- Joined
- Dec 5, 2019
- Messages
- 13
First and foremost, thank you all for your comments and wisdom. Passively reading your posts has been a source of inspiration and courage for me. I have recently been introduced to this Brotherhood and am so happy that I have finally found you guys; what an answer to a prayer.
Before I introduce myself I want to give you all a little bit of my history and why I have recently embarked upon PE. This sharing and opening up is extraordinarily difficult for me, as it highlights some of the personal and catastrophic issues I have been facing. I was born with a condition called bladder exstrophy (I was born with my bladder outside of my body) and epispadias (my urethra opened on the front side of my penis/upper part of my glans). I have had many dozen reconstructive procedures, and received a great outcome (I can urinate on my own/I can get erections etc etc). HOWEVER...
All of the many traumatic events which have happened to me (and my penis) have had a profoundly deep psychological impact on me throughout my life. I have always felt inadequate with this part of my body and it has affected practically every area of my life in regards to confidence/self-worth/women etc. Because of this, I have struggled with crippling depression and anxiety for most of my life. I have been in long term relationships before, but have always felt that my manhood was lacking, a chip on my shoulder that seemed to progress over time.
Just under a year ago, all of the scar tissue that had built up from previous surgeries caused a severe urethral stricture (narrowing) which needed to be surgically corrected via a urethral reconstruction/urethroplasty. I again was blessed to have an amazing outcome and am stricture-free, but the continued trauma started to mount, and I became more and more psychologically unwell from all of what was happening to me. I started to NEED to find a way to change my penis to have it be the way that I wanted it. I am a bit smaller than average due to my condition (lets say about 4 inches erect) and curve slightly to the left and upwards. I have always been self-conscious of my size/shape, and have had tremendous sexual/performance anxiety because of it. Every relationship I had been in, women, were happy with my performance...but I was not.
I am looking to develop a length only routine and have started the DLD Newbie Routine. Given my past medical history, I am trying to start slowly. So far everything has been going smoothly, but I notice that I am going into spasms/turtling, especially the day after doing a stretch. It is not painful at all but the area feels tight for a day or so. I wanted to know if some of the more experienced members in the Brotherhood that have stretched for a while/done the Newbie Routine can give me some advice on days on/days off, intensity, recovery, and to recommend some stretching equipment that would help me. Overall goals are to gain 2 inches in length (no matter what it takes) but I'm satisfied with my girth.
Thank you again guys. I am looking forward to this journey!
Before I introduce myself I want to give you all a little bit of my history and why I have recently embarked upon PE. This sharing and opening up is extraordinarily difficult for me, as it highlights some of the personal and catastrophic issues I have been facing. I was born with a condition called bladder exstrophy (I was born with my bladder outside of my body) and epispadias (my urethra opened on the front side of my penis/upper part of my glans). I have had many dozen reconstructive procedures, and received a great outcome (I can urinate on my own/I can get erections etc etc). HOWEVER...
All of the many traumatic events which have happened to me (and my penis) have had a profoundly deep psychological impact on me throughout my life. I have always felt inadequate with this part of my body and it has affected practically every area of my life in regards to confidence/self-worth/women etc. Because of this, I have struggled with crippling depression and anxiety for most of my life. I have been in long term relationships before, but have always felt that my manhood was lacking, a chip on my shoulder that seemed to progress over time.
Just under a year ago, all of the scar tissue that had built up from previous surgeries caused a severe urethral stricture (narrowing) which needed to be surgically corrected via a urethral reconstruction/urethroplasty. I again was blessed to have an amazing outcome and am stricture-free, but the continued trauma started to mount, and I became more and more psychologically unwell from all of what was happening to me. I started to NEED to find a way to change my penis to have it be the way that I wanted it. I am a bit smaller than average due to my condition (lets say about 4 inches erect) and curve slightly to the left and upwards. I have always been self-conscious of my size/shape, and have had tremendous sexual/performance anxiety because of it. Every relationship I had been in, women, were happy with my performance...but I was not.
I am looking to develop a length only routine and have started the DLD Newbie Routine. Given my past medical history, I am trying to start slowly. So far everything has been going smoothly, but I notice that I am going into spasms/turtling, especially the day after doing a stretch. It is not painful at all but the area feels tight for a day or so. I wanted to know if some of the more experienced members in the Brotherhood that have stretched for a while/done the Newbie Routine can give me some advice on days on/days off, intensity, recovery, and to recommend some stretching equipment that would help me. Overall goals are to gain 2 inches in length (no matter what it takes) but I'm satisfied with my girth.
Thank you again guys. I am looking forward to this journey!
