary Cranks
Body Rock stretch approx 2 min
Bow and Arrow stretch max intensity approx 1 min each direction
Mandingo approx 1 min
Bundled A-stretch approx 5 reps
Kegels
Very sore after session but nothing unusual. I was thinking I lost some BPFSL measurment but it looked to all be there, the hormones feel to have impacted my erections I haven't remeasured what is important to me is keeping up with maintenance. Only masturbating once a day sometimes twice. A good session for a stretch routine after some time off although I have never stopped stretching on a daily basis. It was not so easy in my restroom I'm going to do fine I will probably just keep the routine shorter than I prefer and may also skip a day in here now and then when I would be more serious on a 7 day work out otherwise. When I can I will. In the morning I do my girth routine as I have always currently it is about 20 min in the shower with the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] and I hardcore stretch as well as Kegel.
I also ate a whole bunch of fucking ice cream a couple days ago....for a couple days, luckily I have been walking often daily so it should not really effect me in the worst possible way.
I am recording some thoughts this morning. I bought stretchy pants with jeans printed on them lol damn I love these pants I feel butt ass naked! I already heard some indecent comments....I was like oh I get it bums have tourettes!! Because I mean like there are way uglier girls that nobody notices but I have such small boobies
- (in comparison to the rest of my body) Anyways I keep smiling anyways because I feel so good wearing this I can see my boobs are bigger than when I started, in comparison to what I started with they are way bigger, they have some bounce to them, and my hair has a little length finally. The thing is with stretchy pants is cootchie. I saw an elderly woman walking past me and her eyes were dead center on my cootch. lol I am thinking if transsexuals were more common it would be normal- what is fucked up is I don't feel not normal. Like I feel really comfortable and good and like I have been missing out for years and years although I know if I had started at a younger age I would have gotten into some devastating trouble like what happens to a lot of girls.
Well the outfit feels good and people with tourettes are like "Aghhh, what the..!" I looked at this fat black guy with ugly long hair smoking a cigarette who was going like"omfg bla bla bla" and I'm like good luck with all that....I wish they would mind their own business I mean I can't hold a diagnosis against them, but I wish I could pay for real long hair and real big boobs it would be so much easier. I have worn fake hair and breasts before and when I did I never had any trouble I mean I got clocked like once after a couple months I remember. I hate wearing that stuff it doesnt feel like myself. I'm not going to let other people who lay around doing nothing all day effect my life when they want to shout at me some disrespectful bullshit what they need to do is take a good long look in the mirror. Even then what business do they have opening their fucking mouth? I will never make sense of it because I'm so clean and I'm only clockable because of things I cannot do anything about at the current time. Why is it dirty people are telling me shit?!?
I haven't gotten back with the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] it feels like my penis is hybernating I never would have known the hormones would have such a major effect in one shot! If I was not so confident I would be struggling psycologically. My tucking is perfect and all I can see is my fat pad is somewhat of a buldge but I pumped in the morning and mastrubated and it is tightly held back and my testicles are not causing any issue. I sent my friend a message to borrow the money for a computer until I can start a new job and I know he will be cool with it so I'm expecting to get it this week, my mom also said I could do some things around the house for her for some cash and I'm thinking I will try and get $60 for my 1st laser treatment on my face- that will help enormously with people clocking me since I don't wear makeup. And finally.....
But there hasn't been enough blood....
- (in comparison to the rest of my body) Anyways I keep smiling anyways because I feel so good wearing this I can see my boobs are bigger than when I started, in comparison to what I started with they are way bigger, they have some bounce to them, and my hair has a little length finally. The thing is with stretchy pants is cootchie. I saw an elderly woman walking past me and her eyes were dead center on my cootch. lol I am thinking if transsexuals were more common it would be normal- what is fucked up is I don't feel not normal. Like I feel really comfortable and good and like I have been missing out for years and years although I know if I had started at a younger age I would have gotten into some devastating trouble like what happens to a lot of girls. Well the outfit feels good and people with tourettes are like "Aghhh, what the..!" I looked at this fat black guy with ugly long hair smoking a cigarette who was going like"omfg bla bla bla" and I'm like good luck with all that....I wish they would mind their own business I mean I can't hold a diagnosis against them, but I wish I could pay for real long hair and real big boobs it would be so much easier. I have worn fake hair and breasts before and when I did I never had any trouble I mean I got clocked like once after a couple months I remember. I hate wearing that stuff it doesnt feel like myself. I'm not going to let other people who lay around doing nothing all day effect my life when they want to shout at me some disrespectful bullshit what they need to do is take a good long look in the mirror. Even then what business do they have opening their fucking mouth? I will never make sense of it because I'm so clean and I'm only clockable because of things I cannot do anything about at the current time. Why is it dirty people are telling me shit?!?
