case study extremely big problem. HELP SOMEBODY PLEASE....

somehow ive ended here after battling this injury for al most 6 months. im in my 40's . i had jelqed off and on and pumped for a month or 2. nothing serious. felt better, and hung better it seemed. no real serious gains expected. just wanted better bloodflow and quality.

one day, i jelqed a bit harder than i had been, but no pain, and jsut for a minute. next day i pumped and accidentally went more than i wanted. no pain. immediately released and red along the base of the shaft. within the day it was gone. several days later i woke up with a shrunken unit and slight numbess on the shaft. had all hard flaccid symptoms.

was scared, so continued making my self have sex,. after a month or so, it seemed it was subsiding. i still woke up in the morning with a chub. but everything shrank to nothing during the day.then it started seeming like if we had sex more than once a week, it would traumatize everything and destroy my libido and size again.

very sensitive glans with burning /cooling feeling. shrunk all day. no erections. no night erections. then it would come back a week later with her, and we'd have sex again. eventually i figured out we had to quit for awhile. 6 months later, here i am. we just went a month of nothing. i still walk around all day shrunk to nothing. we had sex 2 days ago and it was great, but now it seems to be overly sensitive again. only time i hang normally , is if i lay down in bed awhile. but soon after i get up, its all gone again.

sensitivity/nerve damage, seems likely, but not sure. nothing feels like me down there unless im hard. it doesnt seem like i did anything too hard/painful to cause this, but i obviously did. not sure if this will heal ever, but i cant take any more panic attacks and anxiety. its hard to make it to bedtime every day. its the only relief i get.

it feels like i have half what i did on a normal day now, with no arousal. ive also noticed a constant pressure moreso while shrunken, in my rectum /perenium area,that tightens when i flex my penis. i get decent morning/night erections sometimes, and sometimes not as much. but im sure my anxiety day to day is effecting that . i cannot masturbate to get hard since the 2nd month of this, due to it irritating the nerves it seems on the head. actual sex doesnt irritate it as much, but it still does.

i always have the numbness/sensitivity issue to some degree, but its super bad when its shriveled up and burns. im just not sure the nerves will heal, and i dont know what to do now. im mentally exhausted and depressed. i can barely force myself to work or do anything that involves moving. it lets me know every step of every day what ive lost.

 

[DLD]

Wrapping the entire penis from base to head using uncle jims wrap may bring some warmth helping with healing.

 

[notmeanymore]

well . i did get a tad of help from cialis this morning/last night it seems.although the erection i woke up to wasnt exactly real hard. ill take it though. once i got up and going i felt kinda average for the morning at work. I seemed to feel things, although im still missing some. it just feels soft when i check it with my hand. it was decent size for awhile, but i believe the unnatural weird lack of feelings with over sensitivity is what keeps shrinking at times. cause it started slightly hurting and red inflamed glans again around lunch time. i dont want to believe it, but nerves are definitely upset from moving around in my clothes all morning ,so i have it wrapped up again. im confused where to turn now. i want to beleive it will heal, but not sure what to do or not do. dont know if theres even any option at this point other than wait. but if there is, waiting would be bad. ugh. and im thrilled with waiting if it would help. just no way to know. some moments it all feels like it could actually improve one day. then hours later, it feels the total opposite. im so confused, cause i still feel around the entire glans. especially in bed. and especially if i have any arousal . i feel towels really well. so its not like its totally numb. but can feel that way in clothes from lack of sensation i guess. whic is weird, cause i feel pretty ok if i jack off. other than the after effects.

 

[oldandlively]

When your penis is loaded with nitric oxide, blood flows into the penis. This is very normal as the expanded penis gives you comforts and eats up the remaining free testosterone.

Why not use natural supplements like we've discussed before. Never hurt to try. L-Citrulline is a good start. If you can handle the sourness, ) l-citrulline malate is a better choice as it can absorb much quicker for functions. I spit my doses up with 2.5g in the morning during my cycling, and 2.5g later in the evening. Sometimes, I boosted with another 2g in mid day if I need to get my blood pumping. It's not meant for athletic performance boost, but just to get my blood flowing to the right place to deliver my bioavailable materials. The benefits is the constant boosts of nitric oxide in my blood stream to keep my penis nice and plump. Just give it a try for a few months to see if this works.

L-citrulline works well with micro nutrients and mega vitamins. D3 and Omega 3 is a great interactive benefits. I currently working on doing a gut health study with my colleagues to further boost the supplements absorption rate and maximize penile health gains and fat losses. Look up the home brew version of nongju, or high probiotic fermented rice wine. Most of our diets lack probiotics, and the so called probiotic supplements lack live cultures. This is loaded at 500k live cultures in 2 tablespoons. The alcohol also assists with natural sugar balance loading and intestinal cleansing.

 

[notmeanymore]

i think you misunderstood me. i was talking about trying to conquer this nerve inflammation. its my whole issue, and what has at least partially caused all the shrinkage. at least at first. if i could get my nerves to settle down for good, id have something to work with. this is a stupid problem to have with no way to get out.

 

[oldandlively]

It may be nerve inflammation, or maybe nerve misfiring. We don't know that yet. This is why we need to test the unconventional method of keep your penis plump with supplements like l-citrulline.

