I got a membership here a while back, but today is the day that I'm serious about starting. My problem is not "size" (although I wouldn't mind it being bigger) but rather function. Here's my story.
I'm 20 years old, soon to be 21, and I am a virgin. When I was in about 8th grade, I first attempted masturbation. When I initially did it, it took me about an hour to reach ejaculation. I did it under my bed sheets, and I honestly woke up the next morning thinking that I had imagined it. But I tried it again later, and knew it was real. Then I tried it, and watched myself ejaculate. Shortly thereafter, I became addicted.
Since 8th grade, I've masturbated almost every day. The exceptions to the rule, were ironically, when I had something to do all day, and didn't even think about it. Also, if I ever went on a trip or a vacation where I never got a chance for privacy (although even then I would sometimes find a way to do it). In (very) rare instances, where I would be home alone all day with nothing to do, I would masturbate up to 12 times. This was uncommon, but for me to masturbate twice or 3 times is not. I'd say that since 8th grade, I've masturbated 1.5 times a day on average.
About a year ago, something happened that lead me to believe that I would finally be having sex. When I started thinking about it, I realized how much trouble I had getting it up without contact, and that when I started to masturbate, I was able to ejaculate about 70% hard and that it took much less than a minute.
Yikes. I tried on a trojan condom, and it squeezed my penis so tight that veins bulged out of it. It's hard to describe, but it sort of stayed hard but went limp. Then it became mishapen and started to deflate.
A magnum condom worked much better, I was able to stay semi-hard, and I attempted to practice sex by masturbating with the condom on. The condom ended up bunched up at the head of my penis by the time I ejaculated. That didn't work out well.
When the time came, sure enough, the girl was interested in me, and I was actually happy to know that she wasn't interested in sex at first. It gave me a sigh of relief. However, she masturbated me, and I wasn't able to get hard. I asked her to grip my penis at the head, which is where I ussually do it, and I still couldn't get hard. She gave me oral sex, and I went flaccid. Then I gripped it and finished it myself.
This didn't seem to bother her, and by the end of the weekend, she ended up liking me so much that she wanted to have sex. I flat out told her that I had trouble getting it up with a condom on. She didn't seem to mind, and was willing to work with me. While we were doing foreplay, someone actually tried to break in to our room (loooooooong story, not as bad as you think) so I (thankfully) had a legitimate excuse not to be able to get it up.
I honestly feel that if I had more time with her, I would be rid of my problem by now. Unfortunately, there's a great distance between the two of us, so that's impossible. Since then, I've attempted to stop masturbating, but it's always been "this is the last day!" "I'll start Sunday!" or "I'll start the 1st of next month!" etc...
For the first time in my life, I'm away at college, and I share an apartment with 3 people who are trustworthy, but I really don't know. One of them is my room mate, so he has a right to open my door at any time without knocking, and a right to get suspicious if my door is locked for an extended period of time. That helps.
Over the past 6 weeks, I've stopped masturbating for 2 or 3 days at a time, only to fall back in to it. I once did it for 4 days at a time, only to fall back in to it. Finally, for 5 days I avoided it, only to masturbate yesterday, on the 6th day. Here's where it gets tricky.
When I say that I avoided masturbation I mean that I avoided ejaculation. Almost every day off I've started to masturbate, only to stop myself before ejaculation. Also, yesterday, I was getting massive anxiety. Something that happened to me a while back was starting to bother me immensely. When I masturbated (and ejaculated) I realized I was over reacting and blowing the whole thing out of proportion. Could it be that I'm suffering from withdrawal?
In any sense, I need to learn to stop masturbating, and how to "get it up."
Today I took a long shower, did basic stretching, and then later did jelquing. I would get semi hard at times doing stretching, and found that my penis varied from 60% to 80% hard during jelquing. When I was done jelquing, my left testicle started to ache for about 30 seconds and then stopped. I'm gonna try kegels in a little bit.
Can anyone help me? I really want to be able to maintain an erection.
