Progress thread Joshua's journey to 7.25 x 5.75

Joshua said:
So I've had two slight slip ups but I still haven't watched any adult entertainment, or naked women nothing.

21 days! This experience has taught me just how much we are creatures of habit.
I definitely think about it a few times a day, I'll even see images and videos I would watch over and over in my head.

Getting the ability to say no to myself back is great. I feel like it's giving me more discipline, which is helping me not be as lazy too.
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Side note too:

I'm not entirely sure if I'll be picking up a steady routine any time soon. My girlfriend and I had sex & I wore my cock ring for the first time with her, she said "I think you tore me open", I asked "was it too much?" & she said "yeah a little". (From memory I felt around 5.75"/6.0")

I said "Okay, I wont wear it anymore." & she said "no you can, just not all the time".

Two things I noticed from this conversation:
1. I realize I don't want to make sex more difficult than it should be, and clearly I'm plenty big if she would make a comment like that. (She doesn't know about P.E.)

2. Her saying "no you can, just not all the time" was all it took for my obsessive brain to think "She liked it, you're not enough!"

But I'm glad I could focus on the information that I SHOULD be focusing on & not let it get to me.
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I go with number two all day long! She’s just too insecure to tell you that she loves it. The last thing she wants is you to stop! She will grow with you and when she really doesn’t like some thing she will definitely let you know.

I’m so happy that you have avoided that which you do not want to do. You have been an inspiration in this and I’m very proud of you. You have a woman and she can do so much more than a video. God be with you and her in all things
 
DLD said:
I go with number two all day long! She’s just too insecure to tell you that she loves it. The last thing she wants is you to stop! She will grow with you and when she really doesn’t like some thing she will definitely let you know.

I’m so happy that you have avoided that which you do not want to do. You have been an inspiration in this and I’m very proud of you. You have a woman and she can do so much more than a video. God be with you and her in all things
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I have to disagree here, she was bleeding. I don't want to be hurting my girlfriend!
 
DLD said:
I am not seeing where you said she is bleeding? Did I miss something?
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My bad! I realize I didn’t include that information.

I came clean and told her about PE.

she said she really likes my size & has no idea if she’ll like it bigger.

She agreed to experiment with my temporary expansion and tell me if 5.75-6” girth is too much.

I assume she will say yes as she had the same problem arise again but this time I didn’t wear the ring, I just pumped & did SSJ’s (5x5x2) and then a 10 minute pump & used the pump to stretch at lota of different angles!

she told me she want to support me whatever I need to do to feel more confident. But I don’t want to make sex uncomfortable & I also would hate to lose blowjobs as a possibility!
 
I’ve truthfully really been struggling with not masturbating.

I haven’t watched any full out adult entertainment it nudity but I have had visual stimulation.

I may need to try to abstain from masturbation entirely. Which sucks lol.
 
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Joshua said:
I’ve truthfully really been struggling with not masturbating.

I haven’t watched any full out adult entertainment it nudity but I have had visual stimulation.

I may need to try to abstain from masturbation entirely. Which sucks LOL.
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It doesn’t suck it just takes some time to getting used to. And please do not make a rule that you cannot keep. Saying you’re not gonna do it any longer it’s just irrational, you’re a human being and you’re going to mess up once in a while. The point is you’re doing something to better yourself and believe me when this is out of your life so many things will change for the better.

So what is the situation now with your wife? Are you going to continue, modify or just not train any longer?

Sorry about the injury in the blood, I would’ve never been so disrespectful if I knew that. Accept my apologies my brother.
 
DLD said:
It doesn’t suck it just takes some time to getting used to. And please do not make a rule that you cannot keep. Saying you’re not gonna do it any longer it’s just irrational, you’re a human being and you’re going to mess up once in a while. The point is you’re doing something to better yourself and believe me when this is out of your life so many things will change for the better.

So what is the situation now with your wife? Are you going to continue, modify or just not train any longer?

Sorry about the injury in the blood, I would’ve never been so disrespectful if I knew that. Accept my apologies my brother.
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I figure at least not viewing graphic nudity is a bonus, my frequency in masturbation is de-sensitizing my penis I think.. Because sometimes sex with my girlfriend feels incredible, and others it's scaled back sensitivity wise.