 

[notmeanymore]

i see . either way i think sex has gave me false hope with feeling this whole time. i feel like it may have just overstimulated it which falsely made it feel good for a few days. and now its just gotten worse and is just worthless. cialis gave me a hard erection while sleeping last night. thats all i got though. zero anything at other times. and when its gone it just feels like a ghost town again. the feeling during the day is so wrong. i just dont feel enough to matter. whether its misfiring or inflammation, ive exhausted all other alleys of causes. andnothing can fix this one except the man upstairs i fear. theres just no other explanation than dead nerves. it seems they are causing most of the shrinking. it takes on whole different state. and sometimes i get it out and its not shrunk. i dont know that fully till i see it, cause my sensitivity is so wrong. i have to wear a sock half the time just so i can get rid of the feeling. let me tell you. its the worst thing ever all day long. i cant understand how it started so mild, and even seemed to improve,then now this. i used to get some quality feelings in the daytime. i just dont now. and my feeling is so unsexual and awful.there are zero impulses if im out walking around. it feels too horrible to even have a sexual thought,and theres zero connection to my penis .yet somehow , someway, i can still wake up and have sex sometimes.and even feel the sensations. seems like every couple weeks is all i can do though. cause it really jacks with my feeling afterwards. and i now jack off never. cant handle it and no desire to.this is just how its destined to end up i reckon.God has this now, cause ive done and prayed all i can.

 

[notmeanymore]

and i had sex yesterday morning. seemed great till last night. and today its driving me up a wall. my nerves are entirely screwed up. sensitive glans.burning. weird sensations, and just dead feeling. im finished. this stupid jelqing crap has made me physically/mentally ill. im seriously about to need disability to deal with this. i can hardly make it through a day like this anymore,let alone work

 

[oldandlively]

This might have already been ruled out by the doctors, but did you get a full evaluation from the urologists as well? I didn't get a summary on the visit(s).

Since you didn't say anything about a reddish appearance in and around the glans, we can rule out balanitis, fungal infection, and UTI. You didn't mention about a burning sensation near the tip of the urethra, so I'm ruling out prostatitis and kidney stone lodgement near the end of the urethra. But it could still be suspects. Since the discussion didn't offer insights to the xray or MRI scan along the entire penile shaft and the glans, and radiologist(s) didn't report abnormal growth, we can partially rule out penile cancer near glans.

But at the same time, my colleagues kept on pestering me about possible dermatitis, or acute genito-pelvic dysesthesia. In their patients' cases, the irritating symptoms are resulted from not just penile nerve damages, but also down to the pelvic regions. This can be caused by damages to the pelvic floor, or nerves connected to the lumbar areas loated around the S2 to S3 along the vertebrae column. Back injuries in the past can suddenly takes turn for the worst, and the manifestation of phantom pains everywhere, including the penis, is from tears, kinks, or unseen damages in this nerve bundle. Specifically the pudendal nerve that goes to the very tip of the glans.

This is why we don't if the clamping or prior back injury may have caused a sudden nerve tear/kink on the pudendal nerve. The dorsal nerve branches along the entire penile shaft is link to this pudendal nerve that literally sits at the top of the penis as you look down at it. It travels roughly 1cm below the skin layer along the top of the penis. For some, it slides slightly to the left or right of the penis. Kinking it or tearing it at the base of the penis or at the lumbar region can cause that odd dysesthesia issue at the glans.

So, have to suffer any back injuries in the past?

 

[DLD]

I think you should demand every test possible from urologist to really pin this down.

 

[notmeanymore]

This might have already been ruled out by the doctors, but did you get a full evaluation from the urologists as well? I didn't get a summary on the visit(s).

Since you didn't say anything about a reddish appearance in and around the glans, we can rule out balanitis, fungal infection, and UTI. You didn't mention about a burning sensation near the tip of the urethra, so I'm ruling out prostatitis and kidney stone lodgement near the end of the urethra. But it could still be suspects. Since the discussion didn't offer insights to the xray or MRI scan along the entire penile shaft and the glans, and radiologist(s) didn't report abnormal growth, we can partially rule out penile cancer near glans.

But at the same time, my colleagues kept on pestering me about possible dermatitis, or acute genito-pelvic dysesthesia. In their patients' cases, the irritating symptoms are resulted from not just penile nerve damages, but also down to the pelvic regions. This can be caused by damages to the pelvic floor, or nerves connected to the lumbar areas loated around the S2 to S3 along the vertebrae column. Back injuries in the past can suddenly takes turn for the worst, and the manifestation of phantom pains everywhere, including the penis, is from tears, kinks, or unseen damages in this nerve bundle. Specifically the pudendal nerve that goes to the very tip of the glans.

This is why we don't if the clamping or prior back injury may have caused a sudden nerve tear/kink on the pudendal nerve. The dorsal nerve branches along the entire penile shaft is link to this pudendal nerve that literally sits at the top of the penis as you look down at it. It travels roughly 1cm below the skin layer along the top of the penis. For some, it slides slightly to the left or right of the penis. Kinking it or tearing it at the base of the penis or at the lumbar region can cause that odd dysesthesia issue at the glans.

