@Shion
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This is life and it will always be. You need to evolve to grow, and struggle is the best teacher.
If it helps. You are not alone in feeling this. I also felt like I wasted my 20s, depressed and not happy. But I have always been a loner and always being a little diffrent, I never fit in with the cheeps (people that do not think for themselves, and only follow other sheeps).
Don't let societal stigma prevent you from being with a younger woman, disregard everything that others think or believe. Their opinion do not matter. As long as the woman are of age you are good (legal age, and like 18).
Personally I have no attraction to older women, if the woman is 30 she's to old. A woman should have time to bring forth many children, it should never feel like she need to rush it with you, just because her biological clock is going to run out. It's a hard truth.
If I had the same mindset and drive as I have now, I would have come much further in life. Chasing women will not give you sadisfaction in life. The strength for a man, is to control women when she can get to you, she should chase you.
I have heard a phrase like this:
Fear is your way into freedom, or fear is your guide into freedom. I believe this is true. Danger is a real thing, but fear is only existing in our mind. When we go through fear we are strengthening our inner self, we need to be hard on ourselves to get through struggles.
You can come to this point. When you leave a social inviroment they wonder, who was this guy? You may or may not have been talking to them, they just feel your lifeforce and energy...you are diffrent, someting is diffrent about you. This is the mindset you need as a man (not narcissistic tendencies), you just feel that people are reacting differently to you. They respect you or maybe also long for you (a woman) even when they do not know you.
Don't chase women, let them chase you. If you need to chase them, it's the wrong kind of woman.
Self improvement and suffer you will need, in order to reach your true self. But another insight as well is that you are already enough to get where you are going in life.
It takes time and commitment every singel day for years on years, to get to the point where you feel, that hardship was all worth it. There are some gray areas here that I will not cover in this text.
Resently I wrote a text, the time to write it was like 3 weeks. I wrote it in 2 days because I have a
master degree in procrastination, I call this a super power. Most people have not that inner fire that tell them, I will do this and it doesn't matter what it takes.
We need hardship to be the person we are now, only hardship can teach us the way we need to go. Go deep inside your soul and find out what you really want from life. If you want to cry do that, and move forward. Throw away your TV. That thing will not help you. Be obsessed with everything you do, don't let others determine your purpose or what you want to do in life. Be very careful with the people you let into your life. If a family member is abusive to you, or disrespect you in sone way (and keeps doing it) and it have been this way for years, maybe you need to figure out a way to block them from your life? So you can follow your own path in life...and finnely be happy.
I come from a very abusive family. Love didn't exist, only abuse and violence (not always physical violence). This will mess one up real good. But we can not look on where we came from...we need to be strong and push through the pain...chasing something that we really belive in...do the impossible...do something in life that nobody had ever had belived being even possibly. Do something you didn't belived was possible for yourself. Make yourself proud. Imagine you are going to tell your past self about the wonderful future he is going to get.
Do not do this for others...do it for yourself. When you start to experience sucess you need to say to yourself, that was great, and then give yourself a hug. If we are not used to others being kind to us, there is a chance you will be extremely hard on yourself. Be kind to yourself. Be your own best friend.
Do your best to love the process, be as much as you can in this present moment. This moment in time is the only moment we have. This moment you have, but you do not have past or future. These are only concepts in our mind. Use your past to be better for yourself and propel yourself to a wonderful future. Failure do not exist, only progression. You learn from every moment in life. Don't hqve regrets, regrets will not serve you, tell yourself that you did the best you could in that time in your life. Be kind to yourself.
You will keep going no matter what happens, giving up doesn't exist.
Don't let other people kill your dreams disregard that nonsense. Most people talk about others behind their back because they have no drive or purpose in life.
If you love a younger woman brother, and she's the legal age, go for it. It's your life and your happiness. You will make her life the best life she would ever experience.
By the way, never define yourself as a looser.
You are a winner!
Listen to this. This helps me at times.
Take care brother.
