Depressed, Suicidal and my weak errection

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awwdarn

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I am 18 years of age and am very fit and eat a well balanced diet with no stress in my life whatso ever. I have never lost my virginity and have always known I have had a small penis about 14cm long. When I found out about Penis Enlargement-ing I thought there was hope of a bigger penis and somehting i could be proud of. A lot of people in my old school would all filp out their penis' when teachers were not looking for a bit of a joke, etc. I was the only one in the class that didn't have the big enough penis to even attempt that.

Later on I read a lot about Penis Enlargement-ing and thought I should start, this i did. Only doing 40 jelqs when i first started and building up to about 80. Because I am a firm believer of starting things off easy and small then working your way up to something a little more challenging.
So after about less than 3 months of Penis Enlargement-ing and coming across the usual red dots, etc. i loose my morning woody. my strong firm wood was gone. later on at night i tried masterbating and could only get 70percent up.
i stoped pe-ing immidiatly. i didnt masterbate for a whole week. then tried again. still; weak sloppy errections.

now, it's affected my whole life. i am very depressed, still live at home and on the verge of suicide. it's been a week now and it's still the same. i do not want to be taking viagra at such a young age and there is NO way i will be seeing a urologist because i don't need people thinking in my life i have something wrong with my privates. i would rather die than see one. it's too embarrsing at the age of 18, smaller penis than most 13 year olds and can't even get a hard errection....my life has been turned upside down.

can anyone help me...before it's too late...i beg you.
 
awwdarn, suicide is not the answer, please do not consider death as a solution to your problems. There are many people that would have their lives shattered if you killed yourself. Trust me, I understand about depression and I have lost friends from suicide. PLEASE buddy, do not do it!!!

You can change ANYTHING in your life you want. You are in control of your life.

Your erection difficulties may be related to your depression. Stop obsessing over your penis. Take some deep breaths and let go of your stress and tension. Look around at the world and see that their are others with greater obstacles to face. Be greatful of your body, be thankful to God for who and what you are. You may not be a practicing religous person but YOU ARE a spiritual being. Talk to God. And listen to God. God hears and understands you.

This forum has many members who have similar life patterns. There is strength in numbers. Please return to [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]Mos[/words] and talk to us. We are here to collectivally help each other and we want to help you.

awwdarn, make this promise to me, the rest of the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]Mos[/words] family and yourself and loved ones. PROMISE that you will not take your life.
 
tell ya what would put a spring back in your step. try takeing 1 cialis pill (10-20 mg) and if does to you what it did to me, you will walk around with a raging 100% wood on and off for 3 full days. and if you have a significant other I promise unless she's blind she'll notice too. Which is always a perk. in time things will go back to normal. I had a similar effect when I first started Penis Enlargement and I freaked out as well. a few weeks later (about 2) things were pretty much normal again.
 
I gotta agree with bigfoot... try take a break from worrying about your penis. Contrary to what most of us think, the world is much more than our dicks. Give it time... your troubles will pass. I have no doubt that a few weeks of light jelqing has not permanently disabled your weiner.

Use this place to air out your issues, rant, if you like. People will read it and give you feedback. We all have had our ups and downs and ups and downs.

Finally, don't do anything permanent. It would really suck for your family and friends to lose you, and believe me, that is something they will not get over.
 
Also, for what its worth, if I go along time (like a week) without jacking off or having sex, my erections aren't as hard as when I get off once a day or even two or three times a day.
 
Friend, what you might not realise yet is that your problem is actually a solution within itself...

When I was your age my unit was roughly the same size; in fact it was until about a year or so...I was so embarrassed by it I would avoid sex often. On the odd occassion that I would have sex I was so embarrassed by my size that often I would become so psychologically anxious that I could not maintain an erection. There are solutions to this. I was also jealous of friends I had seen naked flashing their packages round at uni parties etc. Its not that I would have anyways, but when someone takes choice away even if it their own mental barriers that stop them it is a very powerful thing psychologically.

Only you can use the same strength you already have to channel that into becoming a very successful Penis Enlargementer indeed. But ultimately that choice begins and ends with you. And as a guy who identifies very strongly with your situation let me tell you realising this goal is completely and utterly possible...if things in your routine are not working out then begin with asking what can you do differently. Throwing in the towel does not achieve this. Its OK to be frustrated and low in mood over barriers, this is normal; we all get that, but what I think seperates the guys who make tremendous gains from those who do not is how they *choose* to deal with this challenge. Perhaps begin by asking what you can start to do differently, look at the guys here who have done exceptionally well and then choose how and what elements click most with what you are comfortable with and that suit your lifestyle.

