Today's Session
- Weight hanger 1hr
- Bathmate HydroExtreme 5x3
Girth work absolutely destroyed my dick yesterday so it's a light one today, but no less intense. Weight hanging was very good today, going to 100% up the weight tomorrow. Bathmate session was also very nice, no fluid retention, so pain, no bleeding, wonderful.
I also performed extreme kegels to the point when I had to stop due to feeling pain in them for the first time - a different kind of Kegel pain, one that tells you your body has had enough.
Today I was feeling a little but more self conscious of myself as I am currently on a bulk and I'm a bit fatter than normal(to put it simply). But regardless I pushed through the day and it didn't end up affecting my wellbeing as a whole. My post social anxiety isn't being aggravated but that's mostly because I'm occupied and haven't been in any situations with multiple people that I don't know and/or I know but am not close or familiar with. My next MMA training sessions are Wednesday and Thursday and it was after them that I broke out in tears from the post social anxiety and hating what I was feeling. I hope that things will be different this time, that I'll feel less intrusive thoughts following seeing my MMA buddies and the people around my campus. Whichever way the dice rolls I'll report it all on the forum along with my PE sessions to keep everyone in the loop.