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goinfor11x7 said:That's the normal response, P. The problem was I fell in love with the drink rather than the pussy!!
lmfao...that is classic!
goinfor11x7 said:That's the normal response, P. The problem was I fell in love with the drink rather than the pussy!!
MAXAMEYES said:Mike,
I gotta tell ya that you've got to be one of the most honest, open, forthright people I've ever "met" in my entire life. The deeply personal shit you've discussed on here, with no holds barred, is courageous to an extent that's very rarely seen in this world nowadays.
Just the sheer guts it takes to come out and admit that you've got a problem, then giving that problem a name and then freely admitting that your problem sometimes wins the fight is not only brave but damn inspirational too.
So damn many of us run around in our lives ignoring or avoiding our problems on a constant, daily basis; yet we are somehow amazed when these same problems give us the same exact troubles time and time again.
Hopefully your candor will prove to be an inspiration and the necessary catalyst for someone out there who needs to face their own demons and give themselves a good old fashioned reality check.
And for that, if nothing else, you deserve congratulations.
One piece of advice you're most probably familiar with, yet can't possibly be over-emphasized is this:
Something like this that's been such a large part of your life (albeit a destructive one) will leave a very large void that needs filling.
Mike; you gotta, gotta, GOTTA fill that void faster than yesterday with something both positive and as far away from your demon as humanly possible.
My personal favorite was heavy bag and speed bag workouts. I'd pound the shit outta that bag until my fuckin bone marrow was cryin' from fatigue. I looked at the pain as (like Richard Pryor useta say) weakness leavin' my body.
Mike, whatever avenue ya choose I wish you all the best the world has to give and you know damn well that all of us here will give ya every prop you might ever want.
You desreve that and so much more.
Good luck to ya bro' !!
doublelongdaddy;254859 said:I do have a full bottle of Lorazepam which should help with the next few days.
doublelongdaddy;368513 said:I was a year sober from the drinks on Christmas....thank GOD for weed
dmoney101;368514 said:the greatest thing ever lol
doublelongdaddy;254859 said:I slipped for the past 2 months< Got up to a pint of vodka daily (before, 7 years ago, it was more than a 5th daily) This is so hard to say, believe me I know how crappy this looks. I decided to stop today, had my last shot at around 5:00 pm (just to help with the withdrawals) I can't believe a beer can turn into this, it blows my mind. This is my 4th try at sobriety. I am already feeling the withdrawals. I do have a full bottle of Lorazepam which should help with the next few days.
I feel so shitty about this, thoroughly embarrassed. I really thought I could handle it:s It started out great but it went from good to bad to worse. I have allot of willpower when I decide to do something and I know I can beat this. My admitting this to you guys is a big step. I have no one I can really tell.
I do not look forward to the next few days but I will get through it. I am going to start to attend meeting again (once I get the guts)
I look forward to the support I know you guys will give me.
doublelongdaddy;368553 said:Yes indeed, my salvation is weed...it has solved all of my addiction problems.
dmoney101;368572 said:lol well since i have a mild weed addiction myself i can't say the same. at least my addictions are good though. weed and Penis Enlargement. what more could you want? haha
TheStick;368762 said:DLD, if you (or anyone else, for that matter) ever fall off the wagon get a scrip for Naltrexone 50mg. It's safe, non-addictive and non-psychoactive. Take it 1/2- 1 hour before you drink. Do this EVERY TIME you drink and before you know it the compulsion to drink will become less and less and can actually go away all together. I talked about this in an earlier post. It's called the Sinclair Method and it worked for me and everyone I know who's done it. Alcoholism is actually an OPIOID addiction. Alcohol stimulates endorphin release in your brain so every time you drink you get a microdose of your own natural morphine. Drink frequently enough and your brain associates that high with consuming alcohol and the behavior becomes wired into it. Naltrexone is an endorphin blocker. Long story short, when you have the urge, take naltrexone BEFORE you drink. It eliminates the endorphin response and in time your brain will no longer associate drinking with that high thus weakening or eliminating the compulsion to drink.
I hope those with a drinking problem on here might see this and actually look into it. Alcoholism isn't a disease, it's a learned behavior that can easily be unlearned. I tried AA, group and one-on-one counseling and none of them gave me any hope. Instead I thought I had an incurable disease I would have to battle for the rest of my life. I suffered from depression every time I got sober because I felt defective for having the compulsion to drink. I wished I could be like my friends who could stop after one or two and could go months without a drink and not even think about it.
Then I read an article about the Sinclair method and figured I'd give it a shot. I looked into it and found that a doctor visit for a scrip and 30 50mg. tablets of Naltrexone would cost me the same as two one-on-one counseling sessions- and I didn't have to go to counseling anymore (although you still can if you want.) I'm unbelievably happy I took that chance because it's worked out beautifully. I started in June of last year and now I rarely have even a small craving for alcohol and when I do get one I take my Naltrexone and have a drink. The craving doesn't last more than a drink or two where it used to be I couldn't stop til I was passing out drunk once I started. Now I can have a drink or two with friends (as long as I take my Naltrexone) and I don't end up being the embarrassing buddy who has to be carried outta the bar at the end of the night.
This is the alcoholism treatment of the future. Once people learn that traditional treatments don't really want to cure addiction but just keep people coming back and forking over their money I think it'll really catch on. But we have a $6 billion-a-year drug and alcohol treatment industry to contend with and something tells me they're not gonna embrace a method that could halt their gravy train. At least not until so many people have tried it successfully that they can't ignore or deny it any longer.