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stillwantmore2;720468 said:
Yea I realized that when you said you masturbate to adult entertainment that was so badass and strong minded bro
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Yea I realized that when you said you masturbate to adult entertainment that was so badass and strong minded bro
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I'm admitting I enjoy and don't suffer in any way from it.
I know DLD, just bringing some light hearted ness to the thread.
I know DLD, just bringing some light hearted ness to the thread.
guys please stop tempting me with all the hot adult entertainment stories
This should be completely understood, this thread is for those who are suffering from an addiction to either adult entertainment or masturbation. If you do not have these issues then you do not need this help but there are millions of men out there that do need this and will never find it. As a loving Brotherhood it is imperative that we take care of each other. If someone is addicted to drugs they need the help of others to get things under control. The same applies here, addition is addiction and some suffer more than others. I know, for myself, I need this desperately as I am addicted to both and this thread helps me stay accountable to the Brotherhood. This thread is not for antagonizing or causing more pain to those who need this help. I understand that everyone has different issues and this may not be one of them, fine, ignore the thread. But for those who need this, I will be pushing the heck out of this as I feel responsible for your addiction. I should have never allowed adult entertainment on the site, not only is it penalizing us but it is also taking men from the forums and sending them to adult entertainment sites, contributing to their addictions. This is not the objective of the Brotherhood to make men suffer, it is our objective to improve ourselves in any way we can. Just as we would help an alcoholic or a drug addict, we are doing the same here.
God Bless
God Bless
I need to get some support and encouragement. I fell last night into both adult entertainment and masturbation. I want to explain this so my fall does not go to waste and I learn something from it and hopefully teach something. About 9:30pm I took my sleeping medication. This usually takes about 20 minutes to kick in but when it does I become extremely delirious. Anyway, about 15 minutes after taking my medication I decided to draw a bit before I fell asleep. If anyone knows, my art is of all female forms. I start each girl I draw naked and from there I dress them with paint, I can post an example. Anyway as I finished a quick sketch I went to post it on Instagram and I realized at that moment I was only doing this to catch the attention of a girl I have absolutely no right to do so for many reasons. Anyways I immediately felt bad and decided to pray in hopes that I could be let go from what I had done. I was becoming more and more delirious and then as I was driving in and out of sleep I ended up grading my laptop and going to adult entertainment and masturbating. After the fact I fell asleep immediately completely confused and unsettled. When I woke in the morning I was not sure if what happened was real or a dream. I needed to pull my laptop out and check the history to see, yes, indeed I did. I immediately went to my Spiritual Advisor and confessed and was given penance which I completed but during the penance I came to understand 2 very important things and I think they are very important for those who are trying to remain in control know.
First, when we are tired it is a very easy thing for us to become temped as our guard is down and we are not aware as we would be when awake. When we are very tired it leaves much room for invasive thoughts which, if not stopped, will bring us to fall.
I like to say fall as I know two things in the fall, one, it takes great courage and strength to get back up and forgive our mistake and better ourselves. And two, if we do fall over and over we have Brothers here that will help us get up when we can’t. There should never be shame in falling and rising, only conviction and determination to correct the deficiency.
Secondly, it is wise to look deeply into where the fall began and the steps that brought us there. In my case it started with a seemingly innocent drawing to Instagram to seeing things I should avoid to invasive thought to adult entertainment site to masturbation. So the actual beginning step to the fall starts out almost unnoticed and from there as it builds we become weaker in avoidance and the temptation become so much stronger. By the time we get to the actual act, as I did last night, the mind has a tendency to say “well, I already came this far, I might as well finish.” As you can see strength can turn to weakness very quickly without our guard up. We always need to wear the armor that protects us from these steps in temptation.
