rocky1243;706050 said:
DLD is older, he has lived his lived and had his relationships. After doing all that he then decided to live his life devoted to himself and god, but he went through life and chose. You are too young and have too much to live to make such a radical decision. Act like you are 20, you are only there once.
Much truth to this but the thing about Jesus is HE could give two shits about how old someone is, if they are called to the cause they are called. Some as young as 5 and others will never go there. The truth in what was said is twofold. First, I have lived a life, a very bad one filled with so much sin it is unreal. If you guys knew the old me you would certainly be discussed, I was the worst pop the worst. In my calling it was not because I was holy or a good Christian in anyway, it was quite the opposite. I was called to serve
because of my sinful past. There would be no way for me to teach anyone lessons of righteousness and truth if I never lived the opposite of that.
We can look at St. Paul as a good example of how things happened to me. Paul was once named Saul and he persecuted and murdered many Christians, he was an abomination in our LORD'S eyes. Jesus came upon Saul and proved himself to Saul. He blinded him and after 3 days his vision returned but now He was a changed man. Jesus renamed Him Paul and He went on the author 1/2 of the New Testament.
I am in NO WAY close to anteing St. Pul is, I never will be, He is a man of holiness and a Saint unto Jesus. But this analogy may help people understand my conversion. Just like Saul I was awful in so many ways, I lied, stole, cheated, fornicated, committed adultery and many other terrible things. My life became a drug induced life of complete evil. One night I got on my knees in front of the crucifix and I prayed for hours that GOD would take my life, I no longer wanted to be here, I hated myself and my life. After praying I sat down in my living room and shot some dope, I overdosed and was found dead by my Brother, needle still in my arm. By the time the ambulance came I was already down for 8+ minutes. The EMT's were saying to my Brother that it was no worth it, I was too far gone. My Brother demanded that they try. 3 times with nothing but on 4th I came back. When I came back I was so upset that I was not gone forever.
As the years went by Jesus would come to me but I would get it wrong, I could not hear what HE wanted from me. I would try to guess and make improvements in myself but still there was silence from GOD. Eventually I started the Brotherhood and this is when I heard GOD in a way that gave me much hope. He commended me on the Brotherhood and said it would be a great tool one day when I would be called upon. This excited me and I wanted to get as many Brothers here as I could, I wanted to help them in everyday and I knew this was the work of our LORD. With each year there was new lessons. As time progressed the lessons became more and more rapid until I was called on to serve as a priest unto GOD. I took this responsibility and made a commitment to be celibate. As time progressed I was asked more and more to give up things of my past life. Some were very hard to give up and other were easy. Every time I thought I was at the point of living a sinless life I would be hit in the face with so many sins that I had forgotten or justified, it was and is a trying process.
This is not a life for most men as it is a life of obedience and sacrifice. Getting to the second fold of this two fold response. Yes, it is very hard to do what I do but I do it with joy and love because I know I am serving Jesus. Now, this was much easier for me to do then most as because, as Rocky said, I had already lived the life. I was given Children and Grand Children and the calling is much easier this way. I am nothing special in this way. The special ones our those who have given their lives to CHRIST from the beginning, the true saints. I will never reach that status and if I did become a saint what would it be for? St. of the Penis?

Much Love my Brothers!