I haven't gotten back with the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] it feels like my penis is hybernating I never would have known the hormones would have such a major effect in one shot! If I was not so confident I would be struggling psycologically. My tucking is perfect and all I can see is my fat pad is somewhat of a buldge but I pumped in the morning and mastrubated and it is tightly held back and my testicles are not causing any issue. I sent my friend a message to borrow the money for a computer until I can start a new job and I know he will be cool with it so I'm expecting to get it this week, my mom also said I could do some things around the house for her for some cash and I'm thinking I will try and get $60 for my 1st laser treatment on my face- that will help enormously with people clocking me since I don't wear makeup. And finally.....
doublelongdaddy;424597 said:
But there hasn't been enough blood....
Excellent news, I was searching everywhere for a sweater, not just any sweater it had to be this sweater. Well finally I found it and I'm writing it here because after this morning it has been like a complete polar opposite attitude from interactions with others. Not one single negative coment not even one. I really like the sweater its nothing special just a particular style I wanted. Its pretty ridiculous how people will judge you so much on the difference of a peice of cloth over your shoulders. I feel like I went to DisneyLand, nobody has done anything mean or acted stupid and I walked all the way across downtown it feels a little bit fun. It must have really pulled it together. After I bought the sweater I went to a payphone I put in 35c and then 50c fell out. And I got the sweater cheaper than I was willing to pay.
Right? Its like, why are you asking me for money I live in the same city as you!
doublelongdaddy;425002 said:All of the bums in my town have tourettes too"Can I bum a cigarette", "Can I bum a quarter for the bus", "Can you help a vet get a cup of coffee" So fucking irritating.
Right? Its like, why are you asking me for money I live in the same city as you!
Shorter workout total approx 20min
4/14/11
Warm Up
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
Rotary 15 R
Mandingo R, L
Rotary 15 L
Mandingo R, L
A-stretch x 3reps
Bow and Arrow stretch: Rx1min, Lx1min (my arms lose stretgth before my penis)
Rotary 15 R
Mandingo R, L
Straight Out stretch
A-stretch x 5 reps
Rotary 15 L
Mandingo R, L
Base Twist: Rx40sec, Lx40sec
Double Handed A-stretch x 30sec
Rotary R 15, L 15
A-stretch x 3 reps
Mandingo R
Straight Out
As always Kegels and girth routine in the morning. After the session was feeling strong fatigue held a lazy ass stretch until I begin to feel like a pinching tingling sensation so I stopped. This morning there were little scratches at the tip of my glans I'm assuming from my nails pinching during the stretching. The PowerAsisst takes upper body strength to hold a firm grip while stretching.
Otherwise everything else is the same I masturbated once and it was really fucking good I wanted to go again but not enough stimulation after the session and the hormones have caused lower frequent erections; one thing I am disappointed in. I was not happy jerking it 10 times a day but I would still like the option. Makes me wonder about if I should really start androgen blockers that will be like suicide for my penis, but I really want the results. I would only take them once or twice a week not everyday. Also still on my natural hormones fenugreek, red clover blossoms, saw palmetto, PABA, and flax seed oil daily
I was wearing a shirt and pants today and I thought that I fit right in how would it be strange only a shirt and pants ever? Should I not be allowed to wear them how I feel good? It occured to me how it is not fair if a girl can wear these pants and these shirts how I should not be allowed to wear them? It was a thought that made me feel better this morning and it is also forcing me to see how most of the problems I am having is because the location I am geographically.
