SO i'm 30 and never been on a date

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Well i don't know what really to do I never been on a date i'm 29 currently and will be 30 in less then 3 month.

i mean i just so depressed. I thought about just ending my life it's pretty easy to make it look like a accident too since there is no shortage of speeding cars here that don't stop for marked crosswalks around here.

I don't really want to end up in some shit faced relationship like my brother did. he really screwed him self on that one. she bankrupted him..

I had plenty of opportunities fuck as well but did not because of bad anxiety issues..
My parents are just fucken jackasses and created psychological problems around dating sex etc..
The worst being trying to make me homosexual. like trying it wrong to look at women look away etc.. it's hard to explain.. it did not help me at all just created sexual psychological problems for me..


Yeah I have used drugs before Pot. that was about 3 years ago i started I have not used any in about 4 months though and before that was quite awhile longer..
I do understand why a lot of people use them, so they can use them as getaway from their problems..


I hate them. I don't really like having anything to do with them and yes I have told them that too.
I was setup to fail by them they were more like Super helicopter parents . way way too overprotective. might get hurt etc...
i could not even play sports in school so i just dropped out of high school.. I got hurt more at home with the worst being chopped off tip of my finger (was reattached though even though it very very rare to be able to do so but still disfigured )


the only successful thing they were able to do was ruin my life. I have worked odd jobs here and there was able to save most of it i have only made like $70,000 since I was 18. I still have about $30,000 saved.. my car is broken down so i'll have to spend about $11k on another one (not worth fixing what i have because of a lot of issues with it.) <:( or so that will leave me with about 19k afterwards.. I tired to buy one and the title was no good lucky i got my money back


Yeah they used scareware tactics so i would avoid dating,fucking etc... when I was a teenager
it just left me with problems with it. so now that i don't have any experience with sex etc.. I sure things would be better if they did not do that shit since I was not as big as I'm now..
I have had many episodes of priapism (High Flow) which caused significant growth.. it seems to get hard but very hard to maintain erection though. requiring consistent stimulus .(inhibition issue). I can't even get turned on at all it unless I smoke pot or edibles.

I just really just don't know how to deal with this..
 
I am with you brother.

Everybody should have the right for a girl. Since the government can't fulfil this right it has to come from god. [MENTION=2]doublelongdaddy[/MENTION] why do some have to suffer more than others?

Your brother went MGTOW mode am I right?

I wanted to kill myself if I wouldn't get a shot with a girl before I turned 18. Stupid idea back then.
 
DO NOT continue contemplating suicide. There is plenty to live for.

You need a lot of help and it's going to require a lot of work but things will get better. I'd start off by getting away from that hostile environment. Not saying to disown your family but you need to get somewhere healthy. Go to church, whichever religion you choose or best identify with, and besides regular attendance ask who you can talk to. There's many churches that have support groups or offer 1 on 1 counseling. You have many open wounds that need to heal and will not be able to do it alone.

Obviously you need to find some form of employment. Easier said than done but make getting a job your full time job until you find one. Might not be your dream job to start but you can keep looking for something better while working.

Start building a network of friends. Find an activity you like and get involved. You won't have 100 friends that very day but you will be able to work on healthy relationships with people. If you can't do that with friends you'll never function properly in a romantic relationship. However out the idea of romance out of your mind. Sometimes the best relationships begin when you aren't even looking for one.

STAY AWAY FROM DRUGS. Pot is fine as long as you aren't dedicating your life to it or letting it interfere with things you need to do. However I'd lay off it completely while job hunting as many employers like to drug test.


The future starts right now. I'm sorry to say you have a lot of work to do and it won't happen overnight but each journey starts with 1 step forward.
 
Suicide is never the answer to your problem. Take the advice given to you by cladre60. I'm sure DLD and others will also give you more advice.
 
You have gone through a lot but you can check that baggage at the door here! We will help you get back to a place of confidence and loving yourself. Suicide is a weak escape from this. You will be better solving this and growing from it. Believe you me, there are thousands here that can relate to you. I suggest you make a list of things you want to work on and let us look at it and help you with every step. I have been in very serious dark mental places, I have spent more time in the hospital than out. I not only understand your position I have experienced much of it. The past is the past, it is gone and nothing you can do will ever change it. Dwelling on it only brings anxiety. The moment is the place to be, change happens in the now. Lets set some goals for you and let us help you work toward them.
 
