Injury / Feeling terrified.. help

doublelongdaddy;721265 said:

Big time! I have a few things to say on this. First, what I find most important for every Brother, if possible, is to spend a couple years by yourself and learn to live with yourself. This brings so much growth to the mind and so much more self confidence not relying on others to feel good about ourselves. I believe a woman is most impressed with the independence a man exhibits as this shows her that he does not 'need' someone to care for himself as he can do this himself and this is a very attractive quality.

Loneliness is a tough thing and for me I got through this by putting all my trust in Jesus. Once I was able to do this completely I no longer felt the sting of loneliness as I has my Master to speak with whenever I need. I also keep a very close relationship with my Son, who understands me in every way. Even though we duo not live with each other we desperately seek time to spend together. My time with The Brotherhood, my Family, Children and Grandchildren is my joy in this world. With this and Christ I am free of any loneliness.

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Well. let's say your case is different. There are many of us here who don't mix up that much with people on a daily basis due to the amount of time we spend alone. When you are alone and you keep visualizing that dream size, sex thoughts will start flowing in. But it all boils down to self control too.

huge-girth;721361 said:

Well. let's say your case is different. There are many of us here who don't mix up that much with people on a daily basis due to the amount of time we spend alone. When you are alone and you keep visualizing that dream size, sex thoughts will start flowing in. But it all boils down to self control too.

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I never feel lonely and that is due to many things I have conquered in my life. I truly wish all could experience this but it did not come easy, I paid a great price to attain this. It took me the better side of 12 years to get myself to the point I am happy to be alone and enjoy my now company. I am not looking for friends, I have them here. I am not looking for a woman, nothing but trouble. I am content and happy with everything in my life. But I get your point, everyone has a different situation. I am only giving my own experience.

neatdude;721337 said:

I can't get erections anymore thinking about suicide

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dude please dont talk like this, try to convince yourself that this can be beaten naturally.
I'm still reading posts about masturbating and seeing doctors and xrays and bla bla bla. im not trying to be rude but you need to commit yourself to the process of healing yourself naturally instead of staying in denial. Give up jacking off and let your injury heal fully. herbs, good nutrition, good sleep and some basic PE or even a bathmate (NOT MASTURBATING) can help with the bloodflow. stay strong man we want you to feel better.

acromegaly;721756 said:

dude please dont talk like this, try to convince yourself that this can be beaten naturally.
I'm still reading posts about masturbating and seeing doctors and xrays and bla bla bla. im not trying to be rude but you need to commit yourself to the process of healing yourself naturally instead of staying in denial. Give up jacking off and let your injury heal fully. herbs, good nutrition, good sleep and some basic PE or even a bathmate (NOT MASTURBATING) can help with the bloodflow. stay strong man we want you to feel better.

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Take the advice my Brother, this is coming from his heart!

neatdude;721337 said:

I can't get erections anymore thinking about suicide

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lol funny, erections are easy to fix, do kegels, slap your penis do whatever it takes to get slightly hard, get a bj do something. Start to edge and you'll soon see yourself have longer lasting erections.

kyomoto;721843 said:

lol funny, erections are easy to fix, do kegels, slap your penis do whatever it takes to get slightly hard, get a bj do something. Start to edge and you'll soon see yourself have longer lasting erections.

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Don't think it's the time to poke fun or joke kyo. I'm sure you were being harmless but the op is most likely being serious right now in this situation. Hate to break it to you but it's not always just that easy for everyone and ed is def something that will mess with a mans mind and bring him to dark places. Again I read most of your stuff and know you weren't trying to but it comes off the wrong way making light of this situation as the op is struggling with a lot from this unreasolved injury.

To neatdude please take acro and dld advice along with the others here giving encouragement and support. This sucks I understand we're close in age and I can imagine how your feeling and what your going through mentally. With that being said a lot of this could be a mental issue not saying it is but when you worry and stress over the injury and other shit it takes a toll on your mind which can take a toll on performance causing stress induced ed. I know none of us know exactly what your going through but try to relax, seriously take the good advice given and focus on healing your body and mind. Look forward to reading some positive updates.

smitty2590;721864 said:

Don't think it's the time to poke fun or joke kyo. I'm sure you were being harmless but the op is most likely being serious right now in this situation. Hate to break it to you but it's not always just that easy for everyone and ed is def something that will mess with a mans mind and bring him to dark places. Again I read most of your stuff and know you weren't trying to but it comes off the wrong way making light of this situation as the op is struggling with a lot from this unreasolved injury.

