Hello everybody,
I’m a german man of 28 years. I’ll try to keep my intro here as short as possible but I’m afraid there is a lot to talk about in my case.
My background and condition
Background: I’m a severe ���� addict for roughly eight years and I had a time were I was basically obsessed with the idea of getting a bigger penis. Long story short, I tried jelqing a couple of time and clamping with a cock ring. How stupid I was …
One day, back in 2009 if I remember correctly, the cock ring got stuck for maybe 3 – 5 minutes so I couldn’t strip it any further towards the gland.
I guess my right cavernous body was injured then, because since then I have a somewhat “weaker” part of my right cavernous body (from the shaft to maybe 1/3 of the length of the penis) and a little, tangible scar-like tissue inside. Due to this, my penis doesn’t get as hard as it used to get, but only about 80%. As a consquence my erection isn’t as stable as it once was and almost always slightly bent and flabby (imagine a tower with an unstable base on one side – that’s what I’m talking about).
Sidenote: I haven’t had a full blown, arousal-based erection for years, because of ���� induced ED. My last rock-hard, healthy erection was maybe with 17 years, that means eleven years ago. Oh, btw, I’m still a virgin.
The doctors
Fast forward: I finally saw a doctor about three years ago = in 2012 (remember, ca. three years after the incident with the cock ring happened). The doctor did a ultra sound and said everything was ok. But till this very day, my feeling told me different. Something was wrong. Fortunately the condition didn’t get worse over the years but maybe even a little bit better.
In September 2014 I saw another specialist. He examined the penis with his hands (no ultra sound though) and said it was a plaque but not a hard one. I guess he wasn’t quite sure himself and wanted to say that it was more of a precursor of a plaque than a real one.
The doctor went on to say, that there’s no treatment for this, apart from surgery (but only as the last option) and maybe Vitamin E supplements. In some cases Viagra, Cialis etc. may be helpful and he explained that there’s probably a new treatment method in the US soon were some drug is injected in the cavernous body so that the plaques disappear. Anybody heard from this ?
In November 2014 and February 2015 I went to the third doctor. He was the best one, I told him about ����-induced PE etc., did a good and responsible examination (ultrasound, inserted a certain substance to check my cavernous body) and told me "no major harm done, everything fine. No worries."
The visit at the last two urologists were major wake up calls for me, to finally stop ���� consumtion and excessive masturbation, for the sake of my sexual, spiritual and mental health and altough I’m still suffering incredibly hard with my ���� addiction, I have done some steps in the right direction.
Maybe some veterans in this forum could give me some advice ? Thank God, I don’t seem to be a hopeless case and I haven’t lost hope for a complete and lasting recovery yet. So rebooting from ���� and masturbation is first priority now and then we’ll see.
Treatment
I’d like to mention some things I discovered for myself:
Pelvic floor exercises (especially kegels and reverse kegels) seem to have a very good effect on my scar tissue – after an intense kegel workout, the scar disappears of it’s own for a couple of seconds, most likely because the cavernous body is “tigher” then.
I workout regularly and try to get my diet and lifestyle as clean as possible. I do mostly bwe stuff so it’s kind of hard to really hit the important muscles of the legs and glutes. But I do kb-swings, back bridges, bw-squats, all sort of jumps, sprints etc. Should I focus more on the classical weightlifting movement such as deadlifts, squats etc. ?
A little bit embarassing but nonetheless: I used to own several fleshlights. After I masturbated with this toys my morning erections in general seemed to be a lot harder and healthier. It seemed to me, that this deviced trained the pelvic floor muscles more deeply, thoroughly and intense than conventional pelvic floor training.
But for me these toys are a no-no now, at least till I’m 100% back to balance.
At the moment I supplement zinc daily. Should I get other prescriptions from my doc ? What do you think ?
I’m a big believer in meditation, although I’m a christian. Maybe that could help too ?!
I just started to read a book by an american doctor, something like “Factor Hardness” or something and I’ll do my best to implement as much as possible in my life.
Another uro in an online forum told me that PD5-inhibitors in a low dose could have a positive effect in reducing scar tissue. Should I insist on getting those ?
In a nutshell my theory is the following: good blood supply, healthy muscle tone and a clean diet = stronger erections (especially in the night) = more nutrients = more healing. Or it could have the adverse effect by creating more microtrauma and therefore making matters worse (that’s my fear at the moment).
One last thing: I got a bathmate penis pump back in March and used it a couple of times since then. It is just my impression, but it seemed to worsen the condition, even I wasn’t even remotely hard. What do I mean by worsen ? Well, the day(s) after use of the bathmate I got some … hard to describe … “phantom pain” but more around the injured area than on the actual cavernous body. It’s similar to the pain I get after an intense PMO-session and maybe even imaginary, as I’m super conscious since this incident in 2009 ...
I try to stay as calm and focussed as possible. Ok, my situation is unique and kind of fucked up, but I think it is way to early to panic and the way I see it, there isn’t all hope lost for me. There’s always a way …
Any comments, questions or suggestions would be highly appreciated.
