I'm a sick puppy!!!

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crazyed27

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Penis Enlargement has become an obsession. This is why I started in the world of Penis Enlargement. Since I was a kid like 11 or 12 years old I thought I didn’t have a large enough penis nor would I ever. It started when I was in a locker room for swimming lessons. There was this dude named Rico, we were in 5th grade. I believe he was a year older than everyone because he got held back a grade. Anyway I remember taking a shower after our lesson. There was like 5 guys in the shower and then Rico walked in. Everybody started to make comments to him. Man I bullshit you not, he was in 5th grade and his dick hung down just short of his kneecap. I was big and hairy I was amazed by it. Then I look down at mine and it looked so small in comparison to his. From that day on I believed my dick was small. So here I was in the 5th grade and had not even hit puberty yet and already thought I had a small dick. Ever since then I have always compared my size to other guys sizes, whether it be in a magazine, adult entertainment movie, locker room, even bulges. I’m a sick puppy I know!

A few years latter I began to experience sexual encounters with girls. Not necessarily sex, but petting, hand jobs, I would try to get a girl to see my penis so I could see her reaction. At this stage I was 13 to like 16. Even though I got good reactions and responses on my size I still felt small. I even got the “Your Huge” comment once. I would even get my friends to show me their sizes to see if I was bigger. I would say something like this, “I bet my dick is bigger than yours” they would accept the bet. To make it worth something we’d put up money, baseball cards, whatever we could agree on. Most of the time I would win these bets, but moments after winning I would still believe my size was small. Somewhere I heard that the average penis was 6 inches long, so I get a ruler and measure it. I think I was like 16 or 17 it came to be 7.5 inches. I was cool I’m now know I’m big. That didn’t last too long. Me and a friend used to joke around about getting a pump. Calling it a PPenis Enlargement (personal penis enlarger) but I never got one. I had a girlfriend that broke my heart when I was 20, she played me. Then she became heartless towards me. I was talking to her and a friend, trying to get her back. Her friend asked does he have a big dick. She looked at me and said no. I was like WTF she used to always brag to people in our circle that I had a big dick. The she went on about her new boyfriend, saying “I’m moving on to BIGGER and BETTER things” this messed me up for a while. I was insecure anyways and that just made it worse.

So I sunk down in this deep emotional hole of shit. I let this girl get the best of me, after this my whole life began to go downhill fast. I quit my job, started to get drunk everyday, I would smoke as much weed as possible. With this lifestyle I began to get into illegal activities, so I didn’t have to work and could be high and drunk form the time I woke up to the time I fell asleep. This landed me in a medium security state prison for 3+ years. No I did not get my shit pushed in. While in there I saw too many bigger dicks than mine, or at least I thought they were bigger. Seeing hundreds of dicks in 3 years didn’t help my mental out at all. I always wanted a huge penis for my enjoyment, so I won’t have to worry about someone thinking I’m small. So when I got out I bought a PPenis Enlargement (pump) it was a piece of shit, the tubing collapsed on me when I was using it. Plus I did not like the way my penis look after a pumping session, it looked totally deformed. I thought about pills, but never went out and got them because I simply couldn’t afford them. Believe me if I could have bought some I would have. Somehow one day I was surfing the net looking at adult entertainment and stumbled on some thing called the jelg. It said if you do this you will get a bigger dick. I gave written instructions on how to do this. I thought bullshit, and then began searching for Penis Enlargement on the net. I found a lot of sites talking about this exercise called the jelg, and began hearing about Kegals, stretches, and hanging. Somehow I stumbled on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] it was the last forum I came across, I saw DLD’s pics and couldn’t believe that this could be true. So I lurked on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] and other forums gathering info. So one day I decided to jelg, and to my surprise my limp looked huge right after my workout. So I continued to do it. Not knowing what I was getting myself into. Now I am completely obsessed with making my penis look the way I always wanted it to look. I don’t know if I’m more fucked up now, on the obsession of my size, or was I more fucked up before. There is one thing I do know now is that I’m not alone with this mental struggle, to measure up. This is my personal story on why and how I became obsessed with my penis size. I’m relieved to know that there is something that can actually be done about it! Penis Enlargement works only if you can be consistent and intense, and you deep down really want it!!
 
