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Greetings

My vision for this thread is for it to be more than just a place where I chart progress and write about my workouts - I will use it as a tool for transforming my life in the richest possible way. Today I will just chart where I have been, and where I am up to.

I started Penis Enlargement about 4 years ago at 4 1/2 inches NPBEL
I gained an inch (maybe 1 1/4) over the first 8 months, then stopped
3 Years have passed and the time has come to give it another shot.

I started out on the DLD Phase 1 Program on July 17th 2007

My measurements as at July 17th were
14.2 CM NBPenis EnlargementL
10.9 CM EG

My measurements as at August 17th were
14.4 CM NBPenis EnlargementL
10.9 CM EG

Observed: Harder erections, More ejaculation volume. It didnt appear longer or thicker, but it was definitely harder after the first month.

My measurements as at Sepember 17th were
14.8 CM NBPenis EnlargementL
10.9 CM EG

Observed: I kept measuring here, I couldnt believe it. Erections at similar strength, balls definitely hanging lower from doing the T-Stretch twice per day. Additionally, had to take one week off from training for injury - stretched too hard on the BTC and paid the price.

My measurements as at October 17th were
15.2 CM NBPenis EnlargementL (6 inches!!!!!)
10.9 CM EG

Observed: erections longer, sex getting better, flaccid feeling heavier, balls hanging even lower. it felt like I was getting thicker but the tape measure proved me wrong (asshole).

My training program over the past 4 mths like this:

Physical Penis Enlargement workout 5X Per week
Mental Penis Enlargement workout 1-2X Per week
Arginine and Tribulus supplements
Basic DLD Routine - every exercise, nothing skipped
Average session lasted 1 hour (including warm up and down)
While exercising I used affirmations
- while jelqing I would affirm 'I have a thick, powerful penis)
- and While stretching I would affirm 'I have a long rock solid penis)
I used visualization 3-4 Times per week; just before laying down to sleep I would create an image of what I would like to be - including a sexy image of my penis - I used Supras photos as inspiration then created an image of my own being that size.
+ I did T-Health twice per day because I wanted my balls to drop :p hehe!

The first few months was also a time to get rid of negative self perceptions - everytime I looked at my penis I would affirm something positive.

So that brings us up to now.

At the end of October I moved onto Phase 2

I expect to go about 3-4 months on this phase. No rush, I am here for the long hault
The A-stretch is fucking insane - I can only pump out about 30 properly then I'm wiped
I love the compression squeezes - I think they will do wanders for my girth.

I received a recommendations to use BP measurements instead so I will start working with them - its clear logic - its about how much dick there is hanging out from the body - all together

so my BP measurements right now are:

BPenis EnlargementL: 6 3/4 inches (6 1/2 yesterday - much better erection today)
BPFL w foreskin: 7 1/2 inches
BPFL: w/out foreskin:6 1/4 inches
EG: 4 1/2 inches

Here are some happy snaps I took recently. I photoshopped my body (out of the picture hehe :P ) and played with contrast/brightness. I dont know how my head got the siny white glow but it looks funky! :)
 
Just finished up a pretty hardcore workout

All the phase 2 exercises plus some cranks - took the cranks out extra far this time. Pump was good.

Went for about 1 1/4 Hours -

Read some other members progress reports for fuel - this kicked my workout in intensity - its all about desire - if the why is strong enough we can do anything.

Focused on breathing and just feeling the exercises today.
 
Today I had an awesome workout.

Still on phase 2: went hard as shit on the stretches - I found the A stretch difficult to begin with because my wrist wasnt flexible - I did some wrist strengthening exercises; basically put your hand (palms facing down) straight down onto a table - or against a wall and hold. I did this for 2-3 days and now my wrists can handle the workout - so thats cool..
Jelq was awesome - erections were crazy. I'm going to do some extra constriction with a cock ring today, 3x10 minutes.

The pump was about 7/10. I listened to an affirmation tape that repeats 'I have a huge thick powerful cock' instead of saying it out loud as I went along - I focused on my breath and visualized the desired outcome before and after - results will come.

I wanted to integrate about my telling my parter a few weeks back that I had begun Penis Enlargement. It was scary as shit but so worth it. I read DLD's blog and how he had told his partner everything and the impact that had on him going forward. So I decided to do the same. I walked up to her and showed her the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]DVD[/words] and told her I had been doing it for 2 months, her response was 'you dont need to do this, you have a beautiful cock babe' hehe :) I told her that I was doing it for me, my confidence & my power - I told her how those two things impact everything that I can create in this world and how I want her to support me as I walk the path.

Now I dont have to lie about why I have baby powder and Lube + I can do my workouts in the living room!!! how awesome is that?! additionally, she knows my workout times - so if not working out she will ask me why - this is great because I have another accountability partner in my life.

Guys - don't be afraid to tell your partner - I feel that it has helped me form a better bond with mine - plus I get to be honest and ask her to help me with my program in the way that I need (watching me Jelq when I'm not stimulated, or doing a sexy dance for me when I want to go maximum contraction).


I also wanted to touch on the importance of having heroes in our lives.

In Penis Enlargement, DLD is my hero. I have written to him and acknowleded him for who has been for me in this world - I read his blog regularly and think about who is as a human being - what he has stood in the face of, and what he has stood for.

When I feel myself slipping from my vision - I connect back to my hero and draw massive amounts of inspiration from him.

I have heroes for every path that I am walking in life - they are an invaluable source of love and inspiration - they awaken in us that which is heroic.

Peace
 
Awesome,

Todays workout was intense - I read somewhere on the forum someone was doing a routine that kicks up the intensity of training every day- so I've been giving that a go - that being said, I dont know if there is much more intensity to give tomorrow.

I took some stretches out of the phase 1 routine
& mixed them in with the phase 2 stuff

<< 30 secs + 10 Kegels
>> "" ""
Down" "
Up " "
BTC << + down + >> + 10 Kegels each
2 full cranks with 10 kegels each
Then 30 A stretches (literally trying to pull it off)

Moved onto the girth component: SS 50 jelqs + 1 squeeze X 7

Then 30 Compression squeezes

ABsoultely roasted: my ligs are stuffed.

DLD talked about finding the sweet spot between pain, injury and growth - today I think I found it - will keep going at this intensity

Some silly thoughts entered my mind while I was jelqing - 'It doesnt look as big I as measured' 'Is Penis Enlargement even working' etc'

I didnt let that negative BS affect me: I took responsbility for creating the context that invited the thoughts to occur - shifted context, then new thoughts came - the only permanent way out of the mind trap is to create a new context - otherwise its an endless spiral of BS and I come back to stage 1: complaining about having a small dick and feeling powerless to change it -

FUCK THAT...

I can only be defeated if I give up and die, and I will never give up.

Peace
 
I just finished another crazy workout - they keep getting longer, and I keep getting increasingly sore. Erection quality was impaired this morning so I imagine that I have worked it pretty hard over the last few days - tomorow I will lighten up on the jelqing and kick the intensity of my stretches in the head.

Same routine as yesterday: Only I will save the squeezes for later in the afternoon as my cock is just plain old tired right now,...

Back into taking tribulus and arginine today - took a break while I completed a full detox, so I'm back in the game.

If any of you guys havent taken tribulus, you dont know what your missing - it is truly awesome - and cheap too. It wont make your cock bigger, but it does firm erections and increase sex drive... in regards to arginine - I dont think it really does anything for cock size - but I know that its an essential amino acid - it increase the release of HGH, improves blood circulation, alleviates impotence, enhances libido etc etc - I've been taking it for a few months & it works.

Any other suggestions??

The best part of the workout was that even with poor quality wood during jelqs - I just kept moving and did my best -there was no 'the world is coming down' thoughts or that kind of BS - I know ill be back to 100 tomorrow. Today I didnt give up, I did my best - thats what its about.

Onto meaning....

Why do I sit here and pull my cock for an hour a day?

I must really want this bad... how bad?

I'll move anything - overcome any obstacle - to create this in my life...

I wont let anything stop me.

I did some self examination yesterday - I've been playing with contexts and how to shift them - I know that I have the power to overcome societal conditioning by creating a new context.

The thought to try Penis Enlargement in the first place arose in a context that Big penis is good, small penis is shameful - girls like big penis etc - I accepted that as truth and the thought arose as a result.

I see things differently now; The context in which Penis Enlargement occurs is one of enjoyment and relaxation - it is truly a rewarding experience to improve myself and create the things in life that are important to me.

Let me provide an example:

Say that you just picked a sexy girl up and have taken her back to your place for sex. You start kissing her then thoughts enter your mind like 'Will I get hard enough' 'Will she think I'm small 'Idont know what im doing' etc... Immediately after the thoughts you begin to feel small, weak, afraid, powerless etc... then your actions are not bold and inspired.... its BS

What we have the power to do is shift context; but let me get onto something else for a second

Most guys will accept the thoughts as being part of who they are - they will see themselves as small,weak, afraid and live a life not knowing their true greatness.

