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I'm new to this forum, but I have been PE'ing for a while. It perked my interest back in high school. Why high school? I had a rather abusive relationship with a girl who, after breaking up with me, spread a rumor about me being small. She even yelled it one time during intermission between classes in a busy hallway. I have recovered some confidence since then, but I have had lingering doubts since then. The pain of bullying goes away, but the self doubt lingers.

Jumping forward to the present day, I have had an extremely rough year. My girlfriend had to forcibly move in with me due to her abusive family kicking her out. I have had three deaths in my family: my grand aunt, my great grand mother, and my grand father. All of these deaths happened with in a month or two of each other. 2016 can offically bite my ass.

I feel out of control with my life so I have gotten serious about bodybuilding and PE. I also do cycling on the side to help strengthen my relationship with my SO.

My goals are as follows:

Improve my body both in appearance and function. Exercise helps purge negativity mentally, but looking good is a nice passive emotion boost. I currently sit at about 175lbs @ ~15% body fat. I'm looking to drop the fat and increase muscle mass.

Improve my EQ, length, and girth. I'll be starting with simple stretches and clamping. I have jelqed in the past, but the lack of constant variables bugged me. With clamping I have time and the tightness of the clamp being extremely constant. I had a hard time maintaining consistancy with jelqing. Don't worry this isn't my first experiance with clamping.

My current goal for length and size are pretty simple: look like it belongs between my thighs. At 26", my legs make my whole package look out of place.

My current stats:
EL: ~6"
EG: ~4.75"

Current Goal:
EL: 6.5"
EG: 5"

Long term Goal:
I don't plan on stopping after my current goal is reached, but...

EL: 7"
EG: 5.25"


It's a pleasure to meet this community, and I look forward to the future.
 
How insensitive girls can be in their ways of revenge. Complete evil and no regard for emotions, only out to hurt others to make themselves feel better. I understand how the doubts can play off of past incidents but what is the saving grace is no matter what size you are you can get to the size you want here at [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words]. Perhaps you can revisit her in the future and give her a solid helmet hit! Smack that huge log against her head!
 
Nice size bro and welcome back. I'm sorry for your losses and troubled situations. I know you got life in control though and you'll do all you can to be the best you can be and live a happy life.

Now for the Penis enlargement part. For a sample routine on progressive intensity you can follow the routine that i did to gain length specifically (im no girth expert, but we have other members that can definitely help you with girth).

Here's my routine I recommend for progressive intensity that is shown for a span of 1-12months. It helped me gain 2" of length and quarter inch of girth. -->Key to Gains/A Guide/A Debate

For girth I recommend the jelqing or if you have a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] do the 5x5x3 from the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] guide.
 
doublelongdaddy;716830 said:
How insensitive girls can be in their ways of revenge. Complete evil and no regard for emotions, only out to hurt others to make themselves feel better. I understand how the doubts can play off of past incidents but what is the saving grace is no matter what size you are you can get to the size you want here at [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words]. Perhaps you can revisit her in the future and give her a solid helmet hit! Smack that huge log against her head!
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their lack of emotions and insensitive that kind of people needs to learn a few things..lol
 
Never put your confidence in the hands of another, draw your confidence from deep inside yourself as, in this, you are becoming an independent and strong man. The best thing for a man is to learn to live alone and love and accept himself, gain his confidence, set his course and above all things conduct himself with righteousness and every girl in town will be chasing you.
 
doublelongdaddy;716989 said:
Never put your confidence in the hands of another, draw your confidence from deep inside yourself as, in this, you are becoming an independent and strong man. The best thing for a man is to learn to live alone and love and accept himself, gain his confidence, set his course and above all things conduct himself with righteousness and every girl in town will be chasing you.
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great words D but your words have been changing my mind since you have decided to stay away from mundane stuff.I have realized that might be a good path to follow...:O:).
 
