My journey to not being self conscious

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I've been struggling since I can remember with self conscious issues about my penis size. I am 5.5" EL (no fat pad what so ever!) and 5.5" EG. I've never let it stop me from having sex, perusing girls etc... To be honest, my confidence is pretty high and I've been successful at sleeping with girls. But afterwards, I've always subconsciously asked myself "what do they think about my dick?".

Anyways, enough of a sob story. This brought me in the summer of last year to [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MoS[/words]. I've been a long time lurker on the forum and then last October, I eventually took the plunge and ordered a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Hercules[/words] to start my PE journey.

I was extremely motivated, I read the [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] thread inside out and I then did what most people have witnessed on this forum, I just didn't do it for one reason or another and disappeared, I wasn't willing to put in the work to make the changes that I wanted. I've already wasted what could've been 8 months of PE!

Anyways, my circumstances and environment has now changed. I now live with my girlfriend who says I'm "average", but I'm the best fuck she's ever had because I know what to do with it. She has multiple orgasms with my cock, fingers and tongue most nights and by heck they can't be fake!

However, I'm still self conscious and I have a distinct fear of being compared to other guys and previous boyfriends, so here I am. I've spoken to her, even showed her my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] and how it works and she's fully supportive (she even reminds me to do it!)

Currently I'm doing the 5x5x3 [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?64036-My-Best-Work-Ever-Penis-Enlargement-will-Be-Changed-Forever-gt-gt-Gain%20inches%20with%20SRT-Theory-and-Routine]SRT[/words] [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine each night (2 days in a row so far). I intend to swap it to morning and use [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?44-Ace-Strapped-Jims-Joint]UJW[/words] throughout the day, or a cock ring? I'm not sure. Suggestions?

I will update my progress again tonight with my "post-pump" measurements and where I intend to take my PE journey.

I apologise if this post is sporadic! My short term goals are 0.5" in EL and EG. I think that's fairly achievable by what I've read.

Anyways, congratulations if you read to the end of this and didn't fall asleep.
 
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5x3x3 [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine tonight. I reached just under 6.5" measurement on the third set. I managed to get myself really engorged and edged before my third set - it makes half an inch difference!

I won't enter any set from now on until I'm fully engorged and have edged.

My pump comes out amazingly, it's pretty impressive and I can barely get my hand around it! The only problem is that within 30 minutes afterwards I'm back to my "slightly chubbier" flaccid size.

Do you find a [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?44-Ace-Strapped-Jims-Joint]UJW[/words] or a cock ring helps the most after [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] work?

I'm at a party tomorrow night but will try and get 3, 5 minute sets in beforehand.
 
Cock rings always best after pumping. The girth will slowly stay longer and longer until it is cemented. A half inch is easy as long as you are committed. Do girth work when you can become most erect and aroused without any complications.

Also, never rely on any girl to tell you how big you are. They can tell distance and size as well as a beaver can do algebra. Lol, beaver, haha. If she is comparing you to an ex, then more than likely that'll be an argument later by you or her. I don't ask about pasts, usually ends up being something I don't like. If you're both in love and are happy, who cares.

Also x 2, welcome to starting your dream. Your gonna have plenty more questions and stories, so read up and gain brother. Good luck
 
runningignus;648768 said:
Cock rings always best after pumping. The girth will slowly stay longer and longer until it is cemented. A half inch is easy as long as you are committed. Do girth work when you can become most erect and aroused without any complications.

Also, never rely on any girl to tell you how big you are. They can tell distance and size as well as a beaver can do algebra. Lol, beaver, haha. If she is comparing you to an ex, then more than likely that'll be an argument later by you or her. I don't ask about pasts, usually ends up being something I don't like. If you're both in love and are happy, who cares.

Also x 2, welcome to starting your dream. Your gonna have plenty more questions and stories, so read up and gain brother. Good luck
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Cock ring it is. Many veterans have also confirmed this too. Going by BornInFigi's post earlier last year - http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/...enefits-revisited-looking-back-on-a-year.html I've bought the Tantus 1.5" black cock ring and I intend to use it for my post [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] workout. Expected delivery is 18th June.

Very true, I don't ask really, nor has she told me, but I just want to be less self conscious about my size, which is why I'm here!

Thank you! I intend to read before asking, but I'm sure I will have questions!
 