Thanks in advance friends and
All the best !
theduke
I’m a german man of 28 years. I’ll try to keep my intro here as short as possible but I’m afraid there is a lot to talk about in my case.
My background and condition
Background: I’m a severe ���� addict for roughly eight years and I had a time were I was basically obsessed with the idea of getting a bigger penis. Long story short, I tried jelqing a couple of time and clamping with a cock ring. How stupid I was …
One day, back in 2009 if I remember correctly, the cock ring got stuck for maybe 3 – 5 minutes so I couldn’t strip it any further towards the gland.
I guess my right cavernous body was injured then, because since then I have a somewhat “weaker” part of my right cavernous body (from the shaft to maybe 1/3 of the length of the penis) and a little, tangible scar-like tissue inside. Due to this, my penis doesn’t get as hard as it used to get, but only about 80%. As a consquence my erection isn’t as stable as it once was and almost always slightly bent and flabby (imagine a tower with an unstable base on one side – that’s what I’m talking about).
Sidenote: I haven’t had a full blown, arousal-based erection for years, because of ���� induced ED. My last rock-hard, healthy erection was maybe with 17 years, that means eleven years ago. Oh, btw, I’m still a virgin.
The doctors
Fast forward: I finally saw a doctor about three years ago = in 2012 (remember, ca. three years after the incident with the cock ring happened). The doctor did a ultra sound and said everything was ok. But till this very day, my feeling told me different. Something was wrong. Fortunately the condition didn’t get worse over the years but maybe even a little bit better.
In September 2014 I saw another specialist. He examined the penis with his hands (no ultra sound though) and said it was a plaque but not a hard one. I guess he wasn’t quite sure himself and wanted to say that it was more of a precursor of a plaque than a real one.
The doctor went on to say, that there’s no treatment for this, apart from surgery (but only as the last option) and maybe Vitamin E supplements. In some cases Viagra, Cialis etc. may be helpful and he explained that there’s probably a new treatment method in the US soon were some drug is injected in the cavernous body so that the plaques disappear. Anybody heard from this ?
In November 2014 and February 2015 I went to the third doctor. He was the best one, I told him about ����-induced PE etc., did a good and responsible examination (ultrasound, inserted a certain substance to check my cavernous body) and told me "no major harm done, everything fine. No worries."
The visit at the last two urologists were major wake up calls for me, to finally stop ���� consumtion and excessive masturbation, for the sake of my sexual, spiritual and mental health and altough I’m still suffering incredibly hard with my ���� addiction, I have done some steps in the right direction.
Maybe some veterans in this forum could give me some advice ? Thank God, I don’t seem to be a hopeless case and I haven’t lost hope for a complete and lasting recovery yet. So rebooting from ���� and masturbation is first priority now and then we’ll see.
Treatment
I’d like to mention some things I discovered for myself:
Pelvic floor exercises (especially kegels and reverse kegels) seem to have a very good effect on my scar tissue – after an intense kegel workout, the scar disappears of it’s own for a couple of seconds, most likely because the cavernous body is “tigher” then.
I workout regularly and try to get my diet and lifestyle as clean as possible. I do mostly bwe stuff so it’s kind of hard to really hit the important muscles of the legs and glutes. But I do kb-swings, back bridges, bw-squats, all sort of jumps, sprints etc. Should I focus more on the classical weightlifting movement such as deadlifts, squats etc. ?
A little bit embarassing but nonetheless: I used to own several fleshlights. After I masturbated with this toys my morning erections in general seemed to be a lot harder and healthier. It seemed to me, that this deviced trained the pelvic floor muscles more deeply, thoroughly and intense than conventional pelvic floor training.
But for me these toys are a no-no now, at least till I’m 100% back to balance.
At the moment I supplement zinc daily. Should I get other prescriptions from my doc ? What do you think ?
I’m a big believer in meditation, although I’m a christian. Maybe that could help too ?!
I just started to read a book by an american doctor, something like “Factor Hardness” or something and I’ll do my best to implement as much as possible in my life.
Another uro in an online forum told me that PD5-inhibitors in a low dose could have a positive effect in reducing scar tissue. Should I insist on getting those ?
In a nutshell my theory is the following: good blood supply, healthy muscle tone and a clean diet = stronger erections (especially in the night) = more nutrients = more healing. Or it could have the adverse effect by creating more microtrauma and therefore making matters worse (that’s my fear at the moment).
One last thing: I got a bathmate penis pump back in March and used it a couple of times since then. It is just my impression, but it seemed to worsen the condition, even I wasn’t even remotely hard. What do I mean by worsen ? Well, the day(s) after use of the bathmate I got some … hard to describe … “phantom pain” but more around the injured area than on the actual cavernous body. It’s similar to the pain I get after an intense PMO-session and maybe even imaginary, as I’m super conscious since this incident in 2009 ...
I try to stay as calm and focussed as possible. Ok, my situation is unique and kind of fucked up, but I think it is way to early to panic and the way I see it, there isn’t all hope lost for me. There’s always a way …
Any comments, questions or suggestions would be highly appreciated.
Thanks in advance friends and
All the best !
theduke