So, have to suffer any back injuries in the past?

no back injuries. this is simply satan messing my head up enough to make me think i needed to do this to myself. i never dreamed in my life one could squeeze them self hard enough to cause such damage in a couple minutes. especially with zero blood vessel damage or anything.

urologist looked me over as much as i expected. all they keep being concerned with is checking mybladder for some reason . and i could literally be a urologist. their only plan is to shove me off to other doctors which will also do the same thing. they dont know anything. cause this only happens to stupid people i guess. it just seems so gone now. feels like a foreign object all hours of the day. only time it feels somewhat like old times is like last night when i woke up to pee with an erection. only reason i did, was it may just be the last time i do. i cant remember the last time it happened. the only thing consistent is the crap anti penis dead nerve feelings all day. and the weird pressure sensation through my junk when i kegel after ive sat down awhile only. and usually night erections. glans always feels with touch, just all weird. i just want to raise my kids. its very rough to see that through now. my nerves feel horrible. there was a time 3 months ago i was feeling really decent. i had that energy again. it just kinda started feeling more burny /foreign the last month or 2. it seemed to start after some red light for some reason. i dont know. ive chased this ghost for so long, and im growing weary . i cant feel human ever. i can only block out the creepy feelins for so long. only hope has got me this far.

 

[notmeanymore]

ok. this has screwed up my life so completely, i am determined to try to win. everything seems to have done what its done, and prettty much stays like im gonna describe. my plump penis has left the area completely it seems at all hours of the day. only time i get any size or flow is after nocturnal erections which vary in strength. and feeling. sometimes, i feel them fine. other times, i wake up and just have the sense of it, and have to touch it to find out. if i decide to rub it at that point, it feels totally great. it doesnt make me want to cum soon and feels awesome.
now, if i wake up early, or whenever, im usually completely limp. smallest ive ever felt. at times im even aroused. although zero flow. so, if i then decide to rub it, it gets weird. ill start getting hard. before i can get hard though, ill have to cum. i have to stop several times. throughout that, i feel cum building up deep inside , and it actually almost hurts. after that, i have to just carefully touch it here and there to fully get hard, although its useless cause its ready to explode . at that point it just looks red, and labored. then ill go to work, an ill start feeling stronger kegel restricition pains in my rear. this explains why if i wake up at night an have sex, it works so much better.
so , most of the day now, i stay pretty shrunk. sometimes its cause i cant feel anything. others its both. it is sensitive at glans although numb. if i stay out of my head, i dont seem to get as much pain. when i sit down, ive noticed is when i get this tight deep rectum feeling when i kegel. if i have to poop also, its rather painful at times. i also get this restricted pain up through my penis when i kegel. which i swear messes with feeling at times. and flow/arousal. when ive had good erection at night i dont seem to feel any of it.
weirder part, is that at any time, i can make an erection /have sex if i wanted to. i just try not to , cause it makes it feel so bad/dead afterwards. i cant ever get an arousal during the day period unless my wife is around. this tightness/constricting in my insides, just feels connected with the lack of connection/kegel in my penis. its ripped my heart and mind apart.

 

[DLD]

So sorry my brother!

 

[oldandlively]

We've all been thinking out of the box on this one. Oddly enough, clues were everywhere in the statements from post to post. It pertains to night time mainly. We're pulling everything out of our archival info, and a few contacted specialists to tease their brains. The funny thing is, they all said the exact same time. "Night time", "Rest phases", "Blood flow", "Accumulative hormonal levels"..These things kept on coming back and slapped us in the back of our heads.

We kept hitting the same strange ends, such as noctural sleep cycles that influences the production of the free testosterone. What is the sleep cycle? 4, 5, 6, 7 hours? Constant sleep cycle? Disruptive sleep cycle? Influence of disrupted cycles that cause rise and fall of cortisol?

We also consulted the specialists on the disruption of the gonads in producing testosterone during day time, when it's at its lowest. There were disturbing items on the check lists that I've posted before, such as untraced cancer and hypogonadism, but also inflammation near the gonads/testicles for non-cancerous cases, borderline diabetes, lymphoma issues, and even rare cases of latten genetic factors that flare up like bombs. A few cases in India and China recorded that there were chemicals/triggers causing gonadotoxicity such as x-ray, shellfishes, and even carcinogenic materials. We live in a crazy world with more than a million ways to mess us up.

PE may be a suspected culprit, but it's not the main culprit. It's something else. It may be a string of something else. This is why all specialists are encouraging their patients to monitor te LH, FSH, testosterone, and SHGB levels constantly.

 

[notmeanymore]

pe caused this plain and simple. i had sex after i posted this. well. i got myself hard first just to see what it felt like. it felt great. although it was like watching a transformer grow in slow motion. then i just feel ready to cum, and my glans just looks redder than i rememer it. i had sex for a few minutes, then finally got off. rest of thenight i just do nt really feel a whole lot again. glans feels either nothing or irritation. depending on what its touching . i just cant get over how good i can feel during a sex act, yet feel like i dont even have a penis all other times. i sleep at least 8 hrs every day. its all i enjoy these days. it feels so much like it will heal, yet it just never seems to get there. sitting is most comfortable. walking or working is a train wreck. other thing is, ive had this so long , i cant remember what normal feels like any more. i do know this aint it . at all. i used to have a fat flaccid penis at random times of the day. i have zero differences in my junk all day now. it looks like its been deprived of oxygen when i get it out, unless i manually arouse it.

everything i read on jelqing has these same symptoms and nothing ever seems to fix anything. would have helped reading that ahead of time, and id still have a good life doing none of this. id love to change this outcome. i just cant seem to get there. and its killing me in the process

 

[oldandlively]

You can pin it on unsafe practices of PE if you want. But hyper focus on one reason may blind-sight you to other reasons. This has been proven over and over and over again in the medical world. We think one thing is the main thing that medically caused us to not function properly, but we end up discovering something else. It happened to my entire family, my extended families, workers, friends, and the list of victims keeps going. I have extensive knowledge, yet, things still got me clueless at first until hindsighta in the latter days reveal the truth.

