NoFap no Pornography Accountability Thread

[Big Schwanz Acht]

Anxiety, in all forms manifest behaviors in many different ways, but the default will always revert to the primeval being and the prime directive of that being is to procreate. It's only natural to take comfort (and your brain is wired to make this happen as early and often as possible) in this act, so berating yourselves for acting as Mother Nature intended is an exercise in futility. That being said, once these behaviors start to negatively affect your life and the lives of the people you care about, then action(s) will need to be put in place. Putting a 'stopper' on a bottle that's supposed to 'pour' will only lead to explosion and thus repeating the cycle of rise/fall, pass/fail. For extreme cases, aversion therapy has shown some signs of success, but at what cost? Better to figure-out how to mitigate vs. eliminate, imo

 

[DLD]

Anxiety, in all forms manifest behaviors in many different ways, but the default will always revert to the primeval being and the prime directive of that being is to procreate. It's only natural to take comfort (and your brain is wired to make this happen as early and often as possible) in this act, so berating yourselves for acting as Mother Nature intended is an exercise in futility. That being said, once these behaviors start to negatively affect your life and the lives of the people you care about, then action(s) will need to be put in place. Putting a 'stopper' on a bottle that's supposed to 'pour' will only lead to explosion and thus repeating the cycle of rise/fall, pass/fail. For extreme cases, aversion therapy has shown some signs of success, but at what cost? Better to figure-out how to mitigate vs. eliminate, imo

I agree and that is why men should get married and have children, for this very reason. On my side it is different, it is total abstinence which requires a different way of looking at it. I do not expect anyone to go the route I am going, this is my own plight and it is a tough one.

 

[LONGERDICK7+]

Of course it is a tough one, specially for a guy that spent years getting his penis bigger...why u spent yers getting bigger??

It was for a loved one i guess,and now that you have stated that relationships arent somethng u look for,yeah it must be a tough path to follow...

Definitely for most heterosexual men women play an important role around their lives..

 

[LONGERDICK7+]

I havent been feeling great the last months either,and i have been procrastinating things i was supposed to do days even months ago..

Here we all are to support each other even when things get bad

 

[DLD]

Here we all are to support each other even when things get bad

We all come from different nations, walks of life, social backgrounds, etc. and one things we hold true is Love for Brother. The support I receive when I am under the weather is amazing! When I feel like there is little hope I come here and see that there is so much hope. When I see things as being futile and everything seems to come to naught, I find my refuge here. The Brotherhood is my secret home away from the world where I snuggle close to my Brothers and tell them my fears and dreams.

 

[huge-girth]

Hey DLD, dont put yourself down so much Brother. If you are trying to stop masturbation and pornography it takes time. Pornography is a very real issue that men struggle with. and there is no need to feel shame. i honestly still stuggle with it. However, now I use adult entertainment as PE motivation. I would suggest maybe looking at adult entertainment maybe once-twice a week on set days and not the other ones and slowly taper down. As for masturbation, nothing wrong with that either. I feel the same way after I masturbate, I feel like a total shithead. But I change the ways I think now. I useually only masturbate once a week now if that even. To me clamping and working on my girth and edging are more important, so I remember that when I have a ring on and I use that motivation to not masturbate. Find some sort of motivation that may keep you from doing those things. BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP ABOUT ANY OF THESE THINGS IF YOU DO THEM.

There is truth in your words, we will always need adult entertainment for motivation especially for girth work. But to put the ice on the cake, we need to have a girlfriend/wife

 

[DLD]

we will always need adult entertainment for motivation especially for girth work

Not true. There are many ways to keep an erection for girth work outside of watching sex. Pictures, imagination, external stimulation, viagra or the like, etc. the reason people go to adult entertainment is it is the easiest way. The problem in this method is the temptation to masturbate, which in many cases ends the session or ruins the session from accidental ejaculation. So for someone who is abstaining from masturbation but wants to do girth work, like myself, creative methods need to be crafted. In my case I get an erection if the wind blows, something that has happened since I began this journey. Prior to that I NEVER got sporadic erections, morning wood, any of that. Today erections are natural and come, as I said, with little thought and throughout the day and night (and this is without any visual or mental stimulation, most likely unconscious sexual thoughts.) I should add too that when I haven messed up my refractory period was non existent! Erection remained after ejaculation and into second session 20 minutes later, the erection stayed the entire time...food for thought)

 

[LONGERDICK7+]

There is truth in your words, we will always need adult entertainment for motivation especially for girth work. But to put the ice on the cake, we need to have a girlfriend/wife

great its time to get one

 

[DLD]

“Sow a thought, and you reap an act;
Sow an act, and you reap a habit;
Sow a habit, and you reap a character;
Sow a character, and you reap a destiny.”