To neatdude please take acro and dld advice along with the others here giving encouragement and support. This sucks I understand we're close in age and I can imagine how your feeling and what your going through mentally. With that being said a lot of this could be a mental issue not saying it is but when you worry and stress over the injury and other shit it takes a toll on your mind which can take a toll on performance causing stress induced ed. I know none of us know exactly what your going through but try to relax, seriously take the good advice given and focus on healing your body and mind. Look forward to reading some positive updates.

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He wasn't being serious. Ask him yourself. And if he was serious im sure erectile dysfunction would not be enough for suicidal attempt, there has to be other factors besides that. Aside from that attempt at being funny the most natural ways to get hard again are what we mentioned. I know neatdude is humble, check his previous posts, he's just not being given a good amount of a guide in order to follow step by step every day.

"I realize this is nerve damage. I'm depressed as fuck. Why did I do this to myself? Some days it'll feel like I'm getting better (more color, feeling. And then, days like today, it gets worse again. I will say that on the hole, sensitivity and color have slightly improved over the course of 9months. I have found a correlation to masterbation and haulting my improvement. When I masterbate too much, I'll get worse. I'll even feel pain deep at the base of my dick. Some of you might be thinking, why the fuck would you masterbate if you're injured. To that I say, blood flow. I am just guessing though. Who really knows what's going on with me? I realize I'm a fool, you don't have to reiterate that" -neatdude

First of all nerve damage may have been possible, but you said you felt you gained sensitivity back. First question I have really is if your foreskin covers your head or if it doesn't. If it doesn't you'll need to start doing foreskin restoration so it covers the head again and the penis head can become sensitive again IF its true your nerve damage indication was false. One way to improve bloodflow is by just doing jelqs, do these even at a flaccid state so not to hurt your penis anymore. Don't masturbate anymore just quit it because it does make erections harder to produce. I don't believe you have nerve damage but this is what I suggest you inform us with first.

So answer this:
Does your foreskin cover your head?
How often do you masturbate (say how much a day and how much a week)?

neatdude;718292 said:

Hey guys just got back from the neurologist. He confirmed I have a dorsal nerve injury. He said this injury should clear itself up over time. The biggest thing I'm dealing with is this glove feeling every time I ejaculate. He prescribed Alpha Lipoic Acid to stop that busy feeling. As for the lack of sensitivity, he said it's a waiting game. He said I should be able to masterbate occasionally. What do you guys think?

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Perfect! Here's what you can do first of all. Stop masturbating because erections become less hard every time. Also start jelqing to produce bloodflow to the penis this will add a little bit better efficiency for erections as well.

So answer this:
Does your foreskin cover your head?
How often do you masturbate (say how much a day and how much a week)?

Also be patient. One thing I don't suggest is not to masturbate because it goes in hand with sensitivity being restored and could also slow down the healing process for the nerve damage. Let your penis heal, rarely touch if it possible, and please try to resist masturbation even if your doctor says you should be able to masturbate occasionally because next thing you know you'll do it too often and you wont let your penis heal and thats the last thing you want.

Thanks for your responses guys. I'm dealing with a lot. My grandpa passed away today, my brother got arrested and now has a dui, my grandma fell and hit her head, and two days ago I was rushed to the ER to make sure the intense pain I was enduring wasn't a testicular torsion. Last week I spoke with Dr. Goldstein, look him up, well known sex medicine doc. He thinks I have "penile scarring". My interpretation of this is "corpora cavernosa fibrosis"; we do not believe I have Peyronnie's. I am currently taking 5mg of daily Cialas, in hopes that this will break down any fibrosis. I've been noticing penile shortening. Today I measured 1 inch less in length and 0.7 inch less in girth. I believe I have a hard flaccid. I still am waiting for my ultrasound. I cry everyday, wishing I could go back in time and stop myself. I've been trying to look up ways on how to create more smooth muscle tissue and less scarring. I have found DMSO cream & PABA pills so far. Again, this is all speculation. I'm very afraid. It's difficult for me to go without masterbating for more than a week. Recently, I've been masterbating like once a day. At least the Cialas helps maintain my shortened erection. I will take another one week break starting now. I shouldn't have to live like this.. suffering