Other guys will take up the challenge and try to change the thoughts and feelings - maybe some techniques from NLP, some affirmations etc. These solutions will work but they are not addressing the root cause.

If the soil is fucked there is no point constantly planting new trees - they will never grow.

The true solution lies in changing the context out of which the thoughts/feelings/self reflections arise.

This is true power.

Think about it; If someone calls you up to tell you that your dog is dead - the feelings/thoughts arise - you responded according to your beliefs. If they call you back a few minutes later and tell you that your dog is actually alive - again you will respond to your beliefs. Notice how in neither situation you respond to reality - you respond to the context that you create, not the things that are really happening.


I'm not trying to reach some massive size - I'm standing for being a dynamic lover, a confident man, for being powerful - the reward is in the feeling I get when I see myself living this way - and the big penis will come naturally.

I invite anyone reading to take a look at the context they set for their Penis Enlargement workouts:

Be aware that all the thoughts, emotions that arise during the course of your training/during sex/after sex/when your cuddling your woman - as a matter of fact - through your entire life, come from a context THAT YOU CREATED. Ask yourself - What context are you creating that is inviting the 'problems' that nag you to occur?

What does Penis Enlargement mean to me: Pe is a symbol of self improvement, of power, confidence, strength, development... everything that I stand for in this world - Penis Enlargement represents. Penis Enlargement is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength. I train hard every day because that is who I am - I am the one who never gives up.

Peace
 
Mmm... work has begun - working till 3 am fucks it all up - but... I'm going to keep Penis Enlargement alive...

I took Fri & Sat off (I have set to only have 1 day a week off - but I made a boo boo - big ass hangover + work all day/night... still - could have had a quick pull in the dunnies - ill get it together. I'm moving into 2 nights off per week now.. its gotta happen - i need flexiblity

This mornings workout was just length for about an hour - abou 100 a-stertches and some cranks... nothing too crazy... I'll have a big ass girth session tonight..

Lots of system upgrades tomorrow to try to fit Penis Enlargement into my schedule... Gotta stay flexible - gotta adapt... gotta keep moving forward

What I'm thinking of doing is T, W & Thur Penis Enlargement at 6 AM... and since I work late T F S & Sunday.. either split the Penis Enlargement workouts during the day, get them done when I wake up from working (at about 10 AM)... I think ill start working out 5days per week now... so Ill take the days off where I have work the night before... as long as I get 5 a week in I'm sweet
 
Workouts have been good.

Sunday I did a split to cope with the split shift - worked well - did width at like 1 am - but you get that - the pump was still good.

Monday workout was great, no probs.

Same with today- went hard- the heat is really cranking up here so the blood is flowing and the balls are hanging haha! Awesome stuff

Still doing the same workouts... <, >, Down, Up, crank, crank, A-stretch, jelqs & compression - occasionally I do some.. umm whats it called... I guess compression - tie my cock up and strangle it till it looks like its gonna pop haha

I'm taking it one week at a time - and if I have to, one day at a time... As long as I keep moving towards my goals - ill get there.

Resistance pops up from time to time, and I'm still changing context and creating the best workouts I can.

When this shit pops up - the most powerful solution is to connect back to vision. What do I see what I look down the path of training Pe regularly -...
I look down the path; I see confidence, I see power... I see great sex, I look far and wide and I see the kind of life I want to have... and I jelq like a man possessed!!

Giving up is not an option. Theres too much at stake.

I'm seeing this whole Penis Enlargement path in a wider sense now - I see that walking this path involves me upgrading sex, foreplay, the way I communicate with woman... then further on... the way I walk & talk... the way I see myself - this shit runs deep! Every guy that does Penis Enlargement understands how deep this goes.
 
Mmm.. another one down. Was a bit flat today with erection quality - I have been going hard as shit this week though so I can't blame the old fella.

I read an interesting article before from a member on the forums - he talked about the stages of belief... its rining true now. I got my first growth and I was stoked - then I just couldnt believe it... even though the proof was in front of my eyes and in my hands - I kept measuring. Madness.

Hehe. I just couldnt believe that it had grown ... questions came to mind ' was I lying to myself? Was i measuring the same way? Was it temporary gains??' crazzzy.. the mind can be a runaway train if its not tamed... 'Calm yourself!'

I have gained. My dick is bigger. I'm almost a whole inch up in EL... that is madness... I look at it AND it looks way bigger... hehe. Then the mind plays its tricks.

There is a solution. It is not enough to walk a path in your mind once to make it the one you always walk - it must be walked every day, again and again. Then it becomes the true path.

Theres no time to give up or complain of old beliefs are trying to impair progress. Fuck them - affirm the positive and keep moving - it takes time to create new beliefs.

What is all this about?

It's all about vision. It's all about what I see when I look down the path of reaching my goals... I look around at my life and I see what is possible if I keep taking these steps every day...

I see whats at stake.

My self confidence
My sex life
My personal power
The way I communicate
My ability to please my woman
My self love
My sense of 'I am enough'
My feelings of peace and honour
My feelings of pride & joy

This is what is at stake! Penis Enlargement means so much to me; it goes deep... and I'm going to keep moving on matter what.

Months end is coming... that ruler is gonna get fucked up, rite up the ass...

Peace
 
Friday - my favourite day.. except for the work week begins on a Friday for me. haha.

Anywhoo. Training rocked this morning... I was dead tired + running a bit low on time so I thought I'd put meditation and Penis Enlargement together to save time...

I warmed up and did all that fun stuff -then closed my eyes and started breathing... focusing on nothing but my breath and the feeling of the stretch.

It felt great. I did the entire routine and opened my eyes feeling fresh and AS IF I had actually created energy rather than using it up.

I'm going to upgrade my system to do this twice a week - Penis Enlargement is a perfect opportunity to go within and relax everything - its a great opportunity to put my attention inside myself and on the feeling of my body.

Whats the sweet spot between overtrain and gain?
Some objective guidelines with subjective trial and error?

Personally I find that if I train more than 5 times per week I am overtrained. My erections are low - my stretch is shit - the penis is tired and wants a break. I'm going to stick to 5 days until I'm maybe onto phase 3 or 4... then I will tweak..

The principles from bodybuilding do apply. What are the variables?
Intensity, duration, frequency, number of reps, super sets, trisets.

You cant have it all the way all the time. Where is the sweet spot then?

Well - play with the variables until you hit growth - see what works.

For me I find high frequency mid-high intensity works the best... I see diminishing returns in pump quality after I go past the 1 hour mark in a training session.

Also, if I try to train 6 or 7 days in a week I feel diminished returns.

If I try super intensity every workout - by the 4th or 5th the penis is rooted and erections suffer.

IF the sweet spot is 5 days per week; M &T High intensity, W mid intensity then T & F high intensity - S & S, 1 hour per workout, all the phase 2 exercises.

I'll keep playing with variables as I get better - but for now, its still all about the basics.
Peace
 
Ok: I did the 5 days on 2 off.. So I had sat and sunday off from training - completely.. it felt strange taking 2 days off but it was cool... so I'm going to stay with that another week.

A good thing that happened from taking a break was the sex on Saturday night... my erection was like a piece of steel pipe - incredibly hard. My girl was loving it.

I was watching it go in.. and out... admiring the sexy view... my cock looked huggggggeee... it was totally awesome. I felt a level of satisfaction (internal) that I havent felt in while... I got this thought that... 'I am big enough... I am good enough'... everything felt smooth and graceful... I wasnt worried about a thing in the world. I havent enjoyed sex like that for a while - i mean relaxed... with no insecurities or shit like that.

Could my new penis confidence be responsible for this change in perspective? you bet your ass. It played a huge part. I needed reality to confirm my hunch - that my cock is getting bigger.

My vision is coming to life and expanding. Possilibites are infintite.


This experience created the context for my awesome workout this morning... I went hard... stretch, jelq, compression - same ol stuff.

I got a great pump - I know that this shit is working. One day at a fucking time. I'm not focused so much on goals now: I'm just enjoying being a different way - I'm enjoying the journey, the highs & the lows - the pumps. The stretching. Its all part of my journey.

Peace
 
Muaha... another fun filled day is coming to a close.

Pe was cool. Yesterday was the usual routine along with 30 minutes of clamping.

Today was the same deal - PHase 2 newbie stuff - no clamping...

Workouts were good - its been really hot the last few days so my pumps have been great... everything is nice and warm so its the perfect opportunity to get some growth.

Over the last few days I've experienced the downside of telling my partner about my Penis Enlargement pursuits.

She whinges and complains... she judges me strongly for having something that is entirely 'my own' that she doesnt fully understand.

She labels me as selfish (when I would rather Penis Enlargement than talk to her about her day = blah...) and uses the tool of guilt to get me to a)feel bad about what I do and then b) have me making a different choice.

Somewhere in a relationship a man has to draw a line between self and other.

