Where I've been and where I'm going

[cladre60]

Maybe a couple of you have noticed I haven't been around for a while. I kinda post-whored when active (I'm good at that) but then I disappeared. Well first there was life getting in my way.... not being able to PE in peace and privacy before work and then 6 weeks of hell at work where I was too tired (and sometimes no peace and privacy) to PE after work.

So then I started telling myself I was getting back into it, even if it was just [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] work. Started doing a round of manual stretching pre-shower for a few days to break myself back in. Then one night I leaned up against the sink to look at something in the mirror closely and I felt a lump in my groin shift.

It's a hernia. Damnit.

I suspended any and all PE work because I do not go lightly and the last thing I need is to aggravate it more.

But then I waited 4 weeks to call the doctor. Hoping it would go away on its own wasn't working fast enough. I have a surgical consult on Oct 16th and I'm going to push as hard as I can to get it fixed ASAP. I don't know how to slow down and go easy. Surgery is the only thing that will force me to apply the brakes, figuratively speaking.

The doctor wanted to put me on light duty at work but I declined because I know I'd immediately be sent home until I was cleared for full duty and I can't afford that. I can avoid lifting more than 20-25lbs though so she said that's okay, just be careful and don't do anything stupid (she knows nothing about me or else she'd realize that's impossible). I also told her the truth - I'm not in pain, just some discomfort from time to time, especially if I'm sneezing. I'm hoping it stays that way and doesn't get worse.

Other than that I've been fighting some personal inner demons the past 2 months. Hoping to get through them soon but it's been a long, LONG, road. Typical me I don't go looking for the help I know I can get, I'll just fight everything myself. It might be harder but I'll get through them. Someday I'll talk about it all openly, just not now.

Bigschwanz and DLD and everyone else - I miss you guys. It's hard to come here, its like going to the gym and just watching Plus I haven't really had time to come here. I'll try to, especially to update what's going on. I'd love to PE but the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] is going to be sitting awfully close to whatever part of my guts is sticking through my abdominal wall and I pull like hell on that thing. I simply don't feel it's safe to try. Once I'm healed, however, GAME ON!

Oh yeah, I haven't lost any size as far as I can tell. I know if I put my palms together it's about 7" and doing a BPEL with them the other week I was about half an inch away from 2 full palms. I've retained a full inch since starting PE back in February, maybe a little more if I checked with a ruler. Can't be upset about that, right?

So my spirits are okay while I type all this. I guess I needed to get a lot out.

[Ahhnold Terminator Voice] I'll be back. [/Ahhnold Terminator Voice]

 

[Lookn4girth]

While I have not been here long I would like to say that I hope you can heal quickly and get back to your training. I can relate to the no privacy thing having 8 people in our house but keep your head up and keep moving forward. I honestly believe that things happen for a reason and it is up to us to turn everything negative into a positive. With the help of the brotherhood, all things are possible

 

[MikeyM]

Damn brother that's no good. I hope you the best in your recovery. I wish you a speedy recovery and a good outlook upon it all. Keep us updated brother.

 

[Big Schwanz Acht]

Once a Brother ALWAYS a Brother!! Lurk/post/contribute/whatever...we're all here for whatever/whenever you need.

 

[DLD]

God bless you my Brother, you have been given some challenges but we are with you 100% and we will see you through this. Do not worry on gains, gains lost are returned very quickly upon restart. Do not look at this as a bad thing PE-wise, see it as a decon break. You can spend time helping others, exploring the many stickies throughout the Brotherhood, you can get in Kegel work, you can get a lot of support too. This Brotherhood has revolving doors but always come back when you need help. We can do quite a bit to help. And as was said, once a Brother always a Brother!

 

[cladre60]

Once a Brother ALWAYS a Brother!! Lurk/post/contribute/whatever...we're all here for whatever/whenever you need.

Well I need my consult date bumped up about 2 weeks and then.... lol

I'll try to maintain a little more of a presence than I have in the past 2 months.

 

[cladre60]

God bless you my Brother, you have been given some challenges but we are with you 100% and we will see you through this. Do not worry on gains, gains lost are returned very quickly upon restart. Do not look at this as a bad thing PE-wise, see it as a decon break. You can spend time helping others, exploring the many stickies throughout the Brotherhood, you can get in Kegel work, you can get a lot of support too. This Brotherhood has revolving doors but always come back when you need help. We can do quite a bit to help. And as was said, once a Brother always a Brother!

I do need to keep up the kegel work for sure. As far as gains I'm pretty damn happy with what I've got at the moment. I do need to lose 10-15lbs which will make the gains show even more. Other than that my wife's reactions to my current size are still in the WOW category. I did already think of this as a deconditioning break because that's pretty much what's going on. If I get the same newbie gains again my wife is gonna be sore on a regular basis lol.

For now I think I've named my hernia Junior because it's smaller than my erect penis. I was a little disappointed when the doctor said she could see the bulge but was referring to the hernia. Then she said "that is a large piercing." No comment on my penis though.