No problem. For cock rings, try to get an assortment so that way your ready for any situation. Some can be to tight or loose, you could also get an adjustable one as well. Ask for help or information anytime, we can recommend a thread to read or just give you the answer. No stupid questions around here.
 
runningignus;648808 said:
No problem. For cock rings, try to get an assortment so that way your ready for any situation. Some can be to tight or loose, you could also get an adjustable one as well. Ask for help or information anytime, we can recommend a thread to read or just give you the answer. No stupid questions around here.
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There are those inexpensive, black rings that come in a multi size pack that are great. I think spending too much money on fancy rings is pointless when you can get these rings for like $10 a pack on eBay.
 
runningignus;648808 said:
No problem. For cock rings, try to get an assortment so that way your ready for any situation. Some can be to tight or loose, you could also get an adjustable one as well. Ask for help or information anytime, we can recommend a thread to read or just give you the answer. No stupid questions around here.
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Thank you. I've ordered the 1.5" cock ring that BornInFigi uses, it was relatively cheap over here in the UK, so not too bad.

doublelongdaddy;648846 said:
There are those inexpensive, black rings that come in a multi size pack that are great. I think spending too much money on fancy rings is pointless when you can get these rings for like $10 a pack on eBay.
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Sorry DLD, I ordered before reading this! At the moment, I'm fortunate that money is ok, so if I find I need an assortment of cock rings I'll head to eBay.
 
roboscop;649112 said:
Thank you. I've ordered the 1.5" cock ring that BornInFigi uses, it was relatively cheap over here in the UK, so not too bad.



Sorry DLD, I ordered before reading this! At the moment, I'm fortunate that money is ok, so if I find I need an assortment of cock rings I'll head to eBay.
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That is fine, I am sure the ring you got will do a bang up job.
 
If i where you i would split up the feeling of being self conscious.
And the penis size work.

You will meet other guys in your life who is.
Bigger.
Stronger
Prettier
Richer
Taller
More lean
More talented
Smarter.

And i could go on.

My point being. By facing the fact that you cant always measure up. And that is totally okay.

You will learn alot about your own self worth.

And trust me. Nothing gives you more confidence than accepting yourself.

The difference is between the man who talks to the girl confident because he knows she will say yes.

And the man who talks confident because he knows it doesn't matter what she says.

The first one can only be archived by becoming leonardo decaprio. The other one is archiveable but requires hard work.

Trust me. It's a great feeling :)
 
Aimingforthetop;649242 said:
If i where you i would split up the feeling of being self conscious.
And the penis size work.

You will meet other guys in your life who is.
Bigger.
Stronger
Prettier
Richer
Taller
More lean
More talented
Smarter.

And i could go on.

My point being. By facing the fact that you cant always measure up. And that is totally okay.

You will learn alot about your own self worth.

And trust me. Nothing gives you more confidence than accepting yourself.

The difference is between the man who talks to the girl confident because he knows she will say yes.

And the man who talks confident because he knows it doesn't matter what she says.

The first one can only be archived by becoming leonardo decaprio. The other one is archiveable but requires hard work.

Trust me. It's a great feeling :)
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So true and the point of having an opportunity to be in this life and to make the most of it is so important. God has given us the canvas and we need to paint that with the best we can be. There is also gifts we have, all of us different but each has a gift unto himself. Finding that gift and expanding on it, refining it, making it better all the time is the joy of this life. I found my talent in PE, art and being gifted with an incredible IQ, these are what bring me so much confidence. The parts I am slacking on is my fault due to laziness, apathy or just not wanting it enough. We all can become the best we can be is we have that desire run deep to the point of willingness to do the work necessary to get there.
 
Aimingforthetop;649242 said:
If i where you i would split up the feeling of being self conscious.
And the penis size work.

You will meet other guys in your life who is.
Bigger.
Stronger
Prettier
Richer
Taller
More lean
More talented
Smarter.

And i could go on.

My point being. By facing the fact that you cant always measure up. And that is totally okay.

You will learn alot about your own self worth.

And trust me. Nothing gives you more confidence than accepting yourself.

The difference is between the man who talks to the girl confident because he knows she will say yes.

And the man who talks confident because he knows it doesn't matter what she says.

The first one can only be archived by becoming leonardo decaprio. The other one is archiveable but requires hard work.