There are things that are my own.. that I pursue with my self interest at heart.

I am responsible for my own happiness.
It takes determination - knowing what I want and staying committed - if my clarity of purpose is powerful enough, it will override the automatic guilt process and have me choosing in line with my values - so what if this causes conflict?

I am prepared to pay the price of conflict in my life to get what I KNOW I want and deserve.

The key is to maintain clairty and not fall back into default - where I respond to the guilt tool of my partner, the same way I would to that of my mother. This shit runs deep. The feeling is unbearable when I am taking my stand - although afterwards, upon reflection, I feel honour and joy for choosing in line with what is important to me.

Is it wrong to be selfish? absolutely not. I do Penis Enlargement for myself first. This is mine and mine only and no one has the power, or the right to tell me how to spend my time or choose my values.

I'm feeling a ritcheous rage right now... but I know I have chosen in line with my values - and there is peace.

Stay cool people
 
Mmm... I left yesterday in a sexy, cool rage.

I carried that feeling through my workout today. Thrashed the living shit out of the old fella.

All the phase 2 stuff still + an extra 10-15 compression squeezes and maybe... an extra 200-300 jelqs. I didnt want to stop.
The pump was enoromous. The feelings were powerful.

I finished up with my jelqs and just sat in my chair reflecting - reflecting on who I have been for taking on this challenge.

Who am I? I am a brave, powerful human being. I am committed to self improvement and excellence in life. I am successful. I am a warrior.

Everyone who takes on this challenge of Penis Enlargement has earnt this reflection too - results are not guaranteed - we are pioneers, we experiment with things most people think are rubbish. We face so much shame, fear, doubt, anger on our path to better ourselves.

It is a challenging path - and we should honour ourselves for walking it.

Personally I have faced doubt when I think about whether it is even working... I have faced fear when I told my partner, when I tried new exercises, I have faced conflict, when I consciously made the choice to Penis Enlargement over spending time with my GF or family etc... I have faced shame when I have looked down and felt that I wasnt worthy... - Lots more... In the face of physical exhaustion and pain when I hadn't recovered from my last workout - or strethced farther than I had ever done before...

In the face of all the feelings that could have otherwise stopped me - I am still here...

I took a stand in this world for my own greatness.

Anyone who gets a chance to read this - look back at who you are. What have you had to face to be here today??? Honor yourself. Feel your power - own it.

We are all warriors.


Visualization is back into swing - I betrayed her for a while.... now I'm back in the game. Work hours threw my system out of sync for a while (come home frmo work at 3 am then visualize before bed??? haha.. more like die), and I've made some changes so its going smooth.

Still using Supras pic as my visual. I superimpose his size onto my cock - it looks awesome. Everyime I flash that image into my mind I get a tingle.

I know that if I keep walking my path - that reality will be mine. I will win it. I will own it.

It's rest days now... Friday came around too quickly. I still feel good so I'm going to get into it again tomorrow and only have Sunday off, choosing between 5 or 6 days to work out for me is a matter of how my cock feels....

Have a great weekend folks.
 
Juicy workout this evening. I slept in today - got a bad ass flu. Dead in bed...

Simply moved Penis Enlargement to night time.

Did some lazy ass stretches before and after my phase 2 stuff... the pump was great.

Didn't do too many A-stretches today - I was having fun being a lazy ass instead :)

November is over and my gains for the month were pretty good. Erection quality has been the most dramatic - I feel like the owner of a brand new cock. It's heaiver too - for sure. Didn't change much in length but girth has been coming.

Moving into Dec its still Phase 2 DLD stuff all the way - Keeping it the same.

The one area that I want to totally focus on for the month is the context I set for my Penis Enlargement workouts - and the experience I have of myself as I train and after I finish... there is huge power to be created here if I can take full control of my context - I will.

Currently I own about 70% of it - which is damn good. The rest of it is being proactive and creating the experience that I want fully - taking complete responsibility every time I train for having a workout conducive to gains - no going through the motions bs and narrating to myself ' well... I just dont feel like training today - but I am going to - I should be happy that I'm even doing it all, considering how I feel' none of that BS will pass this month.

Dec is about total ownership of experience. Taking responsibility for every narration, image, though, feeling... anything and everything - and making it all align with my vision. Creating what I see in my mind... staying true to it no matter what

So resistance: yes.. today is the worst I have felt in about a year. I havent had a flu/cold for about a year... getting out of bed was bad enough - I kept digging until I found something powerful inside - I asked myself simply

'Who am I?'

'What do the promises I have made to myself mean to me, right now?

'Are my dreams simply fantasies?'

'What will my children say about me when I am gone'

Asking these types of questions shifted my context from 'I am tired and sick' to... 'no matter how I feel I am going to create this in my life'.

Tonight I can reflect in honour. I took control of my context and did my absolute best.
 
Back into the swing of things fully.

Todays workout was intense. I felt all the stretches - when I got down to doing the A-stretches, half way through my penis started trying to hide.. I took that as a sign that he had enough. hehe. I moved onto girth work and jelqed like crazy. The pump was awesome. Feeling good.

I shifted context this morning before my workout...

I heard the narrations 'I am sick - i am tired - lets just get on with it etc'
I felt the feelings 'weak, lazy, tired'

I looked down the path - where would I be in a years time, if I took the actions that came out as a result of the narrations and feelings?

Seeing my future path brought up tremendous shame/guilt, I would be the same size complaining about having a small dick and still experiencing insecurities and negative self reflections.. that path certainly is not WHO I AM.

I looked down another path - Facing the fear, facing the fatigue - and taking inspired action.... what was there in a years time? A huge cock, power, confidence... enthusiasm..

The choice was clear.


The context was set.

The workout was superb. I intend on taking it further with my next workout - more power is there for my taking.

Last nite I did a comparison with the dildo. I remember when I purchased it before starting Penis Enlargement and compared - I had these thoughts like 'if I use this on my woman, I wont be able to compare with my size' the dildo was much bigger.

Last night I looked - objectively - it took a long time for me to actually see reality. The dildo is not much bigger than I am anymore. He beats me - but I am definitely bridging the gap. He is 7 by 5.5, I am 6 by 4.75... in time I will own his ass. I want to destroy him by the end of next year.

I've attached some photos I took today, ignore the time stamp on the camera - the date resets when I replace the memory card. I'll keep using this fucker as a visual comparison as the months go on and keep the photos updated against him.... I will win.

Penis size? what is averarge. Everyone has an opinion so here is mine - There is not enough research/physical evidence out there to suggest we are able to make a conclusion. Any guess is speculative at best. There has not been enough research done from which to draw a conclusion. The sample sizes were small for starters. How can you draw an average size for 6 billion people (or more??) from a sample size of 300 and expect it to actually be an accurate measure of reality?

I'm done with averge penis size. Over.

It doesnt matter anyway. I'm on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] to become massive - HUGE. Whatever 'average' is said to be, in a year or two time I will decimate it.
 
M... another one.

Im still struggling with the gay as cold - let me rephrase, I am colding.

Energy levels are low - I feel like rat shit. Anywhoo - sitting down to Penis Enlargement I had no energy, I saw the contex that I was in 'Lets just get on with in, I'll just have an easy workout, I wont jelq hard, I should just have a day off'

All of that fun stuff...

I took responsibility again. I asked myself a serious of questions...

Who am i?

Who will I be today?

What do my dreams and promises I have made to myself mean right now?...


MM juicy..

Stretched hard - didnt do cranks - just went balistic on A-stretches... jelqed like crazy with lots of compressing - sweet as pump.

Still feel like shit - but so what? What do my feelings change? I still have my feet and I can still stand up and walk...

I'm getting this sense that time is really limited - months fly past in a blink...

When its all said and done - and I reflect on my life and who I have been - what will I see - who will I know myself as?

If I keep walking this path - I know exactly who I will be.
 
Today I mixed shit up again - still in context creation, still dead from flu

I did lazy ass stretches for about an hour then the A-stretchs

Then a couple hundred jelqs SS with compressions

One of the best pumps I've ever had.

I'm wandering what the difference is between those that train for 2-3 years and gain nothing - and those that gain 2 inches in a year.

I come back to variables that I can control

Intensity
Duration
Belief
Form
Consistency
Program
Context
Injury Prevention
Attitude
Limits
Supplaments
Visualization

There are variables that I cant

Genetics/Starting Stats


All I can do with the ones I cant control are to use them to my advantage.

What does that mean?

Genetics - Its best to work with what I have and visualize my cock - just bigger, not someone elses. Genetics can determine whether I gain hard or easy - I find myself in the middle. I gain with lots of time/effort. Genetics wasnt kind to me in size - but it did give me great erections - good libido etc.
I dont need to change anything here - I'm blessed with what I have and I have fun improving it.

Work with what I have - I will.