4/14/11
Warm Up
Sling Shot stretch: Lx40sec, Rx40sec
Rotary 15 R
Mandingo R, L
Rotary 15 L
Mandingo R, L
A-stretch x 3reps
Bow and Arrow stretch: Rx1min, Lx1min (my arms lose stretgth before my penis)
Rotary 15 R
Mandingo R, L
Straight Out stretch
A-stretch x 5 reps
Rotary 15 L
Mandingo R, L
Base Twist: Rx40sec, Lx40sec
Double Handed A-stretch x 30sec
Rotary R 15, L 15
A-stretch x 3 reps
Mandingo R
Straight Out
As always Kegels and girth routine in the morning. After the session was feeling strong fatigue held a lazy ass stretch until I begin to feel like a pinching tingling sensation so I stopped. This morning there were little scratches at the tip of my glans I'm assuming from my nails pinching during the stretching. The PowerAsisst takes upper body strength to hold a firm grip while stretching.
Otherwise everything else is the same I masturbated once and it was really fucking good I wanted to go again but not enough stimulation after the session and the hormones have caused lower frequent erections; one thing I am disappointed in. I was not happy jerking it 10 times a day but I would still like the option. Makes me wonder about if I should really start androgen blockers that will be like suicide for my penis, but I really want the results. I would only take them once or twice a week not everyday. Also still on my natural hormones fenugreek, red clover blossoms, saw palmetto, PABA, and flax seed oil daily
I was wearing a shirt and pants today and I thought that I fit right in how would it be strange only a shirt and pants ever? Should I not be allowed to wear them how I feel good? It occured to me how it is not fair if a girl can wear these pants and these shirts how I should not be allowed to wear them? It was a thought that made me feel better this morning and it is also forcing me to see how most of the problems I am having is because the location I am geographically.
4/19/11
Don't usually make updates like this but I haven't gone back to my stretching routine in 5 days. I had some scratches on the tip of my glans from my finger nails and it made it impossible to squeeze and pull it. Today is feeling much better. I was even feeling the sharp sting in the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] but haven't missed a day in that. I have to say I notice a remarkable loss in flaccid hang. I read on a instructional paper the doctors gave me for the estrogen the effects and side effects of the hormones and one is reduced penis size. I thought it would not effect me so much since I have pumped my body full of L-arginine in 2010 but it did effect me I do not have the same size or erection quality....I have been ejaculating with a softy but it feels really good I mean really good for a minute or two and then a depression sets in but it is not exactly related to the substance. Like I said my flaccid stretch seems to be there and currently I am still not having sex so I am not worrying too much about being able to satisfy anyone. I do penis enlarge regularly it is something I will always feel is part of my life no matter how my body is changing, it will be important in any relationship I end up. I also really really want the other benefits of the estrogen they give soft skin, less body hair, more head hair, breasts and hips viola.
On a down side I finally had a buyer for the equipment I'm trying to sell for a computer and of course the day they come to buy it is my sisters birthday so it all got mixed up and they couldn't find my address and now they are not sure if they want to buy it!!! So last night I could have gotten the money for the computer but now it is going to take possibly another week or longer! It is really difficult keeping up here sometimes on public computers I have begun to hate it so I hope I can just get it over with sooner the better.
Don't usually make updates like this but I haven't gone back to my stretching routine in 5 days. I had some scratches on the tip of my glans from my finger nails and it made it impossible to squeeze and pull it. Today is feeling much better. I was even feeling the sharp sting in the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]Bathmate[/words] but haven't missed a day in that. I have to say I notice a remarkable loss in flaccid hang. I read on a instructional paper the doctors gave me for the estrogen the effects and side effects of the hormones and one is reduced penis size. I thought it would not effect me so much since I have pumped my body full of L-arginine in 2010 but it did effect me I do not have the same size or erection quality....I have been ejaculating with a softy but it feels really good I mean really good for a minute or two and then a depression sets in but it is not exactly related to the substance. Like I said my flaccid stretch seems to be there and currently I am still not having sex so I am not worrying too much about being able to satisfy anyone. I do penis enlarge regularly it is something I will always feel is part of my life no matter how my body is changing, it will be important in any relationship I end up. I also really really want the other benefits of the estrogen they give soft skin, less body hair, more head hair, breasts and hips viola.