Sorry to hear about the family hopefully she feels better soon. Maybe you should get therapy for why you can't stop jacking off. Sorry dude but your post makes no sense to me if you are having chronic pain of your dick and balls why the hell are you jacking off "like once a day". Get counseling and heal naturally. And a doctor got you taking cialis even though you are probably just having stress.... mind over matter stop fixating on jacking off get counseling and commit to healing. I would stop the cialis ASAP and don't start torturing your dick with other chemicals

acromegaly;722296 said:

Sorry to hear about the family hopefully she feels better soon. Maybe you should get therapy for why you can't stop jacking off. Sorry dude but your post makes no sense to me if you are having chronic pain of your dick and balls why the hell are you jacking off "like once a day". Get counseling and heal naturally. And a doctor got you taking cialis even though you are probably just having stress.... mind over matter stop fixating on jacking off get counseling and commit to healing. I would stop the cialis ASAP and don't start torturing your dick with other chemicals

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Addiction is a tough monster to conquer. This Thread on keeping each other, who struggle with �naked people movies� and masturbation, accountable and to hep with discipline and control. I found the thread to be one of my biggest helps in my success from abstaining now for over 40 days! Self discipline if not a free gift, it is earned through constant practice. Never giving up. Always looking at a fall as a new way to rise. Self control is one of the most admirable virtues a man can possess.

doublelongdaddy;722299 said:

Addiction is a tough monster to conquer. This Thread on keeping each other, who struggle with �naked people movies� and masturbation, accountable and to hep with discipline and control. I found the thread to be one of my biggest helps in my success from abstaining now for over 40 days! Self discipline if not a free gift, it is earned through constant practice. Never giving up. Always looking at a fall as a new way to rise. Self control is one of the most admirable virtues a man can possess.

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Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

neatdude;722349 said:

Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

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Asking/receiving advice from a forum, albeit a very well-informed one, will always be anecdotal to the responders experience and may not be geared to your specific issue. Following a physicians advice after he/she has had a chance to thoroughly interview/examine you would be the best course of action IMO. Exploring your feelings and having a safe place to give/receive support would be MOS's part...we're only here to help

neatdude;722349 said:

Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

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We say no masturbation because your EQ (erection quality) can mess up the ability to get hard consistently or be at your hardest. That's why I suggested to start jelqing to restore bloodflow which will give you back the color you seen through masturbation. It's a better way and it improves your size at the same time. You need to understand that we say the same thing because we know whats best for your situation as of now. Even if we haven't been in your position we understand the difficulties penises can go through and ways to improve it without damaging it.

So like I said, again, please do not masturbate or masturbate too frequently. I say 2 times a week max. INSTEAD do jelqing. It will give you "color", it'll improve circulation (which aids healing), and it'll help you grow your penis at the same time. This will not do much to affect the injured part.

neatdude;722349 said:

Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

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i do repeat myself a lot, but in my opinion you have two ways of dealing this:
1) take the doctors word. you are damaged and only medication/surgery/$$$$ thrown at doctors will fix this. keep masterbating.
2) the other advice. you hurt yourself. you need time to heal. you need healthy bloodflow, but you have to stop your masterbation addiction. eat healthy, get good sleep, take herbs and vitamins.

i suppose the second option takes more effort and does not give instant gratification, but what if it is the best option for your overall well being?

there was a time in my life where i had a groin injury so bad i could not walk for almost a year and I did not have any sexual gratification either i was very fucked up. it was a different situation but i have learned it is possible to heal yourself naturally but you have to stay positive (somehow) and believe in the journey god is putting you through. stay strong and try to heal naturally, i really hope it works out for you.

neatdude;722349 said:

Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

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I'm sorry man i dont think so... What has helped you was the erection.. That's why you experienced recoloration and feeling better and few hours later you are posting "it hurts and its pale,i wanna suicide"

c'mon neat it has been more than a month and you're trying to fix your dick by jerking and having sex ?

I really really i am sorry about it, your dick, your family
But you are just addicted and making excuses...
First step it's to acknowledge it.

Try sleeping for long periods, drink water before...
8 hrs sleeping it's 5 " sleeping cycles" in which trust me you are having erections. Its very common that if you woke with no morning wood its because you already had it before waking up.

Acknowledge masturbation its making worst, once free of it.. You can get to the point of self inducing erections all day by the touch.. And the more the erections is crucial to heaaaal bro!