In terms of variables I can control - this is where it gets even more fun

Why do I put down limits (physical, emo and mental) in variables I can control? Because - with the simple shift of context, I can create new limits. Limits are defined - not in built. I am the writer of the story. I wasn't born with limits. So what? Well - everyone talks about being realistic in Penis Enlargement - dont get your hopes up? WHY THE FUCK NOT!!! I didnt start Penis Enlargement to be average - I started it up to to be huge - so what if I dont make it. I own my intention, and i own my desire. I take responsibility for what I want, I will make it happen somehow. Context sets and removes limits. I have no limits - I aim to be the biggest that I can possibly be.

The main area I have in front of me to focus on are

Context creation


The rest of it is pretty well under control....

Setting contexts for my journeys in Penis Enlargement, for my workouts, for my expectations - for everything - is the key for staying in the game

UG: Set context before workout, Set context for measuring, Set context for posting on the site, Set context for experiencing the journey of Penis Enlargement
 
Back into it hard this week...

I did my stretches from phase 2 - including some BTC, concentrating on the feeling that I was getting

I got into Jelqs next... hardcore baby, shitloads of compressing too - it looked so fat... haha... gains will come on phase 2... lots of gains, I feel the A-stretch and the compression squeezes really making a difference...

I wanted to integrate on sex the other night... 2 things; My cock has never been so big/hard AND my woman has never screamed so loud...

Penis Enlargement is working... I am gaining...

This is going to be a phase for growth. Massive growth

I had time to think across the weekend about Penis Enlargement and what I am getting out of this...

I challenged myself - I went deeper into my vision...

There are amazing opportunities for growth and gains here... I'm back into affirmations and belief shifting - controlling context - and gaining quickly...

Thats what it is all about - being the one. The one to walk this path

This week I am going to stay with context...

Going to have some challenges as family is staying over - so... I will have to rise extra early and do my Penis Enlargement in the bathroom - but thats cool...

I'll work around it... I dont want to pause and break momentum]

Onto vision - my vision was limited by my assumptions

That growth takes time
that DLD was different/special
That I gain slowly
That Penis Enlargement is hard work
etc etc

Rubbish - I've shifted this today... and I will walk with new beliefs in my heart

I gain naturally
Context and belief make the difference in growth
Penis Enlargement is fun
Growth comes quickly
I will be massive

That's the beliefs that I want guiding my life - not the limiting BS that kills my vision... I am going full blast this month... and I wont look back
 
Hi Benefit

Just wondering how you're doing with the exercises. I've had to have a week off due to my Crohn's disease but I'm back at it.

All the best.

Manimal

PS I like all the 'mental kung fu' you're doing with yourself. Wish I could be as positive as you, I get really low sometimes with my illness but I'm still here fighting so onwards and upwards.​
 
Whatsup.

Family came to visit. I was going to train Penis Enlargement during their stay - but I thought it was good time to take a week off from training.

I've been edging and doing heaps of kegels through the day. Lots of wanking too.

I'll be back into the game tomorrow.

I'll be back into playing with context when I return - something more powerful - piecing together a more powerful vision - and taking more inspired action.

I really want this.

I want it for myself

I want to see it

I want to hold it in my hands

and I want to fuck like a adult entertainment god with it

I want to experience myself in a new way

I will
 
Hi Benefit

Hope you had a nice time with your family.

As for the edging, I can't do that because it seems to give me premature ejaculation when I next have sex as I'm so horny. Decided it's best if I leave that stuff alone.


I want to fuck like a adult entertainment god with it
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Don't we all mate, don't we all. :)

All the best.

Manimal​
 
OK - had a few days off and I'm back into it again.

Last night I thought about how I was going to get back into Penis Enlargement smoothly.

This morning I rose - filled out my vision - and got back into Phase 2 stuff.

Stretching and jelqing like a man possessed.

MY hands have been getting a bit sore the last 2 weeks while doing Penis Enlargement - it didnt happen for the first few months - so I think I will go start getting regular (once every 2-3 mths) massages on my hands.. maybe some acupuncture too... keep it all flowing nicely.

I put an enormous amount of pressure on my hands when I am exercising so its only right that I take care of them properly

What else?

Workout was great - I set my context and new what I was doing in the moment.

It's getting on 6 mths since I restarted in Penis Enlargement. I cant believe how quickly the time has passed.

I want to write about the new year and what I see when I look down that path

for Penis Enlargement specifically I see myself adopting the same approach that I have been

5 or 6 days per week - high intensity - about an hour per session - and moving through the 5 phase routine

I see myself taking it further next year too

How?

By taing more control of context and belief

By getting committed to subconscious mind change techniques

I'm going to change shit up with my sex style too

I will be practicising Tao & PONR techniques - moving towards MMO later in the year

I'll keep a healthy approach and attitude to my workouts

The results will speak for themselves at the end of next year

They will match my dedication and drive

I stand by my previous thoughts- I want to be huge

I'll do what it takes to get there
 
Yesterday's workout was a bit crazy.. I did a nice double shift at work (finishing at 3 AM) - this was the only time I could do my Penis Enlargement exercises - so I did. I trained till 4 am - the usual phase 2 stuff then passed out. Exhausted.

But the few brief moments between laying in bed and falling asleep - all I could feel was self love. I faced everything that day and did not allow any narration or feeling (fatigue, pain etc) stop me on my path.

Today was easier. I got up early and got into phase 2 stuff...
I did about an hour of lazy ass stretches in addition to the usual stuff

My mind is perfectly clear. I had one of the greatest pumps ever - looking in the mirror after my workout was just... well.. amazing.

Some upgrades I want to make going into next year are getting an [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] and joining the members site. Whatever it takes to accelerate gains.

Still with context: Todays was brilliant. I knew what there was to do... Before my workout I thought about my Penis Enlargement heroes - the men who have come before and faced everything... there was no way that I could give less than my all today - in every stretch.

I'm going to go straight through (no rest days) until next Saturday - then I will take a day off...

Workouts have been great - the context shifting has really freed up my ability to think and believe in a way that supports my Penis Enlargement efforts. I'm not locked up in this inner struggle of 'will it work or won't it'. I'm giving it my all - using my reasoning mind as the tool for measuring what is real, and what is not.

There is enough proof to show that Penis Enlargement is real. There is enough proof on this site to show that penises can be made much bigger.

The greatest confirmation of reality testing these techniques is myself - I have grown. I have gained. The part of me that 'refuses to believe it, or cant believe it' is taking a backseat now. That voice - that context - those feelings - none of that is required as I go forward.

All I want to take on this journey is my spirit and my desire. Nothing else can come with me any longer.

All the excess baggage that has weighed me down thus far... even the shit that seemed so trivial that I let it keep living - its time for it to integrate into something more constructive. I'm not casting off aspects of self - I'm integrating and creating a syntheis of Self. One in which every element of my system is operating in harmony - cooperating for the glory of I.

What is there to see now?

I stand for being successful
I stand for being the one to live out my heroic vision
I stand for being the one who can never be defeated
I stand for my excellence and happiness in this world

I see the kind of world that I can create if I simply keep walking my path

I feel called when I consider what is at stake and what my life means to me

I feel called to take action right now

I'm going for another round of stretching.

Peace
 
Mmm... its been a good few days of workouts.

I've been going alot stronger and harder since I took my 4 day break.

Everything is clicking into place.

Mental attitude is good. Focus is right on. Energy levels are fine.

Today I did the usual phase 2 stuff - along with some edging, lazy assing and visualizing

Got an awesome pump and wound it down

My ligaments are totally roasted right now - I definitely hit the sweet spot today

I will keep creeping along this fucking ruler until I hit 7. That will be a milestone.

I think about DLD today. How much he has sacrificed to create what he has.

I think that this is what is all about. Of course hes obsessive. Every man that every accomplished anything worthwhile was.

It takes courage, committment - and a burning desire to keep your vision alive. Most people do not realize what it really feels like to give your ALL to something. I would argue that there is no other way to live. The pain - the shame... the judgments, the sacrifice... the fights, the tears... the blood - the sweat... all the heroes that have come before fought the same battle. I against I - win or lose - live or die - GIVE IT MY FUCKING ALL!!!

Thats why I am walking the same path. A total quack, fully committed to nothing but my vision. I'm glad to be called selfish, stubborn, unrealistic - and the rest of the BS that comes with making a real committment to my own happiness. Those judgments are nothing but fuel for my fire. I only listen to myself now.

What other way is there to live?

Is it even a choice?

The New year will be a time to dive deeper and test the limits of all my systems.

Time is limited. I've wasted enough chasing goals that were not my own.

I've put too much time and effort into being a good friend - making other people proud - being a 'good' person - being what I was conditioned to be.

Fortunately I am awake now. I know who I am and I know what my life really means.

In the new year I move with a sense of urgency. I move as a man determined to reclaim his life.

It's time to write a new story and leave the past behind.

I am writing the story now. The main character is me.

I ask myself.. How do I want my character to behave?

What do I want for him?

Who is he?

How does he breathe?

How does he relate to the world?

Then I walk into that vision and take ownership of my life.