On a down side I finally had a buyer for the equipment I'm trying to sell for a computer and of course the day they come to buy it is my sisters birthday so it all got mixed up and they couldn't find my address and now they are not sure if they want to buy it!!! So last night I could have gotten the money for the computer but now it is going to take possibly another week or longer! It is really difficult keeping up here sometimes on public computers I have begun to hate it so I hope I can just get it over with sooner the better.
Had a short stretch session last night, probably 20min mostly straight down and out, some BTC, and mandingo. I skipped two days pumping, Friday and Sunday. It felt really good to stretch last night. Haven't gotten the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] back out yet I would have really liked to get some [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LengthMaster[/words] in but I couldn't feel like I had enough privacy and I don't really like stretching exercises in the bathroom. I thought of a good analogy for trying to get out of the ghetto. It is like trying to fly a kite on a day without wind. Everyone around you is standing on their kites, kicking their kites, knocking the kites out of other peoples hands. Every day you wake up and go outside and try to fly your kite but you just cannot get it to fly. You know it is possible to fly a kite because you see other people all over parts of the city flying with their kites up in the sky so you know it is possible. So every day you try again and you keep trying and you have to avoid people trying to fuck it up for you and you just keep believing you can get it to fly.
I got the money for my laptop but I am just enough too short to afford the tax on something worth buying so my mom said she would help me with the tax at the end of this week she gets paid What a relief! Otherwise I was extrememly depressed the beginning of last weekend I know the estrogen is probably the most to blame it was such a low feeling I felt like not getting out of bed- on the other hand I think Easter is my new favorite holiday! Wow that turned out to be the funnest weekend I've had in a long time! We ate Lots of good food and my whole family stayed at my moms the whole weekend and we watched movies, and went on walks, and shared sleeping in the bed, and yeah the only thing I was missing was not having much to type on the website.....and I've got a hella busy week this week, looking for a job IS a full time job! I can't wait to get one so I can get laser on my face that is a tough decision to not get that and to buy a laptop but I can't handle these public computers anymore/
My penis has lost some gains I'm guessing Idk its hard to tell when I'm not really conscious if it is big enough or not because I spend most of time avoiding sex, even thinking about it, it is weird dressing like female and then at the same time consiously dressing against fornication, but my sister dresses like a guy and we have lots of fun making fun of sluts and hanging out and she always calls me 'she' and always tells me how pretty I am. When I pump, my penis is big enough I never care about the size and it can take as few as 10min to get it up to enough pump not to fit in my underwear. Kegelling is like a part of thinking. If people are starring at me I usually end up getting in like 25 kegels while I'm consious of them. You can forget about maddogging people when you're a girl, if you look at people like you are going to fight they think you are checking them out.... as soon as I get my computer I can't wait to write about it even if I don't post about it. I spend a lot of my time finding groups and I have a couple this week I have to go to, not very exciting but it is keeping me out of trouble and in the loop. I've got one to go to so I am getting ready for that now.
I got the money for my laptop but I am just enough too short to afford the tax on something worth buying so my mom said she would help me with the tax at the end of this week she gets paid
What a relief! Otherwise I was extrememly depressed the beginning of last weekend I know the estrogen is probably the most to blame it was such a low feeling I felt like not getting out of bed- on the other hand I think Easter is my new favorite holiday! Wow that turned out to be the funnest weekend I've had in a long time! We ate Lots of good food and my whole family stayed at my moms the whole weekend and we watched movies, and went on walks, and shared sleeping in the bed, and yeah the only thing I was missing was not having much to type on the website.....and I've got a hella busy week this week, looking for a job IS a full time job! I can't wait to get one so I can get laser on my face that is a tough decision to not get that and to buy a laptop but I can't handle these public computers anymore/My penis has lost some gains I'm guessing Idk its hard to tell when I'm not really conscious if it is big enough or not because I spend most of time avoiding sex, even thinking about it, it is weird dressing like female and then at the same time consiously dressing against fornication, but my sister dresses like a guy and we have lots of fun making fun of sluts and hanging out and she always calls me 'she' and always tells me how pretty I am. When I pump, my penis is big enough I never care about the size and it can take as few as 10min to get it up to enough pump not to fit in my underwear. Kegelling is like a part of thinking. If people are starring at me I usually end up getting in like 25 kegels while I'm consious of them. You can forget about maddogging people when you're a girl, if you look at people like you are going to fight they think you are checking them out.... as soon as I get my computer I can't wait to write about it even if I don't post about it. I spend a lot of my time finding groups and I have a couple this week I have to go to, not very exciting but it is keeping me out of trouble and in the loop. I've got one to go to so I am getting ready for that now.