-Samuel Smiles

In this quote there is much to think on.

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

tres apropos, mon frère!

 

[huge-girth]

Not true. There are many ways to keep an erection for girth work outside of watching sex. Pictures, imagination, external stimulation, viagra or the like, etc. the reason people go to adult entertainment is it is the easiest way. The problem in this method is the temptation to masturbate, which in many cases ends the session or ruins the session from accidental ejaculation. So for someone who is abstaining from masturbation but wants to do girth work, like myself, creative methods need to be crafted. In my case I get an erection if the wind blows, something that has happened since I began this journey. Prior to that I NEVER got sporadic erections, morning wood, any of that. Today erections are natural and come, as I said, with little thought and throughout the day and night (and this is without any visual or mental stimulation, most likely unconscious sexual thoughts.) I should add too that when I haven messed up my refractory period was non existent! Erection remained after ejaculation and into second session 20 minutes later, the erection stayed the entire time...food for thought)

I've never tried to do girth work without watching adult entertainment. When I resume training, I will have to give this a try and see how it goes.

 

[DLD]

I've never tried to do girth work without watching adult entertainment. When I resume training, I will have to give this a try and see how it goes.

For me it is a necessity.

Now I have admissions and also suggestions and warnings to speak on. I finally got an adult filter on my cell phone so there is no more adult entertainment or applications that have adult entertainment. My admission is a hole I found in this set up. YouTube does not filter the same way so you can still see adult content on YouTube, even with a filter. This can be changed in your YouTube setting to Content Filter>>>Strict. What is most important is that you do not have access to the password. My admission in all this is in checking for holes in the system I did end up watching a few minutes of a video, nothing terribly bad (no nudity or sex) but, none the less, against my conscious. I took the necessary steps to ensure this will not happen again.

So I think that in every step back, fall, slip or advancement there is a lesson to be learned. In this modern world we need to be super vigilant of that which we view or it may lead us to that which we really had no intention of watching. These filters are super helpful but, like an old leaky pipe, new holes appear as old ones are patched, we need to evolve to avoid the things that are triggers.

 

[huge-girth]

For me it is a necessity.

Now I have admissions and also suggestions and warnings to speak on. I finally got an adult filter on my cell phone so there is no more adult entertainment or applications that have adult entertainment. My admission is a hole I found in this set up. YouTube does not filter the same way so you can still see adult content on YouTube, even with a filter. This can be changed in your YouTube setting to Content Filter>>>Strict. What is most important is that you do not have access to the password. My admission in all this is in checking for holes in the system I did end up watching a few minutes of a video, nothing terribly bad (no nudity or sex) but, none the less, against my conscious. I took the necessary steps to ensure this will not happen again.

So I think that in every step back, fall, slip or advancement there is a lesson to be learned. In this modern world we need to be super vigilant of that which we view or it may lead us to that which we really had no intention of watching. These filters are super helpful but, like an old leaky pipe, new holes appear as old ones are patched, we need to evolve to avoid the things that are triggers.

I'm not using any filter on my phone or computer, I just restrict myself from viewing adult entertainment automatically by avoiding the urge to do so. I've not masturbated since 24th of this month and I want to keep at it until God knows when. But honestly, I need a lady in my life because whenever I'm done with girth work, sex should come as a prize for the workout.

 

[DLD]

I'm not using any filter on my phone or computer, I just restrict myself from viewing adult entertainment automatically by avoiding the urge to do so. I've not masturbated since 24th of this month and I want to keep at it until God knows when. But honestly, I need a lady in my life because whenever I'm done with girth work, sex should come as a prize for the workout.

The filters are very helpful when temptation arises. I know, for myself, it has saved me many falls. I feel differently though after my last fall, those intense urges to lust have tempered way down. This lust I experience mainly online, I am pretty good in public. This world has become a place where Lust is a fun game and luxury is a necessity, this is what makes abstinence so difficult, no matter where you look there is something there to lust upon.

What amazes me about the devil is when he can not get me to sin one way (sexually) he will attack me in other ways, like causing frustration. This journey has exposed many of satan's tricks and I am becoming more and more able to identify and crush those attacks. I have to say that this has been one of the biggest life changing experiences I have ever had.

 

[huge-girth]

The filters are very helpful when temptation arises. I know, for myself, it has saved me many falls. I feel differently though after my last fall, those intense urges to lust have tempered way down. This lust I experience mainly online, I am pretty good in public. This world has become a place where Lust is a fun game and luxury is a necessity, this is what makes abstinence so difficult, no matter where you look there is something there to lust upon.

