Blu said:
Anyway I hear you, DLD. I especially respect you because you have a very REAL and rational perspective on this issue of penis size, thanks to having been on both sides of the fence. You had an average (maybe slightly above) penis before starting out Penis Enlargement, and you had a very diverse range of sexual experiences, some would argue DESPITE your size (as if having a 6.5 X 5 was some physical deformity or a handicap :s ). Why? Probably because you were social, knew how to talk to women, and also was in a band - that gives you social status which most women value way more than penis size (within reason). Then you grew a massive penis - during the course of which you developed a psychological addiction to this art, which unfortunately led to a decline in your sex life, and also your relationship. As a person who's LIVED through all the ups-and-downs from every angle I trust your word over any armchair quarterback on this forum who postulates about this and that, claiming that a 10 X 7 creates "maximum pleasure" for women. Truly idiotic gibberish. lol
This is so true. I look back on my life in many places and I understand that it needed to be the way it was or I would not be where I am. In my past, before my love Jennifer, I was free of any negative views of my penis, I just did not think about it. I was with many women and in every occasion, but one, I was complimented on my size. These compliments played a very small part in my confidence as every other part of my self was over-flowing with confidence. I enjoyed a social life that was simply incredible. Everything was in place and progressing as I always wanted it to.
After meeting Jen, the woman who still today owns my heart, I discovered something much different than my past. She was sexually experienced, she had many lovers and had many different sized penis's. One evening she told me that although I was big, there were two man she was with that were bigger. I was crushed and became instantly obsessed. My confusion of self was changing with every moment that proceeded this revelation. I became a different person. As many of you already know from previous suBathmateissions on this topic, I would put her through question sessions that no woman should have to deal with. I literally interrogated and would do so until I got the answer I wanted, an answer she was forced to lie about to stop the constant questioning. I knew deep inside that these two men were bigger than me but I could not mentally accept this and I could not live with any answer than the one that would be a lie, I was bigger than them...truly sad and disturbing.
This mental crippling followed me into my quest for a bigger penis although it did not start out that way. But even today I question if I was lying to myself when I said that the reason I got into Penis Enlargement was for better erections.
I did find penis enlargement, I did get involved with it, I did make massive gains, I did become a major teacher in the art...but I also lost much of my happiness in this journey. I know that this work marked a major change in my relationship with Jen (on hindsight) but at the time I was blind to it. I did get bigger and eventually the lie I was telling myself and the same lie I was making Jen believe was no longer a lie, I was actually the biggest she ever had. But, again, this came at a very large price.
I became obsessed with penis enlargement, penis, size, measurement, talking, eating and drinking male sexuality in a capacity that would dwarf the most obsessed man about any issue. This, of course was the reason I discovered all the innovations I have made and without this period in my life I can confidently say that penis enlargement would not be as it is today. Much good came from my mental problems but the part I want to stress is the balance of all of this. Jen and my relationship was balanced, completely and during this period of time that all was perfect we shared the best moments of our lived, I still believe she is out there in the world thinking of me and the incredible magic we shared but the point is balance. I was 25% of the femininity and 25% of the masculinity while she shared the same denominations. When this is present in any relationship things will be incredibly happy and fulfilling for both parties. As time progressed the balance shifted. I became 100% male while she drifted further and further away from me. It is like a magnet with North and South poles, this delicate balance accounts for most of our Universe. If this magnetism shifted from balance things would be over for humanity. The same thing applies to a relationship, fuck the same thing applies to all life, BALANCE!
She started to feel threatened, scared, and needed to separate herself from me because I was too male and this is where disassociation will occur in a male/female relationship. I was a giant walking penis offering nothing but male influence. Sure, every man in the world would no doubt be attracted to me but Jen fell further and further away. I did not even realize much of this until months after she had left me but again, this was a very important realization in the work I do/done. My life has come full circle but now with the ultimate knowledge of self. I can see now that I needed to go through these things. I needed to feel the pain of my errors as I would have not been able to write on it otherwise.
Today I am completely balanced, I am 50/50 and hopefully one day I will be 25/25 with the woman I miss so dearly

Math is so pretty sometimes
10inchadvantage said:
DLD, btw, I do read your psychological posts, they seem to be better than any exercise you could come up with for the penis.
Thank you. The mind needs to grow with the penis or a man will never see it.
8InchMIKE said:
Man, your "demons" gave me life, hope, dedication, friends, a hobby, goals, confidence, self-esteem AND a bigger dick. So don't think we're not paying attention cause WE ARE. You're not insane, your membrane is just a litlle fucked up just like mine is.
Thank you Mike. I sometimes become confused when I am going through intense pain but eventually I see my past and realize it was always necessary or I would not be the man I am today. In sharing my experience and ultimate change my biggest hope is that it will help a man avoid what I have gone through.
Today I am so proud of my accomplishments. I am so happy with who I have become and the business I have built. I know now that Penis Enlargement is not my life, it is a small part of who I am. I wish Jen could see me now, isn't that always the case?
Peace