Turnover;427301 said:Had a short stretch session last night, probably 20min mostly straight down and out, some BTC, and mandingo. I skipped two days pumping, Friday and Sunday. It felt really good to stretch last night. Haven't gotten the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]PowerAssist[/words] back out yet I would have really liked to get some [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LengthMaster[/words] in but I couldn't feel like I had enough privacy and I don't really like stretching exercises in the bathroom. I thought of a good analogy for trying to get out of the ghetto. It is like trying to fly a kite on a day without wind. Everyone around you is standing on their kites, kicking their kites, knocking the kites out of other peoples hands. Every day you wake up and go outside and try to fly your kite but you just cannot get it to fly. You know it is possible to fly a kite because you see other people all over parts of the city flying with their kites up in the sky so you know it is possible. So every day you try again and you keep trying and you have to avoid people trying to fuck it up for you and you just keep believing you can get it to fly.
I got the money for my laptop but I am just enough too short to afford the tax on something worth buying so my mom said she would help me with the tax at the end of this week she gets paid
My penis has lost some gains I'm guessing Idk its hard to tell when I'm not really conscious if it is big enough or not because I spend most of time avoiding sex, even thinking about it, it is weird dressing like female and then at the same time consiously dressing against fornication, but my sister dresses like a guy and we have lots of fun making fun of sluts and hanging out and she always calls me 'she' and always tells me how pretty I am. When I pump, my penis is big enough I never care about the size and it can take as few as 10min to get it up to enough pump not to fit in my underwear. Kegelling is like a part of thinking. If people are starring at me I usually end up getting in like 25 kegels while I'm consious of them. You can forget about maddogging people when you're a girl, if you look at people like you are going to fight they think you are checking them out.... as soon as I get my computer I can't wait to write about it even if I don't post about it. I spend a lot of my time finding groups and I have a couple this week I have to go to, not very exciting but it is keeping me out of trouble and in the loop. I've got one to go to so I am getting ready for that now.
If you need a couple buck Turn let me know, I can paypal you some money to get that computer.
Well I decided to wear make up today and Wow what a motherfucking difference, I mean really, not only has every guy been polite to me, no women are giving me obscene stares, I have not heard one derogatory comment since I left my house. I was watching t.v. and some new reality show was on and usually when I see a beautiful woman I turn the channel but this time I just kept staring at this girls perfect face. While I was watching I applied my own make up then put on something nice and decided I'm going downtown, and now that is where I am. It felt pretty good too. I put on long hoop earrings I have not worn in a couple years and actually I'm wearing the exact same thing I always wear except this time I put on about a quarter size worth of make up. Proabably not even that much. I think that is absurd I am wearing so little make up I could spit on the ground and I would have more spit than make up and that changes how the entire world accepts me or not. Because I have a very passable face and not even a bad shaped body so when people are mean I am always confused even when they just call me "he" I am like why? Well I don't live in a normal neighborhood I realized it is not typical for people to shout rude comments at people in regular society. Its weird because I live in this one small section of the city of Long Beach that is torn apart and run down and the people there are all dirty and poor. It is literally like night and day a few blocks in ANY other direction the houses are nice and people are wearing beach clothes and they say 'Hi'. It is ghetto all the way down the train tracks to L.A. and that is where I pass through Compton and Watts. I use to live in Crenshaw I think that was the most ghetto area I have ever lived before I lived in this neighborhood in Long Beach it is seriously fucked up. I think it is so bad because so many highschool kids think they are thug and those are mostly where I hear descrimination, but it still makes me feel really sad when I hear it even though it is not true and I am only the way I am as in 'clockable' because I am celibate....and I am not doing anything wrong.