What amazes me about the devil is when he can not get me to sin one way (sexually) he will attack me in other ways, like causing frustration. This journey has exposed many of satan's tricks and I am becoming more and more able to identify and crush those attacks. I have to say that this has been one of the biggest life changing experiences I have ever had.

You are right, the urge to masturbate can come from looking at girls walking even on the street but the most powerful urge can come from watching adult entertainment or reading erotic stories. I just avoid these things at all cost. I've been holding myself from masturbating and this is the 8th day.

 

[DLD]

You are right, the urge to masturbate can come from looking at girls walking even on the street but the most powerful urge can come from watching adult entertainment or reading erotic stories. I just avoid these things at all cost. I've been holding myself from masturbating and this is the 8th day.

Congratulations on a week of success! I believe we are neck and neck now

Yes, the world has made lust a necessity and completely acceptable and there is no where one can look without seeing skin and promiscuity. I have no idea who taught these girls and women to dress like this and I really wonder where their parents were when they were growing up. We now live in a world where nothing is off the table, if it feels good do it, whatever you lust is, indulge! There is two rivers one can take here and the decision lays in the lap of everyman who charts these waters. One way is narrow and leads to success and the other is broad and leads to failure. The difference in these paths can be explained by Mathew 7: "“Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few."

 

[huge-girth]

Congratulations on a week of success! I believe we are neck and neck now

Yes, the world has made lust a necessity and completely acceptable and there is no where one can look without seeing skin and promiscuity. I have no idea who taught these girls and women to dress like this and I really wonder where their parents were when they were growing up. We now live in a world where nothing is off the table, if it feels good do it, whatever you lust is, indulge! There is two rivers one can take here and the decision lays in the lap of everyman who charts these waters. One way is narrow and leads to success and the other is broad and leads to failure. The difference in these paths can be explained by Mathew 7: "“Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few."

I masturbated last night twice after watching adult entertainment and shot a huge cum into the air. I will have to start all over again. I didn't feel any guilt because I no longer do it daily. We will see.

 

[DLD]

I masturbated last night twice after watching adult entertainment and shot a huge cum into the air. I will have to start all over again. I didn't feel any guilt because I no longer do it daily. We will see.

It is an ongoing battle and there will be victories and there will be times we slip. After you do slip you should NEVER feel guilty! Guilt is the devil in disguise! What you should feel is conviction to do better as time goes on. Guilt only serves to keep us away from our goals while conviction brings us closer to our victory.


After my last fall 9 days ago I have felt a new conviction in this. I realize now that there is no adult entertainment that can give me what I want and there never will be. I will always feel empty after viewing these things and if I masturbate it makes this emptiness even greater. The small bit of "good feelings" I get never lives up to it's false promise and when all is done I feel disgusted. I think my temptations are being turned into convictions, my disgust is outweighing the short lived joy of adult entertainment. This has only happened over the past 9 days. My ability to allow the temptation to come and go without giving it any credence is so much easier than trying to avoid the thoughts, this makes things worse. We all have passing thoughts on many things that come and go and this is normal and when I can see that these thoughts will pas easier when I do nothing at all it makes life so much easier.

I am not sure about the future, anything can happen so I put no trust in myself whatsoever, I simply remain in the moment and I can handle that. If I give any kind of energy to my past or future I am squandering the joy of the moment. In the moment nothing is wrong!

 

[DLD]

I guess since this is a confessional I would like to admit a loss. I no longer measure what I used to I Lost and inch . It was not cemented and I really have not done steady PE for years so I know gains are lost over time and when the penis is not used or maintained, like my penis, uncemented gains are lost. I still maintained my permanent gains but that loss I did not! IMy last official measurement was by GQ Magazine at 10.5". I really never measured seriously this since then. I know not using my penis, growing older, eliminating sex, eliminating masturbation, coupled with no PE maintenance I lost the gains I know that a lesson is learned here is one of [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] and that is one of "use and maintenance." I will not rebuke myself for losing uncemented gains, but I will take responsibility for not maintaining or, even, using my penis and sticking with a size I no longer had ...I should have consistently measured and maintained. I now know, with years of experience, that gains can and are lost over time if maintenance and use is not employed. I am seeing an opportunity to take up [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] as a newbie and prove how quickly I can gain an inch, in full DLD Beast mode...especially with the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LengthMaster[/words], [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]BathMate[/words], [words=http://www.phallosan.com/shop/catalog/default.php?z=eNortjIxtVKyL0pNszWxMFcrSSxKTy2JL0hMT7U1UisoykyxtbBQSy4tLsnPjS8uKcrMS7dVsgZcMMpbEbo%2C]Phallosan[/words] and [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]SizeGenetics[/words]...I bet I can regain this loss in less than 6 months! Pictures will not happen, with all the photoshopped pictures what would it matter? A live video is the only way to prove today so there is no dishonesty possible. I said I would never do this again but maybe I should document this new journey with live video. I never really had a Progress thread so maybe I will start with that. Goal, 10.5", Girth, I am good. I feel guilty and I am sorry for my transgressions but I will make it up to you with gains!