So in this two fold way I was drawn to do something I really did not want to do in anyway and if I were awake and aware I would have had the ability to dispel the temptation and go to bed. But this was not the case. I woke up with guilt and I knew that that meant I either need to confess or the guilt would consume me and even weaken me more. Since I did not fall for that trap the guilt was turned to conviction and now I am using it to help teach myself from this fall and hopefully give some light to others that may find this story helpful.
Further thing to note is I set up K9 security on my computer so I could not visit adult entertainment sites. I kept the password myself thinking I was strong enough to avoid using it…that went to shit
So the password now is in my Son’s hands and if I want to watch adult entertainment I need to get the password from Him….GOOD LUCK! So this extra step is just another way to say yes, I fell, but I am also taking steps to see I do not make the same mistake again.
I hope my fall helps others rise. I feel great that I could made it 27 days. With these new understandings I will shoot for 2 months! I do not think it matters so much how many times we fall more than how quickly we get up!
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First, when we are tired it is a very easy thing for us to become temped as our guard is down and we are not aware as we would be when awake. When we are very tired it leaves much room for invasive thoughts which, if not stopped, will bring us to fall.
I like to say fall as I know two things in the fall, one, it takes great courage and strength to get back up and forgive our mistake and better ourselves. And two, if we do fall over and over we have Brothers here that will help us get up when we can’t. There should never be shame in falling and rising, only conviction and determination to correct the deficiency.
Secondly, it is wise to look deeply into where the fall began and the steps that brought us there. In my case it started with a seemingly innocent drawing to Instagram to seeing things I should avoid to invasive thought to adult entertainment site to masturbation. So the actual beginning step to the fall starts out almost unnoticed and from there as it builds we become weaker in avoidance and the temptation become so much stronger. By the time we get to the actual act, as I did last night, the mind has a tendency to say “well, I already came this far, I might as well finish.” As you can see strength can turn to weakness very quickly without our guard up. We always need to wear the armor that protects us from these steps in temptation.
So in this two fold way I was drawn to do something I really did not want to do in anyway and if I were awake and aware I would have had the ability to dispel the temptation and go to bed. But this was not the case. I woke up with guilt and I knew that that meant I either need to confess or the guilt would consume me and even weaken me more. Since I did not fall for that trap the guilt was turned to conviction and now I am using it to help teach myself from this fall and hopefully give some light to others that may find this story helpful.
Further thing to note is I set up K9 security on my computer so I could not visit adult entertainment sites. I kept the password myself thinking I was strong enough to avoid using it…that went to shit
So the password now is in my Son’s hands and if I want to watch adult entertainment I need to get the password from Him….GOOD LUCK! So this extra step is just another way to say yes, I fell, but I am also taking steps to see I do not make the same mistake again.I hope my fall helps others rise. I feel great that I could made it 27 days. With these new understandings I will shoot for 2 months! I do not think it matters so much how many times we fall more than how quickly we get up!
DLD
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First of all, congratulations! It's my opinion that addicts are able to be much more in-touch with their 'true selves' due to the very nature of necessity. The product used, drugs/alcohol/adult entertainment/etc. are only the by-product of the actual behavior...addict behavior, if you will. It's a cycle that your brain uses to get what it wants/needs/craves and it will manifest whatever is necessary for its 'host' (you) to do the leg-work. In a sense you become a slave to whatever your brain says it needs...so an innocent drawing could be a trigger one day, and a Depends ad on TV could trigger you the next...it doesn't matter what stimuli the brain receives, it will contort those images until the desired result(s) occur.
Now getting back to the 'true-self' aspect...an addict walks a very fine line from 'deep enlightenment' and 'total Narcissism', whereby the rest of society needs to acquiesce to the needs of the addict and all attention becomes focused on trying to help/cure. Although well-intended, only the addict has the ability to navigate through their own mental abyss.