I only wish I knew these things at your age; you have a tremendous wealth of resource present in these forums, some fantastic models from which to start learning and constructing the unit you want most...and I wonder if perhaps you do not already realise this now?
 
Hey man don't do it for that. Are you on any anti-depressants? I have been there and been through severe depression. The erections weren't there believe me. They are returning for me and I just went through that. It helps to think things through. Also if you have a close friend go do something with them that you and the friend enjoy. It will take your mind off this. If you do drink, quit for your depressions sake. It's a big time depressant especially if your a binge drinker. I would also agree with trying to take a cialis or viagra to see if the problem is purely mental. I believe that it is. Keep up with the Penis Enlargement-ing though and you'll reach the goals. You could also put your efforts into something that you really enjoy or want to get done. This will show some accomplishment and boost your self esteem and confidence. If you want to read my thread look up intro to kdogg101. It shows what kind of life that I lived with and where I am now. I was also on the verge of suicide man. If you ever need to talk PM me I'm here either to listen or put my two cents in from my experiences.
Kdogg101
 
no offense sasquatch...But I am totally against that "god" advice...people put too much faith and hope in a creature which humans created to seek comfort...

Man what you need to do is visit a doctor make sure nothing is physically wrong with you after you get that done....start doing PC exercises which trust me...help ALOT with erection strength....do some cardio vascualr exercise not walking...running.....sleep well...do your Penis Enlargement exercises correctly and with care...a couple of supps that do help....multi , Vit E , Vit c (15 grams or so) , b complex and stay hydrated.

If you really do think that a big dick will make you happy and that it is not smth else....then devote ur free time to this and work hard for it...read as much as u can and research everything.....alot of people think if they get a bigger dick , bigger breasts , flat stomach then theyre problems are gonna go away...sometimes its bigger than that...sometimes its only that....think about what you want and what will make YOU really happy and go for it

Best of Luck man:)

p.s: dont kill yourself
 
Hey awwdarn, a lot of emotion came through on your post. Emotion I think most, if not all of us, here have dealt with at one time or another and as much pain as you may be in right now I'm here to tell you: It will pass. You may not believe that, you most likely will have to work hard at it, but it will pass. I felt a lot the same way as you do when I was your age, but I don't anymore, haven't for a couple of decades or more, and not a whole lot has changed except my perspective on life and how I actually choose to deal with any given situation. You too have choices, an almost infinite number of choices, but by allowing yourself to define your entire life and purpose here on this planet by your penis...YOU have taken away all of YOUR own choices. Centuries ago Plato said that "...there is no shame in being poor, there is only shame in doing nothing about it." I realized a long time ago myself, (before you were even conceived) that his logic could be applied to anything at all in a persons life. You have the power to choose the course and content of your life...but you have to make that decision. And each and every time your road becomes difficult you have to rededicate your efforts to achieving whatever goal you have chosen for yourself. By contemplating suicide, (however seriously) you aren't really solving any problems. What you would do, however, is take your treatable, personal, impermanent problem and shift it
permanently, irrevocably to the shoulders of your family, friends and loved ones. You say that you're too embarrassed to go to a doctor...get over it...GO.
Far too many people die prematurely every day from simple "embarrassment"; guys having heart attacks too embarrassed to go to the hospital, guys lost in the woods too embarrassed to admit they are lost, guys with minor, treatable (and perhaps, even, mostly psychosomatic) conditions too embarrassed to admit they could get treated and cured. Think for just one moment about your family's embarrassment should you actually commit suicide and the actual reason revealed: "He died because of his dick" is not the epitaph anyone would be, or should, be proud of. I hate to sound harsh; but killing yourself over your dick is really a stupid and incredibly selfish act that would solve nothing yet bring incredible heartache to any number of your family and friends. Go to a doctor, solve your problem, don't let it defeat you. And for God's sake; let the rest of us all here help you and keep us informed!
 
first i want to say thanks for the replies guys.
i have gained so much inspiration and motivation right now and i feel like i have actually something to prove the world. bigger than pe-ing, something like...this is how i was made like it. or lump it.

i feel soo much better and i will take a week off then start taking some vitamins, then i will get straight back onto pe-ing. i feel extremely embarresed i mentioned about killing myself; but i guess when all you do is wish you had a bigger penis size all day, and especially at my age when there are so many girls flirting with you lol.

so thank you to everyone; and from next week on i will start posting my stats, etc. and see how i go.

once again thank you all so much...you saved me.:)
 
awwdarn, no need to feel embarrased about expressing your emotions. That took strength and courage.