Oh wait, I wasn't there for her to check out my penis. I'm sure it wasn't the highlight of her day though staring at a guy's junk who she's never met. However I did go to work and tell the guys she said my hernia was caused by my excessively large penis. I saw some looks of jealously lol.

So I'm rambling. Moving along....

Thanks guys. I'm trying to stay positive with all the negative shit going on around me. It's hard and "junior" has put a severe dent in my life plans. We had some stuff in motion and trying to work on a major life change and again it's on hold. It's driving me insane. Hopefully we get there sooner rather than never.

 

[DLD]

I do need to keep up the kegel work for sure. As far as gains I'm pretty damn happy with what I've got at the moment. I do need to lose 10-15lbs which will make the gains show even more. Other than that my wife's reactions to my current size are still in the WOW category. I did already think of this as a deconditioning break because that's pretty much what's going on. If I get the same newbie gains again my wife is gonna be sore on a regular basis lol.

For now I think I've named my hernia Junior because it's smaller than my erect penis. I was a little disappointed when the doctor said she could see the bulge but was referring to the hernia. Then she said "that is a large piercing." No comment on my penis though.

Oh wait, I wasn't there for her to check out my penis. I'm sure it wasn't the highlight of her day though staring at a guy's junk who she's never met. However I did go to work and tell the guys she said my hernia was caused by my excessively large penis. I saw some looks of jealously lol.

So I'm rambling. Moving along....

Thanks guys. I'm trying to stay positive with all the negative shit going on around me. It's hard and "junior" has put a severe dent in my life plans. We had some stuff in motion and trying to work on a major life change and again it's on hold. It's driving me insane. Hopefully we get there sooner rather than never.

Sooner than later for sure. Keep your heart and mind in a good place, do not all this to hurt your confidence. This is simply a injury that will heal and you will be at it 100% soon. I will continue to pray for you and your recovery.

 

[cladre60]

Sooner than later for sure. Keep your heart and mind in a good place, do not all this to hurt your confidence. This is simply a injury that will heal and you will be at it 100% soon. I will continue to pray for you and your recovery.

Thank you sir.

The other week we actually made it to church on Sunday. Unfortunately there was a guest speaker who does that whole yelling with joy shit. Dude, you have a mic, we can hear you lol. Not my style. Only reason we haven't been back is I'm so locked into my 2nd shift sleeping schedule that I'm only getting out of bed when church is starting. I know you don't need to go to church to worship properly but it really helps.

Then I have to contend with my wife about getting out of there "because kickoff is at 1pm and I really need some more coffee in me so PLEASE get your ass in the car already!" I don't pitch a fit if we're running late getting home cause God is more important than football but I only get a few months of this a year.

I'm sure things will be fine in the end, just hoping I can see a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

 

[DLD]

Thank you sir.

The other week we actually made it to church on Sunday. Unfortunately there was a guest speaker who does that whole yelling with joy shit. Dude, you have a mic, we can hear you lol. Not my style. Only reason we haven't been back is I'm so locked into my 2nd shift sleeping schedule that I'm only getting out of bed when church is starting. I know you don't need to go to church to worship properly but it really helps.

Then I have to contend with my wife about getting out of there "because kickoff is at 1pm and I really need some more coffee in me so PLEASE get your ass in the car already!" I don't pitch a fit if we're running late getting home cause God is more important than football but I only get a few months of this a year.

I'm sure things will be fine in the end, just hoping I can see a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Clad, My church is my family, friends and the Brotherhood. I do not have a religion, religion in man-made. My thing is Jesus plus Nothing! God's word is sufficient, nothings needs to be added or taken away. I base all of my beliefs in the literal word of God. I am all about the Grace/Forgiveness message, the real message of the New Covenant. I am always happy to help anyone understand who they are in Christ as so many have this wrong. Knowing the Truth certainly sets you free but the truth needs to be known. If you want to discuss this further let me know and I will post more on it.

 

[cladre60]

Clad, My church is my family, friends and the Brotherhood. I do not have a religion, religion in man-made. My thing is Jesus plus Nothing! God's word is sufficient, nothings needs to be added or taken away. I base all of my beliefs in the literal word of God. I am all about the Grace/Forgiveness message, the real message of the New Covenant. I am always happy to help anyone understand who they are in Christ as so many have this wrong. Knowing the Truth certainly sets you free but the truth needs to be known. If you want to discuss this further let me know and I will post more on it.

Oh I'm fully aware that God doesn't exist in the church, he's everywhere at all times. You don't need to go to church to properly worship. I think a lot of people have church wrong because IIRC there's something in Christianity about not building any images of God like there are in other religions. Some people treat church as if it were an image or shrine which is what we were told not to do. It's merely a tool to learn more about faith. If you approach it that way it can be extremely beneficial.

 

[DLD]

Oh I'm fully aware that God doesn't exist in the church, he's everywhere at all times. You don't need to go to church to properly worship. I think a lot of people have church wrong because IIRC there's something in Christianity about not building any images of God like there are in other religions. Some people treat church as if it were an image or shrine which is what we were told not to do. It's merely a tool to learn more about faith. If you approach it that way it can be extremely beneficial.

Exactly!