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Hi guys

I'm looking for someone who has experience with hernia that have gone through with his own problems like I has got.

I has my testicles swelling on both side that is not making me more comfortable when i'm doing normal things and i have also suffering with erectile dysfunction. I'm wonder that does hernia cause the testicles on both side to get swelling and also does it cause ED?

I'm interested to hear that if you have got it solved through surgery to get it back to normal?

I'm still waiting to see the urologist to get my problem sort it out....:(
 
It sounds more like testicular torsion than a hernia. Do you remember any heavy lifting that could have caused a hernia? Avoid pe for now.

I am sorry for your pain I hope you feel better soon.
 
Well I had a scan and the doctor who scanned on my testicles, she said that I have no lump and I have no testicular torsion. If I had one, I would be in alot pain. I don't have alot of pain, but my testicles are still swelling in each time when I go for a run, sit on a soft chair, going for a loo or do whatever I do. The worst things is when it get swelling, my glans start to become brown and cold. I have to stretch on the lower part of my balls to try to reduce the swelling on my both testicles.

Do you know what it is? I won't be able to find out until I see the urologist in 4 weeks time. I hate to wait like you know :(
 
How long have you had this issue and do you remember what brought it on?
 
doublelongdaddy;612374 said:
How long have you had this issue and do you remember what brought it on?
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I have it since from last year and i used [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]sizegentics[/words], i think i overstretch it.

have you had inguinal hernia?
 
i'v had a inquinal hernia. 2 years ago. it's pretty healed, the [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]size genetics[/words] doesn't bother me at all. using the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] im a little more paranoid and it has felt at times as if my mesh was going to explode or pull out of my pubic region. Does anyone know if they make a sort of accessory for the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] that keeps more of the pubic area "in check" without much suction/pulling in that area?
 
ayS;612757 said:
i'v had a inquinal hernia. 2 years ago. it's pretty healed, the [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]size genetics[/words] doesn't bother me at all. using the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] im a little more paranoid and it has felt at times as if my mesh was going to explode or pull out of my pubic region. Does anyone know if they make a sort of accessory for the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] that keeps more of the pubic area "in check" without much suction/pulling in that area?
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The [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]comfort pad[/words] was made to alleviate this pressure, are you using a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]BathMate[/words] with the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]comfort pad[/words]?
 
AyS. Are you using the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]hercules[/words]? I'm not sure what could help this other than positioning it differently or doing lower sets. There really is nothing you can put in the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]BM[/words] other than the universal sleeves.
 
i have an inguinal hernia i pump daily and jelq daily i have really cut back on the [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] but i really want to get back into it and i cant see myself getting back into anything after the surgery this fucking sucks it has been an absolute night mare wondering wether or not i can persue my dream of penis enlargement i only like to maintain as i have reached 9 inches the toll its taken on me psychoiligically i feel things will never be the same after surgery whyyy whyyyyyyyyyy mother fucker at least the guy up there is saying he got back into [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] ive wanted a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] forever fuk
 
zilla9;653584 said:
i have an inguinal hernia i pump daily and jelq daily i have really cut back on the [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] but i really want to get back into it and i cant see myself getting back into anything after the surgery this fucking sucks it has been an absolute night mare wondering wether or not i can persue my dream of penis enlargement i only like to maintain as i have reached 9 inches the toll its taken on me psychoiligically i feel things will never be the same after surgery whyyy whyyyyyyyyyy mother fucker at least the guy up there is saying he got back into [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] ive wanted a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] forever fuk
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I answered you in another thread:)
 
zilla9;653584 said:
i have an inguinal hernia i pump daily and jelq daily i have really cut back on the [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] but i really want to get back into it and i cant see myself getting back into anything after the surgery this fucking sucks it has been an absolute night mare wondering wether or not i can persue my dream of penis enlargement i only like to maintain as i have reached 9 inches the toll its taken on me psychoiligically i feel things will never be the same after surgery whyyy whyyyyyyyyyy mother fucker at least the guy up there is saying he got back into [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extender[/words] ive wanted a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] forever fuk
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I had an inguinal hernia last year, had to stop extending, etc., but I got the mesh in January or February and after maybe 6 weeks rest went back to it, I'm hanging now and don't have any pain or problems, so just get it fixed and don't worry, have pumped also a few times with no problems but it interferes with hanging so I'm not doing it for now, but not because of the mesh
 