When I started [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] I quickly realized that many factors played into PE aside from just gaining (healing, maintenance, useage, etc.). In my new experiment in [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] I will regain my losses. Since that time I have not done anything and I have used my penis very infrequently, if ever (BAD!) I think I will use this as a chance to prove the effectiveness of [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] and present that with my regained size! [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] started so long ago, it is like a life time. I have been so content just loving my Brothers that PE was not important and sex, well, that had to go. But, I am excited to show y'all how fast DLD can gain back that loss!

On the masturbation front, I have been good. It is strange, I do not have this huge urge to masturbate or view adult entertainment at all but I will be thinking on something or praying or some other mental exercise and all of a sudden an image of adult entertainment will appear in my head and will continue to press. I try to shift my mind but it seems to make it worse. I get frustrated because it robs me of much time! I try to do things and these images and memories play out and take me off course. I always fear I will slip up, ALWAYS! I sometimes thing I am scrupulous but then I think I am not tough enough on myself. I will be the first to admit that this has been hell and humiliation at the highest level. How pathetic I must seem, trying to keep myself pure, trying to be honest, all for what? It seems sometimes like it is a punishment but then I see Jesus naked before the crucifixion and I regain the strength.

I think I have made the 10 day mark so I may treat myself too a night of adult entertainment and masturbation! Just Kidding! But damn, I would love it though and that is what is so sad. I fight so hard to stay pure and it is so hard to do!

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

Mike...your behavior is deplorable!! I akin this to owning a one-of-one Ferrari and leaving it in the garage...that baby needs to stretch its legs and run the way it was designed!! Now get out there and speed-shift thru the gears like you're meant to do

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

JK, it's your Ferrari...do with it what you wish

 

[DLD]

JK, it's your Ferrari...do with it what you wish

Good assimilation! But I am more like a 67 Landrover

 

[DLD]

Mike...your behavior is deplorable!! I akin this to owning a one-of-one Ferrari and leaving it in the garage...that baby needs to stretch its legs and run the way it was designed!! Now get out there and speed-shift thru the gears like you're meant to do

Was thinking about letting one off tonight, I mean, I already fucked up! Right?

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

Good assimilation! But I am more like a 67 Landrover

well...a one-of-one Landrover rotting under a cover

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

Was thinking about letting one off tonight, I mean, I already fucked up! Right?

I will never agree that you've effed-up just by acting as Mother Nature intended, so you have my blessing(s)...always. Now please enjoy your 'alone time' without the burden of guilt or shame

 

[DLD]

I will never agree that you've effed-up just by acting as Mother Nature intended, so you have my blessing(s)...always. Now please enjoy your 'alone time' without the burden of guilt or shame

OK, did as you said, but I do not feel so guilty, more tired. I am sure tomorrow I will feel the guilt. Shit, what better reason to run to Jesus? It is very, very hard to go week after week without release. I know I have not had any nocturnal releases. I really did not feel the urge to do it, I more just did what you said but now I might be in some hot water. My Son has K9 on the computer and I hacked it off, but now I can't hack it back on???? I am going to have to come clean.

 

[DLD]

So I woke up feeling guilty, what a surprise! I confessed to the Brotherhood, my Confessor, I did my penance and I am starting over again. Like I have said this is like climbing the Rocky Mountains, you go up and down as you get to the top, but eventually you will get there. I sometimes think this is too much for me but then I remember why I am doing it and it gives me strength. Pray for me as I pray for you!

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

So I woke up feeling guilty, what a surprise! I confessed to the Brotherhood, my Confessor, I did my penance and I am starting over again. Like I have said this is like climbing the Rocky Mountains, you go up and down as you get to the top, but eventually you will get there. I sometimes think this is too much for me but then I remember why I am doing it and it gives me strength. Pray for me as I pray for you!

