begging your forgiveness....

DLD

Double Long Daddy, The Guru
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So much has happened over these past 8 months, since the physical building of the ALPHA+BLADE SYSTEMS. I don't want to reiterate what you already know but I do want to interject a overall comment. Nothing of such great potential, not unlike [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words], is easily produced. We can plan and pencil in dates and if the world is perfect maybe these goals would be fulfilled.

The 16th of January, my sons birthday, a date I hold sacred did not allow ALPHA+BLADE to happen. Unfortunately I put my hand through a window out of frustration. I had 2 of the most important people with me with full intension of completing the project and when I realized ALPHA+BLADE would be delayed I lost it:O Sorry Ben and Nico<:( Adding insult to injury I severed a main blood supply to my right hand and lost enough blood I needed to be revived...For the second time in my life (or should I say LIVES) I died. Thanks to modern medicine and the Easthampton fire and police department I was quickly revived and found myself in the Cooley Dickinson Hospital.

When I woke I was very weak and mentally/physically drained. My first thought were everyone here who have supported our monumental project. I felt guilty for not being here for you. I knew that I must have disappointed Jen, my family and my online family. The next 10 days were spent in rehabilitation of a hand the hospital said would never work again. When I saw the extensive damage I had done to my hand my mind went into DLD mode and I developed a hand full of exercises I could do in hopes of regaining some use of the injured hand. Unlike the ear I have permanently lost hearing in, the hand is at 90% usage:) I believe after the scarring calms down I will regain all of it.

Every free moment I had in the hospital was spent on my art. I created over 25 pieces that are a snapshot into my life and every moment up until this point. If you want I will upload all of the art.

I was released yesterday and I am now back in ALPHA+BLADE STUDIOS. My son dropped off his cat to keep me company. The studio is still not complete but with anything I have ever gotten involved with...ALPHA+BLADE will happen and it will be our greatest accomplishment yet.

Peace and 1
 
mikeyyyyyyyyyyy man i took a break from this forum, and tonight
i get on it AND READ THIS???

hope you get better, and no need to ask for forgivness, we all love your
ass:)
 
Glad to see you're back and healing, good pal. I understand that kind of anger and how self-destructive it can be. Of course there's nothing to forgive.
We're just glad you didn't do yourself in. I'm sure your family feels the same way.

Regarding A.B., good things come to those who wait!!

:P
 
DLD when I was younger(elementary) came of the bus and thought my older brother was f'n around and wouldn't come to the door, I knock on that window so hard, my hand went right through slicing (at the time seemed pretty bad) my wrist, although i could imagine it coulda'v been worserofl
 
everybody loses it. shit i cant count the number of times i have. take care of that hand and the rest of yourself. like i said in another thread we can wait. it sounds worth waiting for.
 
thats fantastic news that uve come thru it mate.
Whoever wrote that comment about you cant climb your mountain if its smooth, ive printed that and have it on my wall.

Cant wait for alpha blade mate, perhaps chapter one could be on how one should buy a punching bag for stress relief rofl

God Bless you mike.
 
I'm very glad to see you're back. Hope everything goes well with your recovery. Relax and take your time with the AB project, as you don't want to lose it again. :)
 
Glad to see you back. Having flaws is what makes us human. We all make mistakes. At the end of the day all you did was let your anger get the better of you. On top that old Murphy threw you one hell of a curve ball. No forgiveness necessary man.
 
Hey Mike, it's great to have you back! :D Like so many have said on here, there's no need to apologize for anything. Anger and frustration is part of Penis Enlargement, hell, it's why most of us are here. :P Anyhow, we'd rather have you than Alpha Blade anyday.

Oh, and if you feel like punching something, I'm sure one of us can get out hands on Pokey. :D
 
harmonic169 said:
Oh, and if you feel like punching something, I'm sure one of us can get out hands on Pokey. :D

hehehehehehheheh OMG that was a low blow (funny though).

