I hope my friends understand why the sex was necessary for me to let go. I do not want men to judge me based on what I did, rather admire me for taking such a big step. The step, has allowed me to come out of my shell and really start putting the mind on the grind. I really want the best for us and I know that the big step I took was important to me being able to fly again....free of all past connections...free to explore, learn and eat from.
Yes, I feel as though I have found the garden of Eden and those who know me know that is exactly where I want to be. Where is my Eve? I wish I knew this, but today, as it is, I am one man free to do as he choses. Since I have let go of all past time I have been able to stay in the moment and I am VERY on point! I need to be part of the Mecca, I need to eat from the Mana and I deeply crave to drink of the water of the Gods! I know you are out there, you know I am here...I will find my Eve!
Sex, having sex, intercourse, what does any of that have to do with me letting go? EVERYTHING! What did I do? Let me retrace the steps that happened that magical evening...even though it felt like a haunted house! My dearest friend, a man I love more than any other, my lifelong brother, Jaz knew I needed to move on. He decided on that night to bring me to a much different place. A place where you could pick any girl and have your way with them. You basically just pick her out and go upstairs. Now I was not ready for any of this. I had not had sex in 4 years (this past 8/8/11 - Jen left on 8/8/8
Anyway, I was in this place and there were a few very nice looking girls. He asked me which girl I liked best and I pointed at this white girl with a MASSIVE ass and a tiny waist. A REAL ass to those who know about the booty hustle in Miami
She was real and she was real direct! Jaz must have had this planned but she came up and just said, "Mike, I know you have been alone for 4 years. Tonight I am going to bring you upstairs and fuck you.
I was really taken back. She knew I had a big cock because that was the first things she grabbed. She was very direct. Extremely direct. I was so nervous but a little voice in my head said "Michael! Just try it!" So I agreed, but under my terms.
Her name was Kim. She was a very pretty girl. Very, very street wise. Very quick, blunt and business like. I loved her right away as a buddy
Now the big question was could I fuck her? She grabbed my hand and brought me upstairs into this CRAZY maze of mirrors, turn after turn, mirror after mirror, I felt like I was Dante! This inferno was certainly cloaked in
red light and she had the ass of the best black girl I saw and boobs that were so MASSIVE and heavy. The whole trailer park feeling got my cock hard. SHe was extremely clean and clinical with all fluids, that safety made me feel very relaxed and secure I would not catch a disease.\
We finally found the end of this maze of mirrors and there was a basic black leatherette couch and a table. Adjacent that couch was another smaller love seat. She sat and talked with me for about 20 minutes. I went on about every fear I had while she just listened. It was refreshing really. And then she started to undress and make her moves. She asked if I was ready. I said, I hope so
SHe danced for a bit and I asked if I could just look at her ass for a minute
I really was quite taken back with a white ass that was so big and round. The Viagra was doing it's job. She worked my cock like a pro
She asked if I had a big mushroom head and I said I guess so. She said she wanted to suck it bad so I allowed her. In one sweeping motion she had a magnum xl on my cock and the cock was down her throat! I was amazed
She sucked my cock for a while. That was not that great really but I figured she had not had cocks that big come around too often
I took hold of the situation and got myself on hard and sent her back to try to suck again....again, it was difficult for her so I just asked her to sit her phat ass on my cock. Now remember, I have been looking at her pussy the entire time we were talking. She was masturbating while were chatting! Her pussy was very tiny, I mean, I was confused on how I would fit in it. WHen she tried to sit on it I knew it was going to be an issue. The beautiful thing about Penis Enlargement, after a while, you can kind of command how big your dick is going to be in any situation
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I did a reverse kegels and it pulled back a bit of blood and I slid into her at about 90% erect. I had sex for maybe 5 minutes and decides I was done so I shot off....the moment of freedom had arrived! I was FREE! I no longer was loyal to anyone! It was like being baptized!~! I felt reborn.
I asked her if I could pull off the condom and look at my cock. She said it was OK as soon as she did some sanitary things. Eventually I took the condom off and was in amazement of the cock that laid between my legs. Like a thick arm, curved like an elephants nose, wet from the lubricated condom and glistening in the
red light of Hades! I was truly amazed at the creation I had made. I laid there for a moment thinking back on how big I really have gotten in Penis Enlargement and where it ultimately ended up...In a red back room with Kim, career cock criminal
In some twisted way it was just right as no one else would have had the ability to get me into that red room...Kim did this task good and proper.
We are getting cleaned up and dressed and I am thinking how it is going to feel walking down those stairs into a group of people....what would they think? I felt odd but Kim assured me I would be OK. She was right, no one even noticed! I sat down and it was regular. No alarms went off, no fire crackers, no awards, no earthquakes, pretty much regular. The only difference was I was no longer the perpetual 40 year old virgin
My cherry was broken and now I had the rest of my life to get on with. We soon left this place and went off to the house for much needed sleep. I had so much to think about, I looked different, I felt different, I had much to think on. I went back to my room and as soon as my head hit the soft, cold pillow I somehow fell into a deep sleep.
The next thing I remember is waking up. It was 4:45pm, I was in a state of disarray. Jaz was in the gym working out, I stumbled to the kitchen for a coke and a cigarette...no smoking in the house so I explored the courtyard. At around 4:30-5:00 in Boca Raton, the sun shines on the courtyard from all directions. It is impossible to escape its rays so I found a cabana on the side of the pool. There was shade! I sat back and tried to put the pieces together but all I could do was think about getting back out there! I wanted to shower, go to the barber, dress and hit Miami. I wanted to explore more of it, deeper, more intimate! I was craving a power of love for the female form, I had long mastered this love with men but I had become quite rusty with our counterparts, she, her, words that my vocabulary lacked for 4 years! I wanted to test so many theories my virgin mind was manufacturing.
My mind is extremely deductive. I crave simplicity. I tend to bring every number to it's smallest denomination. I tend to see things others do not due to handicaps I have (monochromatic vision, critical dyslexia (all objects appear upside down, backwards and inside out.). I could be considered blind but somehow I remain able to keep a license
ANyway, when I experience anything, I use that situation to teach me many lessons. If I experience something new I will explore it to the most extreme level until I have mastered it. There is no other option for me, if I want something I get it. I needed to explore the female mind. I could do this now so my mind was quickly compiling data, thinking of angles, remembering what my friend told me, what Kim taught me, all the various lessons I learned that sorted evening!
I first went to the barber. This guy is nice. I mean, he hooked me up with the best hair cuts while I was there. Always on point. My skin fade looked like the sunset, ALWAYS! I am very particular. I got a really good hair line and my hair is stupid thick. There is no excuses for anything other than a perfect fade! This guy was nice. He told me, this is the Fade that will get you Laid! No doubt he was right! Now I wanted a line up! We went back to the crib to get dressed.
We planned on going to King of Diamonds for a birthday party that was happening for some rappers and djs. Again we got VIP treatment, seated in the usual spot, complete with girls all over us. Crazy really. Again I sat back and sparked a thick blunt. I was getting one of the dancers high and I was like, you just do your thang bitch and I'm a let you hang bitch. I felt like Walle
I was just
hanging out with him the night before
The surreal-ness of it all became more control oriented. I knew if I was spending money, which I must have, as I was being treated like Eminem. I decided to really take advantage of this.