Absolution is what I pray you'll accept and come-to-peace with. As human beings, we're a jumble of literally millions upon millions of tiny cells that make us the individuals that we are...and there in lies the beauty. We all have different traits and predilections to be accepted and managed for one to live a fully abundant life. If you spend an inordinate amount of time and energy trying to suppress a natural instinct, you'll have little left to explore and learn the very things that bring joy (and guilt is the destroyer of this). Ceding to your Higher Power is wonderfully freeing, let Him deal with any guilt or shame, my hope is you relish all the gifts you've been given and have worked so hard for.
Peace to you, my Brother

 

[DLD]

Ceding to your Higher Power is wonderfully freeing, let Him deal with any guilt or shame, my hope is you relish all the gifts you've been given and have worked so hard for.
Peace to you, my Brother

Thank you for your prayers, I really need them with this two fold mess! You are so right about guilt and I am not spending anymore time in guilt, I have admitted all my wrongs with God, the Brotherhood and my Confessor. I have done my penance and now I am forgiving myself because, as you said, Jesus has already forgiven me. I will start [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] to deal with my loss. I will pray to God to help me with a way to release without going against any of my scrupulous ways or maybe even pray that my scruples are removed. I am having a tough two days and I am so happy that I have you here helping me, I feel like a Newbie who is desperately in need of help.

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

We are all 100% in your corner!! I accept you fully as my Brother and my Friend, please accept yourself (foibles and all )

 

[DLD]

We are all 100% in your corner!! I accept you fully as my Brother and my Friend, please accept yourself (foibles and all )

Much love my Brother, so much LOVE!

 

[huge-girth]

Was thinking about letting one off tonight, I mean, I already fucked up! Right?

Come join me, I've been masturbating daily for the past 2 days.

 

[LONGERDICK7+]

Come join me, I've been masturbating daily for the past 2 days.

since i have no frucking privacy i have to jerked full speed..wish i had the time id have really long jerking sessions..LolJK

When i do masturbate i get sleepy and bored LOL n need to start jerking all over again haha

 

[DLD]

Come join me, I've been masturbating daily for the past 2 days.

No way! I am even more determined now! I am tired of being weak and making excuses and running away from this issue, I am going to take the advice I have gotten today and be easier on myself, stop being so scrupulous and start allowing the thought to come and go as they please. Fighting makes me weak, resisting makes me weaker but allowing the thought to come and go gives me strength. I am not perfect, as my long post outlined, nor am I some superman or saint, I am a man just like everyone here and I am fallible. If I have done my best that is what matters. I did my best but with the depression and guilt I went through last night with my penis size I felt so shitty I just went for it, twice. So now I also know that when we feel bad about ourselves adult entertainment becomes an attractive advisory, this awareness gives me ammo. Like I said and I will continue to say, this is a huge mountain that has valleys and peaks, getting to the top means sometimes getting to the bottom.

 

[kyomoto]

No way! I am even more determined now! I am tired of being weak and making excuses and running away from this issue, I am going to take the advice I have gotten today and be easier on myself, stop being so scrupulous and start allowing the thought to come and go as they please. Fighting makes me weak, resisting makes me weaker but allowing the thought to come and go gives me strength. I am not perfect, as my long post outlined, nor am I some superman or saint, I am a man just like everyone here and I am fallible. If I have done my best that is what matters. I did my best but with the depression and guilt I went through last night with my penis size I felt so shitty I just went for it, twice. So now I also know that when we feel bad about ourselves adult entertainment becomes an attractive advisory, this awareness gives me ammo. Like I said and I will continue to say, this is a huge mountain that has valleys and peaks, getting to the top means sometimes getting to the bottom.

You can't permantly stop but you can build up to it. You've done so well recently and I encourage you to try. Of course you can always take a break and indulge the few times you want.

 

[huge-girth]

Well, I don't push much pressure on myself. I will only ejaculate when there is a urge to do so. Abstaining with having a girlfriend and doing PE at the same time is very difficult and strange too. The dick needs to be put to use.

 

[huge-girth]

since i have no frucking privacy i have to jerked full speed..wish i had the time id have really long jerking sessions..LolJK

When i do masturbate i get sleepy and bored LOL n need to start jerking all over again haha

The only way I compensate myself whenever I masturbate is if I'm doing PE. I just see sex/masturbation as part of the training. You cannot be training girth for two weeks and not masturbate C'mon bro.

 

[DLD]

2 days and counting What is better than starting over? It seems like I am starting everything over! A new leaf.

 

[huge-girth]

2 days and counting What is better than starting over? It seems like I am starting everything over! A new leaf.

I left a comment for you on the moderator forum.

