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please note: i typed this from start to finish without reading over. its straight from my heart, so its very raw and i felt it was important to keep it that way.
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he guys, i juss felt like i needed to post something telling you all how excited and pumped up i am about my brand new cock.
ive been doing pe for close to 2 years now, kinda on and off. started off strong using the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] and then i slowly drifted away and endup doing my own thing. which is pretty much masturbating with the addition of a few pe moves. which gets my cock really huge while masturbating. but the problem is......... i realize i have a problem. i havnt been diagnosed, but i have no doubt that i would be considered a chronic masturbate and a adult entertainment addict. ive been thinking this in my mind for a while now. reason, i realize i watch alot of adult entertainment.....A Lot. and i masturbate a lot also. what i love about masturbating is the feeling. knowing how to stroke my cock and creating that buildup. but most of all its that bust of cum, that makes it worth it. ive been doing it for so long that im a fucking pro at it, imo. i will masterbate for some times to just destress to sleep, or sometimes im juss really into it stroking for hours untill i buss a huge load. recently i masturbated lying down on my bed an unintentionally skeetted a huge load unto my own face. i was amazed ad disgusted. felt really warm tho. now i watch alot of documentaries, and i learn how when we have sex it releases dopamean, the pleasure chemical. that what makes us feel good and enjoy things. now sex realeases the most naturally. but guess what, i watched anoth doc and hard drugs (cocain, crack, extacy,etc) does the same, and that what ppl get addicted to. being in that dopamine overload state of mind. after learning this, i really looked into my self and did the maths, after which imo says im addicted. i had this in the back of my mind for a very long time. cuz when i have something important to do and i feel to masterbate. i will 80% of the time decide to masterbate instead. i am truly a very ambitious person, but i think this is getting to be a big problem in my life. i find that overly masterbating and watching adult entertainment is holding me back in life. sometimes i juss watch my life go by and wonder what i have achieved. which recently hasn't been much. so after seeing this, i have decided to try my best to stop. i have tried b4 but didnt work for too long. but i am still trying. im not saying i will never masterbate or watch adult entertainment. i juss want to significantly reduce how much i do. some might say, why dont u go for counceling or rehab. well i say fuck that. in my country theres not alot of places like that and i dont kno if theres any that treats this condition. imo, i think i at least see the problem and is trying to fix it. hopefully with yall support i can overcome this.
to be honnest i realize im typing about my masterbation and adult entertainment addiction, but thats truly not why i even started typing this thread. so lets get back on track. btw im typing this unedited. when im finish i will not look it over oly post, cuz this is coming from the hart right now.
so recently i started trying to find things to occupy my time. which i have found something..... instagram. so fucking addicted to that thing. i also wanted to really pick up and ritually follow and complete the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]mos[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] training. recently i started and its been going very well. i an so proud of this new cock that im building . its so much fatter, thicker, longer and stronger..... i adore it. i juss wanna continue this and then find a nice sweet pussy to stick him into.
I am also not circumsized. ive thaught about getting myself circumsize many times because i love the look of it. but that probly juss adult entertainment trying to brainwash me. but i believe in staying natural. i dont pierce my eares, no tattoes, no nothing. so recently i started watching my [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]mos[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] again and started following the procedures. i live in the tropics, but i still do the wrmup and everything. i live with my family and its weird to be locked in the bathroom for hours. thats why wen i moved back home i kinda slacked off pe. not much privacy. so what i recently did, was to keep a electric kettle in my room, along with a towel, 2 cups and of course lotion.
the reason i do this, is beacuse im always the last person to go to bed. so when i kno everyones sleeping,i start my excersize. what i do is catch some water in the bathroom in both cups. next i fill the kettle with one cup water and heat it. i then trow back 1/4 of the hot water in the cup and use the room tempreture water in the other cup to kool it to a temprature that not too hot. after this is done, i get my self in a flacid/sem-erect state and put my cock inside the cup of not water, keepin it there for a few minutes. alot easier to me that doing the wrap. after doing that i go on to the stretches. because i am uncircumsized, what i do is pull back my foreskin exposing my head, then grip right below it and strech. i do this so as not to stretch my skin. this way i get to stretch the penis it self. i even add a up wards stretch, towards my belly button and then follow the rest of the basic methods. i had already done the 1 st sets of excerise for more than a month. but since i slacked off. i decided to start from scratch again. I intend on building myself the most impressive cock i will ever see in my life. i already love my penis, but im not going to front like i dont want it big, cuz i do. i was a tip above average when i started btw.
