i've put on 65lbs since august (of fat) not cool at all. I feel weak and lethargic all the time, and super unmotivated, the nothing like going to put on a
hanger and running out of breath and sweating by the time you get it on. it's so hard, i actually gave up after day 4 last time i started back up.
TBH, my life has been on a downward spiral since the od 2 years ago, i just can't seem to pull myself together, i thought getting off the dope would push me forward, but its kinda just left me feeling anxious and depressed, like om missing something. Anyways, not trying sound like a downer, i have a ton to be thankful for and i absolutely am, but i think i just need some drastic action or something.
Another thing os that im back living with my mom, i love her more than life, but i'm about to be 29 in a few weeks, and this is NOT how i thought my life would turn out.
I ended up here because after the od, i started having neurological problems, so for over a year, we weren't sure if it was the beginning of parkinsons or als, it was a very very scary time, i couldn't sleep for days at a time, my beard literally has grey and im only 28. Anyways, im ok, i have essential tremor which sucks, but its honestly a gift in comparison to what i could have had.
Between knocking on deaths door, and the problems that followed afterwards, it's been a rough couple of years, but im feeling good, im just lost and very unhappy about where i am.
