*WARNING* LOTS OF INTERESTING/POTENTIALLY DUMB THOUGHTS, LITTLE TO DO WITH PE, DISREGARD IF WANT DICK INFO! IN THAT CASE
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What's up fuckers! Haha!
Well, hope everybody is at least 9x7 by now. Still in the 8x5 category.
Shit has been happening in my life and I have stopped doing PE. And as of the moment, I kind of lost motivation. I kind of began thinking that PE is silly for some reason. Then I look at myself naked and I just know that I can become physically better. It's a conundrum.
My life is taking a direction that is really changing my thought processes and made me realized I have wasted a lot of time. Not having sex and constantly getting the eye from a lot of females. I know it sounds vain but I am being truly honest. But also, it is annoying. I am pleased by the aesthetic appeal of women but not the 99% of personalities out there. From my observations, and this is what I see and hear, 99% of chicks are truly basic at their core. Different styles and appearances you say? Talking to them, and seeing what they are about, I know I couldn't truly connect with the majority anyways. I am using this theme as a means to cover up a deeper thought in my mind but this is on the surface as to what I am thinking.
Seeing that I mainly was doing PE to become that "Perfect Alpha Male" who every female desires to be with and now just accepting the self realized catharsis of not wanting to become that figure anymore, I am in a place of regret and confusion. I still want to do PE because I envision myself as this man that has every aesthetic feature a man truly wants to have. This may seem extremely vain and conceited but I am simply typing out my thoughts due to the fact that I think best this way and my thoughts are a bit more organized. Please dismiss if anything makes you cringe or whatever. I also use these logs to reminisce and to build from that. E-journal.
I do believe though I am making progress with overall development. Becoming more fit, I feel very masculine, and having this type of demeanor certainly separates me from the folks I associate with in my engineering classes. Having the appearance of a jock about to start a cycle of test but partaking in discussions that enter the highest echelons of thought that only a few could have. HAHA! Fuckin conceited. Anyways, but yeah, I love learning and want to continue getting better, overall development, and am gonna start doing PE again soon. Really want to get to that 9x6.5 at least.
I just don't want to get out there in some pussy yet because of what I said previously, the majority of chicks are just too basic. I know a females intentions as I pass them and I see them looking at me at the corner of my eye. It is certainly empowering and the fact that I can use psychological tactics to easily create this facade that I can be their lover is all the more very interesting. Humans can be easily dissuaded by many things and "love" seems to be one of the most effective. It's that type of unawareness, gullibility, innocence, discernment, lack of care that makes it seem unappealing. Who knows, I could very well love the fact of just hooking up for the fuck of it and I am just speculating for just pure fucking shits just because I should rather be doing my Physics homework.
A chick added me on Facebook the other day. I get a bunch of friend requests of people I don't even know but it just happens. I know why though. Obviously. They want the 8========D. She messaged me, 1st time kept it short, 2nd time she messaged me, I decided to partake in what I already speculated to be a basic discussion. To summarize how it went, I am just gonna simulate what the text clouds appeared like how it went back and forth.
ME
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
Interesting thoughts/perception...Shit that matters...Non Basic Shit...Critical thinking
HER
Basic Response... LOL
That was the premise of the conversation and really, that's how it's been with other females I have tried to get to know in the past. My younger bro knows me 100% and tells me I am wasting my life but I am just one of "those" people and I am just now accepting myself and am aware of what kind of person I really am. That to me has done more progress than anything I have done in my life up to this point.
I am gonna cut it off here because I really do need to study. Again, gonna be interesting to re read this down the road because I do revisit my threads. Shows development not just the COCK!
Peace dudes!