Jack Leg;653793 said:
I had an inguinal hernia last year, had to stop extending, etc., but I got the mesh in January or February and after maybe 6 weeks rest went back to it, I'm hanging now and don't have any pain or problems, so just get it fixed and don't worry, have pumped also a few times with no problems but it interferes with hanging so I'm not doing it for now, but not because of the mesh
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Excellent to know. Is there any operation that can be used other than the Mesh? Just curious.
 
Jack Leg;653902 said:
Just the mesh as far as I know, I can't feel it but supposedly some people do
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Is there an alternative to the mesh?
 
nope just open and larposcopic i think i was just having a bad day finally mustered up the courage to watch the surgery today faited woke up all sweaty and whiter then a ghost but im just squemish i dunno whats wrong with me i cant go through with it becasue i want the larposcopic but they reccomended open i dunno at least other people have pumped and used [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extenders[/words] after surgery not really clear on which ones but i feel a little better i cant believe how many people go through with this each year its insane seems terrifying to not get the surgery i want the other one seems brutal the open one shesh i reallly want to get into water pumping maybe ill just have to hold out for antoher copule years who knows what they might have out by then i just hope this surgery dosent keep me from doing all the stuff i need to do everyday to feel complete
 
zilla9;654968 said:
nope just open and larposcopic i think i was just having a bad day finally mustered up the courage to watch the surgery today faited woke up all sweaty and whiter then a ghost but im just squemish i dunno whats wrong with me i cant go through with it becasue i want the larposcopic but they reccomended open i dunno at least other people have pumped and used [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]extenders[/words] after surgery not really clear on which ones but i feel a little better i cant believe how many people go through with this each year its insane seems terrifying to not get the surgery i want the other one seems brutal the open one shesh i reallly want to get into water pumping maybe ill just have to hold out for antoher copule years who knows what they might have out by then i just hope this surgery dosent keep me from doing all the stuff i need to do everyday to feel complete
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It will all pass and you will be at it again in no time. From everything I have read the longest healing period was 6 weeks. If the insertion is far enough away from the penis you should be able to do pretty much anything, you will have to determine this after the surgery. How far up from your penis is the hernia?
 
Jack Leg;653793 said:
I had an inguinal hernia last year, had to stop extending, etc., but I got the mesh in January or February and after maybe 6 weeks rest went back to it, I'm hanging now and don't have any pain or problems, so just get it fixed and don't worry, have pumped also a few times with no problems but it interferes with hanging so I'm not doing it for now, but not because of the mesh
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I know this is an old thread but I've been looking for answers. Hopefully you still come around here....

6 weeks seems a little aggressive to me but if you feel good then I guess you're set. If you come back to read this I'd love to know how things went once you started training again. I'm dying to get back to my [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?83577-Length-master-official-order-thread-now-shipping-06-16-2014!!!]LM[/words] and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]BM[/words] and grow more.

doublelongdaddy;653894 said:
Excellent to know. Is there any operation that can be used other than the Mesh? Just curious.
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The doc told me that with stitches he had about a 35% success rate. With mesh he was something like 96-98% success rate. Can't claim perfect because he doesn't know if it was the repair failing or patient pushing too hard when healing. He also told me all the issues with mesh are old and worked out and so did his nurse. They wouldn't be doing it with all the lawsuits from mesh repairs years ago if it wasn't safe now.
 