 

[DLD]

10 days and counting! I can say that as time goes by I need to strengthen myself as much as possible as I am still suffering greatly with this. It is like a devil on my shoulder whispering in my ear that keep on going! I have found that the best way to murder that demon is by taking his power away. His only power is to temp and with every temptation I become even more resolved to do this. I look at this suffering as a joyful sorrow because I know it is the pain of correcting myself. I also give the suffering to Jesus and ask Him to help others who are struggling with sexual sin.

I am convinced that 2 things mainly drag us backwards. One is when we feel badly about ourselves and we want a quick way out. The other is when we let our guard down by being overtired or drunk or some other fashion where we lose the faculties of our mind to a certain degree. I am most temped when I am tired. when I am awake I can easily deal with this but when I am tired or I feel badly about myself I have much less strength to deal with the temptation. And, as I have said, unless I go and bury my head in the sand I will never be free of these temptations. Therefore, since avoidance is not possible acceptance needs to be applied. Acceptance that there will be times when coveting a woman will happen or subjugating someone will come about, it is in these times that I need to be vigilant.

Looking and appreciating the beauty that God has created is one thing but coveting is far different.

"What is Love?
Love is an intense feeling. It’s the affection and care that you feel towards another person. It is mainly a caring and profound attraction you have for another person. When you are in love, you commit yourself to the other person. You make the effort to resolve the conflicts instead of giving up. Feelings of love and romantic attraction for someone can increase your dopamine and serotonin levels. These results in loss of appetite and you feel elated. With a longer passage of time, as you feel attached to someone, your body generates oxytocin, popularly known as the “hormone of love”. 🙂

“The more we are filled with thoughts of lust the less we find true romantic love.” ~ Douglas Horton

What is Lust
Coming to lust – it is a strong desire or shall I call it a passion of a sexual nature you have for the other person. Lust is mainly a reaction to someone’s physical appearance. It’s a physical emotion that tends to be short-lived and occurs when you are sexually attracted to someone and want him or her for sex. It is more about immediate gratification, where you have sex and feel physically fulfilled. It all happens for a split second or heat of the moment and then it’s all over. Lust is mainly a craving for gratification – or sexual desire. A quick fix by mocking love."

 

[huge-girth]

10 days and counting! I can say that as time goes by I need to strengthen myself as much as possible as I am still suffering greatly with this. It is like a devil on my shoulder whispering in my ear that keep on going! I have found that the best way to murder that demon is by taking his power away. His only power is to temp and with every temptation I become even more resolved to do this. I look at this suffering as a joyful sorrow because I know it is the pain of correcting myself. I also give the suffering to Jesus and ask Him to help others who are struggling with sexual sin.

I am convinced that 2 things mainly drag us backwards. One is when we feel badly about ourselves and we want a quick way out. The other is when we let our guard down by being overtired or drunk or some other fashion where we lose the faculties of our mind to a certain degree. I am most temped when I am tired. when I am awake I can easily deal with this but when I am tired or I feel badly about myself I have much less strength to deal with the temptation. And, as I have said, unless I go and bury my head in the sand I will never be free of these temptations. Therefore, since avoidance is not possible acceptance needs to be applied. Acceptance that there will be times when coveting a woman will happen or subjugating someone will come about, it is in these times that I need to be vigilant.

Looking and appreciating the beauty that God has created is one thing but coveting is far different.

"What is Love?
Love is an intense feeling. It’s the affection and care that you feel towards another person. It is mainly a caring and profound attraction you have for another person. When you are in love, you commit yourself to the other person. You make the effort to resolve the conflicts instead of giving up. Feelings of love and romantic attraction for someone can increase your dopamine and serotonin levels. These results in loss of appetite and you feel elated. With a longer passage of time, as you feel attached to someone, your body generates oxytocin, popularly known as the “hormone of love”. 🙂

“The more we are filled with thoughts of lust the less we find true romantic love.” ~ Douglas Horton

What is Lust
Coming to lust – it is a strong desire or shall I call it a passion of a sexual nature you have for the other person. Lust is mainly a reaction to someone’s physical appearance. It’s a physical emotion that tends to be short-lived and occurs when you are sexually attracted to someone and want him or her for sex. It is more about immediate gratification, where you have sex and feel physically fulfilled. It all happens for a split second or heat of the moment and then it’s all over. Lust is mainly a craving for gratification – or sexual desire. A quick fix by mocking love."

I've been masturbating and smoking MJ frequently. If I want to reduce the rate at which I masturbate, I will have to stop smoking the MJ. When I first abstained from masturbating for a month, I wasn't smoking MJ. Whenever I smoke I become extremely horny. Starting from today, I will abstain from smoking MJ, Let's see how it goes.