So I put on a little make up and poof I can walk down the street without any anxiety. I stopped trying because it use to really make me horny to wear make up but then I wore it because I feel good and I really am pretty when I wear even the tiniest bit. Anyways Crenshaw is not even like this area because people really get killed all over the place there and it is within walking distance of downtown L.A. and that is skid row. So people in Long Beach just really do not even know shit. I'm sorry if this is sort of out of place but I want it in my journal. I wanted to update this part because usually I am always complaining about how much of a problem it is that I have to deal with descrimination. But that is not because I am "not" passable, it is because I am not trying to look feminine, and when I try even just a spits worth, I had the complete polar opposite experience. I am just not turned on doing it I feel actually a bit angry that I am in a way forced to have to fight for it. And I am wearing a big fat diamond ring my mom gave me on my left ring finger.:blush:
I practiced the Lig Push and Stretch last night and that is a incredible stretch. I could really feel the tension and its potential. I then used my [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LengthMaster[/words] and stretched about 3 sets of bundles left, right, up, down, and BTC. The session lasted approx 20 min possibly longer I find myself starring at the clock and never actually registering the time. I just like stretching it feels good while I am setteling in for the night. I think I masturbated 2-3 times yesterday I wanted to go one more time but the last time it was very difficult unfortantely. I do not look at adult entertainment and lately not even a mirror although I did get semi hard looking in my bathroom mirror one morning when I saw my breast was really defined the areloa has become more pronouned and full it is extremely exciting for me. The problem is I am losing sensation in my penis. The experiement is a failure, hormones are destruction to penis enalrgement I will never recommend it! I have to keep going though there is no going back. When I masturbated last it felt like a marathon and my arm was getting tired but in my brain I knew I needed to ejaculate. I heard cumming is the bodies biggest release of endorfines natually possible. That is incredible. My load has also decreased I use to shoot and shoot and shoot seriously, and now it is just a decreased puddle...well if my partner really needs some cock I know how to fix it up, at the moment it is not really manditory and I will be making the changes that are most important. I am glad I found penis enlargement I can't picture having it missing in my life.
So I put on a little make up and poof I can walk down the street without any anxiety. I stopped trying because it use to really make me horny to wear make up but then I wore it because I feel good and I really am pretty when I wear even the tiniest bit. Anyways Crenshaw is not even like this area because people really get killed all over the place there and it is within walking distance of downtown L.A. and that is skid row. So people in Long Beach just really do not even know shit. I'm sorry if this is sort of out of place but I want it in my journal. I wanted to update this part because usually I am always complaining about how much of a problem it is that I have to deal with descrimination. But that is not because I am "not" passable, it is because I am not trying to look feminine, and when I try even just a spits worth, I had the complete polar opposite experience. I am just not turned on doing it I feel actually a bit angry that I am in a way forced to have to fight for it. And I am wearing a big fat diamond ring my mom gave me on my left ring finger.:blush:
I practiced the Lig Push and Stretch last night and that is a incredible stretch. I could really feel the tension and its potential. I then used my [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LengthMaster[/words] and stretched about 3 sets of bundles left, right, up, down, and BTC. The session lasted approx 20 min possibly longer I find myself starring at the clock and never actually registering the time. I just like stretching it feels good while I am setteling in for the night. I think I masturbated 2-3 times yesterday I wanted to go one more time but the last time it was very difficult unfortantely. I do not look at adult entertainment and lately not even a mirror although I did get semi hard looking in my bathroom mirror one morning when I saw my breast was really defined the areloa has become more pronouned and full it is extremely exciting for me. The problem is I am losing sensation in my penis. The experiement is a failure, hormones are destruction to penis enalrgement I will never recommend it! I have to keep going though there is no going back. When I masturbated last it felt like a marathon and my arm was getting tired but in my brain I knew I needed to ejaculate. I heard cumming is the bodies biggest release of endorfines natually possible. That is incredible. My load has also decreased
I use to shoot and shoot and shoot seriously, and now it is just a decreased puddle...well if my partner really needs some cock I know how to fix it up, at the moment it is not really manditory and I will be making the changes that are most important. I am glad I found penis enlargement I can't picture having it missing in my life.Try and get a quick update in: 1 more week until my laptop is here Last night I was laying in bed and my chest felt soreness so I was rubbing under the Areola and there is a like a little ball under each breast. They are hard I am not sure what they mean it is giving my chest definition but I could not lay on my stomach. The whole breast is not hard it is just under the nipple about the size of a golf ball. I was thinking the fenugreek and other pills could not be a good combination with estrogen so I will ask the doctor in a couple days at my appointment in May. Other than that the make up trick is working very well. I walked through a group of kids and instead of teasing me for my gender they made fun of me saying, "Oh, don't touch me!" Aha, so they do have tourettes that is why they make fun of people! I knew it, there was like 15 kids and there was no way around them so I just slipped through them and that is what they said....and then this morning some guys were calling me beautiful and to shake my ass....I feel like wearing make up is like equivalent to wearing a super hero mask because it is the same street, wearing the same clothes, but I'm wearing one line of eyeliner on each eye and the reactions from people are drastically the opposite of what they were since I moved here.....really odd.