Big Schwanz Acht;747159 said:
too bad for all the guinea pigs prior :)
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IIRC it was defective mesh but I don't know if it was the materials, manufacturing process, or both. It can happen with anything mass produced. Even though it shouldn't happen with medical stuff it does occasionally. Maybe it was a disgruntled employee.
 
cladre60;747149 said:
The doc told me that with stitches he had about a 35% success rate. With mesh he was something like 96-98% success rate. Can't claim perfect because he doesn't know if it was the repair failing or patient pushing too hard when healing. He also told me all the issues with mesh are old and worked out and so did his nurse. They wouldn't be doing it with all the lawsuits from mesh repairs years ago if it wasn't safe now.
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That is good to hear because I know for a whole there were lawsuits all over the place with mesh. LIGHTNING had the surgery without mesh and is doing fine.
 
doublelongdaddy;747430 said:
That is good to hear because I know for a whole there were lawsuits all over the place with mesh. LIGHTNING had the surgery without mesh and is doing fine.
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He told me the other day he hasn't gotten his repaired.
 
cladre60;747547 said:
He told me the other day he hasn't gotten his repaired.
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Then my advice stands, skip the mesh and go with the safer procedure.
 
doublelongdaddy;747593 said:
Then my advice stands, skip the mesh and go with the safer procedure.
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They did the mesh on me because of the far higher success rate vs stitches.

Coworker had his repaired with stitches back when the mesh was still really new. He had the option to do mesh or stitches. It lasted a while but ended up failing and he had to get it fixed again. Luckily in that time the issues with the mesh were worked out and his mesh repair is holding fine.

It's been 5 weeks and I'm waiting for all the discomfort to go away. I was told it could take up to 2 months. I'm on my feet all day at work and the first hour or two I'm a bit stiff. Once the muscles loosen up a bit I'm okay. I can't go 100% yet but had to return to work, couldn't afford to stay gone longer. Fortunately I was able to talk my way into a "cleared for full duty" note for work, otherwise I probably would've been out 6 weeks instead of 4. Really sucks I had to do that.
 
Damn I'm hoping I won't need the mesh. The 21st is my next doctors appointment and we are going to discuss my options. Prayers needed prayers for healing and the time of work. That time off work is really going go hurt the family.
 
Mike3209;748032 said:
Damn I'm hoping I won't need the mesh. The 21st is my next doctors appointment and we are going to discuss my options. Prayers needed prayers for healing and the time of work. That time off work is really going go hurt the family.
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Always praying for my Brothers. There are other options today, do you research so you know what what when the doctor starts giving advice.
 
Mike3209;748032 said:
Damn I'm hoping I won't need the mesh. The 21st is my next doctors appointment and we are going to discuss my options. Prayers needed prayers for healing and the time of work. That time off work is really going go hurt the family.
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I will say this - if you have the option to do it laproscopically (I think I spelled that wrong) take it. I had about a 2" incision in the skin and through the groin muscle under it. My surgery was Nov 7 and I'm still tender from the cut. That's to be expected but it still sucks.

Hang in there. Short term disability through work allowed us to eat but due to life thinking my ass is a giant ENTER [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]sign[/words] we're still trying to figure out how to pull off xmas. I should've waited 2 more months to get it done but I thought we were gonna be okay. Guess the joke is on me now.
 
cladre60;748174 said:
I will say this - if you have the option to do it laproscopically (I think I spelled that wrong) take it. I had about a 2" incision in the skin and through the groin muscle under it. My surgery was Nov 7 and I'm still tender from the cut. That's to be expected but it still sucks.
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That was what LIGHTNING had done. I could not remember the name. Thanks my Brother.
 
doublelongdaddy;748230 said:
That was what LIGHTNING had done. I could not remember the name. Thanks my Brother.
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They can still use the mesh if they go in laproscopically but not having the incision would've been a lot nicer. Hopefully I don't need to go through anything like that again though.
 
cladre60;748174 said:
I will say this - if you have the option to do it laproscopically (I think I spelled that wrong) take it. I had about a 2" incision in the skin and through the groin muscle under it. My surgery was Nov 7 and I'm still tender from the cut. That's to be expected but it still sucks.

