What I can say is that you arent the only one here obsessed. I am betting there are many guys like you on this forum with varying degrees of obsession. As DLD has mentioned he started with an obsession back in the day himself.
With all obsessions there is a hump that must be reached and then overcome before life can transition. Maybe it is finding another obsession, maybe it is meeting a girl, getting a job. Maybe it is what has been mentioned above and that gaining the cm will provide relief. I am not sure if that is true or if any one of these will work alone. Humans, as we are, are always looking for the next goal, next obsession, next thing to aspire to do, to be. We are wired that way and from the sounds of it you are very hard wired that way. We have trouble actually being truly happy with the goal we just achieved because we make up a new one just as quickly as we reach it because what we see and feel isnt what we expected to see and feel.
Side note- My guess is when you find a business in life or something to pour all of that energy into that you will be extremely successful at whatever you do because of this obsessive type behavior.
But for right now I can say that many of us have similar thoughts and that Penis Enlargement CAN become an obsession if we let it. One thing is for certain. If you continue to Penis Enlargement then you will have to find a way to become whole with the idea of doing it and make it feel healthy to you or your gains will potentially be very slowed by the negative feelings you have about it and the obsession will ruin you. I hear and understand that you want to quit but this negativity of giving up before you reached your goal is looming over you. This need to feel normal. That in itself is normal.
I dont have your answer but I am hoping that you find your path and that your answer soon gets realized. There are many others like you. You are not alone and sometimes just knowing that can help.
Karate Kid quote coming:
Miyagi: Walk on road, [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98 ]
Hydromax[/words]? Walk left side, safe. Walk right side, safe. Walk middle, sooner or later
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: get squish just like grape. Here, karate, same thing. Either you karate do "yes" or karate do "no." You karate do "guess so,"
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: just like grape. Understand?