pogzee;660404 said:
thanks for your faith and concern jake......but i am so broken from the inside that i cant focus on anyhthing....my parents passed away when i was a child...my grandparents took me in.....i feel i am such a bad son i am not being able to help them.........i am not being able to help myself thats why...the person i put my faith in she turned her back on me in these bad times i have ....i called her her mother as i looked at her as one...she turned her back on me.....i dont have anyone to talk to or share my heart out with........i am only breaking into pieces on the inside...
for me to tell you that i know how you feel would be a lie.
but i do understand the feeling of losing people you love. or be betrayed.
i will like to tell you some stuff to maek you rethink your situation.
this shouldn't be used as a shoulder to cry on (sorry im not the best at that) it should however be used as a means of getting back on your feet.
in my own culture we havew this saying: "only when your dad dies. can you truly become a man"
it's not anything bad about ones dad. but the truth is that aslong as he is there. you will always have his support to some extinct.
by not having a dad. you get 100% freedom. you get to choose absolutely how you want to turn out to be.
is this good or bad? well depends on how you use it.
now a normal thing here would do would be to ask you what your parents wanted you to become?
however im not a fan of guilt tripping people so excuse me. don't think like that and if people use that on you know that it is manipulation 1.01
however.... what would you want to do?
if i could give you the tool to make you the man you wanted to be. explorer. astronaut.
deepsea diver. pornstar. surgeon.
what would you do?
start writing these things down. and then start doing them.
i mean you are depressed and feel alone.
what can you possibly lose from this point forward?
i mean if it goes bad. then what you can always go back to being depressed.
but what if you have a nice experience.
then perhaps... you are going in another direction than now?
as much as this sounds easy. i would lie to you if i told you it is.
it's a long road. and it requires alot of work. but to tell you the truth. it's not the goal but the actual travel that is amazing.
you can find just about anything in life you want.
if i where you i would start to study some of the things around "happiness" try and make your own project on what Happiness actually is. and how you archive it.
if you want bragging rights put it up on this forum to help other people aswell.
read different philosofies about it etc.
basicly the only thing you shouldn't do would be to fall back into self pity as that will get you absolutely no where.
and hey. you got the brotherhood here aswell.
chin up buddy. im not saying that this is easy. what i am saying is that you can do it!