Control, or loss of control should be eliminated from the behavior category...the exact opposite should be employed. The act of giving-up control completely will free the brain from the exhaustive burden of always being on 'high-alert', and that is why you're susceptible when fatigue ultimately sets-in. You will forever struggle to win 'control' over the addict-brain and that battle will be lost even before it begins. This is where 'trust' becomes the primary driver, if you can truly give-in to whatever impulse your brain is signaling for, but trust that your conscious mind will accept the impulses for what they are instead of them manifesting into that spiral of 'over-dose' then you're one step closer to being free. I akin being addicted to something as being in jail, the addiction controls all the moods/behaviors/thoughts 100% of the time. It's unfortunate/unfair that there are some brains that are predisposed to being held prisoner to substances, where another could do crack/meth/adult entertainment/whatever and be able to take-it-or-leave-it.
These are strictly my thoughts from personal experiences that I've either had or witnessed, so by no means should anyone construe this as advice...just one brother talking to another
Now getting back to the 'true-self' aspect...an addict walks a very fine line from 'deep enlightenment' and 'total Narcissism', whereby the rest of society needs to acquiesce to the needs of the addict and all attention becomes focused on trying to help/cure. Although well-intended, only the addict has the ability to navigate through their own mental abyss.
Control, or loss of control should be eliminated from the behavior category...the exact opposite should be employed. The act of giving-up control completely will free the brain from the exhaustive burden of always being on 'high-alert', and that is why you're susceptible when fatigue ultimately sets-in. You will forever struggle to win 'control' over the addict-brain and that battle will be lost even before it begins. This is where 'trust' becomes the primary driver, if you can truly give-in to whatever impulse your brain is signaling for, but trust that your conscious mind will accept the impulses for what they are instead of them manifesting into that spiral of 'over-dose' then you're one step closer to being free. I akin being addicted to something as being in jail, the addiction controls all the moods/behaviors/thoughts 100% of the time. It's unfortunate/unfair that there are some brains that are predisposed to being held prisoner to substances, where another could do crack/meth/adult entertainment/whatever and be able to take-it-or-leave-it.
These are strictly my thoughts from personal experiences that I've either had or witnessed, so by no means should anyone construe this as advice...just one brother talking to another
Big Schwanz Acht;720743 said:
So enlightening and right on point. I was not looking for justification, I was looking to be dealt with strongly and with Brotherly love and understanding and that is what you gave me. Trust is so very important and this will; be my meditation for the day. I really appreciate the congratulations because I did do the best I could and that is what counts. And now, in failure I find victory, when all seemed to be a loss I can now see it as a gain. I trust in you and your advice.
DLD needs a wife, these self-flagellations makes me sad 
acromegaly;720745 said:DLD needs a wife, these self-flagellations makes me sad
The last thing I need is a wife! I would not have time for my Brothers! Do not be sad for me as I am joyful in my life and the choices I have made. Always understand these changes are inspired to improve myself and to help others who may have similar issues.
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doublelongdaddy;720744 said:
Language and how one speaks, especially to one's self is extremely powerful. Using superlatives like 'always/never' 'best/worst' generally set yourself up to fail. For communication exercises, my goals are to see how few I'm able to use the pronoun 'I', eliminate directives and only use superlatives for effect vs. fact. Spinning a phrase that ends in a negative into a positive also helps...the human brain skips from the start to the end for the sake of efficiency, so make those two parts positive and powerful.
Communication is what elevates us
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doublelongdaddy;720756 said:
1 AM?? I'm usually asleep by ten, (lol, totally joking)
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Are you mad because you can't give yourself an autoflaggelatio? Mike is like lil yachty because he can't have no wife. What's your length mines 7.5bp right now just measured.acromegaly;720745 said:DLD needs a wife, these self-flagellations makes me sad
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Do you need a wanky hanky
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Dont need a wife yet,lol if i ever get one dont need one that gets mad at me because of PE....just need someone that can help me to cool things down haha
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doublelongdaddy;720747 said:
Dont need a wife yet,lol if i ever get one dont need one that gets mad at me because of PE....just need someone that can help me to cool things down haha
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I didn't log into the forum yesterday because I masturbated though I didn't feel any guilt. It will be hard to quit masturbation permanently especially when you don't have a girlfriend.
