Lol bawg!
You are hilarious, but i must take my hat off to you. I think most of us have the same problem. I admire your efforts to stop adult entertainment. Cant tell you how many times ive deleted all adult entertainment related vids and pics off my computer only to start on it again a month or more later. Rinse and repeat. I do find that if i go a week to two weeks without release in any form i get grouchy. I didnt have this problem when i was single strangely enough. Then again this is most likely my wife, who is gorgeous, creates a deep sexual frustration if i cant have her whenever i want (unfortunately her libido is not as high as mine is so i get frustrated often). I relieve this frustration through adult entertainment and yes it also makes our sex life "less" as a result because my desire is far less due to frequent masturbation.
I do believe that our minds can be our worst enemy in this. Obsessing on adult entertainment, those images get locked into our heads and it takes quite a bit to clear them out. Abstinence of the mind is even more important than abstinence of the body. There are many guys who arent having sex or even watching adult entertainment yet they still have minds filled with pornographic images which defeats the purpose of abstinence itself.
Meditation has really helped curb my urges and turn my mind to more uplifting and important things. This was easier when i was single because i didnt have the temptation of a hot wife around me all the time but it should still work. Stopping the adult entertainment is very important i reckon to help the meditation purify the mind without reintroducing those images again. Also we must be careful not to obsess about about NOT thinking sexual thoughts. If they come so be it, just dont pursue those thoughts too much. Resisting something inevitabily leads to breaking down and gorging yourself.
Remember the story about the monkey and trying to actively stop thinking about it....leads to always thinking about the monkey. Steer your thoughts gently away from overtly sexual images but dont stress if you fail. Eventually you will be in a better state of mind which i reckon will improve our sex lives a lot.
You have inspired me yo once again give up adult entertainment! I havent meditated in ages so i will start that again as well.
Good.uck in your own efforts!