Hang in there. Short term disability through work allowed us to eat but due to life thinking my ass is a giant ENTER [words=https://shop.mattersofsize.com/products/sizegenetics-penis-extender]sign[/words] we're still trying to figure out how to pull off xmas. I should've waited 2 more months to get it done but I thought we were gonna be okay. Guess the joke is on me now.
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There's always going to be a Christmas, but there's only one of you...so this year might be a tad lean? Your health will be the best gift you can give your family anyway
 
Big Schwanz Acht;748291 said:
There's always going to be a Christmas, but there's only one of you...so this year might be a tad lean? Your health will be the best gift you can give your family anyway
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Sad part is I'm the only one in this house that gives a crap about my health. All everyone else cares about is if I'm bringing home a paycheck or not and how much there is to spend.
 
cladre60;748300 said:
Sad part is I'm the only one in this house that gives a crap about my health. All everyone else cares about is if I'm bringing home a paycheck or not and how much there is to spend.
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dude, I'm really sorry to hear that. In light of that fact, do what you gotta do and make certain whatever it is, it's worth the effort...if not, then there are alternatives. You only have one life and the best part about that is you're in charge of it!
 
We care my Brother, you always have family here that will love and care for you!
 
cladre60;748300 said:
Sad part is I'm the only one in this house that gives a crap about my health. All everyone else cares about is if I'm bringing home a paycheck or not and how much there is to spend.
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Hate to hear that Clad, almost sounds like a perfect time for a "come to Jesus meeting". You take care of your health
 
I am really surprised that some of you guys docs have let you go so long with a hernia. When I had my inguinal repaired, it was considered an emergency due to the possibility of bowel coming through the tear, then getting bloodflow reduced. When I told my GP I wanted to wait for a while after the pain quit, he said, no problem, he would get me measured for a colostomy bag right then.
Needless to say, I went under that day. I worked with him at the hospital, so he was not jerking my chain.
 
turbojarhead1;748341 said:
I am really surprised that some of you guys docs have let you go so long with a hernia. When I had my inguinal repaired, it was considered an emergency due to the possibility of bowel coming through the tear, then getting bloodflow reduced. When I told my GP I wanted to wait for a while after the pain quit, he said, no problem, he would get me measured for a colostomy bag right then.
Needless to say, I went under that day. I worked with him at the hospital, so he was not jerking my chain.
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I think there are different levels. LIGHTNING needed to have it done right away due to the severity but many can put it off for a while.
 
Big Schwanz Acht;748301 said:
dude, I'm really sorry to hear that. In light of that fact, do what you gotta do and make certain whatever it is, it's worth the effort...if not, then there are alternatives. You only have one life and the best part about that is you're in charge of it!
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Lookn4girth;748338 said:
Hate to hear that Clad, almost sounds like a perfect time for a "come to Jesus meeting". You take care of your health
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I've been really down lately and that's just pretty much how I feel. It sucks to feel that way, like the minute I wake up my day is ruined. I've buried it for a long time but I guess the hole is full and now its a visible pile. Lots of stress the past few months and it doesn't seem to be getting better.
 
turbojarhead1;748341 said:
I am really surprised that some of you guys docs have let you go so long with a hernia. When I had my inguinal repaired, it was considered an emergency due to the possibility of bowel coming through the tear, then getting bloodflow reduced. When I told my GP I wanted to wait for a while after the pain quit, he said, no problem, he would get me measured for a colostomy bag right then.
Needless to say, I went under that day. I worked with him at the hospital, so he was not jerking my chain.
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It depends on how bad it is. I had the same hernia but was relatively pain free, no reason for emergency surgery. We discussed putting it off for a while due to that and a few other things. I was told it may never get worse and never hurt or the next day my bowels could be coming through, no way to predict it. I opted to take the next opening in the surgical schedule which was 3 weeks later.

