I had some events occur, and things with my "friend" went from being on the brink of an intimate relationship, to straight up "friend" status. I am extremely down about this. I have waited for so long, and kept myself far away from this sort of thing. I wanted to be mentally ready, and so I have avoided and run away whenever females got the hankering or even just "too close" for my comfort.
I felt ready, and exposed myself. When I do this, I am an open book. My vulnerable pink underbelly is exposed as well.
My life is in the midst of change, and I am not in a place right now where I feel comfortable for others to see me in. I hope this is only a small bump, a little obstacle that can be maneuvered around with ease.
I opened myself up. I take full responsibility for the pain I have helped to inflict upon my heart.
I'm going to stay positive throughout this. I know, deep down, that this wasn't due to me solely.
Bless'ed Love