The keypoint is, don't stay hyper focus on the symptoms and not see the causes.

 

[notmeanymore]

i get it. but i also know i was fine till i did this crap. days later, im done. and the pain/feelings feel directly related to it as well. im pretty confused why people defend this stuff SO much though. like cancer/ really? lol. definitely not that. i mean, now it makes perfect sense how i got hurt. i wish there were more cases show up that were most likely deleted across the net, so that i wouldnt have to die this slow death . for some reason though, i never got to see them, and experimented very poorly. id give anything to have not come across this.

 

[oldandlively]

People kills using guns, yet we defend guns to be sold and owned. Foods kill because we indulged too much, yet we defend foods should be eaten the way we wanted. We destroy properties using missiles call automotives, and decimate environmental sensitive areas, yet, we modified our vehicles to pollute more and added extra power to make missiles into weapons of stupidity destruction. We still defend the ways things are because something is working for us, but not the rest of the people that don't want or like it.

Yes, we make our own cases because we act foolish and are idiots. We act upon impulsiveness and desperation without safety precautions. We think we are invincible because nothing harmed us in the past and will never be able to harm us in the future. That is, until life proves us we are simply moronic humans.

 

[notmeanymore]

yeah. no reason to try to push it on some other cause though

 

[notmeanymore]

well. although i can get hard almost anytime i want, sometimes it isnt happy for doing it. always seems to appear red around the corona and leaves me with a distant burn. and sometimes, im not near my full length. sometimes i am though. walking leaves me feeling not all i should, and sitting gives me that really tight restricted feeling from my butthole through my penis. not sure if this can ever relieve over years by trying to slowly keep using it. its all the choice i have it seems . only time it seems to ever feel closer to normal is at night when i try to relax.

regarding this burning after mastur/sex though. is that really from nerves? or is it something else, tissue? should have healed at this point id think. it seems to always appear pinker/redder than i ever remember regardless. but rubbing for sure tends to incite a burning sensation .

 

[oldandlively]

well. although i can get hard almost anytime i want, sometimes it isnt happy for doing it. always seems to appear red around the corona and leaves me with a distant burn.

This is not nerve related. My colleagues and I have been talking about it. We all voted and ruled out nerve relationship to the issues.

and sometimes, im not near my full length.

Again, not nerve related. This is blood flow and blood pressure.

sometimes i am though.

This is triggered or manifestation of something else that's blood related and not nerve related. This is in the realm of pathology, which heavily involved with blood vessels and lymphatic drainages and nodes. Pathology goes into a different kind of inspection, and currently technology can't catch it. MRI, CT, or even ultrasound has limitation to inspect the internal issues. Using feels, visual inspection, and micro inline camera for endoscopy to do evaluation.

walking leaves me feeling not all i should, and sitting gives me that really tight restricted feeling from my butthole through my penis.

This is a massive flag we've discussed about locking pelvic floor. This has been documented all over the world as one of the major ED and sexual disfunction issues. This is why there are so many pelvic floor specialists for both men and women.

not sure if this can ever relieve over years by trying to slowly keep using it. its all the choice i have it seems . only time it seems to ever feel closer to normal is at night when i try to relax.

Night time is known for the body to reset itself. High testosterone level occurs at night, far greater than TRT. During the initial rest cycles, the body naturally relaxes everything, especially the pelvic floor.

regarding this burning after mastur/sex though. is that really from nerves?

Not nerves along the penile shaft at this point. It's definitely ruled out based on all the discussions so far. It can be blood and lymphatic now, all the way down to the pelvic flood.

or is it something else, tissue?

Not penile tissues. It's further down towards the rectum/anal area. Muscle related.

should have healed at this point id think. it seems to always appear pinker/redder than i ever remember regardless. but rubbing for sure tends to incite a burning sensation .

For the nerves, yes. But when there's no color, or extreme color changes, that's blood flow related. This why we circle all our thoughts and evaluations straight to the pelvic floor, starting at the base of the penis behind and below the ligaments.

 

[notmeanymore]

well, it sure feels like nerves. then again i dont know what i feel anymore. i agree sometimes pelvic floor is adding to this. i just cant seem to get out of it . what really gets to my core is kegeling and not feeling a lick of response in my penis. especially when i used to do it, and get that healthy flow feeling. hard to go from that to nothing. although there have been times it HAS come back. just not recently. i just gotta keep plugging along and trying. why do you say the redness /burning isnt nerve related? the redness and sensitivity is only on the glans. the entire shaft feels fine either hard or limp.

 

[oldandlively]

well, it sure feels like nerves. then again i dont know what i feel anymore. i agree sometimes pelvic floor is adding to this. i just cant seem to get out of it . what really gets to my core is kegeling and not feeling a lick of response in my penis. especially when i used to do it, and get that healthy flow feeling. hard to go from that to nothing. although there have been times it HAS come back. just not recently. i just gotta keep plugging along and trying. why do you say the redness /burning isnt nerve related? the redness and sensitivity is only on the glans. the entire shaft feels fine either hard or limp.