For some it becomes an emergency surgery or a "we need to do it ASAP" depending on the severity.
 
cladre60;748418 said:
I've been really down lately and that's just pretty much how I feel. It sucks to feel that way, like the minute I wake up my day is ruined. I've buried it for a long time but I guess the hole is full and now its a visible pile. Lots of stress the past few months and it doesn't seem to be getting better.
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You know I can relate to you and I know that the place you are is dark and seems hopeless but remember this, without the darkness there could be no light. You feel as you do now because you have reinforced it through continuous circular thought, from the minute you wake to the time you sleep and that is not living! I went through it for years and I hated my life, I hated me, I hated everything. For me what changed much of this was medication, it took me 20 years to find the right cocktail and I found it 3 years ago and my life went from total suicidal hell to normal and then to better and better. Medication was one piece but the other was cognitive and as silly as this seems, it works. Here is the medications I am on and why:

Serequel (Antipsychotic): This is to keep my thoughts rational and clear. It also is a wonderful sleep aid.

Lamictal (Mood Stabilizer) This is the miracle medication that changed everything for me. It completely deals with mood swings, it keeps you completely level headed and rational.

Wellbutrin (anti-depressant) I tried every antidepressant and this is the only one that has no sexual side effects. It aids in weight loss and quitting smoking. As a antidepressant it is miraculous.

Klonopin (benzodiazepine) Out of all benzodiazepines this is the least addictive and it is a extended release, lasts for 12 hours. There is little addictive properties since it does not hit you like a typical Benzo (euphoric, high, drugged out, etc) It gives all the good of a Benzo with none of the bad. It helps slow the mind and give pause before reacting to things.

These 4 medications are the cocktail for the PE'er, no side effects and after a month pure relief and change for the positive!

The cognitive part is very important too. What worked best for me and I think will work great for you, (D.B.T. Dialectical Behavior Therapy. You can find it online everywhere. Basically it is a practice of keeping things in the moment. When we allow ourselves to dwell in the past it brings depression and when we dwell in the future it brings anxiety, staying in the moment gives you the ultimate power, no allowing it slip to one side or the other. For me it was crossword puzzles, for you it could be something completely different. Please check these things out as they gave me hope and eventually complete relief.


I will pray for you!
 
Big Schwanz Acht;748562 said:
LOL, I used to do The NYT Daily crossword, Friday and Saturday were damn difficult! (but now I only have time for The Sunday one)
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As weird as it sounds, this saved my life. My last stay at the hospital was 6 months long. I was staying until they got it right and that entailed trying different meds and therapy. It was a locked psyche ward so it was a safe and good place to explore these things. While we were getting the meds right they started me on DBT. For me crossword puzzles kept me in the moment and completely mentally occupied. This eventually taught me how to stay in the moment and not waste my energy on the past and future. My anxiety and depression faded away. I would say after about 6 months it was all but gone. I stopped doing DBT about 2 years ago as it taught me what I needed to know. Today I am able to stay in the moment, I have no depression (sadness at times) but never depression, I no longer have anxiety as I never worry on the future. It took me 16 years in the hospital but eventually (3 years ago) they got it right! God bless Mass Health and the $150,000 it costed to get me right. But even through my worst times I still came to the Brotherhood everyday, the Brotherhood is my lifeline! I also think God allowed me to go through these things so I could relate to anyone else with the same problems and I certainly have done so. Depression is crippling, it is loneliness beyond anything you can imagine, the mind can find nothing good and sees all as bad. It is like being dead while being alive. There feels like there is no hope but let me say that there is! I did it and I was a basket case, if I can do it anyone can. God wants us to enjoy this life, not waste it in depression.
 
doublelongdaddy;748555 said:
You know I can relate to you and I know that the place you are is dark and seems hopeless but remember this, without the darkness there could be no light. You feel as you do now because you have reinforced it through continuous circular thought, from the minute you wake to the time you sleep and that is not living! I went through it for years and I hated my life, I hated me, I hated everything. For me what changed much of this was medication, it took me 20 years to find the right cocktail and I found it 3 years ago and my life went from total suicidal hell to normal and then to better and better. Medication was one piece but the other was cognitive and as silly as this seems, it works. Here is the medications I am on and why:

Serequel (Antipsychotic): This is to keep my thoughts rational and clear. It also is a wonderful sleep aid.

