I had a good weekend, I did find my eyes wonder a bit while in town but I was quick to pull them back. I have started to see how badly I have subjugated women and this has become apparent to me now more than ever and this is do to me ability to focus on what is behind the actual issue. As Temp said, trying to hide the sun with your finger is futile. I notice that when I do look it is always at their ass, the part I love most about women. But now that I am tempering my Lust I have learned that I have missed out on so much that comes from a women's mind. Although I have no interest in being with a woman I still want to learn to take my eyes and focus on their minds, not their bodies. Perhaps all my years here, being intimate with men has skewed the way I see women, maybe it is the adult entertainment too, not sure, what I do know, for myself, is I did not treat women with the same reverence I do my Brothers and this realization came from my abstinence. I was also in prayer and Jesus said "I want you to become like a knight experienced in battle, who can give orders to others amid the exploding shells. In the same way, My child, you should know how to master yourself amid the greatest difficulties, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗠𝗲, 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘀." This brought me great joy and allowed me to see just how good God is, even when I fall.