foxconn;308919 said:DLD, please let me be a part of this program and become one of your subjects. I am very desperately in need of this right now.
Hi Mike,
This blog is very inspiring and I would love to become part of your program and work towards my goals using AlphaBlade.
Here is my story:
Just over a year ago I had everything I wanted. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I had my health, and I was in a very happy place with everything(or so i thought).
All of a sudden I got hit with "depression". I don't know how it came about but I felt like I was losing my mind and going insane for no reason at all. The doctors first prescribed me Lexapro for the depression and at first I thought "yes, this is working, i'm fine" etc. However my depression actually became worse and my anxiety increased greatly.
The doctors then prescribed me a much larger dose of Lexapro and also prescribed me a strong dose of Xanax. The worst thing I ever did, in my opinion, was allow the doctor to prescribe me those drugs.
I became a zombie and during all this time I got made redundant from my job I then struggled to even look for work or get up in the morning. I hated what I was becoming but at the same time, i didn't even care.
I stopped caring about my health, my job, my fiance and pretty much anything else in my life at the time. I put on lot's of weight, I got another good job but then lost it because I didn't care, my plans to build my own house with my fiance fell through, my fiance ended up cheating on me because I didn't treat her how she should be, etc, etc.. Everything in my life fell apart and it all came about because of my "depression".
Anyway, since my fiance cheated on me, I was always very bitter about it and blamed it entirely on her. I fell into deeper and deeper debt because I couldn't hold onto a job and I just didn't care about anything.
I decided that I could no longer take the medication i was on because it completely changed who I was. I was no longer the fun, happy person who all my friends knew and liked. I was no longer the boyfriend/fiance who my girlfriend fell in love with. I was an empty shell.
I stopped taking all of my medication cold turkey and decided that I would never touch it again. I felt fine for about a week after that, trying to stay positive, etc and then all of a sudden I had the worst withdrawal symptoms that I have ever experienced. I kept feeling as though i was being electrocuted from my toes all the way up to the top of my head and would nearly faint. I also couldn't last as long in the bedroom or even really care about that either.
Anyway, fast forward to now. Three weeks ago, my fiance and I had an argument over something small and we decided to break up. Another really bad decision but maybe this was the wake up call I've needed.
I think I've now realised all of our mistakes, etc but I'm not happy. I have a part time low paying job, I'm single and I miss my fiance.
My goals in life now are to start my own business, become fit and healthy, and to find love again, hopefully with my fiance, but if not then with someone who appreciates me for who I am.
Please let me know if you can help me achieve this. I can document my entire progress, etc for you and this blog.
Thanks in advance.
Ricki
lifted;309137 said:The true definition of half life is erectile dysfunction.
CrazyEight;309217 said:DLD, are you still taking on students for mentorship?
Hi Rabbit, this is Fox again. I just thought I would give you an update on one of my goals on the Alpha Blade program. My weight loss.
Around 3-4 weeks ago when my fiance and I broke up, I decided to weigh myself. When I looked at the scales I was not happy with what I saw. I was 109kg, the heaviest weight I have been in my life.
I decided from that point on that I am not going to live the unhealthy life I have been living. I need to lose this weight.
Anyway, over the past few weeks I have been trying to eat healthy and trying to get a little bit of exercise in every now and then. So far I have lost 6.1kg and I now weigh 102.9kg.
My goal weights are either 80kg lean or 87kg with good muscle definition. I am hoping you will be able to give me some tips on achieving that.
MaidenFanatic69;358958 said:Hey there,
Please forgive me if the answer to this question has already been posted as of late, since its been year since the last answer on this thread, but are there any updates for ALPHABLADE? How is everything coming along? I noticed you need to be invited to follow the AB blog, is there anyway I could receive an invite? Let us know, thanks!
Over the last 3 years I have been working on the Alpha+Blade project. This project coincides with when a very important relationship ended in my life. May 4th, 2004 is when Jennifer left me because of so many issues in her, my and our lives. When earlier, in 2005-06, I was going to release Alpha+Blade I thought I was ready but was wrong. I had so much more to learn before I could make the website, book and film public.
The Alpha+Blade series of media sources are based solely on the things I learned during the last 3 years and how they apply to my past and future. On May 4th, 2004 my girl left me. She is the love of my life and losing her was one of largest travesties I have endured. Her departure not only destroyed me on a romantic level but it infected every other part of my life. Most of my time, at that point, was spent on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] and I let every other part of myself wane and wither. The things Jennifer, my son Armando and every other person who loved me, that made up Michael Salvini as the happy, magical person I was became distorted and disreguarded. Every aspect of those qualities became hidious and I was quite blind to their dimisee. I could not see what had happened to me, I was convinced the rest of the world was wrong and they were against me. I truly could not see the errors of my way and because of this I was left alone to myself, losing everything that was ever important to me.
The story progresses from there, as many may already know, and I essentially deliberately, created my life back into existence. I was left in a apartment that I had ripped every wall from. The place Jennifer and I lived was reduced to a 2 floor warehouse. No bathroom, kitchen, rooms, closets, nothing...four walls just staring at a niggaI credit that line to the Ghetto Boyz but it is soooo true. It was me, myself and I in the middle of a framed out room.
I could not bare the thoughts of staying in the apartment (which later becomes the Alpha+Blade Studios) so I jumped on a plane to Southern, Florida. This is where my business partner and best friend, Jaz, resides. I spent the next 4 months living with Jaz for 3 months and approximately 4 weeks on my own. I only brought my clothes, books and some notebooks and pens. On the flight I made a list of the things I needed to change in my world. The list was longer than my cockAnyway, over this time I educated myself on many subject and essentially started a system of self education that led me to creating the book and it's other outlets. When I returned to my home in Massachusetts (the one with no walls) well, the house now was worse...there were no longer utilities.
