Well said acro!
My words on the other thread still stand; visit to the doctor is in order. Some things are just too much to handle by yourself or even with the help of the Brotherhood.
I really hope the best for you!
From what I've read, Golden Crotch has used several oils / creams, I saw one very good in those, the shea butter. That's natural, non-comedogenic, suitable for many uses. But still, book an appointment with a doctor, there's only a certain limit the Brotherhood can help you with. As it's likely weekend, try to calm yourself with some easy listening music, have some tea, preferably without too much caffeine, something that calms you, be it movies, gaming ... Something to take your mind of the matter for a moment.