Redness is due to irritation. Nerve misfires don't cause skin surfaces to be reddened. Irritation is caused by inflammation of the blood vessels, or a rise in macrophages sent by the body to combat something, at times, the dangerous kind. Skin conditions tend to cause that. STDs are known to excite the macrophages. Other skin conditions, like less visible eczema or unique cases of sepsis happen without warning. There are so many things that tossed into the pot of evaluation that you can't just rule out until you do a full blood eval.

When something happens or something breaks down, you have to rule out each and everything one step at a time. Detail blood test can rule out a chunk of issues at a time, but if you have lazy medical provider to help you in diagnosing, you end up missing 3/4 of the issues right out the door. I've seen too much to let things slide.

 

[notmeanymore]

i want to believe its irritation as well. but even when im not using it, it just doesnt ever feel right in that same area. i felt a little better sleeping last night. but thats about it. i get up, and glans just feels compromised. feels like i have no dick walking around, and zero arousal./girth. this is hell

whether its nerves or musclular, i have a vague numness in glans while limp for sure. i also know that various times over the last year, i still felt alive and potent /girthy. when i was like that, i had that inner drive and connection. i know of one time i was pretty numb, yet it didnt bother me, cause i still walked around fat and chubbed up like i should , and i could feel its presence. i just cant get there again.

 

[notmeanymore]

i hope im wrong, but i dont seem to ever get any lasting fix with this. it always goes back to zero. noone else out there i can find ever gets any relief either. its broken me and my family. i really could care less to have sex or get off ever again. the only thing i want is all the feeling indifferences and tingling /shrinkage to go away. i try to find a cause, but it has to be nerve damage , which also activates pelvic floor issues. and if one doesnt go away, neither will the other one. this is a super sick practice that has turned me into a waste of life literally overnight. theres no end till death im afraid. every day is the same. try and try. and nothing is even remotely enjoyable. ever. since ive messed with it the last couple days, its now very irritated again and my left side spot is stinging fiercly . it just never ends

 

[oldandlively]

What you discovered on the Internet are cases that get reported but a majority doesn't get finalized in reports. Cases are abundant, but rarely would anyone reported back that "hey, I'm good again." Same with medical cases. Only a few rare professionals would call their patients up and follow up on their cases. Why? Lack of time or patients' rights to privacy.

The cases I'm reporting back to you are compilations of past cases where professionals have close ties to their patients in some forms. Don't give up or give in. Of course, it's your choice. Negative mindset will stray you a beaten path, while a positive mindset will set you on a different path to explore.

 

[notmeanymore]

ive tried to get away from my negative mind ive always had. its all thats kept me alive. i just cant shake this nerve issue. i dont feel human. i dont have sexual feelings at all anymore. only pain

 

[DLD]

ive tried to get away from my negative mind ive always had. its all thats kept me alive. i just cant shake this nerve issue. i dont feel human. i dont have sexual feelings at all anymore. only pain

Remember mental health effects physical. I am happy you started to get into a more peaceful state of mind.

 

[notmeanymore]

i have no choice. i cried a lot today though. theres no greater depression than this. every day is agonizing

 

[DLD]

i have no choice. i cried a lot today though. theres no greater depression than this. every day is agonizing

This is why I pray for you daily

 

[notmeanymore]

thanks. i dont have a lot left to give

 

[DLD]

thanks. i dont have a lot left to give

Yes you do! You just need to remain positive. God tells us all things are temporary and I know you have it in you. This to will pass and you will get better. We are here for you and will research this issue to finally find the solution.

 

[notmeanymore]

i keep going. its very very rough to. as crap as yesterday was, i had strong erections last night. woke up to sex a few min. ago.dick was pretty strong in size this morn. only did that a couple min. rest of the day will suck. thats just how it is now i guess. if glans would just heal a little, id be done forever with this.

 

[oldandlively]

Starting from where you were to nearly being consistent with morning erection, even though it's a short period, it's moving into a positive direction. Once again, don't look at the symptoms, and search for the causes. The causes are not nerve damages. It's something beyond it. You triggered a latent/hidden case that you didn't expect.

 

[notmeanymore]

i hope you are right. it just really feels like nerves. and i do have erections every night. not so much in the morn. i can sometimes. its the feeling is whats getting me. today has seemed decent so far. worlds apart from yesterday. still not correct. gotta keep trying. everything just feels out of sorts,and i get tingles in the tip here/there . drives me insane feeling this small, when im not

 

[oldandlively]

Normally, if it's nerve, you will not get nightly/morningly erection. During full rest cycles, you get erections. This is an indicator of a rise of testosterone for both total and free. Swelling and irration is a whole different moster lurking beneath the dark depth. Your PE journey simply awoken it earlier than its plan in emerging.

 

[notmeanymore]

i would say caused more than awoken. had i not forced this into the glans i dont feel this would have ever happened. i just hope i can heal . i know it will take forever at this point. if even. my lack of daytime anything is what really gets me depressed.