This month will be one year since my best friend committed suicide. I only wish he would have shown the strength to tell me his troubles. Maybe he would still be here today.

Thats what friends are for.
 
Texan said:
Also, for what its worth, if I go along time (like a week) without jacking off or having sex, my erections aren't as hard as when I get off once a day or even two or three times a day.
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Word.
 
Texan said:
Also, for what its worth, if I go along time (like a week) without jacking off or having sex, my erections aren't as hard as when I get off once a day or even two or three times a day.
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Why is it like that though,I'd like to know.
 
Your erection difficulties may be related to your depression.
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When im sad and cant have a erection. Im 19 years old. When im happy i can do 5x 30 min. clamping + 20min jelquing + stretching and wake up with a hard morning wood. When im sad i cant even jelq! Maybe DLD have to create Phase 0 (Expanding your awareness - Building a better mind!)
 
WOuld anybody mention or does anybody on this forum think that almost a
5 1/2 inches is not that bad( or is it just me, maybe cuz my stats are v ery similar) but the average is 6 - 6.5 and large is 7.5+... I mean so one would be not That far away, diffinetly something to work with. I also learned that girls are extremely horn sluts( our moms included ) and will take just about anything, cicumstances being fairly straight. Now this will make some folks feel better, or like me just want to Penis Enlargement till my weenie falls RIGHT THE FUCK OFF( oh, sorry) Were glad your not thinking about suicide any more, that would be some real sorry shit... Any time you turn around, your gonna see some one in a real worse state than your in, so lets keep out chins up! :)
 
I'm 29, i and i would say a lot of thing.I think that everybody can understand how do you feel now, but suicide is not the solution. If you think that something is happened to you cock, go to an'urologist, with only one injection of "prostaglandine" can tell you if you are fine, and i'm sure that you are fine. Anyway you are very young, so you can change everything of your life. Don't be obsessed for your cock, Rome was not built in one day, so consider starting today building your life. You can Penis Enlargement, but remember that girls doesn't will love you for your big cock, girls are attracted from the whole man.
In few word, of course doing a good routine you will increase your size of cock, so don't waste your life, fix long terms goal and keep working hard.
Good luck.
 
OK NUFF with that heres how to get you good erections back.


I know what your going through. I feel I understand what is happening as it happened to me a little but not as much. Is it like the veins in your penis are getting too big? Like they are just letting the blood slip back into your body?

-Do some light hanging. This i absolutly garantee will help with weak erections from jelqing. I can almost promise you after a session of around 1/2 hour hanging with maybe 2 kgs (maybe a little more) someone at your level of experience. The next morning you'll wake up with steel, not wood. If you need an easy way of hanging, read my The poor mans hanging option right now in the Hangers Forums, If you feel you need more info you can pm me, or even start a thread in the main penis enlargement forum but the effects of hanging on weak erections. Your still just getting to know your penis. Dont listen to these people talking like you are somehow unable to benefit from pe and still get good erections. Also you need to start a proper Kegal routine of say at least 300 a day. As pe in general does lessen the strength of your erections a little bit, but not nearly at the severity that you are describing.

Anyways give it a little try don't go over board see if this helps you out, good luck. Keep posting. Keep hope dont give up. You can do it. Mail DLD if you have too, im sure he would be most happy too help someone like you out, when he is able.

Your gonna be fine trust.
Riley
 
Do not be sad about your penis size, it is not small, at 5.5" it is bang on average. I still accept the fact that you wanna do Penis Enlargement, who wouldn't, but do not be ashamed of an average sized cock. This may sound pessimistic, but bear in mind that the size u have now is the most common size!
 
awwdarn said:
but i guess when all you do is wish you had a bigger penis size all day, and especially at my age when there are so many girls flirting with you lol.
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Dude you are only 18 roll with it rofl Those girls that are flirting with you; theres a pretty good chance some of them are virgins at the age- hell I know some my age (25) that still are. You could be their first and you have a decent size for your age (you will continue to grow and Penis Enlargement'ing will only help you even more). See those girls that may be virgins, chances are they don't watch all that adult entertainment that us guys do and therefore will not have much if anything to compare to. Don't ever think of something so drastic that could hurt more people than you would ever know; don't worry about the little things in life; and if you do hook up with any of these girls that are mackin on you "Don't be a fool, wrap your tool"- Van Wilder.