Peace
 
Obsession?

Damn fucking right? What else is there?

I did the usual phase 2 stuff yesterday.

Afterwards I started digging back through my journal - I read a message I left for myself about 2-3 years ago. It was when gains werent coming in natural Penis Enlargement (all i knew was jelq and basic stretching) - and I was convinced that my time could be much better spent in a few years time when the science of NPenis Enlargement evolved - so I stopped Penis Enlargementing.. (in hindisght it was a mistake - but my vision was narrow.. I took action in line with what I saw for my future)

The message was emotional. It was one of faith and courage.

It was one of desperation. It was one of pain.

There was everything contained inside the message.

It sounded like a man obsessed. I recall my approach to Penis Enlargement was skeptical... but the one area that totally killed my progress and vision was self love. I didnt love my penis or myself that long ago. I approached Penis Enlargement from a 'lack' perspective.. My reality was very much fear based. I could see something screaming out from the message - I name it my spirit. It was there - alive - screaming at me to take charge. I AM.

I look at my approach to Penis Enlargement now that I back in the game. I am hungry now. I've learnt my lessons from the past. Not learnt as in 'I know' but learnt as in - integrated into my life. I spend just as much time preparing the ground as I do watering the plant. I focus on self love.

I look to bodybuilding. If you worry - experience fear- doubt etc... your body produces cortisol. I think THAT SINGLE FACTOR is responsibile for my previous lack of gains - and the lack of gains for thousands of men.

Pe is largely mental. The relationship between mental Penis Enlargement and physical growth is not mystical. It is rational. If you keep a healthy outlook and belief the best - your body will produce the chemicals and reactions conducive to growth. Conversely, if I worry and think about what I dont have- my body will pump out shitty chemicals and carry out negative proceses - which limit my ability to grow.

The knowledge of yestredays pain was fuel for my fire today...

I mixed shit up for the first time since starting again.

Stretched like a mad man. Straight down to the right then left for 2 minutes each.super setted with compression with 50 kegels. Then repeat 2-3 times. Did the same upwards. Then with BTC stretches.
I did lazy ass stretches between sets

I had a mad pump. But thought fuck it - I did a few hundred jelqs throwing in a compression squeeze every 50 or so.


Last night I saw a really powerful vision. Up until now I have been looking at Penis Enlargement as a 2 year investment - something like a short fix. Last night I asked myself 'What If I did Penis Enlargement fully committed for 5 whole years??" shiiiit....
The knowledge - the experience- the possibilities really open up.

In 5 years I would have the opportunity to try pumping, hanging, clamping, chemical injections, herbs, pills - the whole Penis Enlargement toolbox - and find precisely what creates massive growth for me.

Furthermore... I have gained 1.2 cm in a little less than 6 mths. I think... even I gained 1 cm in EL for the next 4 1/2 yrs... thats another 9 cm!~!! geezus.

That would pump me up to over 10 inches.

Even if I split those gains in half and say I gain only 1 cm per year... thats 2 inches after 5 years!!!

crazy huh?!!!

Taking this long term view really allowed my vision to expand. I can see more now along this path...

There is a problem with this line of thinking. Many people argue that work spreads out to take up the amount of time that there is for its completion.

Whats my solution? Well its more like a tool - a long term focus - with short term goals and milestones.

I look at all the guys that have made massive gains in Penis Enlargement.

They all made HUGE sacrifices. They gave up a lot - they found ways to keep their vision alive. They didnt quit.

I read RedZulus log yesterday... that boy was obsessed. When I read through DLD's progress - he was obsessed. Every single one of them put Penis Enlargement among the top of their values list - if not AT THE TOP.

Moving forward I'm going to start experimenting more. I'll stick with Phase 2 DLD routine until the end of Jan just to be sure that its ready THEN... THEN.. OH GOD... its gonna get messy in here.

The crazier the better. I'm going to find/create the most powerful tools for growth - whatever it takes.

FUCK IT!!!!
 
Back in 08!!! and it feels good!!!

The last few days have been great.

I've been working out hard - doing my new superset routine

I do a stretch for a minute in any direction - then follow it with a full compression with 50 kegels.

Then repeat. I do this stretching in every direction then with 2 cranks to finish things off.

My penis is looonnnnng when I finish this.

I follow up with jelqs supersetted with compression squeeses.

I do T-Health at night - some kegels during the day - and if I get onto the PC I do some lazy ass stretches as well..

I've been reading lots of Penis Enlargement articles lately. I read a thought provoking one on positive and negative growth indicators.

I've found that the routine that I am using now is producing lots of positive growth indicators.

Semi flaccid all day long
worked ligaments (tender but not sore)
massive erections in the mornings

Mainly - mypost workout pump is enormous and stays around for a few hours.. I think that is one of the keys for growth - time will confirm.


I found that when I was doing A-strethces - YES the stretch was intense - but my penis would turtle up after the exercises like they were really causing injury... so I'm taking them out of my routine... I think they are too advanced for my penis for now... ill come back to them again in a few mths.

I'll go along with this one for a few months then move onto a phase 3 type of routine.... or just put a-stretch and sock stretches back in the game... with one more girth exercise.... its looking good

SEX! oh yeh.... I'm a porno star baby. Sex has been absoultely incredible... I've built a brand new cock for myself by doing Penis Enlargement - erections of steel - [words=http://fleshlight.sjv.io/c/348327/302851/4702]stamina[/words] - after I cum - its hard again in no time - more self acceptance and confidence... its all coming to fruition. My woman can barely handle the meat now... its awesome...

Looking down the path; for 08 - growth is a given.

I'll measure at then end of Jan - I'm aiming for 6 1/4 NPenis EnlargementL...

I'll keep using a length focus up until I hit around 7 - then I'll switch it over. I'm using the thinking of 'its easier to stretch a thin one longer'... I'm not sure how scientific this line of thinking is - but it does make sense, to logic.

I just gotta be patient with my girth lust. But that will come with time.

Peace
 
Wattup

The last few days have been going really well in regards to Penis Enlargement

One thing that is on my mind is my woman - she has been whinging non stop about my Penis Enlargement-ing activities - she wants to know why - why - why I do it and keeps digging... frustrating. She hit a raw nerve 'Do you think your dick is small, why are you obsessed? don't you think its big enough?' etc etc...

She keeps nagging me to get closure and stop Penis Enlargementing. As much as it annoys me to hell and back - she's right - I'm holding onto some pain from the past, and its time to release it. I'm looking inside - really deep - to get clear on my motivations, why do I Penis Enlargement? So I can fuck my ex's like the dirty sluts they are?

Or so I can experience myself in new way?

I dont know if the virus is only in my head - or are there other men out there - holding the sacred part of themselves back while they have sex/make love to their woman? At a feeling level, I know that there is something I'm not revealing - almost as if my insecurities are preventing me from being FULLY authentic...

I think this also is linked to the pain of yesterday. Walls get built after bad experiences - and they stay up until we consciously take them down... whats a man to do?

Trust a woman? Trust the woman that I'm with? Trust my own judgment?

This is territory I have avoided through meaningless fucking for so long - but here it is... staring me in the face.

I've got to make some ground here - OR I will be held prisoner by my own insecurities and fears... in all my relationships - no matter how great the woman.. A lot of it is simply in my head.

I'll clear this shit out and make peace with this 'pure' aspect of self that I havent shown for a long time - if ever - when I think about it -there really isnt anything to be afraid off. It can never hurt more than it did the first time - my judgment is clearer - I pick good woman - I use my mind - I'm not a slave to sex - all the evidence exists to suggest that I am in control of this area of my life as well as I can be. Armed with the knowledge that I am playing at the level of 'reality' - I can walk forward with courage.

All or nothing? Yeah.

The rest of it is inner peace.

Blind faith cant exist in my relationships. It's trust - through reason and logic - through knowledge - through gut feeling & at an emotional knowing level - checking with every decision making faculty to see if my entire Self is aligned... right now its not - the mind is in conflict (self created... I know), emotions are clear, gut is clear... it looks like the mess is in my head...

I've been thinking about love alot. What is love? Really...? At an experiential level? I think this needs redefinition in my language

Relationships do my head in, seriously. They bring so much shit up to the surface - especially if you have a partner that you grow with. Endless cycle of conflict, discussion, feelings, deconstruction - creation. I remember why I stayed single for so long!

Onto Pe - I've been following the modified newbie program - rocking shit up with my super sets - the pumps have been really good.

Last night was weird - I caught a glimpse in the mirror and my cock looked bigger - during sex, the kitty is hell tight - tighter even. I think I have grown -I'm going to hold of on measuring until.. oh end of Feb - I think something is brewing.

Another thing I have been pondering on is putting the art/science of Penis Enlargement through the AQAL model. I've got some notes down so I'll keep working with that. This will be my giving back to the place that gave so much to me.

I'm sure inches will be gained by heaps of people; anyone interested in getting on board - PM me.