 

[oldandlively]

Most don't understand that what's already existed simply manifests. You didn't force it into the glans. It's not in the glans but lingers around the base of the penis and towards the pelvic floor area. Something is there within that region. The phantom symptoms is around the glands. Like we discussed, sciatica is a good example in knowing where the source of the issues but the phantom pains and symptoms are far away from the sources of the issues. We just need to do meticulous tracing from where the symptoms are and back to the sources.

 

[notmeanymore]

i guess i dont lol. cause it physically looks and feels like a glans issue. specifically in the left side on one spot .it shouldnt get irritated when used if its coming from somewhere else shoudl it?

 

[oldandlively]

Just like sciatica, we tend to feel one side of our back, neck, or leg hurt, but it's one single source damage. Same with the penis. One side hurts, swells, irritates, but if you look at the micro levels, through cross sections, you have branches everywhere. It can be one main blood vessel (be artery or vein) or one main dorsal nerve, there are branches of capilaries and nerve endings coming off from one main vessel or nerve. I'll break it down even more for you.

For example, in a thrombosis, one side of the blood vessel wall form plagues down along the large portion of the blood vessel. During a high blood flow, like a kink hose, the blood pressure from the kinked area pushes the volume of blood and rushes into the smaller capillaries like a jetstream, while the larger vessel segments have lower flow. What do you think happen to the larger segments? Lack of blood means lack of oxygen. Lack of oxygen means differential coloration. Your capillaries may have nice pink/red color, while the larger segments may be lighter colors or becoming purple. Your capillaries coming off from the larger segment may lack the pressure it needs so they will have the same discoloration as the main vessel. What about a plague near the veins that takes the oxygen-lacking blood cells out of the penis? It can be somewhere in the penis, or it can be far deeper in the pelvic floor area. There are veins coming from both sides of the penis to vacate the blood. If one side is not vacating properly, you have backflow of pressures, causing pain. So, incoming and outgoing pressures can cause pain. The penis feels good when tesstosterone level is high, creating nominal blood flow regardless of the kink/plague in the blood vessels.

But what about the nerve? If there's an anomoly somewhere along the nerve receptors, it can cause sporadic misfires. It can be right at the glans, or it can be far deeper in the pelvic floor area. You said it's tight and possible lock up in the pelvic floor. When the muscles receive sporadic signals, it cause the muslces tighten up, kinking the remaining nerve receptors response in sending the appropriate "sensation" from each point along the penis, be the right, left, top, bottom, tip, middle, base, etc. We literally play a guessing game at this point because where's no detail tracing evaluation by a professional pathologist, urologist, or someone familiar in the PE world.

Why am I diving myself so deep into this world of PE? Because it's a world least understood but the most desired by males, and now heavily pursued by females in the form off vaginal enhancement (VE). For every 100,000 medical specialist, one 1 is involved deeply in PE. Hink is one, while others are merely using whatever works. If there are more medical specialists go into the field of PE, I can say they will make millions. But right now, those who stick their necks into PE, they are being shunned by the medical fields for pursuing a foolish profession. A very demanding and lucrative foolish profession.

 

[DLD]

My brother you have tapped into incredible support. As I said remain positive and consistent and we WILL figure this out.

 

[notmeanymore]

im trying. this is so complicated to even try to understand to fix . it works. yet is completely crap. woke up last night feeling my erection. i flexed it against the covers. never really felt it until i actually touched it . then noticed my glans did not respond to kegels at all again. full erection otherwise. glans wasnt empty or anything. just didnt move whatsoever. next time i woke, i had another one. this time it swelled up like it should when flexed. i dont know. this keeps happening ever so often

 

[oldandlively]

Your body is a blessed and complex organic machinery. If we can understand it all, we wouldn't be asking professionals to perform expensive search and repair processes. We can just jump into a healing capsule and voi la, total healing. But we are not there yet.

 

[oldandlively]

woke up last night feeling my erection. i flexed it against the covers. never really felt it until i actually touched it . then noticed my glans did not respond to kegels at all again. full erection otherwise. glans wasnt empty or anything.

This is an indicator there's something or somekind of blockage. When your body is naturally laying flat, blood pressure normalizes across the body. Same with testosterone loading. It elevates and maximizes to the point where your body optimizes for a good erection. During the day, your blood pressures are all over the place. Whatever is near the pelvic region causing the symptoms, it's there, hiding. This is what you're feeling.

just didnt move whatsoever. next time i woke, i had another one. this time it swelled up like it should when flexed. i dont know. this keeps happening ever so often

Exactly just that. The symptoms are manifesting, but the source of the issues is hidden far deep inside. You can feel it at the pelvic floor. You can sense it's there. You can't get to it just yet. Now, we have to rule out one thing at a time. Be diligent and perform the various approaches we discussed previously.