I'm going to continue, I'm able to get too deep for her already in some positions, but I changed my motion & found how to make it work for her.
I mainly just want to reach that 5.5" EG at least. That way when I pump/use my c-ring that I'll be around the 5.75"-6".

I pump nearly every day, and especially before a night I'm spending with her, so some form of PE is second nature nowadays.

It's okay, I was surprised by your response at first but then I saw I hadn't even mentioned it properly.
 
5x5x3 (SSJ's, ULI's, Double handed squeezes, erect bends)

@DLD did I read somewhere that stretching using the suction from the pump is a super effective stretch? & if so, does it bring permanent gains?
 
Joshua said:
5x5x3 (SSJ's, ULI's, Double handed squeezes, erect bends)

@DLD did I read somewhere that stretching using the suction from the pump is a super effective stretch? & if so, does it bring permanent gains?
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yes those are called Bathmate hard-core stretching I’ll put the link below. It is an expressive stretch and it is very powerful.

I agree with you on the level of visuals. Let me give you a idea of how I messed up last night and the progression of it. First let me let you know I’m OK with looking at women who are clothed. I am not OK with adult entertainment in anyway but even saying that I fall into that mess now and again.

So last night I wanted to test myself. I went from looking at women on Instagram and TickTock where I feel it’s safe but the lust got the better of me and I ended up going to a adult entertainment site. Very briefly but still it went against my conscience. I realize this and it kind of set boundaries for me. And I’ll tell you most of the time I’m not looking to look at them to masturbate I just love looking at women and appreciating what God has created.

We can’t be fickle and prudent in this, but understand we are men we have desires we need to keep them in check not eliminate them.

Another good example would be my drinking. At one time I was a terrible alcoholic and I drank constantly. I wanted to quit so bad so I set up a rule that I could not drink anymore. All that did to me was make me want it that much more. I quite literally could not stop.

One day I was so sad and depressed because I could not stop. I got on my knees and I prayed and asked for relief and I got an answer back that I did not expect. The Lord said “drink red wine in memory of me and you will never have this problem again“ I have enjoyed red wine for years now and I have never had that problem again. So it’s very important to be realistic with what your goals are. Moderation in all things!

 
Thank you for opening up about your struggle! I am in the same boat. I love seeing gorgeous women, but as a male it just fuels my desire to masturbate quote drastically.

Truthfully I was coming here to report that I failed last night & watched adult entertainment/masturbated.

I was going to “reset the clock” but I honestly don’t think that’s the right move.

as you said, you mentioned stopping entirely ect. Just makes you want it more. So I will acknowledge that I failed tonight but it only motivates me to take not masturbating with high frequency even more seriously.

adult entertainment isn’t my problem, masturbation is.

Which makes me realize I’ve been counting days for no reason lol. I have been doing it twice a day and I need to get myself down to maybe once every other day.
 
DLD said:
How was the expansion?
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I seem to get up to around 5.75" (c-ring on after session)
I've gone a bit higher, and in the past when I was doing unhealthy intense PE I got up to like 6.4". I'm sure it was edema.

I've lost 10lbs, and that 10 lbs makes a massive difference in how my NBPEL looks!! This gives me hope that in another 20LBS I'll be REALLY confident!!!!!!!!!
 
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Joshua said:
I seem to get up to around 5.75" (c-ring on after session)
I've gone a bit higher, and in the past when I was doing unhealthy intense PE I got up to like 6.4". I'm sure it was edema.

I've lost 10lbs, and that 10 lbs makes a massive difference in how my NBPEL looks!! This gives me hope that in another 20LBS I'll be REALLY confident!!!!!!!!!
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Wow, that is a double blessing! I am so proud of you! I know just how it feels! I had a 8.5 inch penis but only 6.5 inches showing for the thickness of my fatpad. I lost 140 pounds and gained another 1/2” but now I had virtually no fat pad, I looked massive! I have always practiced the Testical Health Massage and Stretch which keeps my flaccid at around the same size as my erect. About an inch off. That is a super confidence booster!
 
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