after peeling back my forskin for the excersize. i recently decided to keep it that way, exposing my head. i have always loved that look. so after pe that night i seeped with my foreskin peeled back. i woke up with my cock standing thick and hard as a rock. i went to the bathroom to urinate, whipping my cock out seeing my head still exposed, which i loved. it look so amazing. i might sound stupind saying all of this. but i truly felt like i had just baught a new cock. that day i had a meeting, and it happened that my for 3days i needed to do my laundry and didnt. now when i went to get an underwear i realize im truly out. realizing this, i thaught i could pun back on the same underwear, but then i remembered i wore it whole weekend without showering , so i said fuck it and went commando, putting om my close without underwear. all this time my foreskin is still peeled back. i left home when to the meeting, did a whole bunch of other things on the road and came back home in the evening. WOW, i felt so free and powerfull. at one point you could easily see the printout of my cock though my pants. who knew something as simple as that could make a man feel like this. after that day i have not worn any underwear and they are all washed now. i workout without underwear, i go to work without underwear, i cook without underwear, i do everything without underwear.lol, funny huh!!!
from that day i peeled back my foreskin, i haven't covered my head with it again. i love the look, i love the feel and my penis has even adjusted to the change. its not as sensitive as it use to be and its also getting darker, which ive always wanted. O and i also shaved, which of course makes it look even bigger, but most of all it looks cleaner and smoother, more pleasant and appealing. i kno any girl see it would want to suck it off instantly. if they dont, they would at least think it, no doubt.
the point im trying to make, is that pe has recently helped me to become a more focused individual. recently i started stoking a bit when finish up with my pe session and i was able to stop my self. i feel more focus to go at my goals and i haven't masturbated in over a week. watched alittle adult entertainment, but didnt masterbate, which is huge. O btw, yall probly gon read this and think im not getting any pussy thats y i became addicted, but thats not the case. i gets me a lot of pussy. recently not so much, cuz im not chasing girls like that anymore. i think im ready to settle down with a proper girl if yall kno wat i mean. someone i can say is my gf and a potential wife.
i truly feel like a new man recently, i am focused, i have a cock that i am proud off and i havnt watched adult entertainment or masturbate for close to 2 weeks.
i have kno idea why i really typed this. i think i really just needed to get some stuff off my chest. i do know i need help to over come my problem, so hopefully yall can help me. i am truly happy with my pe results lately and i hope everything i have typed today will help, motivate and educate somone.
thank you for reading
please note: i typed this from start to finish without reading over. its straight from my heart, so its very raw and i felt it was important to keep it that way.
______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
he guys, i juss felt like i needed to post something telling you all how excited and pumped up i am about my brand new cock.
ive been doing pe for close to 2 years now, kinda on and off. started off strong using the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] and then i slowly drifted away and endup doing my own thing. which is pretty much masturbating with the addition of a few pe moves. which gets my cock really huge while masturbating. but the problem is......... i realize i have a problem. i havnt been diagnosed, but i have no doubt that i would be considered a chronic masturbate and a adult entertainment addict. ive been thinking this in my mind for a while now. reason, i realize i watch alot of adult entertainment.....A Lot. and i masturbate a lot also. what i love about masturbating is the feeling. knowing how to stroke my cock and creating that buildup. but most of all its that bust of cum, that makes it worth it. ive been doing it for so long that im a fucking pro at it, imo. i will masterbate for some times to just destress to sleep, or sometimes im juss really into it stroking for hours untill i buss a huge load. recently i masturbated lying down on my bed an unintentionally skeetted a huge load unto my own face. i was amazed ad disgusted. felt really warm tho. now i watch alot of documentaries, and i learn how when we have sex it releases dopamean, the pleasure chemical. that what makes us feel good and enjoy things. now sex realeases the most naturally. but guess what, i watched anoth doc and hard drugs (cocain, crack, extacy,etc) does the same, and that what ppl get addicted to. being in that dopamine overload state of mind. after learning this, i really looked into my self and did the maths, after which imo says im addicted. i had this in the back of my mind for a very long time. cuz when i have something important to do and i feel to masterbate. i will 80% of the time decide to masterbate instead. i am truly a very ambitious person, but i think this is getting to be a big problem in my life. i find that overly masterbating and watching adult entertainment is holding me back in life. sometimes i juss watch my life go by and wonder what i have achieved. which recently hasn't been much. so after seeing this, i have decided to try my best to stop. i have tried b4 but didnt work for too long. but i am still trying. im not saying i will never masterbate or watch adult entertainment. i juss want to significantly reduce how much i do. some might say, why dont u go for counceling or rehab. well i say fuck that. in my country theres not alot of places like that and i dont kno if theres any that treats this condition. imo, i think i at least see the problem and is trying to fix it. hopefully with yall support i can overcome this.
to be honnest i realize im typing about my masterbation and adult entertainment addiction, but thats truly not why i even started typing this thread. so lets get back on track. btw im typing this unedited. when im finish i will not look it over oly post, cuz this is coming from the hart right now.
so recently i started trying to find things to occupy my time. which i have found something..... instagram. so fucking addicted to that thing. i also wanted to really pick up and ritually follow and complete the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]mos[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] training. recently i started and its been going very well. i an so proud of this new cock that im building . its so much fatter, thicker, longer and stronger..... i adore it. i juss wanna continue this and then find a nice sweet pussy to stick him into.
