doublelongdaddy;678580 said:
I agree AIM and I have let go of the past, the problem is creating my future. I have many insecurities that I need to get over. My body is one step in the right direction but I also need to deal with the mental shit I go through, I don't think a woman would want to be with a guy who is Agoraphobic and Bipolar. So far this tear I am doing good with the Bipolar but still can't go anywhere in public aside from the 3 places I go. I think I may have to just accept that I may not have another woman and be OK with that. If it happens great but if not I will see this as the will of God. He knows what is in my heart and my prayers, He knows I am lonely and I think this is a time I am expected to learn to love myself, or that is my interpretation. All doors are open and I hope my soul mate comes.
DLD im gonna try and put your thinking around.
you don't think a girl wants to date you?
im sorry mate but that is simply not your decision to make. you know who's decision that is? the girl!
i haven't met you in person. but what i see from you is
kindness.
caring.
a great ability to see things in bigger perspectives than you.
the ability to lead (im one of your mods and i see the thinking going behind your decisions. and believe me or not so far i have 5 bosses being fired in my name to this day because they did a shit job. if i didn't perceive you as a good leader i wouldn't have taken the mod role. i might appear as a nice guy but i am beyond ruthless when it comes to leaders who base their leadership on their ego or other shit going on. i will crush them to the point where they can't say my name without a shaking voice. and at this point in my life i have told 3 guys that i respected them as leaders (you being the 4th!)
this is what i get from chatting with you.
and mate you need to start giving yourself some credit and fall in love with yourself again! your god made you like this! if you don't love yourself (or atleast do everything you can to do that) isn't that you saying that god made a mistake?
and trust me when you start to truly love yourself again. i will bet you that some of those mental things will dissapear out in the thin air! seen it before and i will most definitely see it again! love is the strongest force in this world. yet it is not part of our culture and education to learn self love. why? because it makes you strong! stronger than anyone can ever control! a guy who loves himself doesn't need some shit faced axe deodorant to feel attractive. he doesn't need to have a big car to feel important! he doesn't need the newest iphone. or the right brand of clothes. he is the fucking brand!
if not for yourself then do it for this forum that you have given so much to! lead by example! how do you want the new guys live to turn out? how do you want to influenze it? don't you want to show them that everything is possible? i know it is fucking scary mate i call it "jump into the abyss!" you don't know what is going to happen.
last but not least. you are sitting on a forum. you build from scratch. talking with an atheist from the other side of the world. who tells you to trust in the fact that your god did right in creating you exactly as you are! down to each and every dna string!
what are the odds for this to happen? what are the chances of you reading this right now? if you can not see that god is trying to help you stand up and that he demands that you give everything that you have! then you are blind my friend!
and i have to add this! you are the fucking penis master! and you probably know more about sex than any of us (don't think i haven't noticed your ability to nerd out info about stuff) you can probably fuck a girls brain out more than anyone else in the world.
yet you have the nerve to claim that no girl will want you?!
im sorry mate but i don't believe it!
you owe it to yourself to reach your biggest potential. are you doing that right now?