I think I'm asexual by choice, in that I have had tons of sexual experiences, with many women, and now, I dont feel it anymore.
This is really how I slowly modified myself, rather then it being an illness, hope you understand ... this was a choice, rather then it being inflicted upon me.
Remember I have mild Asperger's, and not many even understand that ... relationships have been scary for me, more so then for most.
My testosterone levels are fine, had them done several years ago, if anything they were actually higher then normal, and my erections are fine, I can get a boner when I want tbh.
Its better for me, to be free from relationships and sex, because I dont need either romantically or sexually.
I'm happy without a partner, without one night stands, and I shocked myself by living without sex!
Most cannot grasp this, but we all lived life without sex at some point, we all did when we were kids, and it isnt a must in life tbh although its warranted for reproduction, strengthening bonds between partners, showing love to partner, and pleasure. Even power in those that abuse it.
If anything, in life, we have too much sexualized material around, look at the entertainments sector, its full of it.
These two apply to me
- Do you develop sexual attraction every once in a while, but don’t find its pursuit or satisfaction intrinsically rewarding? Some people would call that asexual.
- Do you think having sex (or the idea of having sex) is okay, but not very interesting or important? Could you take it or leave it, and find leaving it more convenient or preferable? Some people would call that asexual.
Thanks for showing interest