What is wrong with me?

hey Juggers

for some unexplainable reason i remembered your thread... from the hundreds ive read... and this is the first its even crossed my mind... came from nothing.

anywho, how ya doin'?


keep pushing

Reber187 said:

hey Juggers

for some unexplainable reason i remembered your thread... from the hundreds ive read... and this is the first its even crossed my mind... came from nothing.

anywho, how ya doin'?


keep pushing

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I am actually doing a lot better now thanks...Everyone here has been of great help

My best advice would be to go seek the help of a professional if you're having suicidal thoughts and anti-social tendencys.

There is a song by bob marly I listen to it called "don't worry be happy "you could try and listen to it and follow the songs messege,Bobby mcferrin also did a remake of that song ,i think its good too.

I was too lazy to finish reading everybody's posts but the topic just seemed so relevant.

I have this same problem. Upon the discovery of Penis Enlargement, I realized that we can change just about any part of ourselves. That is, those of us who are on MoS. Therefore we have the power to shape ourselves and our minds to be just about anyone we want to be in life. But do we really want to? It seems like everybody is superficial and that it's a lot simpler to be just antisocial. Those who are antisocial and enjoy it have very calm, happy lives. But those who really want to get involved in life but are aware of how superficial it can be, we're in for a challenge.

I love my girlfriend. I would never kill myself as long as she is alive. But if she wasn't? Who knows...it isn't because I'm sad or anything, but if there is really no reason for me to live, then why bother? Of course, I'm fooling myself. It's my nature to not kill myself. I'll probably just lock myself away and play videogames the rest of my life. Gotta love them videogames. But anyway, I've been feeling really depressed over the past two weeks...this one, unfortunately is not a depression that will go away. The depression is caused because of things I brood over. Just the concepts. For example...we know how to Penis Enlargement, but does every other guy know? No. Therefore there will always be guys who are ridiculed and humiliated for their penis size. This is something that saddens me about life...how life can be so cruel to its own self. Some of them are so close to me I can feel it just because I have such empathy. My own life on its own is pretty secure, or maybe it is because I don't have much experience. It's a sucky thought. It makes me have no motivation, knowing this world is so messed up. And brooding over these things is like a curse to me.
I'm on Cilexa now. Still getting used to the medicine. I'm hoping it will at least drown out the thoughts, because they sure as hell aren't going away.

Tell me if anyone finds a better way. Right now, all I know to do is change myself and be the best I can be, but I will still brood over the concept of certain things in life that my own self has nothing to do with it.

Well, I can say that the feelings I had before are a lot weaker. Now that I am married, at a very young age...it has taken the place of a lot of feelings I used to have and has given me a new way to look at life in general.

However, new feelings and emotions have arrived that are not so inviting. I have a lot of responsibility now and can't just shut myself out anymore...I have a wife. I now have someone to share my problems with and to grow with. I might also be moving soon...out to the Midwest, away from the east coast. I hope this change of location will help me start new.

A new home, new military unit, new spirit, new me

I'm tired of being tired about life. I know it has a lot more to offer than I have been looking for. I guess I was too lazy to try.

Oh, wow. How interesting. I saw this topic on the 2nd page and it sounded so...like me before. I came in to post and look at that. My Godot avatar.

I made that post during Winter. That was a cold winter. My roommate moved out, so I was alone in a double and nobody came to visit me, EVER. Before, any time someone came to the door it was for my roommate. And now there was no one. It was very lonely, and very creepy. And because I was alone all the time, I started to go a bit...insane.

I've been a bit more "motivated" ever since the summer started. I feel like a lot has been lifted off my shoulders. However, I often feel like I'm living for only a few things and that life is a struggle of sorts.
Ah, but this topic is about you Juggers, isn't it? I can say this much:
If the depression is there for no reason, take antidepressants. If the depression is there for plenty of clear substance reasons, then there will eventually be a point where you will get up one day and just...laugh. You will laugh, and then cry, and then laugh again. I was worried because I thought it was my mind breaking and me going insane. Maybe I've gone insane, but I'll say this much; I feel a bit more different from other people now...enough to stand out and distinguish myself from others a bit more. It is interesting stuff. But I've decided to live, because there are plenty of men in the past who had nothing to live for but never killed themselves, because they wanted to know how the tragic story ended. And it is beginning to be fun. I say this as I sit in my room on a dark night, my first floor room in the ground on my campus lit up by a street light, drinking some coffee. It is neat. Chalk it up to my love of acting. But sometimes life is more of a story than we think, even if a lot of us do die very suddenly. I've made sure to keep a journal, so that everything that goes on gets recorded. Someone will discover it. Until then, gotta keep living life. I know for certain now that there is ALWAYS something to live for.

When you are in a state of depression you feel like it will never be lifted. But it usually does lift after a while. Sounds like you guys have gotten through the worst of it.

I was told not to isolate when I hit those awful bottoms. I have done my best to reach out to others and it makes a difference, for sure.