BlackSoulFlame;716739 said:
I'm new to this forum, but I have been PE'ing for a while. It perked my interest back in high school. Why high school? I had a rather abusive relationship with a girl who, after breaking up with me, spread a rumor about me being small. She even yelled it one time during intermission between classes in a busy hallway. I have recovered some confidence since then, but I have had lingering doubts since then. The pain of bullying goes away, but the self doubt lingers.

Jumping forward to the present day, I have had an extremely rough year. My girlfriend had to forcibly move in with me due to her abusive family kicking her out. I have had three deaths in my family: my grand aunt, my great grand mother, and my grand father. All of these deaths happened with in a month or two of each other. 2016 can offically bite my ass.

I feel out of control with my life so I have gotten serious about bodybuilding and PE. I also do cycling on the side to help strengthen my relationship with my SO.

My goals are as follows:

Improve my body both in appearance and function. Exercise helps purge negativity mentally, but looking good is a nice passive emotion boost. I currently sit at about 175lbs @ ~15% body fat. I'm looking to drop the fat and increase muscle mass.

Improve my EQ, length, and girth. I'll be starting with simple stretches and clamping. I have jelqed in the past, but the lack of constant variables bugged me. With clamping I have time and the tightness of the clamp being extremely constant. I had a hard time maintaining consistancy with jelqing. Don't worry this isn't my first experiance with clamping.

My current goal for length and size are pretty simple: look like it belongs between my thighs. At 26", my legs make my whole package look out of place.

My current stats:
EL: ~6"
EG: ~4.75"

Current Goal:
EL: 6.5"
EG: 5"

Long term Goal:
I don't plan on stopping after my current goal is reached, but...

EL: 7"
EG: 5.25"


It's a pleasure to meet this community, and I look forward to the future.
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Don't feel bad, i think me and a lot of other posters here have been through similar experiences. The good news is you are already on the upper side of average and you sound like a normal healthy young man so this chick was basically just being a stupid bitch. Anyways PE is awesome and if you want a big fat cock I would highly suggest buying a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] extreme and make jelqing and [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] part of your shower routine. Life goes on so try to stay positive.
 
LONGERDICK7+;717010 said:
great words D but your words have been changing my mind since you have decided to stay away from mundane stuff.I have realized that might be a good path to follow...:O:).
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Thanks Buddy!
 
I have been busy with work, sorry guys.

I would smack her with the end result, but she'd still be petty and call it small. She was a crazy narcissist, and had a thong
 
I have been busy with work, sorry guys.

I would smack her with the end result, but she'd still be petty and call it small. She was a crazy narcissist, and had a thing for risky behaviors. Public displays of affection was her thing. I have dated a lot of crazies, but it all made me stronger in the end.

Thanks for the kind words! I'm going to keep a detailed journal section along side my workout app on my phone. Should help keep me on task and help others form stronger methods of enlargement.
 
BlackSoulFlame;717224 said:
I have been busy with work, sorry guys.

I would smack her with the end result, but she'd still be petty and call it small. She was a crazy narcissist, and had a thong
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Let me helmet slap her!
 
BlackSoulFlame;717228 said:
I have been busy with work, sorry guys.

I would smack her with the end result, but she'd still be petty and call it small. She was a crazy narcissist, and had a thing for risky behaviors. Public displays of affection was her thing. I have dated a lot of crazies, but it all made me stronger in the end.

Thanks for the kind words! I'm going to keep a detailed journal section along side my workout app on my phone. Should help keep me on task and help others form stronger methods of enlargement.
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Never date a crazy again lmao.
 
I had a similar story. I dated a girl and it didn't end well when I was around 19. She was at a party and told the entire party I had a little dick so they were blowing up my cell phone laughing. I picked up 3 of my biggest boys ( we were all big weightlifters) and rolled out to the party and tried to fight the entire party. Once we got there, there toned changed a little. There was probably 10 or so little skater shitheads and they didn't want anything to do with us.