huge-girth;720813 said:
It is not easy, but with every fall I gain greater strength. I only feel guilt for a short while when I mess up, I admit it, I pray for forgiveness and I look at the reason I did it and the changes I can make so I do not fall again. Guilt should always become conviction as guilt will drag you deeper into the abyss while conviction will not only make sense of it and make find ways to correct it. Guilt, in short, is something that should be felt indeed if we are guilty of something but that should be short lived and conviction should be taken up for change. Guilt will never change anything for the better, it will only drag you in deeper.
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Guilt and it's beloved partner, Shame are two of the most toxic emotions that, if left unchecked, can erode one's self faster and with more damage than any other. In my quest for holistic improvement, I no longer allow guilt or shame to have any power or place inside of me...if I make a mistake, I apologize quickly and sincerely to whomever I trespassed (including myself) and it's done!
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Big Schwanz Acht;720841 said:
Cmon bro, freal, :s holistic? Has to do with your holes x) ? Iguess, but some posts above you said that drawing sexy pictures is a trigger well idk about that I cant say I really ever had triggers for doing stuff its just a matter of wanting something real bad. Albeit when you're in addiction (as in using drugs everyday) then yeah its hard to stop but that's a different story
Yea everyone is different. Maybe your vice isn't adult entertainment. Maybe you like peeking at guys in he shower at The gym and don't realize it. You don't know what could trigger someone. It could be a smell. A sound. A color. Show support dude or move along. Look up the definition of holistic and your reference to "wholes" as it should be.templnite;720945 said:
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1"@atime;720947 said:
Calling me gay huh? OK I'll take that, its just the typical woman's fallback attempt to take away a argumets validity , and even though we aren't a gayfest like other forums we still do jelqing through Skype so simmer down.
Your so called "triggers" are a [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]sign[/words] that you have such little control over yourself that even farting makes your ay moist and not because you're in the shower but yes cause your peeking and dont realize it, because you lose faith in god and submit to your flesh. Like swan says guilt and shame have a negative side, so its better to throw them out altogether is like homer Simpson says " if something is hard to do then its not worth doing" or " don't ever try doing things so that you'll never have to fail at them"
Crying about how bad guilt makes you feel ashamed and being triggered are just an attempt to cover the sun with your finger. You still have a problem and that is you lack control. There's no two ways about this, you have a responsibility you know what you need to do, no one here is stupid.
We all need to walk with at least a little authority, if you feel ashamed good but don't be ashamed of god and righteousness because he wouldn't be ashamed of his church. Be ashamed not when you are humiliated for the lords glory, be ashamed when you embarrass yourself, by yourself, for no reason, when you tell me 'show support or leave' knowing I can't do either
doublelongdaddy;720834 said:
I'm giving it another trial. I notice that when I smoke weed I become very horny that's another problem.
I had a good weekend, I did find my eyes wonder a bit while in town but I was quick to pull them back. I have started to see how badly I have subjugated women and this has become apparent to me now more than ever and this is do to me ability to focus on what is behind the actual issue. As Temp said, trying to hide the sun with your finger is futile. I notice that when I do look it is always at their ass, the part I love most about women. But now that I am tempering my Lust I have learned that I have missed out on so much that comes from a women's mind. Although I have no interest in being with a woman I still want to learn to take my eyes and focus on their minds, not their bodies. Perhaps all my years here, being intimate with men has skewed the way I see women, maybe it is the adult entertainment too, not sure, what I do know, for myself, is I did not treat women with the same reverence I do my Brothers and this realization came from my abstinence. I was also in prayer and Jesus said "I want you to become like a knight experienced in battle, who can give orders to others amid the exploding shells. In the same way, My child, you should know how to master yourself amid the greatest difficulties, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗠𝗲, 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘀." This brought me great joy and allowed me to see just how good God is, even when I fall.