I am also not circumsized. ive thaught about getting myself circumsize many times because i love the look of it. but that probly juss adult entertainment trying to brainwash me. but i believe in staying natural. i dont pierce my eares, no tattoes, no nothing. so recently i started watching my [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]mos[/words] [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/mosdvd.htm]dvd[/words] again and started following the procedures. i live in the tropics, but i still do the wrmup and everything. i live with my family and its weird to be locked in the bathroom for hours. thats why wen i moved back home i kinda slacked off pe. not much privacy. so what i recently did, was to keep a electric kettle in my room, along with a towel, 2 cups and of course lotion.
the reason i do this, is beacuse im always the last person to go to bed. so when i kno everyones sleeping,i start my excersize. what i do is catch some water in the bathroom in both cups. next i fill the kettle with one cup water and heat it. i then trow back 1/4 of the hot water in the cup and use the room tempreture water in the other cup to kool it to a temprature that not too hot. after this is done, i get my self in a flacid/sem-erect state and put my cock inside the cup of not water, keepin it there for a few minutes. alot easier to me that doing the wrap. after doing that i go on to the stretches. because i am uncircumsized, what i do is pull back my foreskin exposing my head, then grip right below it and strech. i do this so as not to stretch my skin. this way i get to stretch the penis it self. i even add a up wards stretch, towards my belly button and then follow the rest of the basic methods. i had already done the 1 st sets of excerise for more than a month. but since i slacked off. i decided to start from scratch again. I intend on building myself the most impressive cock i will ever see in my life. i already love my penis, but im not going to front like i dont want it big, cuz i do. i was a tip above average when i started btw.
after peeling back my forskin for the excersize. i recently decided to keep it that way, exposing my head. i have always loved that look. so after pe that night i seeped with my foreskin peeled back. i woke up with my cock standing thick and hard as a rock. i went to the bathroom to urinate, whipping my cock out seeing my head still exposed, which i loved. it look so amazing. i might sound stupind saying all of this. but i truly felt like i had just baught a new cock. that day i had a meeting, and it happened that my for 3days i needed to do my laundry and didnt. now when i went to get an underwear i realize im truly out. realizing this, i thaught i could pun back on the same underwear, but then i remembered i wore it whole weekend without showering , so i said fuck it and went commando, putting om my close without underwear. all this time my foreskin is still peeled back. i left home when to the meeting, did a whole bunch of other things on the road and came back home in the evening. WOW, i felt so free and powerfull. at one point you could easily see the printout of my cock though my pants. who knew something as simple as that could make a man feel like this. after that day i have not worn any underwear and they are all washed now. i workout without underwear, i go to work without underwear, i cook without underwear, i do everything without underwear.lol, funny huh!!!
from that day i peeled back my foreskin, i haven't covered my head with it again. i love the look, i love the feel and my penis has even adjusted to the change. its not as sensitive as it use to be and its also getting darker, which ive always wanted. O and i also shaved, which of course makes it look even bigger, but most of all it looks cleaner and smoother, more pleasant and appealing. i kno any girl see it would want to suck it off instantly. if they dont, they would at least think it, no doubt.
the point im trying to make, is that pe has recently helped me to become a more focused individual. recently i started stoking a bit when finish up with my pe session and i was able to stop my self. i feel more focus to go at my goals and i haven't masturbated in over a week. watched alittle adult entertainment, but didnt masterbate, which is huge. O btw, yall probly gon read this and think im not getting any pussy thats y i became addicted, but thats not the case. i gets me a lot of pussy. recently not so much, cuz im not chasing girls like that anymore. i think im ready to settle down with a proper girl if yall kno wat i mean. someone i can say is my gf and a potential wife.
i truly feel like a new man recently, i am focused, i have a cock that i am proud off and i havnt watched adult entertainment or masturbate for close to 2 weeks.
i have kno idea why i really typed this. i think i really just needed to get some stuff off my chest. i do know i need help to over come my problem, so hopefully yall can help me. i am truly happy with my pe results lately and i hope everything i have typed today will help, motivate and educate somone.
thank you for reading
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