After 10 years though I am still super insecure about it, and my current girlfriend has to deal with my insecurities which isn't fair at all to her. Don't let the past haunt you bro
 
Big Schwanz Acht;717377 said:
Part of The Vagina Owner's Manual:
#1 Act Crazy
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#2? :)

I would let this bridge be broken, never to be crossed again. There are some relationships that are just not healthy and in recognizing this you should run of the hills. There is a perfect woman for each of my Brothers, she is out there looking for you, you only need to find her.
 
pewannabe;717385 said:
I had a similar story. I dated a girl and it didn't end well when I was around 19. She was at a party and told the entire party I had a little dick so they were blowing up my cell phone laughing. I picked up 3 of my biggest boys ( we were all big weightlifters) and rolled out to the party and tried to fight the entire party. Once we got there, there toned changed a little. There was probably 10 or so little skater shitheads and they didn't want anything to do with us.

After 10 years though I am still super insecure about it, and my current girlfriend has to deal with my insecurities which isn't fair at all to her. Don't let the past haunt you bro
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I feel you. Just know that even if you were still small that it wouldn't help to fight it back because they really don't know if you had a small penis. One persons words don't provide enough fact and thats enough to not care about what people say. I know you're still insecure but we're all insecure of something one time or another. We're here for you bro to gain your confidence :) and yeah i know you're better off now, does your current girlfriend have any problems with your size now? And great advice bro.

Big Schwanz Acht;717377 said:
Part of The Vagina Owner's Manual:
#1 Act Crazy
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It's disgusting and just retarded some women are like that. What do they want.
 
big dick gives control imo, the bad news even if you have the perfect gorilla dick they will still find some other thing to hen peck you to death about BELIEVE ME.

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If you are truly secure with yourself nobody can take that from you
 
acromegaly;717575 said:
big dick gives control imo, the bad news even if you have the perfect gorilla dick they will still find some other thing to hen peck you to death about BELIEVE ME.

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If you are truly secure with yourself nobody can take that from you
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That is why I say this world is nothing but suffering! Can not wait for Heaven!
 
It's 'hard-wired' in every woman's DNA...they NEED to know that you'll keep them safe and protect them. All those stupid 'shit' tests are minor 'tells' that let her know you're willing and able...and the tests NEVER cease. Supreme confidence, (as Acro mentioned) will trump all of her petty/annoying questions, but you still MUST sit and listen. Unfortunately, there's no getting around the fact that she will want to be engaged with you constantly...I attribute this to her lack of confidence, but it could be something else entirely.
 
LONGERDICK7+;717754 said:
The forums are a nice paradise too!:)
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The forums are my refuge from a world I try to hide in. When I am in the Brotherhood and around my family I feel trust, love, peace and harmony. The outside world, it is a sad place of constant suffering, a big reason why I hide in the arms of Jesus. We do well when we comfort each other here as we all need that love that the world just does not have the ability to give us. The shit from this world will pass away and will finally be in paradise.
 
doublelongdaddy;717833 said:
The forums are my refuge from a world I try to hide in. When I am in the Brotherhood and around my family I feel trust, love, peace and harmony. The outside world, it is a sad place of constant suffering, a big reason why I hide in the arms of Jesus. We do well when we comfort each other here as we all need that love that the world just does not have the ability to give us. The shit from this world will pass away and will finally be in paradise.
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:)
 
kyomoto;717459 said:
I feel you. Just know that even if you were still small that it wouldn't help to fight it back because they really don't know if you had a small penis. One persons words don't provide enough fact and thats enough to not care about what people say. I know you're still insecure but we're all insecure of something one time or another. We're here for you bro to gain your confidence :) and yeah i know you're better off now, does your current girlfriend have any problems with your size now? And great advice bro.



It's disgusting and just retarded some women are like that. What do they want.
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Not at all, my current girlfriend absolutely loves my penis. Of course shes one of the ones with a "hung ex" but he didnt really know how to use it. He couldn't get her to orgasm. I have not only got her to orgasm but I am the first person to make her squirt. She pretty much thinks I'm a sex guru lol.

Also, I think most of us with smaller dicks, that get larger are better off than someone who is naturally gifted. I HAD to learn how to work the angles etc for a better experience, so once we grow larger we will have the size and the knowledge.
 
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