I woke up with morning wood, it felt so good I haven't had that since the first shot. Did not last as long as I would have liked. I can pretty much kiss that goodbye when I start androgen blockers. I'm wondering if I can take L-arginine with these substances, might be helpful with this because I have been missing it. I think another thing happening is the dyslexia I recently complained about in my "Typing" thread. It was never a concern of mine, sure it happen on occasion, but recently it has become a regular habit. I also feel melancholy. I don't look up when I'm walking somewhere, or feel like talking. I looked in the mirror and I was like yeah really pretty and then I just sat down and wait for my hair to get longer, hahaha. Oh yea and I pumped this morning and my cock was looking realllly fat. There was some lint on it and I was trying to flick it off and it kept jumping around to another place on my dick and it was like flipping over a little whale
I was thinking how fun it would be to shove in somebody's mouth and seeing them trying to fit it in there because I never have since I made it bigger Thanks DLD.
Last night I was laying in bed and my chest felt soreness so I was rubbing under the Areola and there is a like a little ball under each breast. They are hard I am not sure what they mean it is giving my chest definition but I could not lay on my stomach. The whole breast is not hard it is just under the nipple about the size of a golf ball. I was thinking the fenugreek and other pills could not be a good combination with estrogen so I will ask the doctor in a couple days at my appointment in May. Other than that the make up trick is working very well. I walked through a group of kids and instead of teasing me for my gender they made fun of me saying, "Oh, don't touch me!" Aha, so they do have tourettes that is why they make fun of people! I knew it, there was like 15 kids and there was no way around them so I just slipped through them and that is what they said....and then this morning some guys were calling me beautiful and to shake my ass....I feel like wearing make up is like equivalent to wearing a super hero mask because it is the same street, wearing the same clothes, but I'm wearing one line of eyeliner on each eye and the reactions from people are drastically the opposite of what they were since I moved here.....really odd. I woke up with morning wood, it felt so good I haven't had that since the first shot. Did not last as long as I would have liked. I can pretty much kiss that goodbye when I start androgen blockers. I'm wondering if I can take L-arginine with these substances, might be helpful with this because I have been missing it. I think another thing happening is the dyslexia I recently complained about in my "Typing" thread. It was never a concern of mine, sure it happen on occasion, but recently it has become a regular habit. I also feel melancholy. I don't look up when I'm walking somewhere, or feel like talking. I looked in the mirror and I was like yeah really pretty and then I just sat down and wait for my hair to get longer, hahaha. Oh yea and I pumped this morning and my cock was looking realllly fat. There was some lint on it and I was trying to flick it off and it kept jumping around to another place on my dick and it was like flipping over a little whale
I was thinking how fun it would be to shove in somebody's mouth and seeing them trying to fit it in there because I never have since I made it bigger Thanks DLD.
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Turnover;428592 said:My areola is looking really thick and round. The tissue that was like a small ball is just breast tissue that softened up recently. Musta been the first stages of growth. It is a tad sore otherwise everything is fine and I am happy about it
WHen I was going through puberty I had hard, nodes under my nipple. The doctor said is was a flood of hormones. Must be what you are experiencing.