My situation is I’ve been celibate for 11 years, I have not been on a date or with a woman in any capacity over this 11 years. Masturbation always seemed like a daily necessity, and for me adult entertainment was needed (for the most part). Today I can go a week or sometimes a month. I do not want to quit, I thinking quitting anything creates a rule and that rule will most certainly be broken. I do not do it because I want to, most times I have to force it, I do it because I begin to get fustrated and easily angered. When I get to that point I find the lesser of the two would be releasing myself.
Understand I am also a minister and I can not teach masturbation is wrong as it is not written to be. (Yes, I know about Owan?) so since God did not speak against it, where He had plenty of opportunities, the 613 laws could simply be 614. Why was it not mentioned in negative light? I think because a single man who has given his life to the Lord needs that release. I know I should like a perverted preacher, and that is just fine? I teach Gods Word as it is written.
With all that said sometimes I can look at very innocent material and take care of business when I find myself in that situation. Problem is it never stays innocent, it almost always leads to full out adult entertainment! So trying to avoid this is where I suffer.
I would be happy to get myself to once a month and work from there. Quitting seems unrealistic for me since I am complete celibate. But getting longer periods would be awesome cause no matter when I do it the guilt and regret is always the same. I refuse to go to God and dump my guilt on Him, Jesus already has completely forgiven me so why would I remind Him of something He has already completely forgiven and forgotten? “I have forgotten your sins as far as east is from west” that eternity! So I am stuck with the guilt and that sting hurts so bad I think twice next time. I will only go to God in praise, glory and honor of everything They have done for me.
So I will start this accountability tomorrow since I have had a very stressful week filled with frustration. Monday is a good starting day. I will be accountable from them forward.
I pray this helps us get to a better place and helps others who want to take part too. Thanks for starting the thread