Mike I and I'm sure every true fan of [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] is thrilled to hear from you- long live the king of Penis Enlargement!!!!!!
 
doublelongdaddy said:
Every free moment I had in the hospital was spent on my art. I created over 25 pieces that are a snapshot into my life and every moment up until this point. If you want I will upload all of the art.
hey yea, as an artist i'd like to see your pieces. if you upload them ill check them out and i bet others would like to see them too. so go ahead and upload your 25000+ word biography. if you have an &quot;about me&quot; section on alphablade maybe it'd be cool to have those pieces accompany the text.
 
Glad you are well Mike.
Genius comes in many forms, and is often misunderstood by traditional society. Don't bow to the pressures of society and meeting false expectations. Keep creating, applying your genius for good, and lighten up on yourself, as most people are forgiving and understand set backs, and go weak at the knees when someone genuinely says they are sorry. Nothing is worth hurting yourself over.
 
You've sweat, you've bled, you've shed tears...I can barely imagine just what AB is going to be like if it inspires that much passion. Heal, get well; misfortune such as this is energy, powerful energy. Perhaps somewhat misdirected at first but when harnessed, redirected and channeled towards your goal you just may find new strength and clarity of purpose that will scare even you. People quite often attempt to do too much too fast and in focusing too intently on the destination we sometimes lose track of the journey. If the destination is truly worthwhile then the length of the journey is actually inconsequential. Mike; you've done a lot of good for a lot of guys and no apology is even close to being necessary. Just remember to enjoy YOUR journey, hell; I know I am. Welcome back in good health!
 
MAXAMEYES said:
You've sweat, you've bled, you've shed tears...I can barely imagine just what AB is going to be like if it inspires that much passion. Heal, get well; misfortune such as this is energy, powerful energy. Perhaps somewhat misdirected at first but when harnessed, redirected and channeled towards your goal you just may find new strength and clarity of purpose that will scare even you. People quite often attempt to do too much too fast and in focusing too intently on the destination we sometimes lose track of the journey. If the destination is truly worthwhile then the length of the journey is actually inconsequential. Mike; you've done a lot of good for a lot of guys and no apology is even close to being necessary. Just remember to enjoy YOUR journey, hell; I know I am. Welcome back in good health!

I am glad you can see my compassion for this project. I have so much to tell but I have restricted myself to the text and graphic files that need converted. Piles of notebooks filled with data on every part of the human form. The pain I have been through is pleasure when I realize the true gamut of this goal. ALPHA+BLADE encompasses dreams Jennifer envisioned while we were together, a vision of a more perfect human being. Showing that anything is possible with God.

Did I really need this APPLE, Adam?

Indeed!
 
bump for mikey, IF you need painting on your apt hit me up on my cell
or pm me:)
 
Yes I do need help:) My cell is 413-529-9067...If you can help with the ALPHA Project please call.
 
mikey ill call you tonight- im off to the home depot my self
im also fixing up an empty apt:blush: *not fun*

but im down to help you out ill call you tonight
 
jkisineffect said:
mikey ill call you tonight- im off to the home depot my self
im also fixing up an empty apt:blush: *not fun*

but im down to help you out ill call you tonight

Great! Hopefully we can get the other guys nailed down to this Sunday.
 
doublelongdaddy said:
I am glad you can see my compassion for this project. I have so much to tell but I have restricted myself to the text and graphic files that need converted. Piles of notebooks filled with data on every part of the human form. The pain I have been through is pleasure when I realize the true gamut of this goal. ALPHA+BLADE encompasses dreams Jennifer envisioned while we were together, a vision of a more perfect human being. Showing that anything is possible with God.

Did I really need this APPLE, Adam?

Indeed!

Hey, thanks for the shout back, 'ppreciate it!
 
'Begging for forgiveness' - mate you have nothing to beg for forgiveness for.
I'm so glad to see you post here again and know what your alright.
I can understand your frustration as I've been in a similer situation.
This will make you even stronger and its nice to hear family are around you.

I want to soon call you, so PM me with your details soon.
 
REDZULU2003 said:
'Begging for forgiveness' - mate you have nothing to beg for forgiveness for.
I'm so glad to see you post here again and know what your alright.
I can understand your frustration as I've been in a similer situation.
This will make you even stronger and its nice to hear family are around you.

Exactly!!!

who cares about Alpha+Blade or its release date. Good to see you back buddy!
 
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