Its Oxygenated,high in minerals blood that goes straight to your glans.. Think about it.. Sounds like something you would want in order to help your dick out! Isn it?

neatdude;722349 said:

Sorry to say but your advice seems kinda impersonal, some of you are like a broken record player "no masterbation, no masterbation". In a few instances masterbation actually helped my head get some color. There's a bigger issue at play here, I'm dealing with an injury from hanging.

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Sorry you feel this way, you seemed to be suffering in the way you were presenting yourself and I only wanted to help.\

God Bless

Why not abstain from masturbating for a week? The problem here is that he doesn't take any of the advice here.

huge-girth;722520 said:

Why not abstain from masturbating for a week? The problem here is that he doesn't take any of the advice here.

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I realize I am a �naked people movies� addict and I think this is god's way of saying stop jacking off so much. Just last night I have to fight the urge to look up Asian �naked people movies�.. its bad. I'm on my 3rd day of not fapping. I posted my problem on pegym.com and got and interesting response. Would love to here what you guys think. Here's my post:

"10+ months ago I used the bib starter. After a month, I sustained an injury that would make my glans white, no feeling, and no erections. Since then, it's been a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes, I could get normal rock hard erections. Other times, no blood flow would happen and would lose most sensation. I've just seen my 5th urologist to finally agree to get me an ultrasound; it'll be performed 2 months from now. Today, I look down at my penis.. hard flaccid, pale, and very painful. The painful, hard flaccidness is a new progression in this nightmare. I wish I knew exactly wtf is wrong. My erections are smaller, yet more firm. Very painful. Why is my head almost white?? Driving me crazy"


This was a response from a user:

"May you by any chances have done a kegel or being just slightest erect when you hanged and got this injury?

we're you tense in your pelvic floor Before you got the injury?

It sounds to me like its Another case of pelvic floor injury since these are no symptoms of a lig-injury

restricted erection
pale Cold deflated glans
CS not filling
hard flaccid.

The first thing i recommend is rest, but this has been going on for 10 months which means rest isnt going to do it, you need to start doing reverse kegels and hindi squats, your BC muscle is clenched.

I assume you have noticed urinary Changes, as weaker flow, dribbling perhaps?

You have injured your bulbocavernosus muscle.

What makes it certain in these hard flaccid issues is that, when you really notice that your glans gets fucked up
(Cold, deflated, numb) Its Always the bulbocavernosus, the BC is responsible for the artery that leads to your CS and glans ( which explains the hard flaccid, no blood flow, smooth muscle cant relax, bc also clamps at the pudendal nerve causing Cold and numb sensations.)"


This was my response (he has yet to response back):

"You seem to have a lot of knowledge. Currently I have been prescribed 5mg of daily Cialas & 3000mg of daily L-Citrulline. I'm being seen at UCLA, #3 urology facility in America. My penile ultrasound is in two weeks. I also spoke with dr Irwin Goldstein, look him up. He said he thinks I have penile scarring. I'm assuming that means fibrosis. Oh boy. I was looking up DMSO cream and PABA pills for that. Any advice?

And just to be clear, I was erect when this happened (stupid, I know). The head of my penis was purple and bulging right before I noticed and took the BIB hanger (8lbs) off. I don't recall my pelvic floor being tense before the injury. What is 'CS'?

restricted erection
pale Cold deflated glans
CS not filling
hard flaccid.

This describes my injury perfectly. I have noticed that there is now a delay right before I pee.

"reverse kegels and hindi squats"

I don't know what these are. Any extra info would be great.

A "bulbocavernousus muscle" injury sounds a lot like what I have. I've done some reading on this and it seems like testosterone therapy is the fix for this injury. Maybe physical therapy? Not even sure where I would go for a pelvic floor injury.

I have noticed masterbation/sex plays a huge role with my injury. Whenever I leave it alone for a week and a half, it starts to look and feel like my old penis. The color in my glans will come back, the pain will subside, bigger erections, more feeling. But after engaging in sex/masterbation a few times, I'm back to pale glans, pain in what seems to be the "bulbocavernousus muscle" area, constricted erections, hard flaccid, and just overall bad blood circulation in the penis.

I'm thinking this can't be fibrosis because that would be more of a constant issue. My issue seems to drastically fluctuate day by day.

A few days ago I was rushed to the ER for testicular pain. I thought I might have a testicular torsion. I got an ultrasound for the testicals and the doc said nothing was wrong.

Thank you for providing me with this possibility. I will definitely bring this up to the urologist when I see him."