Good luck and enjoy the miracle of Penis Enlargement

(BTW my starting stats were only 5.5 and I'm 7 now after only 5 months)
 
sweets said:
an inch and half is darn imrpressive in that time, what do your routine look like?!?
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Who me????? YAY I get to send more folks to check out my thread/ routine!!!!!

http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?t=20895

awwdarn- this is for you bud, the unhealthy relationship w/ another guys chick I spoke of in my thread- It was nuts I was sooo stressed out I was missing Penis Enlargement workouts as well as regular workouts and not eating right to the point that I lost 30LBS. My point- all of us on here have some demons in their closet and all of us will be there for another member in their time of need. You are not alone, members of this site share a common goal and are supportive of one another 99.9% of the time..... me'h make that 100% of the time now that [P]okey got shitcanned. I don't have time to look through all of your posts this evening but I will tomorrow sometime and give any advice I can (I am only a 5 monther myself so don't expect much :P ) In the meantime feel free to comment on MY routine maybe you can help me out too. :)
 
Well average REALLY is between 5 and 5.5 so... you're in the upper 50%. That's great!

Did you know it's only the 1st 1/3 of the vaginal entrance that is sensible? That means a 3-4 inch is enough to reach point g, and after that, it's more or less for the image. Most people here are peing for THEMSELVES not for girls.

You're 18. You're young. You've got high testosterone levels. Testosterone is a growth hormone. You need it to heal... Is there any links with Penis Enlargement do you think? :) There are. Not that only this factor will play on gains, but it does at least.

I'd personally reccomend you go on that [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/penis-enlargement-newbie-forum/1597-dlds-first-routine-i-gained-2-inches-with-this-routine-full-tutorial.html]newbie routine[/words], keep it as a hobby, choose a moment when you're relaxed, say, in front of your computer, or listening to music... Pe is very enjoyable anyways :P

DLD gained 3+ inches, I gaines 1 up to now, and SO many people post pictures, you can't be wrong here :s
 
awwdarn said:
how would stretching for 30 minutes help my errection?
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Many members report that PC muscle training is the way to retreive bad ass erection :p So by stretching + kegels while you are stretching ( pc muscle training ) you are working your way to better erections.

But most of the time the problem is in the head... set yourself goals, eat well, attend to a gym w/ a friend, reach your goal, but without stressing it, and see how hard you become :s
 
Hey buddy,

Look i found hanging (if not exessively) meaning ur not really stretching i found i had good erections in the morning. If this helps, stop hanging and just leave it.

I wont lie my erections arent as strong as they were (without a lady around) or as sensitive but thats a price you have to dable with with pe. I do have a very real size complex that i know about myself very well, and basically I feel better having a bigger, slightly less sensitive/strong erection than having a smaller one. Do you have a girlfriend? If not try not to obsess over your erection quality and let things flow when u get with a girl. I always find when im with a lady i get rock hard, although not as much when im on my own. The body does incredible things in the throws of hormoans.
 
The reason i feel hanging helps is that i feel it is stretching/conditioning your tunicae (that is the inner hard part of your penis), while leaving the veins almost untouched. I experienced less intense erections after jelqing, as i belive jelqing tend to enlarge your veins a bit much causing that "slippage" of blood out of the penis. SO i feel by hanging AND JUST HANGING A LITTLE, you are creating an inner penis of the approprite size for your veins. This is just my thoughts use them as you like.

Riley
 
Clearly, one needs not to break the little valves that stop the blood from flowing the wrong side in the veins, as this is called an injury :P and bad erections.
 
I as well have taken this topic into consideration and thank everyone for their replies.
 
Hey awwdarn,

You depression will subside one way or another, even if it takes years. I have been depressed since 10th grade and I am now a senior. Alot of things depressed me and it got severe, very severe. At time's it would get better and I would be okay, but it would get severe again and I would be soo emotionally distraught that it was hard to hide. The past week I have felt pretty good for the most part, and I believe it has to do with me deciding to join the military. And when I say severe depression, I mean it... I would get upset over litte things and they would kill me. Alot still bothers me, but I am working hard to fight it back and it seems to help for the most part.

PM me sometime if you don't mind.

Later!
 
Just hang in there man, you can end it any day of the week you like. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I promise you that. Just see how things pan out. We are here. Band of brothers! Take it easy
 
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