 

[notmeanymore]

i have no clue what to approach. it feels so wrong all day long. im afraid its just how it is even though i cant give up. i hate to say it, but the weird blocked feeling i get when i kegel sitting down feels good to me now cause its been this way so long. and it feels better than any other time, since its at least a feeling. sigh

 

[oldandlively]

This is where the mixed signal tends to be. For example, earlier in the week, or rather, two weeks ago, there's a feeling of pain sitting down. In the recent days, you indicated there's a "feels good" sensation while doing light kegel sitting down. This is where the true investigation approaches come into play. Doctors cannot help you on this as it's your own body that you have to make observation notes on:

• Kegel: When you perform kegels, what kind of kegels? Active kegels by tightening up the pelvic floor, reverse kegels where you push against the pelvic floor as if you're taking a dump, or a combo of both active and reverse kegels? Frequency of the kegels, such as how fast you change from one to the other, or kegel sets in between a certain amount of rest?
• Rest phases comparing to lack of rest phases: this has been discussed about in may posts, but rest is critical. It's essential. How much rest do you have? When did you notice the erection vs non-erectile period after a certain amount of rest? What's the quality of the rest? Detail logs like brother Haursen create a trend analytic you can get your teeth behind to mull over the info.
• Emotion and psychological trend: as DLD and other brothers indicated, metal stability is the vast majority of PE, or rather a major role in your life in various areas. What was the influence of emotional and psychological issues in the prior day(s) that cause your erection quality to drop or rise during the night/early morning hours?
• Blockage: you keep using the word and we echo it back to you. But, where is the feeling of the blockage. Don't guess. Trace it, or them, to the closest area of blockage(s). Without knowing where the blockage occur, it's like tossing a rock into a large lake it pray that it hits a fish on the way to the bottom. Don't play guess work, focus on tracing it/them. If the medical professionals know where to investigate, you are one step closer to finding the source(s) to deal with them directly and get rid of the symptoms.
• Routines: you indicated you do kegel. But what about other routines? Example is prostate massage. Yes, straight guys don't do this, but do you know that we suffer a hidden ailment that could have been prevented? Do I do them? You bet. I started when I was in my mid 30s. How often? Every other day. Using what? Battery operated tools, manual tool, and even bare hands. It doesn't take long. If you can masterbate in a 5 to 15 minutes session, you can perform prostate massage within that time to achieve the same masturbation result, and at times, much more intense outcome. But what other routines are you doing or are you just sitting around and complain to increase your woes?
• Medication? Supplements? Lifestyle changes? If you just hope and hope and hope and pray, you're not doing your part to heal. Prayers and hopefulness provide one level of healing. It requires you to be proactive in both pursuing the healing and discovering the sources of the problem.

 

[notmeanymore]

no, no. lol. its a light pain. i just mean im getting so used to it . it doesnt feel good. its just that its an actual feeling response to a kegel. its the only time i can feel an actual feeling.
i dont do kegels per se. i just do them all throughout the day peridoically just cause i cant help it cause something is wrong. lol

i get plenty of rest. its my new passtime. 8-10hrs a day

emotional hasnt seemed to effect night erections. even my worst emotional days made good nights somehow

Blockage feels like its in my Butthole and up to my penis . or tightness rather

i have done a few prostate massages with therawand with no differences. massaged everything in there actually
ive tried various vitamins, supplements, etc. all seems like snake oil. lifestyle is as clean as i can get. gluten free, water,juice only. zero caffeine. low sugar, zero alcohol,or smoking, drugs, etc ,etc

 

[notmeanymore]

and ive most likely discussed this previously. if i indeed messed nerves up like i feel like i did, could i have went 6 weeks or more without having any numness or loss of feeling? cause that is how it went. i just noticed i was smaller initially, and didnt have any arousal. nor could i kegel and get a mental erection. id still get hard with foreplay, and manually. and super hard at night. it was after that, i started getting sensitive, etc.which pregressively went to numbness, etc

 

[notmeanymore]

this week has been weird and some days i wish it would just kill me already. ive layed back and relaxed a lot. i got a little different feeling from it after getting up and walking. i really feel almost nothing. it feels like my dick is wet with a fan on it almost. yet not sensitive or burning. its not a great feeling , i dont have much of those any more. but its not burning ...yet when its like this, the glans tends to want to stick to my leg . yesterday was pure hell with shrinkage and numbness. I got off this morning cause i was so stressed, and nothing feels like it matters . it felt so good, yet im feeling so rough from it now. my package felt decent for all of 30 min afterwards. then it all shrinks up to this new size i seem to have forever. my glans doesnt feel that bad if i touch it through clothes,. yet it feels nonexistant yet really tender and burny in clothes sitting still or walking. i used to hang aroused and fat several months ago off and on. around 5.5 and it felt great. im lucky to have 3.5-4 now, and super thin. even hourglassed at times. and glans feels dead to go with it.


im so angry i followed a tutorial on how to kill my self in 3 minutes or less. i dont think this can ever go away. i probably sound like a broken record, but this has destroyed my brain on how to even think anything through anymore. it really seems like my glans has gotten a more dead rubbery feel to it the last month or so. which cant be good. for a long time ,its lacked light feeling, and a showerhead doesnt feel totally right on it.
the thing is though.

id be ok with those feelings if i had a drive,size or Any kegel response other than when im half asleep. half the night last night i had a good chub, and it really felt relatively decent all around. i guess whatever feeling that got killed has destroyed my physical sex drive parts. the size ive lost most of the day is unreal. and there are zero moments i get any size increase unless i try to make it happen

 

[oldandlively]

this week has been weird and some days i wish it would just kill me already. ive layed back and relaxed a lot. i got a little different feeling from it after getting up and walking. i really feel almost nothing. it feels like my dick is wet with a fan on it almost.

This is something new. Okay, got to gain some clarification. When you feel the "dick is wet with a fan on it", does it means feeling clammy and cool like you sweat a lot and have an evaporative cooling effect? Or it's dry but having that cool feeling like a wet penis being blown by wind?