thats a great story, but I'm not going to promise you that getting a bigger dick will make you confident in your size, of course you should still do Penis Enlargement, that's what we're all here for, but you have to remember that you're already bigger than most guys, and you shouldn't worry, your ex probably just wanted to make a joke to her friend, it could've been bigger, but ex's are bitches, you have to remember that. once you reach your goal be proud, you will have something between you legs that less than 1% of the population has, something to be real proud of, plus NO one could make fun of your size, because it'll be a whole lot of dick that few have, and few can take ;)
 
Dude just about every ex girlfriend will say your small after you break up, trust me 7.5 is not small. I'm like 5.75 nbp, and that's after alot of jelging, on and off. Plus I'm like 6'3'', skinny, lonhg arms and feet, I would kill to have your size right now... I feel like I'm in a world of shit, I've turned down sex many times because of this inadaquecy. Dont let that happen to you, especially at that size of 7.5
 
turkzilla said:
Dude just about every ex girlfriend will say your small after you break up
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AGREE^^

Hell Hath No Fury Like a Woman's Scorn
 
Hey Crazyed27, That is a very heart rendering story me Mon. Now tell me Mon, are ya happier now that ya have started the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] program? What size where ya when ya started? How long ya bin doing Penis Enlargement? What size are ya now? Good luck me Mon. I hope that ya keep outa trouble with the law. One thing though, Smoking pot won't hurt ya, Only the doing other stuff like coke will fuck ya right up.

JJ

crazyed27 said:
So I sunk down in this deep emotional hole of shit. I let this girl get the best of me, after this my whole life began to go downhill fast. I quit my job, started to get drunk everyday, I would smoke as much weed as possible. With this lifestyle I began to get into illegal activities, so I didn’t have to work and could be high and drunk form the time I woke up to the time I fell asleep. This landed me in a medium security state prison for 3+ years. No I did not get my shit pushed in. While in there I saw too many bigger dicks than mine, or at least I thought they were bigger. Seeing hundreds of dicks in 3 years didn’t help my mental out at all. I always wanted a huge penis for my enjoyment, so I won’t have to worry about someone thinking I’m small. So when I got out I bought a PPenis Enlargement (pump) it was a piece of shit, the tubing collapsed on me when I was using it. Plus I did not like the way my penis look after a pumping session, it looked totally deformed. I thought about pills, but never went out and got them because I simply couldn’t afford them. Believe me if I could have bought some I would have. Somehow one day I was surfing the net looking at adult entertainment and stumbled on some thing called the jelg. It said if you do this you will get a bigger dick. I gave written instructions on how to do this. I thought bullshit, and then began searching for Penis Enlargement on the net. I found a lot of sites talking about this exercise called the jelg, and began hearing about Kegals, stretches, and hanging. Somehow I stumbled on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] it was the last forum I came across, I saw DLD’s pics and couldn’t believe that this could be true. So I lurked on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] and other forums gathering info. So one day I decided to jelg, and to my surprise my limp looked huge right after my workout. So I continued to do it. Not knowing what I was getting myself into. Now I am completely obsessed with making my penis look the way I always wanted it to look. I don’t know if I’m more fucked up now, on the obsession of my size, or was I more fucked up before. there is something that can actually be done about it! Penis Enlargement works only if you can be consistent and intense, and you deep down really want it!!
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Hey man, i seem to have stumbled on my many self confidence threads tonight! Shit, well here goes again.

I to have a very real, intense size complex. It came about once when a girl comment well on my size. It made me feel so good and my obsession took hold around then. I wanted to be spoken about among the girls. I wanted to be the BIG DICK guy. Not the slightly bigger dick guy.