Peace
 
Thanks Fedora!

I appreciate the love brother!

The gains are around the corner you say? I'm going to chase those mutherfuckers then.. GIMME GROWTH, RAHH!! Haha

Anywhoo

Just a quick update.

I went hard for 2 or so days on my program that I'm using now and I copped a bit of an injury

Pulling down to the left caused pain. Mmm.. yes, the unbearable type.

So I've taken 3 days off Penis Enlargement to heal. I'll check with my penis tomorrow and see if he is ready for some more love.

I know exactly how I did it. I was doing lazy ass stretches - being a fucking lazy ass, and strethed it too far in a position that it obviously didnt like. I could tell that something was different when I tucked it out from under my ass/leg - but ignored it. The next day when I went to Penis Enlargement I felt pain... so.... here I am.

I had a bit of a play with it today and it felt great. SO ill be back in the game tomorrow.

Time off is fine. I'm going to have some new gains to report by months end.... im sure of this... my cock looks awesome... haha :) but of course it does...

So... whats the lesson? dont overreach?.. .yeah. I think thats the one

Less is more...

Peace
 
Great Post Bro!

Very Insightful and well written. You have a skill with putting what you feel in writing.

Thanks for sharing that and I give you all the positive thoughts of success I can offer.

It looks like you are learnind a lot about yourself right now and your awareness is growing. Expect this conflict as you dump and challenge old beleifs.
 
Thanks for the support Airshy.

Your right - letting go of old belief constructs drums up all the bs... but its a path to something greater.

My head is much clearer and I feel a whole lot more peace and self-love since I took this path (self discovery-mastery etc).

Thank you for the warm wishes of success man, this really means alot to me.

Once again, congrats on hitting your goal!!! That is totally incredible.

A few years time I'll be where I want to be.

Shit 6 months has passed so quickly.... 5 years will take no time at all. I'm happy to ride this one to the end.

Moving forward.

Todays and yesterdays workout were both good. Lots of stretching and jelqing.

I'm stretching after I pee also..
and I'm back into T-Health stretching
Taking arginine and tribulus...

The workouts were good... I focused on stretching farrrrrr out - mmm...

Gotta go far... gotta go hard. HARDER, FURTHER...

I watched braveheart the other day. Fuck yeah...

Mel Gibson is chillin on the torture rack and all he says to say is 'mercy' and he will be allowed to live. Instead of screaming mercy he digs deep and yells out 'FREEDOM!!!!!!'

MMM... Thats the mentality that I'm taking with Penis Enlargement moving forward. There is a point where my penis/hands/brain wants to scream out mercy. I wont let it. I'm screaming out something else - I havent found the word for it... but its ruthless, and it wont allow me to give up.

Peace
 
gone from 15.2 CM NPenis EnlargementL to 15.5 CM NPenis EnlargementL.

.3 CM in 2 months.

I'm fucking stoked.

I'm soooooo close to 6 1/4... Thats the aim for jan/feb.

Then I can almost see 6 1/2... right around the next corner...

I cant fucking believe it. I was getting a bit down the last week or so about having such lame growth and then getting injured and having to take a few days off (I didnt let this mood last for too long but it was very real to me)...

But... it has grown... I'm over the moon about this. That brings my total growth in EL to 1.3cm in 6 mths (yesterday was my 6 mth anniversey hehe).
I'm quite stoked with this. I did Penis Enlargement for almost a year a few years back and gained about an inch - so with getting back I knew there was a possibility that I had exhausted newbie gains previously. But time off seems to have done the trick.

I havent bothered to measure EG today - but thus far it has grown 1cm.

I'm still focused on stretching my thin one longer - I'll start some crazy ass girth program when I get up around the 7" mark.

Hehe... there's really no one else in the world to share these gains with except you guys... :p I'm feeling pretty fucking good today.

For a results focused guy like me - nothing motivates me more than seeing the kind of change I am working towards - this it totally incredible

Thank you guys!
 
Whatttup crew

Its been a while – I had a whole stack of shit going on – but no setbacks on my Penis Enlargement progress. I am still chilling around the 15.5 mark – fucking cool stuff. I am so stoked. My penis is responding so well to the exercises – my erections are hard as steel – sex is good – better even – confidence is high.. and self acceptance is growing… I feel tremendous power being generated as I walk this path

The same workouts apply – albeit its been a bit eclectic, ill get into a proper routine soon – currently I am playing with ‘ideas’ more so than solutions. IE – stretch hard, warm up and down properly – stretch through the day, perfect form – not so worried about doing it for a set time etc. I’m in the flow.

Most of the workouts involve a minute stretching in any direction, intense, really feeling it – supersetted with a compression. Then jelqing with suppersetting compression squeezes… throwing in some stretching after I pee – and lazy ass stretches during the week – growth is coming

I’m still in the game. Growing complacent has been a temptation. My woman tells me she is very happy with it – I look down and feel pretty happy with it – its been easy to find an excuse out – but I haven’t. I took a stand for something, and im still standing for it – I wont let narrations, feelings, or compliments hold me back from realizing my fullest potential.

I cry out ‘MORE!!!!’

Penis Enlargement is fun. I’m looking at bringing in new methods for making it even more enjoyable. I hate ‘work’. What that comment really means is I dislike experiencing something as difficult or painful or not desirable. Following this line of thinking – it is clear that a lack of enjoyment isn’t contained in the task itself – its in the mind. Why can one guy have sex with 5 gorgeous woman in a night, drive around in his Ferrari – then take his jet to Europe – and FEEL and experience life as ‘shit, or unbearable’ or find himself ‘unhappy, or unfulfilled’.. while an immigrant toilet cleaner working on minimum wage, coming home to a shitty apartment and getting nowhere can see his life as amazing, and feel himself as truly blessed.

Interpretation. Context. Meaning.

Those are the keys to the puzzle.

The keys are not trying harder or putting in more effort… the keys are taking ownership of context.

Taking full responsibility for going for what you want. And not letting anything stop you…

Peace
 
Benefit;292138 said:
Whatttup crew

Its been a while – I had a whole stack of shit going on – but no setbacks on my Penis Enlargement progress. I am still chilling around the 15.5 mark – fucking cool stuff. I am so stoked. My penis is responding so well to the exercises – my erections are hard as steel – sex is good – better even – confidence is high.. and self acceptance is growing… I feel tremendous power being generated as I walk this path

The same workouts apply – albeit its been a bit eclectic, ill get into a proper routine soon – currently I am playing with ‘ideas’ more so than solutions. IE – stretch hard, warm up and down properly – stretch through the day, perfect form – not so worried about doing it for a set time etc. I’m in the flow.

Most of the workouts involve a minute stretching in any direction, intense, really feeling it – supersetted with a compression. Then jelqing with suppersetting compression squeezes… throwing in some stretching after I pee – and lazy ass stretches during the week – growth is coming

I’m still in the game. Growing complacent has been a temptation. My woman tells me she is very happy with it – I look down and feel pretty happy with it – its been easy to find an excuse out – but I haven’t. I took a stand for something, and im still standing for it – I wont let narrations, feelings, or compliments hold me back from realizing my fullest potential.

I cry out ‘MORE!!!!’

Penis Enlargement is fun. I’m looking at bringing in new methods for making it even more enjoyable. I hate ‘work’. What that comment really means is I dislike experiencing something as difficult or painful or not desirable. Following this line of thinking – it is clear that a lack of enjoyment isn’t contained in the task itself – its in the mind. Why can one guy have sex with 5 gorgeous woman in a night, drive around in his Ferrari – then take his jet to Europe – and FEEL and experience life as ‘shit, or unbearable’ or find himself ‘unhappy, or unfulfilled’.. while an immigrant toilet cleaner working on minimum wage, coming home to a shitty apartment and getting nowhere can see his life as amazing, and feel himself as truly blessed.

Interpretation. Context. Meaning.

Those are the keys to the puzzle.

The keys are not trying harder or putting in more effort… the keys are taking ownership of context.

Taking full responsibility for going for what you want. And not letting anything stop you…

Peace
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Impressing Benefit!

So poethic, true and serious approach. Seems that you ave found a very good approach to stretching that will last and contiue growth. Stretch everywhere you have the chance. And once you feel like your member feels in the jelly state, stretch even more, never let tht state go, push progressive beyond the limit, little by little.

Really good blog Benefit. You also have the writer´s gift. Your sentances becomes beautiful Penis Enlargement poethry.
 
Hey guys – sorry I haven’t been able to post on my blog lately. My internet explorer kept crashing whenever I went to press send so I just left it alone for a while. I’m on mozilla now – which seems to be handling the job much better.

To Penis Enlargement Related matters; its been pretty turbulent waters lately. I’ve just picked up another job so my hours are pretty messy. This is my first week doing it – so my system has been chaotic. I’ve been working late nights at the other job – and had a whole lot of things going on in other areas of my life.

Still I am Penis Enlargement-ing.

I’m still here – standing for something.