Also beware of karma. If time indeed doesn't exist and only the present moment is the reality then suicide might make things worse in another incarnation. I have come to believe that spiritual development is the meaning of life but feel free to manifest your own ideal of a better life.
 
I don't mean to sound like "Happy Gilmore" but the first thing to do is find a happy place and put the suicide thoughts out of your mind. There are a lot of brothers here that can help you work on a plan that puts you on a road to better days. I will not happen overnight but it can happen with some work on your part and a good support group. Keep your head up and post on [words=http://www.mattersofsize.com/join-now.html]MOS[/words] when you have the negative thoughts so that the guys here can help you
 
cladre60;761429 said:
DO NOT continue contemplating suicide. There is plenty to live for.

You need a lot of help and it's going to require a lot of work but things will get better. I'd start off by getting away from that hostile environment. Not saying to disown your family but you need to get somewhere healthy. Go to church, whichever religion you choose or best identify with, and besides regular attendance ask who you can talk to. There's many churches that have support groups or offer 1 on 1 counseling. You have many open wounds that need to heal and will not be able to do it alone.

Obviously you need to find some form of employment. Easier said than done but make getting a job your full time job until you find one. Might not be your dream job to start but you can keep looking for something better while working.

Start building a network of friends. Find an activity you like and get involved. You won't have 100 friends that very day but you will be able to work on healthy relationships with people. If you can't do that with friends you'll never function properly in a romantic relationship. However out the idea of romance out of your mind. Sometimes the best relationships begin when you aren't even looking for one.

STAY AWAY FROM DRUGS. Pot is fine as long as you aren't dedicating your life to it or letting it interfere with things you need to do. However I'd lay off it completely while job hunting as many employers like to drug test.


The future starts right now. I'm sorry to say you have a lot of work to do and it won't happen overnight but each journey starts with 1 step forward.
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right now i'm trapped taking care of my grandpa seems everyone else hardly gives a shit about him. there is my sister and her friend but they have jobs and a mortgage to deal with..

my uncle lives close by(3 miles away) but he does not give a shit I asked him to help me get him down stairs since he was having a issue and need to be taken to the hospital, he refused (he does not have a job) I know it was 3 in the morning but still..
so luckily it was my sister GF that came over (she had that day off) and drove 20miles to help me get him down the stairs safely . he only cares about the inheritance he will be getting and that is it which is pretty screwed up.. I mean he helped him for a year practically rent free which was a 12,000$ value since rent is about 1,000$ a month for a room for rent. around this area..


I don't even ask him for favors really but he asks all the time for them..
but next time he asks it's going to be no... for sure on that one
 
6.4_girth;761618 said:
right now i'm trapped taking care of my grandpa seems everyone else hardly gives a shit about him. there is my sister and her friend but they have jobs and a mortgage to deal with..

my uncle lives close by(3 miles away) but he does not give a shit I asked him to help me get him down stairs since he was having a issue and need to be taken to the hospital, he refused (he does not have a job) I know it was 3 in the morning but still..
so luckily it was my sister GF that came over (she had that day off) and drove 20miles to help me get him down the stairs safely . he only cares about the inheritance he will be getting and that is it which is pretty screwed up.. I mean he helped him for a year practically rent free which was a 12,000$ value since rent is about 1,000$ a month for a room for rent. around this area..


I don't even ask him for favors really but he asks all the time for them..
but next time he asks it's going to be no... for sure on that one
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I had to take care of my grandmother when her own daughter abandoned her. My situation was different in that I was forced to put her in an assisted living home but then had to handle everything for her while living 3 hours away. There was more driving than I want to remember for a long time.

Having your hands full like that is a burden that can drag you down but when it comes to family you can't abandon them. Hopefully your grandfather is appreciative of you being there and you aren't in over your head.
 
Helping others heals and enriches our souls. I learned long ago that people ultimately do what they want to do, so the fact that your other family members don't care to lend a hand are actually doing you a big favor. Without their negativity nearby, you can focus your energies on the people that need it most (you and your G'Pa). Once you've taken the initial steps in shedding those that are a 'drain', you'll feel the freedom.

It may sound strange, but your G'Pa is giving you a gift (knowingly or not) in allowing you to be his life-line...he must love/trust you implicitly. Kudos to you :)
 
Big Schwanz Acht;761631 said:
Helping others heals and enriches our souls.
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So true, this is why I love the work I do, it is always giving and that feeling is amazing. The older I get the more altruistic I become.
 
