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I know I kinda make alot of posts about bulge size and stuff like that. So I thought maybe to clarify my situation I might post the story that has let me to Penis Enlargement thus far.
It all started in college when I joined a fraternity. I was the only black person in the whole frat. They were really cool guys but I live in Texas and needless to say the ignorance runs a little deep.
Being the only black person it was only a matter of time before the jokes and rumors started going around about how big my dick must be. I had no problem with this of course, but it did put a little added pressure on me with the ladies. I hadnt yet slept with anyone so no one knew my real size, at the time I was about 6x6.
Sooner or later I got addicted to the study drug adderral. I dont know if you've heard of it but its a drug very similar to speed, in that it can be highly addictive, cause a lack of appetite, severe depression when taken in high amounts, and it shrinks the hell out of your dick!!!
Things were tough, I was really depressed from adderral, and being the only black person and an almost all white extermly conservative upper class school ment I never had any real cocntact with girls.
Needless to say I was (spanking it) quite a bit and a was begining to develop an ebarassing reputation.But that was only the begining.
Strike 1
In response to not being able to get any girls I started to go on yahoo messenger to try and meet girls online. Heres a picture and profile of me at the time. (Http://profiles.yahoo.com/tx_sxyathlete63). One of my friends at the time was surfing on my computer and not only did he find my ���� but he saw the profile. Although I have jeans in the picture the way the photo is shot it looks I like I might be holding my dick (which if I was would be awful small as you can not see it).
I guess he started to tell people and sooner or later many people in the school knew about the site, this I did not know unitl much later.
Strike 2
A few weeks into my sophomore year we went to my friends beach house. It was 4 girls and 4 guys. One of the girls was curious I guess about the size of my dick and was spying on my through a crack in the door while I was chaning after a shower.
Needless to say my flaccid penis at the time was only about 3in long (classic shower dick for me at the time and I am about 6'3 with extremly long legs so this makes it look extra small). Later on that day I heard the girls gigling from behind the door to there room. I listened in and what I heard was
Voice 1: "so its small?,
Voice2: it's not that small its just not as big as you think it would be.
The girl who had told was kind of a nice girl so I think she was trying to save me some embarassment after hearing her friends laugh.
Strike 3
Already rumors had started to circulate about me possibly having a small penis. Not only that I was also known for masturbating often and since I didnt have any contact with females really (pretty much cause I doubt any would date a black person) people were starting to say that I was gay.
A few weeks into my junior year we had a party called playboy mansion. I decided to wear some really tight jeans, and no shirt. To get the party going I took about 60 mg of adderral which needless to say gave me about a 2inch flaccid penis(you know the kind that sort of stick straight out).
Weel after that night, the small penis rumors turned into girls saying that they heard there was "nothing there". When I would pass by I would here some say they felt bad for me, or say something like "awww" or maybe "it doesnt matter if its small", or just an "aw man he's cute too".
I workout alot too and other rumors started to flourish about how I was working out so much to make up for small penis, and things of that nature.
Graduated
Needless to say hearing all the rumors I too began to belive that maybe I did have small penis. It's also about this time I started noticing guys whenever they passed me would start adjusting there pants or put there hands in there pockets, which made me even more self conscious.
My last few semesters of college were absolute hell. Although I manage to graduate and kick my adderrall habit the damage to my reputation, and my psyche left deep scars. Penis Enlargement has helped some but I am still very scared mentally
It seems like a can never find a pair of pants that dont make my penis look small. If I could paint a picture for you it's kinda like the top part slides just under the belt always sticks out a little bit and makes it look like I have a small penis, even though after Penis Enlargement'ing I am out 4.5x4.75 on a bad day.
Even still whenever I pass men many of them do the pants adjustment thing or put there hand in their pockets. THis happens to me at work all the time.
On two seperate occasions I've seen guys subconcsciously looking at my dick and start grabbing theirs from underneath, as if to check their size against mine.
It feels like everyone I know, or every girl I meet I just feel like they already or immediatley, look down and say, "oh he;s small" I just dont know what to do. Even today I was at my sisters volleyball tournament and I swore I heard to of the moms talking and saying.. "oh and he's black too, so its jsut like aww" I could have sworn they were talking about my penis but I dont know for sure on that one. But I did notice that my pants were kind of doing the stick out thing.
I feel inside like I want to show everyone who thought I have small penis "look godamnit Im 7.25x6 Im not big but I sure as hell aint small".
I think now my biggest worry is when I go to the gym, and I start to get gym shrinkage from working out. I can swear I hear people talking about my size (about 4 x 4.5 when lifting). I know it sounds lame but it's just like I dont know what to do. I feel posting here offers some sort of psychological catharsis but yet in still I feel like I'm being misjuged.