This is a lack of blood flow, regardless of how you put it. But the clamminess/wetness will be something to evaluate. If it's dry, then it's nothing out of the ordinary comparing to the lack of blood flow.

yet not sensitive or burning. its not a great feeling , i dont have much of those any more. but its not burning ...yet when its like this, the glans tends to want to stick to my leg .

Sticking to your legs is another flag. Does the penis feel sticky and wet, or does your crotch feels sticky and wet? This is something you want to define properly. Why? Two different symptoms aside from penile issues are manifesting.

yesterday was pure hell with shrinkage and numbness.

Shrinkage and numbess are symptoms not born out of nerves, but it's actually caused by frictious pain. Your nerve is not the culprit causing the shrinkage, but we finally figured out something else at 90%. Our brother @TCDreamer brought up in the recent days. Hard Flaccid Syndrome (HFS) covered the exact same manifestation we're reading from your reports. We're all pounding our heads, and check the boxes and scribbling our interactive doodle pads to see where you're leading us. Those doodle pads look like bad plates of sphagetti.

HFS can come out of the blue. It's not due to PE. It's a manifestation that we have yet to trace and track down on. It can be as simple as odd interactive diet, aging, bad physiological conditions, or exposed to a cocktail of manmade chemicals. More and more males and females are coming forward with the same HFS issues. It's no longer rare. It's alarming.

I got off this morning cause i was so stressed, and nothing feels like it matters . it felt so good, yet im feeling so rough from it now. my package felt decent for all of 30 min afterwards. then it all shrinks up to this new size i seem to have forever. my glans doesnt feel that bad if i touch it through clothes,. yet it feels nonexistant yet really tender and burny in clothes sitting still or walking. i used to hang aroused and fat several months ago off and on. around 5.5 and it felt great. im lucky to have 3.5-4 now, and super thin. even hourglassed at times. and glans feels dead to go with it.


im so angry i followed a tutorial on how to kill my self in 3 minutes or less. i dont think this can ever go away. i probably sound like a broken record, but this has destroyed my brain on how to even think anything through anymore. it really seems like my glans has gotten a more dead rubbery feel to it the last month or so. which cant be good. for a long time ,its lacked light feeling, and a showerhead doesnt feel totally right on it.
the thing is though.

id be ok with those feelings if i had a drive,size or Any kegel response other than when im half asleep. half the night last night i had a good chub, and it really felt relatively decent all around. i guess whatever feeling that got killed has destroyed my physical sex drive parts. the size ive lost most of the day is unreal. and there are zero moments i get any size increase unless i try to make it happen

Once again, it's not PE. If you believe PE is the cause, we can take that into advicement as PE extreme measures can indeed kill your penis in 3 minutes or less. This is why safety is at the forefront at all time. I am that sounding board. However, what you're experience is a nexus to something else bigger. It's like a person dying from a cold, yet have connection to COVID, or a person died suddenly during flight and later discovered there's a brain hemmorhage. Each example has far-reaching back stories than just the apparently symptoms and correlations. We are still on your case brother.

 

[notmeanymore]

This is something new. Okay, got to gain some clarification. When you feel the "dick is wet with a fan on it", does it means feeling clammy and cool like you sweat a lot and have an evaporative cooling effect? Or it's dry but having that cool feeling like a wet penis being blown by wind?

This is a lack of blood flow, regardless of how you put it. But the clamminess/wetness will be something to evaluate. If it's dry, then it's nothing out of the ordinary comparing to the lack of blood flow.

dry with a wet feeling from what i can tell.

Sticking to your legs is another flag. Does the penis feel sticky and wet, or does your crotch feels sticky and wet? This is something you want to define properly. Why? Two different symptoms aside from penile issues are manifesting.

definitely the glans sticky when it occurs

Shrinkage and numbess are symptoms not born out of nerves, but it's actually caused by frictious pain. Your nerve is not the culprit causing the shrinkage, but we finally figured out something else at 90%. Our brother @TCDreamer brought up in the recent days. Hard Flaccid Syndrome (HFS) covered the exact same manifestation we're reading from your reports. We're all pounding our heads, and check the boxes and scribbling our interactive doodle pads to see where you're leading us. Those doodle pads look like bad plates of sphagetti.

my whole head is spaghetti. for sure. i understand. ive researched a lot on HF though as well. except mine mostly is just really flaccid/limp. shrunk

HFS can come out of the blue. It's not due to PE. It's a manifestation that we have yet to trace and track down on. It can be as simple as odd interactive diet, aging, bad physiological conditions, or exposed to a cocktail of manmade chemicals. More and more males and females are coming forward with the same HFS issues. It's no longer rare. It's alarming.


Once again, it's not PE. If you believe PE is the cause, we can take that into advicement as PE extreme measures can indeed kill your penis in 3 minutes or less. This is why safety is at the forefront at all time. I am that sounding board. However, what you're experience is a nexus to something else bigger. It's like a person dying from a cold, yet have connection to COVID, or a person died suddenly during flight and later discovered there's a brain hemmorhage. Each example has far-reaching back stories than just the apparently symptoms and correlations. We are still on your case brother.

i hope its not PE, yet i really feel it started this . my glans feeling seems to feel that way too. so. going up to post #648, what are your thoughts there? im extremely out of my head every day with this. i honestly dont really see straight most days anymore. i miss my wife so much it hurts. a lot