Some people may not need others i used to feel ok being on my own dealing whit bitches and their issues is a waste of time very few people really has serious issues most of them are complaining and whining,some people got no honor and they can share their shit but they just cant get their shit together and they never will...

Finding real comitted honest go getters is hard most just want to have fun and use people as bridges or use them just to escape from their shitty realities..Those aint shit and being worried about what they may think or say is a waste of time and energy.

We are a different breed we have gone trough a lot of shit and we are still moving forward..
 
Getbiglonger7;n1815540 said:
Some people may not need others i used to feel ok being on my own dealing whit bitches and their issues is a waste of time very few people really has serious issues most of them are complaining and whining,some people got no honor and they can share their shit but they just cant get their shit together and they never will...

Finding real comitted honest go getters is hard most just want to have fun and use people as bridges or use them just to escape from their shitty realities..Those aint shit and being worried about what they may think or say is a waste of time and energy.

We are a different breed we have gone trough a lot of shit and we are still moving forward..
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A lot of people only care about using people as bridges. I've been there and won't want that to happen to me again.
 
I feel u I was raised to be scared of women. I broke out of it becaysr I was adopted by a white family but im black so my genetics saved me.
I was 7.5 at 17 and full 8.5 by 18
But I was still afraid of women. Semi virgin. No full sex act. Witn a big cock no idea how to get laid didnt find a woman til age 20 wasnt until 24 I started fycking multiple women. By 25 id been with 7. Age 26 I just broke out if my shell. Im 28 and ive been with 48 wimen.
Here's the gift and a curse part: because of how I was raised I still cannot approach a woman every woman ive fucjed pursued me. I still have no idea how to talk to womenn. My big dick gives me pussy but NO connections. Abd I only know how to attract women wjth my dick
Skinny jeans and dick pics. I can can make a woman cum scream faint but I cant get any connection unless their dick whipped but ive been literally stabbed and bitten by more than one infatuated female.
Im almost 30 I dont question my sexual worth anynore. Now I want to be able to pursue tge women IIIIIIIIIIII want! But I still freeeze up n moroh into a shuddering bitch. Im literally only on this site to add .25" to make me 9" ive already gained a quarter. I only want 9 to sound better in conversation. Gotta raise my flag a lil higher just incase my tongue wont untie.


Once you find your inner sex God sex is easy. The best way to find women is to study astrology. Talking about sex abd astrology I can do with women. I just cannot break ice.

But learn your WHOLE natal chart. Ive been able to Houdini my way into friendzoned panties, based on astrological behavioral preductions. Im good at getting pussy the less I say lol. Just wish it was the other way around
 
But basically u can break out of it. Hire a hooker if necessary just as furst time practice no shame in that. After a while pussy really is jyst pussy but akways wear a rubber of course
 
No shame at all the 2nd woman I fucjed was a hooker. I hit it for free but she was still a prostitute and she was the first woman to make me feel sexy. And tgr first woman I ever made really SCREAM
 
bulldaboss93 said:
No shame at all the 2nd woman I fucjed was a hooker. I hit it for free but she was still a prostitute and she was the first woman to make me feel sexy. And tgr first woman I ever made really SCREAM
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Be careful having promiscuous sex, be sure to use protection.
 
Wintergates said:
Im 27 and still virgin i spent 6 years of my life to grow taller , working on my penis now to complete the transformation
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That is admirable, are you saving yourself for marriage?
 
Wintergates said:
im married with adult entertainment for now , who knows
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Why do you need adult entertainment if you have a wife? Are you guys having issues or something? We can help in other ways than just PE. I hope all things are OK.
 
I dont see myself with a girl around for more than 1 year honestly so much different bodies and faces to taste why we have to limit to just one person
 
I 2nd that!!!! Did a 5bid b4 relationships are a motherfuck





QUOTE="Wintergates, post: 1819958, member: 206570"]I dont see myself with a girl around for more than 1 year honestly so much different bodies and faces to taste why we have to limit to just one person
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Wintergates said:
I remember when i was younger i felt guilty after masturbation now i realize how stupid i was
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It’s weird he posted a picture of a movie theater because that’s where this dirty old man try to show me and my friends how to jerk off. Total pervert but we didn’t know and as soon as I got home I tried it LOL
 
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