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templnite;720945 said:
K...when I get on a roll I can tend to be a tad effusive, thanks for the reality bitch-slap
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doublelongdaddy;721010 said:
struggling but moving forward!!God wont let you down imo
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doublelongdaddy;721074 said:
thanks we all need help...
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doublelongdaddy;721007 said:
Yeah niga got served proper, i just want everyone to give the "adult entertainment-no" lifestyle a chance, assimilate
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Some times we derail but its mandatory to return back on track.
templnite;721084 said:Yeah niga got served proper, i just want everyone to give the "adult entertainment-no" lifestyle a chance, assimilate
I do too so much but I understand my beliefs are far different than many and I am not going to push the way I believe on anyone. My example speaks for itself and I am always willing to help my Brothers understand my belief on Jesus and just how much I have gained because of it. If men would only peak their curiosity to hear a few words about my Jesus they would certainly convert and put their trust in Him. I have always the Father for the things I want through Jesus and they are always granted if righteous and proper. If my Brothers only knew the power of the mercy of Jesus they would give up all things of this Earth and follow Him. I always pray for the Brotherhood and if I can help even one man become closer to God I have accomplished much.
huge-girth;721138 said:
The Fall is going to happen and we can not avoid that as it is part of being human. Much of the time, in my case, it is no so much the transgression but how quickly I rebound from it. There is a subtle way the evil one has on us falling. After the fall any guilt we feel does not come from God, it comes from the devil. His sole goal is to make it impossible for yes to seek forgiveness. When this is successful that fall could become a complete failure and even put us in a worst state than when we began. The second I commit a sin, in the way of this tread, I run to three places to confess and find meaning and penance in my fall. 1. Jesus, 2. My Son, 3. The Brotherhood. Once I have admitted to my infraction I am given 3 perspectives on what I did and how to make myself better because of it. But surely that is not it! I also use the fall and the things I learn to help the Brothers here to find some help in my failure.
I have to say that I love you guys with all my heart and I feel so blessed to have your support and love. This challenge is something that would be impossible without my Brothers.
Today I'm starting to stay off masturbation. let me see how far I can go this time. I will make this a habit throughout this year. As time goes on, I'm sure I will keep on improving.
huge-girth;721381 said:
The way I look at this in a analogical way is I am holding 12 donuts. Now I love my donuts and I do not want to have to give them up but at the same time I know these donuts are making me fat. So I do not start by throwing away all the donuts, no that would be a big mistake because once we say "I will not" or "I can't" or any other absolute negative it makes the challenge unsustainable and unrealistic. Put down half the donuts
As time goes by you will have less and less donuts but you will start to see that you never needed the donuts to begin with And if you find a day when you slip up and have a donut, do not punish yourself or put yourself in a state of guilt, first give yourself credit for how far you have come and then resolve to make it father next time. For me it was 7 days, than 28 days, now I am shooting for 60.
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doublelongdaddy;721150 said:
Well you know how he says "my sheep hear my voice and recognize me" basically saying that if temp is on that retarded bullshit and someway the lord uses this raven and speaks through him, the chosen (his pre selected sheep) will hear the lord and recognize and maybe have a 'coming to Jesus moment' .
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doublelongdaddy;721407 said:The way I look at this in a analogical way is I am holding 12 donuts. Now I love my donuts and I do not want to have to give them up but at the same time I know these donuts are making me fat. So I do not start by throwing away all the donuts, no that would be a big mistake because once we say "I will not" or "I can't" or any other absolute negative it makes the challenge unsustainable and unrealistic. Put down half the donuts
I'm this way with Ice Cream...if I know there's ice cream in the freezer, I take a certain 'comfort' just knowing it's there...I don't necessarily have to have any.