Trust me. It's a great feeling :)
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doublelongdaddy;649420 said:
So true and the point of having an opportunity to be in this life and to make the most of it is so important. God has given us the canvas and we need to paint that with the best we can be. There is also gifts we have, all of us different but each has a gift unto himself. Finding that gift and expanding on it, refining it, making it better all the time is the joy of this life. I found my talent in PE, art and being gifted with an incredible IQ, these are what bring me so much confidence. The parts I am slacking on is my fault due to laziness, apathy or just not wanting it enough. We all can become the best we can be is we have that desire run deep to the point of willingness to do the work necessary to get there.
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Very true guys. With time I'll come to accept this. Thank you!

Well, my cock ring came, I popped it on after my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine but it didn't really hold the pump. First I popped it around my cock, then I tried it again including my balls. My girth is already 5.5", let alone without the post pump. I suppose I need to be more consistent with my routine and my pump should be held by the ring better.

So, Saturday I did 5x3x3, and reached 6.5" again. I found it easier this time, and by edging beforehand also definitely helps! Same routine tonight.
 
roboscop;650596 said:
Very true guys. With time I'll come to accept this. Thank you!

Well, my cock ring came, I popped it on after my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine but it didn't really hold the pump. First I popped it around my cock, then I tried it again including my balls. My girth is already 5.5", let alone without the post pump. I suppose I need to be more consistent with my routine and my pump should be held by the ring better.

So, Saturday I did 5x3x3, and reached 6.5" again. I found it easier this time, and by edging beforehand also definitely helps! Same routine tonight.
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It does take a bit of practice but I see you are already seeing this. I am happy you are getting it down and that you are getting such great expansion.

I am glad we could also help you with confidence issues. We all have them and we make ourselves better by helping one another.
 
doublelongdaddy;650728 said:
It does take a bit of practice but I see you are already seeing this. I am happy you are getting it down and that you are getting such great expansion.

I am glad we could also help you with confidence issues. We all have them and we make ourselves better by helping one another.
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Thank you DLD.

22nd June - 5 x 3 x 3. 6.5" max expansion after the third set. My flaccid looks fantastic afterwards, but it shortly goes back to how it was.

24th June - 5 x 3 x 3. 6.5" max expansion but after the second set this time.

There's also a thread going on in the main PE forum (I'm on my phone so I'm unable to find a link) about using cold water (can't get ice) instead of warm. I tried it on my 24th June set and I reached my max expansion on my second set. I had air leakage on my third but I reckon I could've gone higher!

Will do cold for all three sets tomorrow and report back.
 
roboscop;651128 said:
Will do cold for all three sets tomorrow and report back.
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Finally, someone actually testing it. There has been a lot of talk but no real takers. I look forward to your results.
 
Sorry guys, it was my birthday last weekend and the celebrations seemed to never end. Then a hard week at work resulted in no [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine. I'm extremely annoyed at myself.

Anyways, back on the band wagon now. 5 x 3 x 3 last night with cold water. I get the same expansion erect as I do with warm water!

As I'm fairly inconsistent at the moment, which I endeavour to change, I need more frequent routines before I can confirm if cold/warm is more effective.
 
roboscop;653073 said:
Sorry guys, it was my birthday last weekend and the celebrations seemed to never end. Then a hard week at work resulted in no [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine. I'm extremely annoyed at myself.

Anyways, back on the band wagon now. 5 x 3 x 3 last night with cold water. I get the same expansion erect as I do with warm water!

As I'm fairly inconsistent at the moment, which I endeavour to change, I need more frequent routines before I can confirm if cold/warm is more effective.
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Happy birthday my Brother! Never feel bad about taking some time off for yourself, too many guys worry they will lose gains but this is simply not the case, unless you cold quit. Any gains that were present that get lost come back immediately upon starting again.
 
Very true, DLD.

I'm now solely using ice cold water for my [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] sessions. It's quite pleasant actually.

5x3x3 last night. I'm going for consistency now. I'm waking up earlier each morning as I want to do a morning [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] routine too.

Go hard or go home guys!
 
Hmph. I don't think I could do the 553 that way because of the temperature differential.
You can get sick if you suddenly move from a hot environment to a cold one did you know?