 

[DLD]

I've been masturbating and smoking MJ frequently. If I want to reduce the rate at which I masturbate, I will have to stop smoking the MJ. When I first abstained from masturbating for a month, I wasn't smoking MJ. Whenever I smoke I become extremely horny. Starting from today, I will abstain from smoking MJ, Let's see how it goes.

I only smoke in spiritual practice but it never gives me wood.

I can say that I woke up this morning and felt so much guilt, as if I fallen again. It must have been a dream as I did nothing wrong. I was so happy to see that there was nothing in my history or no new browser downloaded. The mind is a strange thing and I think this goes to manifestation in a strange way, even though I did not do anything wrong I thought I did therefore I felt the accompanying feelings.

 

[DLD]

2 weeks today!

Temptation has lessened because I have given much less thought to them. They come and I let them go. I do not get upset or horny, I simply less them blow away like smoke. Last night was my first time back at PE in a very long time, I forgot how good PE felt! I did some erect length and girth work. I used no visual stimuli or any sexual thoughts to do the work and my erection came effortlessly and the workout felt great. Before I took up this challenge to abstain from masturbation and adult entertainment I could never do PE without adult entertainment, amazing that that is no longer the case. My eq is through the roof! I have had no nite time emissions which kind of concerns me but as long as one comes off before a month I will be happy. I hope everyone else is doing well, it is all so worth it.

 

[huge-girth]

I only smoke in spiritual practice but it never gives me wood.

I can say that I woke up this morning and felt so much guilt, as if I fallen again. It must have been a dream as I did nothing wrong. I was so happy to see that there was nothing in my history or no new browser downloaded. The mind is a strange thing and I think this goes to manifestation in a strange way, even though I did not do anything wrong I thought I did therefore I felt the accompanying feelings.

The problem is that I keep thinking about sex most of the time and this builds up my sexual urge to a point where I just fill like releasing.

 

[huge-girth]

2 weeks today!

Temptation has lessened because I have given much less thought to them. They come and I let them go. I do not get upset or horny, I simply less them blow away like smoke. Last night was my first time back at PE in a very long time, I forgot how good PE felt! I did some erect length and girth work. I used no visual stimuli or any sexual thoughts to do the work and my erection came effortlessly and the workout felt great. Before I took up this challenge to abstain from masturbation and adult entertainment I could never do PE without adult entertainment, amazing that that is no longer the case. My eq is through the roof! I have had no nite time emissions which kind of concerns me but as long as one comes off before a month I will be happy. I hope everyone else is doing well, it is all so worth it.

Let's see how far you can go with training for like 3 weeks without letting one off especially after girth work. Masturbation does kill my zeal for girth work for few minutes each time I do it after girth work.

 

[DLD]

Let's see how far you can go with training for like 3 weeks without letting one off especially after girth work. Masturbation does kill my zeal for girth work for few minutes each time I do it after girth work.

I am starting to agree with the fact that this is something I will never master but it is something I will continue to strive for. After 2 weeks I fell again. This time it was my fault on every level as I went to a place I should have not gone and in going this place I knew I would be driven to even worse places but I did not resist and ended up falling. Oddly enough it is never guilt I feel any longer, it is always conviction and the knowledge that I am doing the best I can. I do not think God looks on me so much for the sin itself but more how quickly I come back to Him for forgiveness. I know in my heart I am doing all I can do and there is always going to be the occasion that this will happen. We become too hungry we have no choice but to eat. The same applies to sexuality, it is a hunger that left unfed can and will bring us to a worse place. I am going to try a new technique that I think will work. I am going to masturbate every two weeks with no stimuli whatsoever, just my mind, unoccupied going through the motions to allow this release without having to go to adult entertainment. I always hope for night time emissions but they simply do not happen with me. I went 30 days with nothing and this can't be healthy for the prostate.

I know that I love God more than I love anything else and that is what is important to me, that nothing masters me but my master who is Jesus. Allowing myself to struggle so much with avoidance is not decreasing the temptations but adding fuel to them. In order for me to become successful will be learning to sit with the temptations and let them go. I think in avoidance of the temptation causes a greater desire for the temptation itself. There is much to think on here and I never allow anything bad to happen that I do not make beautiful, even in this I will find the beauty.

Keep up the fight my Brothers and know we are fallible and what matters most is not so much complete success but the fact that we are trying our best and when things are difficult we have one another to look to for help and guidance.

Much Love My Brothers!

 

[bandit2010]

I don't think I have masturbated in 3 or 4 weeks, with that being said, me and my spouse has started back having sex after her surgery, and things are the best that they have been in a while.

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

I don't think I have masturbated in 3 or 4 weeks, with that being said, me and my spouse has started back having sex after her surgery, and things are the best that they have been in a while.