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You feel anticipation fat boi, because you know yor gonna fuck that icecream up when the caretaker's not looking
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templnite;721451 said:
There's been many a shameful evening with just me, a spoon and the ice cream carton
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Do you fall asleep crying and holding the carton very tight spooning nearly humping it <
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After I've had my way with it, I toss it in the trash
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All soggy and that's not from the icecream you licked all that clean
31 days today! I broke a month and I feel so happy. There was occasion yesterday to fall into the same situation I did last time I made a month but I was able to recognize it this time and stop it before it became anything more than innocent. I am learning so much about myself and I am also learning that with my continued efforts I can begin to see women in the light they deserve, not as objects. Today I will not even look at a girl in fear of falling but I am starting to see this is not the smartest way. I think what I should focus on is talking with women, as I do my Brothers, and seeing the value they have as humans, not objects. I miss relationships with women, not in a sexual sense, but in a platonic way. I am sure these graces will come upon me, it took me 40 years to get to the place I was, I can not expect it to take 30 days to get over. But I am determined and resolved to do the very best I can to not offend my Jesus and to build friendships with all of God's people, not just men.
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Well done Mike! This metamorphosis from fear to knowledge is a huge step. Fear, anger, hate, etc. are all very toxic and these emotions can control you in 'all-encompassing' ways. Burying your head in the sand or avoiding any potential contact is just setting yourself up for the inevitable...face everything and anything with openness and grace which will render these addictions powerless.
Best of luck!
Best of luck!
doublelongdaddy;721407 said:The way I look at this in a analogical way is I am holding 12 donuts. Now I love my donuts and I do not want to have to give them up but at the same time I know these donuts are making me fat. So I do not start by throwing away all the donuts, no that would be a big mistake because once we say "I will not" or "I can't" or any other absolute negative it makes the challenge unsustainable and unrealistic. Put down half the donuts
For the past 7 days now, I've not watched any adult entertainment video which means I masturbated couple of days back without watching adult entertainment. But it is important to know that I wasn't feeling very horny when I masturbated and this is as a result of addiction. Sexual thoughts will come but if taken too far might lead to masturbation but this can happen due to loneliness.
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Well actually god says that you should get angry because imagine if somebody slaps your grandma or another nine eleven happened (they happen all the time worldwide but is swept under the rug). Believe it or not when I see news of mass murders I usually cry from the indignation and anger and I'm not even a bleeding heart person but its natural to have empathy.
Mike always tells you about the kindness of new covenant god but even he went and threw out the merchants who had taken control of the temple. Old covenant god is fuckin ferocious though, reading up on that shit it just might put the fear of god into someone.
I have a family member who drinks too much coffee and this angers me into not doing the same. Some of my friends parents are crackheads and this makes them so mad that they hate crack when otherwise they'd probably smoke with me. I hate it when someone mistreats children it makes me go into killmode. I'm not very fond of when people lie to me either. When people make it seem like everything is roses and birds chirping when its shit, all for personal gain at the expense of others.
If you supposedly struggle with masturbation or overeating etc then its because you like that shit and you'll keep going back like a dog that eats its own vomit (nasty I know but biblical). You can accept someone for what they are and still dissaprove even hate their behavior. God hates sin but loves the sinner
Mike always tells you about the kindness of new covenant god but even he went and threw out the merchants who had taken control of the temple. Old covenant god is fuckin ferocious though, reading up on that shit it just might put the fear of god into someone.
I have a family member who drinks too much coffee and this angers me into not doing the same. Some of my friends parents are crackheads and this makes them so mad that they hate crack when otherwise they'd probably smoke with me. I hate it when someone mistreats children it makes me go into killmode. I'm not very fond of when people lie to me either. When people make it seem like everything is roses and birds chirping when its shit, all for personal gain at the expense of others.
If you supposedly struggle with masturbation or overeating etc then its because you like that shit and you'll keep going back like a dog that eats its own vomit (nasty I know but biblical). You can accept someone for what they are and still dissaprove even hate their behavior. God hates sin but loves the sinner