Flaccid- 5 inches
Hard- 7 and 1/3.
I'm 20 years old, soon to be 21, and I am a virgin. When I was in about 8th grade, I first attempted masturbation. When I initially did it, it took me about an hour to reach ejaculation. I did it under my bed sheets, and I honestly woke up the next morning thinking that I had imagined it. But I tried it again later, and knew it was real. Then I tried it, and watched myself ejaculate. Shortly thereafter, I became addicted.
Since 8th grade, I've masturbated almost every day. The exceptions to the rule, were ironically, when I had something to do all day, and didn't even think about it. Also, if I ever went on a trip or a vacation where I never got a chance for privacy (although even then I would sometimes find a way to do it). In (very) rare instances, where I would be home alone all day with nothing to do, I would masturbate up to 12 times. This was uncommon, but for me to masturbate twice or 3 times is not. I'd say that since 8th grade, I've masturbated 1.5 times a day on average.
About a year ago, something happened that lead me to believe that I would finally be having sex. When I started thinking about it, I realized how much trouble I had getting it up without contact, and that when I started to masturbate, I was able to ejaculate about 70% hard and that it took much less than a minute.
Yikes. I tried on a trojan condom, and it squeezed my penis so tight that veins bulged out of it. It's hard to describe, but it sort of stayed hard but went limp. Then it became mishapen and started to deflate.
A magnum condom worked much better, I was able to stay semi-hard, and I attempted to practice sex by masturbating with the condom on. The condom ended up bunched up at the head of my penis by the time I ejaculated. That didn't work out well.
When the time came, sure enough, the girl was interested in me, and I was actually happy to know that she wasn't interested in sex at first. It gave me a sigh of relief. However, she masturbated me, and I wasn't able to get hard. I asked her to grip my penis at the head, which is where I ussually do it, and I still couldn't get hard. She gave me oral sex, and I went flaccid. Then I gripped it and finished it myself.
This didn't seem to bother her, and by the end of the weekend, she ended up liking me so much that she wanted to have sex. I flat out told her that I had trouble getting it up with a condom on. She didn't seem to mind, and was willing to work with me. While we were doing foreplay, someone actually tried to break in to our room (loooooooong story, not as bad as you think) so I (thankfully) had a legitimate excuse not to be able to get it up.
I honestly feel that if I had more time with her, I would be rid of my problem by now. Unfortunately, there's a great distance between the two of us, so that's impossible. Since then, I've attempted to stop masturbating, but it's always been "this is the last day!" "I'll start Sunday!" or "I'll start the 1st of next month!" etc...
For the first time in my life, I'm away at college, and I share an apartment with 3 people who are trustworthy, but I really don't know. One of them is my room mate, so he has a right to open my door at any time without knocking, and a right to get suspicious if my door is locked for an extended period of time. That helps.
Over the past 6 weeks, I've stopped masturbating for 2 or 3 days at a time, only to fall back in to it. I once did it for 4 days at a time, only to fall back in to it. Finally, for 5 days I avoided it, only to masturbate yesterday, on the 6th day. Here's where it gets tricky.
When I say that I avoided masturbation I mean that I avoided ejaculation. Almost every day off I've started to masturbate, only to stop myself before ejaculation. Also, yesterday, I was getting massive anxiety. Something that happened to me a while back was starting to bother me immensely. When I masturbated (and ejaculated) I realized I was over reacting and blowing the whole thing out of proportion. Could it be that I'm suffering from withdrawal?
In any sense, I need to learn to stop masturbating, and how to "get it up."
Today I took a long shower, did basic stretching, and then later did jelquing. I would get semi hard at times doing stretching, and found that my penis varied from 60% to 80% hard during jelquing. When I was done jelquing, my left testicle started to ache for about 30 seconds and then stopped. I'm gonna try kegels in a little bit.
Can anyone help me? I really want to be able to maintain an erection.
Flaccid- 5 inches
Hard- 7 and 1/3.