You should do your training warm to free-up the tissue then a last icy [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] to close the session. That's what's poppin around the forums lately.
 
templnite;653291 said:
Hmph. I don't think I could do the 553 that way because of the temperature differential.
You can get sick if you suddenly move from a hot environment to a cold one did you know?

You should do your training warm to free-up the tissue then a last icy [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] to close the session. That's what's poppin around the forums lately.
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That sounds quite good. I have an infrared heater so I may blast my Johnson with that for a few minutes, do some BTC, 30 second stretches and then go in the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words] with ice and water.

What stretches work the best for you prior to the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words]? I assume it's any stretch that weakens the tunica? Is the A stretch one? Using a pole to stretch the penis over?
 
Yea man just any stretch that suits you, bundled idk, I don't own a [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]bathmate[/words] its just what I read.
Same principle as when you sprain a joint you know? cold to reduce inflammation warmth to speed blood-flow type of thing athletes do to heal faster?
 
5 x 3 x 3 in ice cold water, flaccid last night. I FELT the [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]Bathmate[/words], and I mean I was counting down after 4 minutes because it was that intense. I've never felt anything like it.

I was an inch, maybe an 1.25 inches off my erect length in the bath, yet I really felt the expansion!

My theory on this is that the tunica, when erect, is rigid and strong because of the additional blood, where as whilst flaccid, it's malleable and soft? Does that sound right?

I'm definitely throwing in some flaccid days to my weekly schedule, I feel like I've been missing out! I know Dan Clizer did all of his [words=https://officialhydromaxpump.com/?uid=6&oid=2&affid=98]BM[/words] sessions flaccid, so who knows?!
 
Thanks for relinking me. It sounds like you are seeing good results, I really hope this adds up to permanent change in size.
 
I did a tunica twist stretch prior and in between my sets. This will be routine for me from now on. 30 seconds and I rotate it 360 degrees too.

5 x 3 x 3 - 8th July.

I'm still getting big temp expansion afterwards but within minutes I'm back to normal! It's so frustrating. My cock ring doesn't seem to help either?
 
roboscop;653612 said:
I did a tunica twist stretch prior and in between my sets. This will be routine for me from now on. 30 seconds and I rotate it 360 degrees too.

5 x 3 x 3 - 8th July.

I'm still getting big temp expansion afterwards but within minutes I'm back to normal! It's so frustrating. My cock ring doesn't seem to help either?
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This is normal and after a while of Bundled Stretches the temp will become permanent. Just keep consistent.
 
D words are true we dont want things enough sometimes,or we just dont care about it...Getting bigger is a great feeling....Being too concious sometimes is not a good thing LOL
 
roboscop;653612 said:
I did a tunica twist stretch prior and in between my sets. This will be routine for me from now on. 30 seconds and I rotate it 360 degrees too.

5 x 3 x 3 - 8th July.

I'm still getting big temp expansion afterwards but within minutes I'm back to normal! It's so frustrating. My cock ring doesn't seem to help either?
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as DLD already stated temporary gains is a very good sign stay consistant. you are on the right track.

and cockring for long time use has never worked for me neither. i don't know why. maybe it's too loose or too tight. but people are different. so don't get discouraged. you're doing a good job
 
shortdick;653958 said:
D words are true we dont want things enough sometimes,or we just dont care about it...Getting bigger is a great feeling....Being too concious sometimes is not a good thing LOL
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You are doing just fine my Brother! We all feel self-conscious and it is normal. Just don't dwell on it too much, it is never productive. Try to keep that mind on good things. If you are having problems with your mind going all over the place I suggest you try some of the methods taught in EBT this site will teach you the basics but you can watch youtube videos to get even more ideas. It has really helped me over the past few months and we are a lot alike so I think you should check it out too.
 
Thanks guys for your support.

I know that consistency is my downfall, one which I need to sort out.

Monday 13th July - 5 x 3 x 3 in ice cold water. Still getting to 6.5" in length and I feel like my girth is touching the sides, but not too much yet.

I want to do this routine first thing on a morning, then keep my penis elongated in a wrap for the entire day, then rinse and repeat the 5 x 3 x 3 in the evening.

My penis is pretty hardened, I think, and very resilient, it just needs breaking down.
 
roboscop;654156 said:
Thanks guys for your support.
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That is why we are here, the support is part of the Brotherhood, one for all and all for one!
 
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