Lamictal (Mood Stabilizer) This is the miracle medication that changed everything for me. It completely deals with mood swings, it keeps you completely level headed and rational.

Wellbutrin (anti-depressant) I tried every antidepressant and this is the only one that has no sexual side effects. It aids in weight loss and quitting smoking. As a antidepressant it is miraculous.

Klonopin (benzodiazepine) Out of all benzodiazepines this is the least addictive and it is a extended release, lasts for 12 hours. There is little addictive properties since it does not hit you like a typical Benzo (euphoric, high, drugged out, etc) It gives all the good of a Benzo with none of the bad. It helps slow the mind and give pause before reacting to things.

These 4 medications are the cocktail for the PE'er, no side effects and after a month pure relief and change for the positive!

The cognitive part is very important too. What worked best for me and I think will work great for you, (D.B.T. Dialectical Behavior Therapy. You can find it online everywhere. Basically it is a practice of keeping things in the moment. When we allow ourselves to dwell in the past it brings depression and when we dwell in the future it brings anxiety, staying in the moment gives you the ultimate power, no allowing it slip to one side or the other. For me it was crossword puzzles, for you it could be something completely different. Please check these things out as they gave me hope and eventually complete relief.


I will pray for you!
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I have tried antidepressants...Cymbalta (which is SSRI and the other type which is similar to wellbutrin mixed together), Lexapro, and another. I've also tried Seroquil and another that helped me sleep (zyprexa? I don't remember), Ativan, klonopin, buspirone/buspar....

You know what's helped me the most? LIFE. When my life is shitty I'm miserable. When my life is decent I'm happy. The only thing is when my life is miserable I can't forget about it. I'm afraid to go back on medication for fear that I'll simply accept that I'm barely surviving living week to week and never look to improve things.

I'm sure I do need therapy as well. I've got a lot of things in my past that haunt me and I'm unable to let them go. When I was medicated I didn't feel them but I also didn't feel ANYTHING. I was numb even being on just 1 med at a time and didn't like it when I realized that all my emotions were turned down so far they were almost gone. I was pleasant to deal with and usually smiling or in a good mood but I didn't care for the trade off.

I have thought many times that I might need to go back on some meds but I keep rejecting it. I'm not against meds, not at all, but they need to be prescribed right. If done correctly they're amazing. When they Aren't you turn someone into a zombie.
 
Hey Clad, your mind is strong and very pragmatic/logical (95% of the time these are assets, but sometimes being 'in your own head' can create a 'loop'), so use it to your advantage. Every thought/memory/feeling can become a choice...you can choose to allow it to have an affect, or choose not to. Once you've mastered the simplicity of 'choice' you'll be empowered to never let 'stuff' impede whatever direction/goal/dream you have. Much love to you, bro
 
cladre60;748668 said:
I have tried antidepressants...Cymbalta (which is SSRI and the other type which is similar to wellbutrin mixed together), Lexapro, and another. I've also tried Seroquil and another that helped me sleep (zyprexa? I don't remember), Ativan, klonopin, buspirone/buspar....

You know what's helped me the most? LIFE. When my life is shitty I'm miserable. When my life is decent I'm happy. The only thing is when my life is miserable I can't forget about it. I'm afraid to go back on medication for fear that I'll simply accept that I'm barely surviving living week to week and never look to improve things.

I'm sure I do need therapy as well. I've got a lot of things in my past that haunt me and I'm unable to let them go. When I was medicated I didn't feel them but I also didn't feel ANYTHING. I was numb even being on just 1 med at a time and didn't like it when I realized that all my emotions were turned down so far they were almost gone. I was pleasant to deal with and usually smiling or in a good mood but I didn't care for the trade off.

