well someone on youtube using your name did well whatever...nyway it all started about a year and a half ago...i started seeing this one girl she was on the bigger side, mind you im 6'4...she was around 5'9 probably 200lbs...well we started foolin around and she was grinding her crotch on my crotch on top of me...nyway it felt good but i had a bad feeling...then i dont remember a pop or anything but suddenly i lost my erection...i couldnt get an erection for about a week or less then i was fine...but i still felt pain on occasion for a couple weeks after that...nyway after that incident i still kept scrrewing with her because i thought well maybe it was an accident and nothing seemed majorly wrong with me, i could still get very hard erections and i thought she was hot and we screwed alot....so eventually she showed me this website called thundersplace, and started laughing about all that stuff and i thought it was wierd, it hought maybe she was calling me small....nyway a couple weeks or a month or two after that she was on top of me when we were having sex and i remember hearing this pop, and i said whoa whoa, but nothing happened i still had good erections and i continued having sex with her...nyway sometime in there she brought a cloth ruler to me with a tear at 9 and a half inches(i only mean to add this for later in this story)...so i ended up measuring myself..at the very least after the first incident, because thats when we were first
hanging out...nyway sorry if this gets a lil confusing just try to understand the order, this was a while ago...anyway i measured myself...i was 8 and a half inches long standing up bpel and 6 and a half at the base of my penis in girth...so a month or two later after that she started bitching alot at me and saying a bunch of mean shit...so i broke up with her...in that period of time we were having sex again with her on top and she landed straight on my penis around 5 times...bouncing up and down from her feet....so nyway i told her i wanted to get back with her i just didnt want her to be so nasty...so we got back toghether then broke up a couple weeks later...then it got stuck in my mind, well maybe she was sleeping with some guy an inch bigger then me and that she just wanted to make fun of me and record me and show her friends or something...for some reason shed gotten one of those heel chairs that u see in adult entertainment movies and she said she got it from her sister...nyway i thought, mind u i now know how stupid i am, maybe if i got bigger i could start sleepign with her again, because she must be sleeping with someone bigger...so i looked back to thunders place and i started reading up on jelqing and strectching, and i thought o this could be dangerous, but i didnt find a horrible review, or think something really bad would happen to me with the good feedback...so i started doing it and it felt great...just to add this in i am 6'4 and i masturbated alot during a kid i still even masturbate alot but alot more careful(ill explain everything im just trying to write my thoughts down) but this made me feel really good...so i thought ok this seems like its going great...i was 2 weeks into it or so...so i started doing the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/penis-enlargement-newbie-forum/1597-dlds-first-routine-i-gained-2-inches-with-this-routine-full-tutorial.html]newbie routine[/words] but added a lil on to it...eventually i got really anxious, so i decided to try this one exercise that i saw on a thread....it said to squeeze ur pc muscle and jelq so i did that...soon after that i remember everything going to hell...i remember my penis because i got a ruler and got obseesed with my size, i was around and still around 5-1/2 flacid measuring from the top i dont know the side like u guys say...it was 7" after id done that one exercise...then my erections were extremely weak...i continued doing the regular ones, but eventually in the next couple of weeks, i couldnt get an erection at all no matter what....i just sat there and cried, i couldnt get it up for nything in 2 weeks, meaning it wouldnt move....so i went to the doctor, soon after this i started hallucinating, i saw jesus and satan, i took a piss outside and saw these extremely wierd shapes and colors wwent all funny like i was peeing blood but more like paint blood...everything turned to paint looking stuff...nyway i went to the doctor and i told him i couldnt get it up, so he sent me to my urologist im seeing now...mind u i couldnt think, i lost my job i stopped going to college, i still have problems with sights and thinking even today(again something to remember im just writing thoughts down)...i didnt tell my doctor about the jelqing but insisted i did something to my penis...so he got me a prescription to get an ultrasound on my testicle...well i go to get the ultrasound, and they tell me its for my testicle, and i tell them no i did something to my penis, so they grab the doctor...they dont do the testicle but they do the penis....they asked me where and how they should ultrasound my penis....my doctor had told me to come back 3 motnhs after this...so by this time i lost my health insurance had no job no way to afford anyway to get to the doctor...i noticed a bend in my penis too...so i go back to the doctor sometime last august...in the period from december 08 to around august 09, my penis' erections werre extremely weak.... .it took a very long time to get erect( before i had done ny of this id feel around 3 to 4 big strokes of blood rush into my penis and i could put a hole in a dart board, or have a 200 lbs girl fall right on top of it and not worry bout it)...i had gotten a bend in my penis to the left around 45degrees not touching it...so one day i decided to masturbate again and i felt another pop while i was masturbating... so i go back to my dotor, get another referall to the urologist...tell him about the injuries, the popping sounds and the jelqing...he says ohh well i see nothing wrong, and if u did nything i cant do nything because surgery is to dangerous and he knows noone that does this, and anything i could have done would have had to been dealt with immediately..( i just found out about a month ago mind u i am very dissalusioned from all of this i have a constant pain under my right testicle but not my testicle, my penis that he is the nurse practitioner)..i told him bout my pain and he asked me if im pissing right...i said my urine does feel wweak sometimes...so i got a urogram done a couple weeks ago and i go back on the 15th of this month...when i feel my penis and i tried to show/tell my nurse practitioner urologist, but he said he saw nothing wrong( i was referred to someone else and i got this guy which im going to ask to see one of these specialists that works in that health system a male sexcual function specialist) (after the second visit by the way he gave me viagra and told me to take vitamin e which has helped with my erections from what they were beign practically nothing but are still not regaining my girth or being nearly as strong as they used to be) when i feel the base of my penis when im erect in a pinching form the right side where that initial injury had been dealt to feels and looks to be an inch smaller then the left side...i dont know if my length suffers from my erection quality or what but that is around half an inch without viagra, with viagra a quarter inch of a 25mg dose...if u have ny questions about something u dont understand i will awnser everything...if i remember nything else through our conversation i will add it...i think i got played hard by this girl as the bottom line and that she wanted me to feel this way and do this to myself...i have no idea what possessed me to do this, of course i wanted to be bigger, but i went crazy with it, and now im suffering pain every day in my groin and have these ideas and hallucinations looming over me often...please if u can give me an idea with what i can do, or mention to my doctor next time i see himt hat would be great...thank you very much for reading this