I took 3 days off when I started the new job – I was just too fkn tired (this is what I told myself – was it true? At the time I would have defended that as the truth to death – now, in reflection, I’m not so sure that it was) to get up and Penis Enlargement. This morning my alarm went off and I was very temped to hit snooze. I felt exhausted… I thought about it ‘What’s at stake here?’ ‘Whats more important, another hour or sleep or building a massive cock?’… I got up and started to Penis Enlargement like a zombie. Funny stuff.

Eyes glued together jelqing my ass off. I did this to some very loud music so it was only a matter of time before the brain went ‘whats going on here?’ and I was into it.

I have no new gains to report. At my best im chilling at 15.5 NPenis EnlargementL
Averages out to about 15.2-3… moving forward I’d like to make 15.5 my constant erect size – not just the ‘on a good day size’. See how that goes…

AT the end of Feb I’m going to put together a new system and a new routine to accelerate some gains. Some serious action is required on my behalf if I intend to keep gaining – being results focused, I love seeing gains.

I’ve been asking myself: Why do I Penis Enlargement? To build a bigger cock?

Following this – How effectively is the system I’m using building this bigger cock?

Moderately. My solution to the question ‘how do I build a bigger cock?’ is not getting me the results I am after. It’s gotten me results – but I have put in enough work for more results – the challenge is not more work – its to find the ‘right work’

No action should be undertaken without a purpose; if the purpose of Penis Enlargement is to build a bigger cock, and the system I’m using is not working – my actions are purposeless.

So I ask… What part of my system is the core constraint? What part of my system is rendering the rest of my actions worthless or LIMITING THEM to mediocre results and gains?

This is bigger than Penis Enlargement – this is everything.

Again – its context. It’s the narrations, it’s the BS – it’s the weak system – it’s the excuses – it’s the laziness.
I take full responsibility for the results I have created thus far. Who can I blame? God? Haha… Genetics? Haha… laughable. It’s all in systems. MY results are one upgrade away.

If I want this I have to resolve to pay the price for making it mine, no matter the cost. That’s the essence of warrior ship – If I want freedom – and the price is death? – Fine, ill gladly pay that.

Seems like a lot has brewed since my break from blogging – Hydromaxm… a lot more than I thought.

Moving forward with this integration; I’m back to getting up in the AM and peing every morning – stretching during the day – doing some lazy ass stretches – and the usual stuff…. But before I go on making any new upgrades – I need to fill out a new vision for Penis Enlargement – yesterdays answer is not good enough, I need to see what there is to see now – then start walking again –

I have fallen over the last few weeks. I can admit to myself that my inspiration and vision for Penis Enlargement (based on results) has definitely died down. This made it easier to avoid doing Penis Enlargement in the mornings. It’s a slippery slope. ONE COMPROMISE can send you down the path, and the battle is lost. But I’m back now, I’m awake and I’m ready to step it up again.

Peace


PS: Fed thanks for dropping in man – its always a pleasure to hear from you. I hope everything is going well on your end!!! I’ll take up your challenge for the months end and push further… I’ve gotta keep my vision alive. I cant settle for average – I wont lose this battle.
 
Whattsup guys?

I'm back in the Penis Enlargement game. Got some order back into my life now that the new job is under control.

I'm back in the game! Today I started my new routine... I've worn out my newbie gains - and frankly, I'm bored and its time for a change.

The way I'm doing things now is supersetting sock stretches with cranks
then doing a few reps of A-stretches

I finish up with 5 Supra Slammers. OMG... guys - if you haven't tried these - do yourself a favour - I've never seen my penis so fat after a workout - crazy stuff.

So im training to gain - I'm gonna keep pushing to the max and moving forward. I cant give up.

This is still not an option. I'm going to hit my goals somewhere down the line.

Not sure if I'm going to hit Feb goals.. I'm doing all the right things to make it happen though, time will tell.

Work pressure has been a bit of a whore lately - but such is life.

I wont compromise on my values, any of them. I
ll keep fighting this fight and getting better and better every day.

New routine - New excercises - New vision - I feel like a brand new man - starting again - accelerating my growth

This is what there is for me to do, and I'm going to do it

It's still context - its still self love - its still control - its still freedom - its still power.. it always will be

I stand for these values and ill put everything on the line for them..

I know what the price is to create what I want - and I'm ready now as I'll ever be to pay it.

Peace
 
The last week has been awesome with Penis Enlargement. The new job is falling into place - somehow... and I've been working out following Supra's program.

Intensity, infrequency, quality. Basing my movements on those principles.

Workouts are brutal...
and I must say its about fucking that I made some gains - another .2 cm... woot woot...

That brings my NPenis EnlargementL to 15.7... fucking unreal... didnt quite hit the goal I was after for the end of feb but thats cool... Next month will prove more fruitful.

I've been working out hard - so its going to happen.

Aiming for 16cm by the end of March. I think the program I've got in place now is just right to make that happen. I'll keep creeping up to the 7 mark, it will come... years end will have me sitting on 7 for sure.. maybe ++

So whats news? Lots - started my own business - within a business - been shit busy building contacts and generating leads the last few weeks - had a lot of shit on my mind. The going has been pretty crazy, but whenever I get a moment to breathe I pause. I reflect and I see who I am in this world. Honour washes over me - and I know that there is no other way I would choose to live my life - other than full pedal!!!!

Relationship has been tough. Woman has been nagging because I'm so busy and have little time for her. Even good sex cant change that.

I'm moving forward - I feel like this month has been a transit for me, so much shit has been brewing - and the way I move forward will determine so much for my future - so I walk boldly. I'm here to fill out my vision and live with a profound sense of peace and self love.

Guys GUYS!!! It's still about vision. I am guided by a vision whether I know it or not. The choice is whether I want to take responsibility for guiding myself - or I'm happy to accept the system that's currently at play.

What I see when I look down the path of Penis Enlargement....

I want to build a big thick powerful cock
I want to fuck my woman to unbelievable orgasms
I want to be confident in my size

Whats the value behind my desire? The feelings, the experiences, the sensations that come with being EXACTLY WHO I WANT TO BE....

Whats more important than that?

I stand for being the one to build a huge, powerful cock
I stand for being confident
I stand for being the one, to satisfy my woman
I stand for being the one that gets the most gorgeous woman

Damn... when I read through my stands I get inspired- I feel it taking over...

The more I see myself standing for being big, and powerful, and fucking gorgeous woman every night the more I see...

The more I see myself getting up tomorrow and doing a massive Penis Enlargement workout

The more I see that, the more I see that I am one step closer to reaching my goal

The more I see that, the more I see... myself taking the time out to reflect on my Penis Enlargement Heroes - the ones that came before me and made this change - fought this battle and won

And the more I see that, the more I see myself FEELING a deep calling to rise up and face what there is to face

The more I see that, the more I see that, the more I see myself reading through Supra's old articles

The more I see that, the more I see myself getting more incredible ideas to improve my workouts

And the more I see that, the more I see myself working out more effectively

And the more I see that, the more I see... the more i see incredible gains

The more I see that, the more I see myself entering my woman and hearing her SCREAM like no woman has ever screamed before

The more I see that, the more I see myself getting a fresh burst of confidence and self love

And the more I see that, the more I see... myself facing my insecurities and fucking like a adult entertainment star

The more I see that, the more I see myself working out harder and integrating more ideas

The more I see that, the more I see incredible growth

The more I see that, the more I see myself holding my BIG THICK cock in my hands

The more I see that, the more I see that I feel a sense of peace

The more I see that, the more I see that I live my life more freely and openly

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I'm plugged in and this whole fucking world is gonna know who I am.

Peace
 
Another month is down...

Any gains to report? No... . I'll leave gains to the side for a moment

The last 6 weeks have been pathetic in terms of Penis Enlargement

I hadn't even realized the level of compromise that was taking place. I dont want to think about it, or talk about - I let myself down.

I'm back with new hunger, for new gains.

They will come. I got back into it properly this weekend. I'm back in the game.

I want to hit 7 inches by years end, and the only way to do it is to Penis Enlargement my ass off.

So today is a day to realign with my vision - to feed the flame.

I want to build a great, huge, thick cock.

Clarity of purpose.

I'm turning it all around in April.

What caused the shift?

A shift in perception....

What is the value? Self confidence, a big cock, better sex, more sex, my womans pleasure, my pleasure, honour

What did it take to create the value? Hours upon hours of burtal exercise - mental strain... torment, fatigue, fighting in the face of all the voices in my head... sacrifice, committment - pride... it took so much to get here..

What was my original vision for this value? It's to hit 7 inches - hold it in my hand and feel an incredible sense of honour - to enter my woman and hear her moan like she has never moaned before - to walk as a man with a new found increased confidence in who i am...

I've paid the price to be here: The value is behind this brick wall. How many hits does it take to destroy the brick wall? I dont know. But I'm finding out. And if I move on to the next wall before I take this one down - I will miss out. It might be only a few more hits away....