That's fantastic news! Is her prognosis positive?

 

[DLD]

Removing habits requires much patience as they were not created in a day nor will they be cast out in a day. The most important part of this process is not so much the victories but the falls and how we recollect and get back up with a lesson learned. Temptation will never leave, it is a hunger that is constant through life but it does become easier if we spend time in recollection and reflection. As I have said before temptation starts out in the most innocent way, so innocent that if we have not failed in this way before we would not even notice it. The enemy gets in through channels that we do not expect and by the time we realize it, the enemy is in the trenches with us and it is very hard to get out, but not impossible.

Reflecting on my victories an failures I have found many patterns, many seemingly innocent ploys, many justifications and plenty of reason applied to both failing and succeeding. In each failure a new lesson is learned and, if we reflect, we find a new weapon to fight the enemy. One of these weapons that saved me last night was flight. Remembering Kind David and the corner God told Him to avoid, I was able to recognize that corner last night. I reflected on what happened, my phone needed to be charged (but it could have waited till morning [justification 1]) So I went out to my car and got my bag. I leave my bag in the car so I am not tempted by the computer. I got inside and made the choice to download Firefox [justification 2] from there I went to a few innocent sites until I found myself at a adult entertainment site [the corner]. I remembered back on my last fall and was able to recognize this pattern. Within 3 seconds I closed out the browser and took flight. Now the 3rd justification was lurking just beyond that corner and that was; "well you already came this far why not go all the way" I told the enemy to fuck himself and I needed up with a massive victory. Yes, I did fall into the trap but with reflection I was able to remove the snare and bring myself back to a state of knowledge of the enemy.

I am very happy that God was there for me at my weakest moment. I am so happy that I have learned so much that now I can see the patterns and take to flight if necessary. Of course I would have loved to have avoided the whole thing but that is not how this process works. We can not understand the end result unless we study the beginnings of such. In time I know I will eventually never go to "the corner" again, but for today I am happy that I was able to recognize where I was and avoid the fall completely. So I pat myself on the back on this one and see it as a massive victory.

Thanks to everyone who has been helping me through this struggle. A very special thanks to Big Al and His ceaseless prayers for me. This thread has made me a much better person and I am so appreciative of the loving Brotherhood I belong to.

 

[kyomoto]

Removing habits requires much patience as they were not created in a day nor will they be cast out in a day. The most important part of this process is not so much the victories but the falls and how we recollect and get back up with a lesson learned. Temptation will never leave, it is a hunger that is constant through life but it does become easier if we spend time in recollection and reflection. As I have said before temptation starts out in the most innocent way, so innocent that if we have not failed in this way before we would not even notice it. The enemy gets in through channels that we do not expect and by the time we realize it, the enemy is in the trenches with us and it is very hard to get out, but not impossible.

Reflecting on my victories an failures I have found many patterns, many seemingly innocent ploys, many justifications and plenty of reason applied to both failing and succeeding. In each failure a new lesson is learned and, if we reflect, we find a new weapon to fight the enemy. One of these weapons that saved me last night was flight. Remembering Kind David and the corner God told Him to avoid, I was able to recognize that corner last night. I reflected on what happened, my phone needed to be charged (but it could have waited till morning [justification 1]) So I went out to my car and got my bag. I leave my bag in the car so I am not tempted by the computer. I got inside and made the choice to download Firefox [justification 2] from there I went to a few innocent sites until I found myself at a adult entertainment site [the corner]. I remembered back on my last fall and was able to recognize this pattern. Within 3 seconds I closed out the browser and took flight. Now the 3rd justification was lurking just beyond that corner and that was; "well you already came this far why not go all the way" I told the enemy to fuck himself and I needed up with a massive victory. Yes, I did fall into the trap but with reflection I was able to remove the snare and bring myself back to a state of knowledge of the enemy.

I am very happy that God was there for me at my weakest moment. I am so happy that I have learned so much that now I can see the patterns and take to flight if necessary. Of course I would have loved to have avoided the whole thing but that is not how this process works. We can not understand the end result unless we study the beginnings of such. In time I know I will eventually never go to "the corner" again, but for today I am happy that I was able to recognize where I was and avoid the fall completely. So I pat myself on the back on this one and see it as a massive victory.

Thanks to everyone who has been helping me through this struggle. A very special thanks to Big Al and His ceaseless prayers for me. This thread has made me a much better person and I am so appreciative of the loving Brotherhood I belong to.

Some things are unavoidable. Glad you're not giving up no matter what the struggle is. By the way have you tried using programs to block adult entertainment sites?