You should never let go of your youth! You should reman a child with a strong imagination and the ability to keep things simple. I am approaching 50 and I am still a child and I will be for eternity. Age is a number and means nothing, the second you feel as though your work is done here is the second your age becomes a deficit. Keep your mind in those things of youthfulness, eat right, drink lots of water, get in some exercise (preferable group activities). Wait for the doctors results and from there accept what it is and we can work from there. Never have fear in the Brotherhood, with our support and belief we can move mountains!