Poem to my son

On this day those eighteen years your arrival brought floods of tears, not of happiness but those of pain , after that day I would never be the same.

On this day you was born asleep,on this day I shall forever weep, but on this day I will try my to smile , because from that day on I had to go that extra mile.

I had to go from boy and turn into a man.Not through choice or want or need but because I had to be strong for others in need. When that horrible day eventually came I carried you to the place where you now lay.

That day was hard and those that came after , year after year it doesn't matter.I block it out until this day , it comes back to haunt me like it was yesterday, all those feelings that I try to hide, I compartmentalise them somewhere deep inside.

If you're really in a place where you can see , I hope one day you can forgive me, I should of tried harder to be thst man but those feelings came out and I hid , I ran. Those where days that I should of came buti missed, I understand completely if you're pissed!

I made a you apromise that last day I missed , that I would come to you, no more shall be missed. I will come to laugh , to talk , I will come to share my thoughts , I will come no matter what , I am your father , i am here for you my son.

I don't know where you are or what to believe?Can you see me cry ? Can you see me grieve?
Are you alone or are you with those long passed ? Or have you been reborn and living a life at last?
Will there be a future where me and you eill meet ? Or maybe I will have to wait for my turn to sleep.


I guess I will have to wait,to see, if me and you have a future someday, maybe? Until that day , and I hope it comes , in my heart and mind you will stay , I love you my son ❤❤

So precious and your loss is a tragedy. I know where your Son is and I know He is in the arms of the Lord. Your Son, He sees you, He hears you, He laughs with you and He grieves with you and when you cry, He is wiping your tears. So hard to think that the flesh has left but the spirit never leaves and, eternally, you will be with Him on that great day where you, again, can throw your arms around your Son and hug Him and look into His eyes and see that sparkle again. May the peace of love of our Lord and God, Jesus Christ, be with you and minister to every sorrow you have. I will keep you in my prayers and say Mass for you in the beautiful memory of your Son.

doublelongdaddy;714950 said:

So precious and your loss is a tragedy. I know where your Son is and I know He is in the arms of the Lord. Your Son, He sees you, He hears you, He laughs with you and He grieves with you and when you cry, He is wiping your tears. So hard to think that the flesh has left but the spirit never leaves and, eternally, you will be with Him on that great day where you, again, can throw your arms around your Son and hug Him and look into His eyes and see that sparkle again. May the peace of love of our Lord and God, Jesus Christ, be with you and minister to every sorrow you have. I will keep you in my prayers and say Mass for you in the beautiful memory of your Son.

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Thank you very much for your kind words.
Very moving , thanks again.

beardedbaldy;714968 said:

Thank you very much for your kind words.
Very moving , thanks again.

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Always!

poignant in describing a pain that's indescribable...thank you for reminding everyone how precious and fragile life can be.

Very touching. A real man can share his feelings without concern for ridicule. Thank you.

Thank you still

Damn sweet rhymes. But even sweeter topic. You'll be with him one day again You're so loving that he can feel it

stillwantmore2;715018 said:

Very touching. A real man can share his feelings without concern for ridicule. Thank you.

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Thanks still, ridicule is not something that would ever concern me I'm too strong for that, with that being said I can be emotional especially with the subject in the poem. Yesterday was a emotional day as is every time I go to the cemetery. To think my boy should of turned 18 yesterday hurts and my mind wandered as to how we would of spent the day together .

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kyomoto;715027 said:

Damn sweet rhymes. But even sweeter topic. You'll be with him one day again You're so loving that he can feel it

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Time will tell my friend, I hope with all my heart that I will be with him again at some point.

It was the type of day where I was trying to deal with those horrible feelings and I felt I needed to put pen to paper as it where, I find it helps sometimes.
Thank you buddy👍

I would just like to say thank you collectively for your messages, yesterday was an emotional day for me and I needed an outlet for my thoughts and I felt comfortable sharing them here.
Thank you again everyone.

This is an amazing group! I'm able to explore deeply-rooted issues here and feel safe doing so.

Big Schwanz Acht;715111 said:

This is an amazing group! I'm able to explore deeply-rooted issues here and feel safe doing so.

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True words buddy .

beardedbaldy;715101 said:

I would just like to say thank you collectively for your messages, yesterday was an emotional day for me and I needed an outlet for my thoughts and I felt comfortable sharing them here.
Thank you again everyone.

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That is why we are a family, we are all part of the body of Christ and when one of us suffers we all do. But, as Ky said, in such a beautiful way, you will be with Him again! I have deep appreciation and affection for the love you have shared with your Son and the love that continues to grow. May the grace of Jesus Christ be with you!

doublelongdaddy;715318 said:

That is why we are a family, we are all part of the body of Christ and when one of us suffers we all do. But, as Ky said, in such a beautiful way, you will be with Him again! I have deep appreciation and affection for the love you have shared with your Son and the love that continues to grow. May the grace of Jesus Christ be with you!

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Thank you very much once again for your kind words , I really do appreciate them. The love we have for our children can't really be put into words and the loss of a child is something that's indescribable. My first born was of still birth and that was very hard to deal with, I really don't know how people cope from the loss of a child they have bonded with. It really doesn't bare thinking about.

beardedbaldy;715324 said:

Thank you very much once again for your kind words , I really do appreciate them. The love we have for our children can't really be put into words and the loss of a child is something that's indescribable. My first born was of still birth and that was very hard to deal with, I really don't know how people cope from the loss of a child they have bonded with. It really doesn't bare thinking about.

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I am just so impressed with all the prayers and support and then God listening and bringing Her back to a place of healthiness, safety and happiness.