Today: some jelqing, some supra slammers and some hardcore stretching - gains will come... oh they will come. In April I will put on 1/4 inch.

Peace
 
Decimated the first two days of april in terms of Penis Enlargement workouts.
Today I saw the greatest expansion ever. I put on the dirtiest, filthiest adult entertainment I could find and thought about the filthiest girls I've ever fucked. Did that for about 10 minutes while slowly jelqing.

Then I hit the supra slammers - I did about 15 of them, and OMFG... haha!! This is insane. I was fighting the urge to come for about 45 minutes... ;)

The expansion was awesome, so I know what it takes. Gotta get DIRTYYYY!!!

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She touches me softly and says that she likes it like this/ (BORING!)
I'm in a crisis, the inside of my minds iris is inviting me to violence/
AND There's no way that I can fight it,
I start wildin, my dick tearing her hymen,
I'm analyzing her eyes spill tears, shes crying in fits/
I'm sliding in and out of her lips/
its only that real tight pussy that makes me hard like this/
Makes my dick large and thick, start barging in/
Consent? HA!
I get up in her cunt till my balls are wet from the blood/
Easy hoes!
I Mistreat and beat these hoes/
I need these hoes for nothing but
to release my load and feed me in the morn/
feel me doggs?
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That kind of DIRTY!!! DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!! Turn on the dirty switch and imagine myself fucking the hoooooooooottttttttest bitch alive - ramming her with my ROD!!!!

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Completely out of my fucking mind today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Alcohol used to a suitable solution. Then denial. Then ignorance. All from the same root; ESCAPISM.

No matter what action I take -reality will still be here. Objective reality will always exist. No matter how much I feel like avoiding it - avoiding the truth - avoiding my responsibilities. Avoiding the promises that I have made to myself.

Avoiding action. Avoiding my values. avoiding the questions. Avoiding my reflection. Avoiding introspection and avoiding taking responsibility for my intention....

That action itself is intention. Sub or conscious - escapism was still intended here. To keep me safe? Safe from what? A world that supports me and conspires to give me everything I need?

How absurd.

Check the premise.

Ok: so I left my job, my relationship is fucked... my health has deteriorated - I have lost passion and purpose, I have compromised all my other values - succcess, happiness, honour, courage -

The self reflections are messy. The feelings are dark. The thoughts are distubring. And this is the price I promised myself I would pay.. and I am paying it fully.

The price of fighting an adversary I once thought too great - my lower self.

I'll slay these demons with every life affirming action I take. My being here now - having the will to put this mess together and move forward symbolizes the power of my spirit.

so what if I stumble? So what if I fall.

Courage is the voice at the end of the day that says
'I will try again tomorrow'

And I will.
 
YOooo

Another routine down. The last 8 days of Penis Enlargement has been phenomenal - god it feels good to have the time to train again.

Its been the same for the last few days - Supra Slammers with an extra 20-30 minutes dry jelqing - a few times a week... thats the routine that I am on. The things that I am seeing - I think I will have some pretty terrific gains to report by the end of the month. The pumps I've been getting with this routine have been the BEST.

I'm expecting some serious growth. At least 1/4 inch... should put me up to 6 1/2. Very anxious about pulling out the ruler but I am going to wait...

Mental Penis Enlargement side has been good - before Penis Enlargement I visualize for a few minutes - and I have been flashing images of my dream cock in my mind a few times a week again... Its so good to be back in integrity with my values....

Wont let work take over again?

Size perceptions? This has been on my mind lately. Sometimes when I look down, it looks bigger. sometimes smaller, sometimes the same. The differences in perception are simply that. Reality is not changing in front of my eyes when my perception is switching back and forth constantly.

Whats left for me to do is take control of perspective - and simply move to ONE dominant perspective of ' My cock is getting much much bigger withe very workout'...

Mental Penis Enlargement: I still lean towards this being a key - a powerful key to some tremendous growth... so how can I use it?

I feel the stress and worry that I carrying around in my head - all the doubts... I drop them down to my shoulders - i see them all falling down from my mind down to my shoulders - I tense my shoulders - then I relax them - and let the thoughts fall down to the floor and disintegrate.

This brings deep peace.

I'm excited about Penis Enlargement again. The last month has seen basically no gains - due to no workouts - hence little vision. Now that I am back in form with a new routine - im excited about the possibility of some insane gains... so let them come!!!!!
 
The last month or so has seen me following supras routine.

Slow jelqs
10 or so supra slammers SS with compression squeezes

I'm focusing on utilizing the principles of quality, intensity, and infrequency as set out by Supra.

I'm not measuring until the end of June. That will give me 3 full months on the new routine. No excuses.

Very interested to see what happens.

My mental state for every part of my life has been exceptional - except for Penis Enlargement.

Penis Enlargement has been average. I'm playing with beliefs and positive thinking again. Through my AQAL journey- I've found myself losing valuable progress by self-limiting thoughts. This shit is changing up again.

Its been cool. I found myself going through the motions during one workout. Then I Re-Read my vision for Penis Enlargement - and wrote out a new one. I approached my workout with a new found focus - and the pump was phenomenal.

Thats the drive I'm putting up going forward. I'm sick of stalled growth. I've been visualizing alot lately.

I KNOW THAT GAINS are around the corner. A few nights ago I had a dream I was measuring my penis.

I expected to see the usual 6-6.5" - and I did for a moment. Then something happened - I'm not sure how to describe it, either my penis grew the extra size in the spot - or my perception changed to show me a new reality- and I saw 7.5" on the ruler. I was holding a fatter, longer dick in my hand. It felt so real.

This is the sign that MY MIND has finally come to the table. Thank you.

My AQAL journey has been interesting. I stripped my entire Penis Enlargement system through the AQAL map.. hold up

OK... what I found was always there to be found.

The elements holding me back are

mental state
and intra subjective fit with my partner and my Penis Enlargement

This is going to be a nice process. I've taken action. The mental state is back to being guided by specific standards

IE
Visualize once a day
Affirm positive statements while Penis Enlargement

I slipped from these standards because I was measuring too often and not seeing gains that I thought were adequate. So ive thrown out the ruler and I'm back to what will lay down the proper foundations

In terms of partner. I've adjusted the functional fit.

This has removed the thoughts/feelings that arose from the situations. The guilt/fear etc is gone.

These upgrades should have been made a long time ago. But I got sloppy.

I didnt want to look at reality. I didnt want to accept the possibility that a whole year of Penis Enlargement would pass without me hitting my goals. I tried to give myself an out - so that if i didnt hit my goals it would be ok. I didnt do this consciously - but I can see how I set myself to fail.

Anyway. Upgrades are made - and its time to get walking again.

Peace
 
Whattup.

I havent dropped in a while.

Things are cool Penis Enlargement wise. I'm in proper normal routine now. I am working normal hours - no more late nights and weekends etc - soooo I can Penis Enlargement a bit more comfortably the same time every day - or night. This has made the last 2 weeks of Penis Enlargement AWESOME!!!! WOO HOO.

I dumped a lot of stuff in my AQAL thread.

I'm leaving. I've disconnected. I am moving forward on my own. On my OWN.

Routine is still the same: some jelqing, some supra slammers and some compression squeezes - 3-5 times p/w - going HARD... its enjoyable again because im not so tired from work... much better.

Finally got my system right. Now I want to take it further.

I'm shooting for 6 3/4 - 7 by years end. That would be fly. 8 is the end goal
(09-10-11?? who knows).

I'm trying to itnegrate two disparate ideas:

Go slow
& Rush

Both sides have a point:

'Its not like you got the luxury to learn it slow/
either you pimping or getting pimped, that's how it go/ M1 from Dead Prez

'No time to hesitate at the gate: DO IT NOW!! [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]Mos[/words] Def

I find that neither of them get me very far - for long.

If I sprint I burn out and then I have to take time off to replenish.

If I crawl I dont get anywhere near my goals.

I dont think that there is any supreme rule of thumb for approach.

For me I find moving quickly towards what I want - and listening to my body and mind system and ensuring it is healthy and vibrant - This is where I can create what I value. This is where I feel good. This is where I love my life.
 
Whatup peeps - long time no drop.

Penis Enlargement went on the backburner for a few months

Messy breakup - followed by a long downward spiral.

Stopped gym, stopped Penis Enlargement, quit my job - closed myself off from the world.

Drugs, booze, whores - anything went. Anything destructive anyway.

hehe.

I've pieced most of it back together - new job, new lady, friendships are back on, back into gym - and now back to Penis Enlargement.

I'll start posting again every few weeks. All the best guys!

Peace
 
yo right on dude - its all mind over matter
if you really want it you will get there
I personally feel you gotta live healthy (eat right, sleep enough and on a schedule, exercise, etc. to get the most out of Penis Enlargement) so you should stick to that and stay away from that anything goes thats bad for you shit
But keep on man and you will get there
good luck
 
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