As a child 5 yrs or so, i had a nanny that would ask me to drop my pants on regular ocassions and would inspect my penis. Later around 9-10 yrs old or so, i remember finding my parents little adult entertainment collection. Nothing much but there was a pack of playing cards that had naked males in it. I think this perpetuated my obsession a bit. I remember once overheard my (absolutey wonderful) mother and sister having a talk, heard my father was very very big, and was the only man to bring her to orgasm. Fuck kind of funny actually. Anyway's time went on i had pe'd for a while and was probably about 7x5.3 or something, and started a new relationship with this girl. I was on the fine line with her between being big, and too big. I just was too big for her. She was a shy person and was physically intimidated by my penis. There were nights i went to deep, causing her to curl up in pain. There were nights that i cant describe how sick i felt about my body and my dick and my mind. It was a strange place to be in. Secretly pe'ing, because i did'nt feel big enough while i knew i was hurting her. I would bug her for hours sometimes about her past guys, and their sizes. She never really gave me a clear answer, eventually saying she couldnt remember. This drove me insane. I could'nt belive tha tshe could'nt remember, in my mind she was lying to not hurt my feelings. The mere thought that a bigger guy had been with her rendered me an absolute mess of a man. I let that part of my psyche help destroy the relationship. The point being wether she remembered or not, i now know she did'nt give a crap at all about penis size. It was all me.

Time has gone by and i know that i can be free of my obsession if i want to, but i know i can enlarge my penis and commit myself to something that will be with me for the rest of my life. So i actively choose to push my buttons by looking at some big dick adult entertainment or something if i need a little motivation. Im using it as jet fuel for growth.

Anyways, thats just a bit of my experiece with the old cock thing. I posted a few interesting things on size and obsession, with my past alias as RumpleStiltSkin, but have since changed my thinking and self, so a new profile was needed.

Peace
 
Yeah Penis Enlargement puts you in a wierd place mentally. I remember a time when I told myself. If I just get to 7x5 I'll be happy. Then a combination of subconciously thinking your dick really hasn't changed at all, and seeing the size other members have gotten to on a Penis Enlargement site makes you really have an altered sense of where you really stand with your size in the world.