I have thought many times that I might need to go back on some meds but I keep rejecting it. I'm not against meds, not at all, but they need to be prescribed right. If done correctly they're amazing. When they Aren't you turn someone into a zombie.
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Exactly correct on the meds and that can be perfected by a good therapist and doctor. Like I said I did not get mine right for years but 3 years ago they did it, they created the best cocktail and today I would not dream of going off my meds. My quality of life has improved 100%. Therapy is also so important but the right therapist is so important too. I would do interviews to find the right person. I finally found my angel and she is awesome. She is blind so it makes it easier to get down to the brass tacks. She also shares my Christian beliefs so that makes it nice too. A good therapist should listen and build you up, give you direction and improve your life but a bad therapist can make things worse. I was with a counselor for 4 years who did nothing but make me feel worse about myself. This is why I say interview them. I would say to try Lamictal, it was the biggest game changer for me. It keeps my mood even and balanced and allows me the relief of those terrible mood swings. It is a project and a challenge but you can do it! Be proactive and open to new ways to improve things. I wish I could give you the recipe that is perfect for you but I can only advise on my own experience.
 
Big Schwanz Acht;748685 said:
Hey Clad, your mind is strong and very pragmatic/logical (95% of the time these are assets, but sometimes being 'in your own head' can create a 'loop'), so use it to your advantage. Every thought/memory/feeling can become a choice...you can choose to allow it to have an affect, or choose not to. Once you've mastered the simplicity of 'choice' you'll be empowered to never let 'stuff' impede whatever direction/goal/dream you have. Much love to you, bro
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I do my best. I end up being lazy a lot simply because the desire to do stuff isn't there. My head is always going, always thinking and coming up with things, it's just hard to put them to action.

Some day I'll learn to clear my head. I used to be the happiest person you ever met. Nothing got me down, I saw the solution to every problem or knew what to not worry about... it was great. I usually do well when I'm around people, try to brighten the room if I can. I just feel beaten down a lot by life and it's hard to get motivation when you can't see the end.

I do my best anymore. That's really all I can do. Hoping I can catch a break somewhere that'll kick start good things.
 
It sounds like you've identified the areas that are creating this 'drag' you're feeling, (it also sounds like those 'drags' might be around for the long-haul). Life's short, don't waste time in an eddy, find your way out and you'll be a much better man for everyone around you
 
Big Schwanz Acht;749100 said:
It sounds like you've identified the areas that are creating this 'drag' you're feeling, (it also sounds like those 'drags' might be around for the long-haul). Life's short, don't waste time in an eddy, find your way out and you'll be a much better man for everyone around you
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I try to be positive, just not always easy. It seems like once I get home all the problems set in. I'm usually fine once I'm out of the house.

DLD I'm glad they found a combo for you. Some people go their whole lives not getting it right.


On the hernia front - I think I need to call the surgeon. The area where they stitched the muscle is still hard and I'm still getting discomfort there. I was told after 2 months everything there should be normal. Wondering if there's a problem or its normal.

I did use the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]BM[/words] a few nights ago to see if it was comfortable. I didn't pull on it at all, just pumped up for 15 minutes and that's it. I also took a BPEL and got 6.5". Last Feb when I started I was 5.5". Plus I wasn't standing or laying flat (I always stand to measure) I was leaning way back. Maybe I'm a little bigger than 6.5" as I might have had a little extra belly bunched up to push through but it's hard to say since I'm pretty thin around my pubic bone. Regardless I'm still about 6.5" BPEL, my last "official" measurement was in May or June and I was 6 3/8" and I had to stop PE by late August. Dunno how much I had grown by late August but I've at least retained a lot. That means I'm still way above average in length. Not at my goal of 7.5-8" BPEL but still large. Never been this happy with my penis before and I'll be happier when I feel it's safe to PE again.
 
Big Schwanz Acht;749247 said:
can't wait until you're healed and back in the game!
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Me too. This is killing me. I'm still not 100% and I know it. Seeing as I'm now at 8 weeks I think I need to give the surgeon a call and ask some questions. My luck is I pushed things a little too much too early and set my healing back a few weeks. My soul still wants my body to do things like I'm 27 and at my physical peak performance (I was at my biggest and strongest in my mid-late 20s) and my brain doesn't always want to listen to my body. This getting older crap sucks.
 
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