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Tough times come and go for us mere mortals. I have been having a really tough time recently.....
In 1984 my one and only child was born. His doctor fucked up and gave the mother a pain drug too near the birth and his respiratory system was depressed. He did not breath and the doctor panicked and failed to keep the oxygen going to his brain for about 10 minutes. The result was cerebral palsy and mental retardation.
His mother abandoned us at 9 months. She later became a crack whore and is now in the pen. Worthless bitch all around. I raised the boy alone and spent in excess of $1 million over the years for various surgeries and treatments to help him function at as high of a level as possible.
Eventually I returned to the entertainment business and my boy went everywhere I went on the tour bus. He loved buses and loved flying. His little brain developed enough to know what he was missing in life and that was very sad to see. The boy never could really get control of his potty business and he always wore diapers.
He passed away from a lung ailment in March and he was in his mid twenties. I loved him so much and I am just struggling to go forward. But I am going forward. I will climb back on the tour bus and get going again in the fall. I just can't believe he is gone. I am so sad that he was cheated out of so much in life. I do know that he is now in a better place and is not suffering with these hurdles that made his life so hard.
To all dads and moms, enjoy every precious moment that you have with each of your children. Life can and will change in a flash and you will have just memories and pictures left. I have many of both. I have no regrets. I gave of myself to him all of his life. I was the one that benefited the most by gaining patience and wisdom. By learning to give with no conditions. By learning what true love really is......
In 1984 my one and only child was born. His doctor fucked up and gave the mother a pain drug too near the birth and his respiratory system was depressed. He did not breath and the doctor panicked and failed to keep the oxygen going to his brain for about 10 minutes. The result was cerebral palsy and mental retardation.
His mother abandoned us at 9 months. She later became a crack whore and is now in the pen. Worthless bitch all around. I raised the boy alone and spent in excess of $1 million over the years for various surgeries and treatments to help him function at as high of a level as possible.
Eventually I returned to the entertainment business and my boy went everywhere I went on the tour bus. He loved buses and loved flying. His little brain developed enough to know what he was missing in life and that was very sad to see. The boy never could really get control of his potty business and he always wore diapers.
He passed away from a lung ailment in March and he was in his mid twenties. I loved him so much and I am just struggling to go forward. But I am going forward. I will climb back on the tour bus and get going again in the fall. I just can't believe he is gone. I am so sad that he was cheated out of so much in life. I do know that he is now in a better place and is not suffering with these hurdles that made his life so hard.
To all dads and moms, enjoy every precious moment that you have with each of your children. Life can and will change in a flash and you will have just memories and pictures left. I have many of both. I have no regrets. I gave of myself to him all of his life. I was the one that benefited the most by gaining patience and wisdom. By learning to give with no conditions. By learning what true love really is......