I could not stay there so I moved in with my Ex-Wife and Son. I spent about 6 months there until I was asked to leave, due mainly to my extreme depression and obsession with making some huge changes. During my stay Armand and I worked a lot on the Alpha+Blade project. We filled note books with the changes I was making and how I was doing it. He was able to help me focus and study the many books I wanted to know. We did series of experiments and worked tirelessly on the book and solving the laundry list of problems in my life.
When I left his home I had close to 10 college notebooks filled. I am not sure why I chose to write it down instead of typing it on my computer. I guess the freedom of the pen and paper made a greater companion than the heaviness of a impersonal computer. This also allowed me to quickly scribble drawings and equations on ideas that came to mind. When in Florida, the biggest problem was the massive collection of note and school books that were accumulating with great speed and weight. I spent a couple weeks living in the wilderness when in Florida. Since I was living outdoors the books became cumbersome. I also needed to worry about them becoming weathered, as I was outside during Hurricane Katrina. Funny enough, after Katrina hit many of the great, palm trees were uprooted leaving massive caves of shelter under tham. I spent about 2 weeks living in one tree by a lakeAs much as it seems like it would have sucked, it did not. I learned a lot there
Anyway upon moving back into my Massachusetts empty warehouse I went into a deep depression. I did not work for a few months and basically paced the bare, bleached white, floors only occasionally stopping long enough to scribble a picture, words or some other thing on the floor. It was a few months before I decided to start work again but when I did....I REALLY DID!
I started to campaign fund raisers for the apartment to become Alpha+Blade Studios and raised enough money to complete it (plus feed me and my family.) I thank you people who supported this project as if it were not for you non of this would have manifested itself. A very special thanks to the major contributors who helped raise more than $40,000 at a time that I had no income. That money served a great purpose and it was a large part of fertilizer of the great seed that has grown into the Alpha+Blade systems.
While I built the Alpha+Blade Studio I did a majority of my work in Starbucks across the East Coast. This is the reason I entitled the book "THE BALL, Conversations at Starbucks the Alpha+Blade Project" The Ball was a name my Son came up with as he felt when we exchanged ideas and answers we were passing a great ball of energy. Since most of my conversations took place in the local Starbucks Coffee Houses I decided to credit the people. I also needed to include the root of the Alpha+Blade people, you guys and the things you taught me. The title is long but I am all about making things bigger, longer and greater.
Essentially the Alpha+Blade book and film are a set of steps that will show people how to get exactly what they want in life. The methods are a seamless entanglement of every subject from science, math and religion to physics, motivation and philosophy. I wrote the book in the spirit of a tragic comedy but I am sure there will be something for everyone in there. The steps are very basic and proved hardest in finishing this project is to present these methods in the simplest way.... essentially ABC/123.
Some of what I have accomplished are:
Alpha+Blade Studios
An offer to write a thesis for Princeton University based on one of my notebooks on mathematics and physics. (I have an 8th grade education.)
Losing 140 pounds in 4 months, with maximum body mass to muscle.
Completing 4 books on Physics, Mathematics, a Autobiography and a perpetual graphic novel.
Completed two full art galleries and received national exposure.
Made [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] the largest Men's Sexual Health Site in the World.
Acquired 2 original Pablo Picasso's for almost no money with full provence and COA.
Collected 2 of my favorite automobiles (again using no money)
Made thousands of friends and connections.
I received property in Washington DC, South Beach and The Virgin Islands (again using no money, I actually received money when I did it)
1000's of other things but mainly my relationship with Armando, my Son and Jennifer, my fiancé is again, reunited but at a level that is beyond any I could every dream.
Recently I have been very busy assembling a team to create the production of the Alpha+Blade Systems. I have been doing interviews and organizing the last parts of the project. Again, I will have the site and forums up for free and they will feature everything in the film and book. I already know the book and film will be a huge financial success so giving away the information is a joy.
I thank all of you for all of your continuing support and I will update this thread here and in the Alpha+Blade BLOG over the next few dates. I was going to launch the websites on the 4th of July but I may start the BLOG early.
I hope everyone can forgive my absence in [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] but I feel as though everything you could ever know about your sexuality already exists in you as it exists here. Every answer you need exists within this site but I still love answering the questions over and over....It makes me feel needed
I will try to post daily and catch up on all the inquiries I have missed.
Michael
DAY 09 - Thursday - April 25, 2019
...Had a brief moment of a mental image of doing PE-training and then lost it. Didn't let it interrupt the session or discourage me. I just kept thinking about doing the Newbie Routine and then for some unknown reason I had a random thought about the words "Alpha Blade" slip in. I found that a bit peculiar.
It’s on the shelf unfortunately. You can find information about alpha blade on the forum and online. I stopped with the program because as I was writing the book many things happen to get in the way. Since that time I’ve matured quite a bit and much of what I’ve written will be replaced with better information. Over the past five years so many things have happened that have changed the gameI recalled several weeks back I was in the beginning stage of practicing Visualization with the DLD Newbie Routine. During one of the times a random thought came across my mind with the word "Alpha Blade". I couldn't remember where I hear it or read it at the time. It kind of bothered me and kept it in the back of my mind. Today it finally surfaced to where I saw it...
...so I search for it in the MOS archives
Is this still sitting on the Shelf?
I read through it, it was good. As time moves forward, we evolve and mature. Sometimes we have to let go of certain projects to work on to doing other projects for the greater purpose to serve others and not just ones self. . .It’s on the shelf unfortunately. You can find information about alpha blade on the forum and online. I stopped with the program because as I was writing the book many things happen to get in the way. Since that time I’ve matured quite a bit and much of what I’ve written will be replaced with better information. Over the past five years so many things have happened that have changed the game
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