ANy thoughts?
It all started in college when I joined a fraternity. I was the only black person in the whole frat. They were really cool guys but I live in Texas and needless to say the ignorance runs a little deep.
Being the only black person it was only a matter of time before the jokes and rumors started going around about how big my dick must be. I had no problem with this of course, but it did put a little added pressure on me with the ladies. I hadnt yet slept with anyone so no one knew my real size, at the time I was about 6x6.
Sooner or later I got addicted to the study drug adderral. I dont know if you've heard of it but its a drug very similar to speed, in that it can be highly addictive, cause a lack of appetite, severe depression when taken in high amounts, and it shrinks the hell out of your dick!!!
Things were tough, I was really depressed from adderral, and being the only black person and an almost all white extermly conservative upper class school ment I never had any real cocntact with girls.
Needless to say I was (spanking it) quite a bit and a was begining to develop an ebarassing reputation.But that was only the begining.
Strike 1
In response to not being able to get any girls I started to go on yahoo messenger to try and meet girls online. Heres a picture and profile of me at the time. (Http://profiles.yahoo.com/tx_sxyathlete63). One of my friends at the time was surfing on my computer and not only did he find my ���� but he saw the profile. Although I have jeans in the picture the way the photo is shot it looks I like I might be holding my dick (which if I was would be awful small as you can not see it).
I guess he started to tell people and sooner or later many people in the school knew about the site, this I did not know unitl much later.
Strike 2
A few weeks into my sophomore year we went to my friends beach house. It was 4 girls and 4 guys. One of the girls was curious I guess about the size of my dick and was spying on my through a crack in the door while I was chaning after a shower.
Needless to say my flaccid penis at the time was only about 3in long (classic shower dick for me at the time and I am about 6'3 with extremly long legs so this makes it look extra small). Later on that day I heard the girls gigling from behind the door to there room. I listened in and what I heard was
Voice 1: "so its small?,
Voice2: it's not that small its just not as big as you think it would be.
The girl who had told was kind of a nice girl so I think she was trying to save me some embarassment after hearing her friends laugh.
Strike 3
Already rumors had started to circulate about me possibly having a small penis. Not only that I was also known for masturbating often and since I didnt have any contact with females really (pretty much cause I doubt any would date a black person) people were starting to say that I was gay.
A few weeks into my junior year we had a party called playboy mansion. I decided to wear some really tight jeans, and no shirt. To get the party going I took about 60 mg of adderral which needless to say gave me about a 2inch flaccid penis(you know the kind that sort of stick straight out).
Weel after that night, the small penis rumors turned into girls saying that they heard there was "nothing there". When I would pass by I would here some say they felt bad for me, or say something like "awww" or maybe "it doesnt matter if its small", or just an "aw man he's cute too".
I workout alot too and other rumors started to flourish about how I was working out so much to make up for small penis, and things of that nature.
Graduated
Needless to say hearing all the rumors I too began to belive that maybe I did have small penis. It's also about this time I started noticing guys whenever they passed me would start adjusting there pants or put there hands in there pockets, which made me even more self conscious.
My last few semesters of college were absolute hell. Although I manage to graduate and kick my adderrall habit the damage to my reputation, and my psyche left deep scars. Penis Enlargement has helped some but I am still very scared mentally
It seems like a can never find a pair of pants that dont make my penis look small. If I could paint a picture for you it's kinda like the top part slides just under the belt always sticks out a little bit and makes it look like I have a small penis, even though after Penis Enlargement'ing I am out 4.5x4.75 on a bad day.
Even still whenever I pass men many of them do the pants adjustment thing or put there hand in their pockets. THis happens to me at work all the time.
On two seperate occasions I've seen guys subconcsciously looking at my dick and start grabbing theirs from underneath, as if to check their size against mine.
It feels like everyone I know, or every girl I meet I just feel like they already or immediatley, look down and say, "oh he;s small" I just dont know what to do. Even today I was at my sisters volleyball tournament and I swore I heard to of the moms talking and saying.. "oh and he's black too, so its jsut like aww" I could have sworn they were talking about my penis but I dont know for sure on that one. But I did notice that my pants were kind of doing the stick out thing.
I feel inside like I want to show everyone who thought I have small penis "look godamnit Im 7.25x6 Im not big but I sure as hell aint small".
I think now my biggest worry is when I go to the gym, and I start to get gym shrinkage from working out. I can swear I hear people talking about my size (about 4 x 4.5 when lifting). I know it sounds lame but it's just like I dont know what to do. I feel posting here offers some sort of psychological catharsis but yet in still I feel like I'm being misjuged.
ANy thoughts?