I originally started Penis Enlargement in High School because of the first time I took showers after working out in the locker room. I swear I must've been the only one that experienced turtling after my weightlifting routines. Looking back I know its because I would work out much more intensely, with less rest time than anyone else in there. Thats why I won the regional qualifier and went on to do very well at the state finals for powerlifting. Anyway, the very first day I decided to start taking showers I had been secretly looking around for some idea of comparison, because I really had no idea where I stood in terms of other guys. There was this dude named clark who was in the same class as me that semester. Clark and me had been somewhat friends for awhile before that and he sometimes would jokingly say something about his size. The first day of going into the shower, I stepped in with my towel over my turtled flaccid, only to have Clark turn around with this massively hanging semi he had worked up while shampooing his pubes (he was kind of a freak like that). Later he said his size was about 9.5nbp x 6.5. I believe that even now as I remember it. He was absolutely huge (easily twice the size of anyone else in there), and mine almost felt like it was getting smaller from the added nervousness of the situation now.
That very day I researched on the internet to find ANYTHING that would make me huge even if it killed me. I knew there had to be something that made some guys bigger than others. It was actually when I typed the key words asking about a diet that would lead to increase in size (seemed logical at the time) when the search actually brought up several pay sites that talked about "exercising" the penis, but they wouldn't tell you how unless you paid them. Well I had no money or credit card with which to do so, but this concept intrigued me. I thought to myself "I'm extremely dedicated to working out my body, why not all of my body? I could make this work I bet." Of course I still had no idea how, so for the next few days I started trying to flex my penis after I discovered I could do so. So I guess you could say I really started with kegels. I would squeeze really hard, and since my penis would move a little I figured I might actually be doing something.
After searching for several more days for more instruction I stumbled across my first bit of free Penis Enlargement information. It was a one page website that told about basic jelqing, kegels, and what it called a girth jelq where you squeeze the base and just below the head and push the hand below the head toward the base. I did both of those with hand lotion every morning for fifteen minutes in the bathroom, and actually saw visible results. My girth was terrible at the time at around 4.3 or so, so to see it getting more veiny and thick looking was a great feeling. There was one fundamental flaw in that little website though. Even though the guy said at the top that it was bullshit that people were "charging for information" he also said that doing it longer than 6-7 months would be a waste of time because thats when growth would stop. After about 5 months I saw visible gains, but then started to drop off when they slowed thinking I was nearing the end of the road for gains. I started Penis Enlargement'ing once a week at most. I kept up this worthless amount of Penis Enlargement until the next year at High School right before Christmas when I got my first serious girlfriend, and started getting self concious about my size with her secretly. All we did were handjobs and fingering, but I always felt like she looked down at my size with distaste. She actually did turn out to be a shallow bitch so that very well could've been true. Toward the last month of our relationship (didn't know it was going to be, we went out for 4 months), I decided to do something about it again. I already knew about jelqing, but wasn't sure if it would work again given my ignorance as to how Penis Enlargement actually worked. So I went online again with better knowledge of what to look for.
After some searching, I stumbled across PridePenis.co.uk where there were some other exercises, but more importantly there were guys there that did up to a thousand jelqs (the original site said to never go over 2 to 3 hundred), and had been consistently doing Penis Enlargement for years and gained huge amounts from it. Then after lurking there for awhile (never became a full member because I shared a comp. with the whole family and didn't want them to find out about it), I found one of REDZULU's old pics and was in awe. Well now I realized what was truly possible through Penis Enlargement and was determined to make it happen. I followed a solid routine every night in bed, and got my length up to about 7 bp x just under 5 inches in girth which was a great increase for me (luckily that bitch got one last look at my new size before we broke up, and I KNOW she noticed a difference). I continued on for the next 6 months or so until summer. Since it was summer my whole sleep/school/Penis Enlargement schedule was thrown off because it wasn't yet a life habit. I still was able to do it a couple times a week, but it was not near as consistent as it should have been.
Finally when I got to college I dove right back into it, I was rooming with my best friend from High School, and there weren't really any secrets between us, so conditions were ideal for this. Just the rediscovered consistence caused another jump in gains I think. I still visited Pride Penis for occasional info, but it started slowing down alot. Then one day someone offered a link to [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] saying it was a great site with lots of new Penis Enlargement info being invented there. I visited it and read about Dld on the front page. I had heard about guys getting up to 8 inches at the most so I figured that was the limit which secretly discouraged me because I wanted one day to be bigger than Clark. But I saw how much Dld had gained from a size similar to where I started, and I realized anything was possible through this stuff. Thats when I fully realized the miracle of Penis Enlargement, and I have been an addict ever since.
I know if I hadn't discovered Penis Enlargement I would still be worrying about my penis in an obsessive way, but with the added hopelessness of not being able to do anything about it. Possibly saving up for surgery some day way in the future, but with no thoughts of ever getting with a girl in the meantime. I'm the kind of person that decides he wants something, and simply WILL NOT STOP until I get it. This has spelled success in other aspects of life, and one day it will manifest in the form of actually being bigger than Clark. I probably won't see him again, but that is irrelevant, I will have silenced my personal demons.
There are still times I look down with the thought that I'm small, that I've gained little to nothing since the day I began this journey, but that seems to fade with each new girl that swears to her friends that I'm a footlong monster, or "scary" in the pants. One day I will be bigger than Clark, and will I be totally happy then? Who knows, but it sure couldn't hurt:) .
 
Yeah i just was wondering if it was possible like body building, and eventually stumbled on Tom Hubbards old site with all the basics. Was about 17 back then. 4 years on now i wish i was more consistent, but i feel consistency and dedication (or lifestyle) are in part the true techniques learned from experience in pe. I belive it helped my penis become my obsession and sustains itself. Perpetual motion! Till im 9x6.5 that is. Then I'll go have a beer or something.
 
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